13 April 2026 Monday

(written retroactively 15 Apr 26)

it was a hard morning. i woke up around 5:30 am, 
used the bathroom, and looked around the house for E.
i thought surely he must have come. i felt around in the
dark on the futon in the other room upstairs, where he 
sleeps sometimes after getting up in the middle of the night.
he wasn't there. 

i went downstairs and looked in the living room. in the dim
pink light from a himalayan salt lamp, i could see the sofa
was empty. 

+ message from E while i was driving / at work
+ first watercolor class

[journal entry in progress]