04 May 2025 Sunday

today felt long and luxurious, even though i
did a lot of work here at home. if i didn't have 
to trade time and effort and concentration for money, 
(mental bandwidth--and, still, physical energy, even 
now that i work in an office instead of a restaurant).
i could accomplish so much.

he finished making the two new garden beds out of 
cinder blocks. he did all the digging, and stump-hacking. 
i lugged the blocks up to him. i did more cleaning up in 
the yard, and 

when we checked on our seedlings, it looks like nettles
and ashwagandah are sprouting, as well as another plant
whose sharpie-on-popsicle-stick label has become 
illegible. a nice surprise, as we thought everyone who 
was going to show had shown. earlier arrivals included 
one roma tomato, a zucchini, a cantaloupe, and lots of 
'grandma hadley' lettuce. also many sunflowers and 
morning glories. 

i figured out more modular patches, made some new 
recordings, and also worked in the DAW. for dinner i 
made us shrimp angel hair pasta with fire roasted 
tomatoes, garlic, mushroom, onion in the pressure cooker. 
   
there are several audio and video modules waiting to be 
soldered, and i need to unpack my video gear from our trip 
to denver. our gas got turned off, (i didn't know till too
late how behind we were), so we can't use the dryer right 
now. thankfully our hot water is electric, and i had an 
induction burner and a regular single electric burner in 
a bin of camping supplies, so we can still cook (and 
there's the pressure cooker and slow cooker too). 

i have digital art i want to finish, and video i want
to edit. i want to spend time on learning code, (i 
started with html and css, and want to finish the curriculum 
branches on those before starting on javascript. i also 
took a detour diving into SDF and learning the little bits 
of UNIX i've been picking up, in order to explore the 
freeshell. and then of course working out how to set up 
this log on gopher and gemini).

i want to go through my photographs and write zines and
do screenprinting. i want to make  more of the embroidered 
patch designs i've made, on his embroidery machine. i 
haven't baked bread in too long (since i quit the cushy 
short-term job that paid too litte and had too few hours, 
income-wise, and started working another intense and 
draining job. (it does feel meaningful, though.)

i need to return to meditation and asana practices. 

i'm grateful for so much. i'm tired, and sad that i
didn't start working on music much younger. i'm excited
at what i'm finding and building, now. 

i hope you're well. i hope you have good things
that you dream about.