The wood pecker knocking on my
house got me out of bed.

I slept for 12 hours. My new
sheep skin makes me want
to stay in bed all day. I am
healing. My foot is the least
swollen I've seen it in the last
year.

I randomly practice what
comes to my mind.

Self massage, micro orbit
meditation, chi kung, pulling,
shadow boxing, skipping, dli,
mantra, perineum strengthening,
hatha, bandhas, tai chi... I've
learned so many techniques, I
couldn't do them all in a day,
but right now it fit well with my
rhythm. I don't force anything
but end up reciting mentally my
mantra while practicing a bandha,
or doing some pulling while
practicing a chi kung. I mix and
match different practice to see
how they work together.

              -o- 

The day was difficult. I wasted
most of the day watching tv, yeah
tv! And on top of that "Buffy the
Vampire slayer." I've never
watched that show, but I needed
something to numb me down. It did
the trick. I am not sure why the
day was so hard, I would have
gotten drunk if I had booze. I
would have gotten high if I had
some people to do it with.

I still went for a quick hike up
the mountain, and I cleaned up a
bit the house. I was pretty off
my game. Lots of short burst of
crying. I ended up taking a micro
dose of magic mushroom, 0.14g
which is half the dose I had last
time. It did put me in a good
mood, or at least better mood.
Enough for me to be happy to go
to bed, and fall asleep quickly.

I was worried that my depressive
state wouldn't allow me to sleep
well, but I did. Woke up
to a dream about work, well
rested.