lol it is - and i agree with it. It's especially true if you are
   in a life of service to others, which i believe you are - and
   sometimes a life of service can be a dreadful experience. Its
   why suicide rates and mental breakdowns in helping professions
   are so high - some ppl really can't handle the strain and their
   ships crack apart. But I don't think you're a hollow shell - I
   do think you're aware of your own hollowness, which I think
   makes you amazing bridge between the functioning and the
   non-functioning helpers - you understand both sides while you
   stand in the doorway with a foot in each world. That's how I see
   it anyway - corrections welcome :-) "