31 March 26 Tuesday

i wish i was full mooning by lapping waters. 

today felt difficult. 

there are things i should be doing differently.

the seedlings are shooting up with fervor.

i realized that i haven't imbibed since august.
previously, for spiritual and health reasons, i went 
three and a half years. no caffeine during that period 
either. then about three years ago i decided i might have 
become a bit too overidentified with the idea of myself 
as someone who doesn't xyz, and i started dipping my toes 
in here and there again. but since last summer, i just 
haven't wanted to.