I went to bed later, woke up at a
normal time. The day feels
already more productive.

My mind is still going a lot in
the past, maybe with a tad less
attachment? When I lost my best
friend many years ago, I didn't
say goodbye, I didn't see his
body. Jamie told me that this
makes it harder to move on, when
you don't have a closure. I
didn't have a closure, so I'm
playing in my head all the ways
that this closure might look
like.

A nice day today, intermittent
fasting, I worked a full 8 hours,
I minimized, cleaned, emptied the
living room. I worked on my
tattoo training, talked to my
daughter in Fiji. No smokes, no
booze, no coffee. A proper
boring day. I don't know if I'll
get used to this.

I smelled her in the car, it was
a strange memory. I miss her
smell. I started practicing the
DLI, a standing meditation where
you see yourself filled with
light. It's a powerful technique,
similar to a Taoist meditation
where you focus on the energy
from the universe and fill
yourself with it.

I feel uninspired...