I didn't have a name for the emotion because it was complicated,
   so I wrote it in the form of the story and let the empathy of
   the reader figure out the emotional state of the boy == I'm the
   guy that wrote the story smile emoticon Apparently, in 1st
   grade, I'd connect vocabulary words into a story which impressed
   the teacher, who I kinda wanted to impress because I remember
   having a boy-crush on her. The words supposedly had nothing to
   do with each other but they all fit together to me. I can also
   describe thing in an S way - very useful skill - but as I'm
   describing something in an S way, they don't hear the real story
   that formed in my mind that's bursting at the seams to be told
   ==