The tv-detox is going well.

There is a deep feeling of
being cool. Like it's really
cool to not watch tv, only
awesome people do that...

Well, it's more like, everyone
watches tv. (And by tv I mean
anything from Yt short, doom
scrolling tiktok, watching the news,
Netflix and any streaming,
watching anime, to simply
watching a real television)
And by not watching tv there
is a sensation of liberation,
making place for something
else, something more powerful
and fulfilling.

I am really addicted. I
think about it, I want to go
back in front of my computer,
any downtime, there is a
wanting to couch in front of
the screen.

I was driving and looking at
the lights from the car in
front of me and how it was
illuminating the forest, and
I though it would be a nice
scene in a movie. Wouldn't
that feels good to watch a
good movie? I don't
consider myself a big user,
but just really regular.
I have so many childhood
memories about it too, it's
a strange piece of me. A
strange crust that needs
to be let go of. 

There is a definite comforting
desire to sit in front on the
screen. It used to be my default
action. Sometime for a moment,
sometime for a few hours at night.

Since my separation, I've also
indulged a lot. I'm depressed,
it's fine, lets watch a bit more
to forget, to let time heal
and move on.

Now, I'm doing better emotionally.
The space that is being created
from not watching tv brings me
into another reality. Well first,
I started hibernating, which was
quite needed. Sleeping is already
a better alternative than watching
tv, so why not. Too tired to do
anything, well go to bed, or the
hammock.

My hammock is such a better
alternative than the couch too!
I tend to stretch and breath
and meditate as soon as I am
in there. The position of the
leg also helps draining the
extra fluid in my leg.

Then all the other activities
are coming back. From fiddle, to
drawing, playing my synth, writing
more, yoga, tai chi, there are
so much thing I know how to do! 

As soon as I've removed the
automatic, knee jerk reaction
to couch in front of the tv,
I've started doing way much
more fun stuff. I also don't
participate in any social
media, and I don't spend time
scrolling the news, nor that
I have many online community
to hang out with (only 3 actually).

I don't play video games
anymore. The last game I played,
Sable, was so good that I wish I
could live in it! And I also don't
do much creative coding anymore;
ORCA, Puredata and Frontiere where
my tools of choice. I had a lot
of fun playing around with these
tools, but there is a calling
to spend less time in front of
the screen.

Just to say that there is an
un-gluing of the digital world
and my personal world, a letting
go, and a liberation, which is
always a neat process as
only the important digital bit stays,
like for me, gopher, emacs,
aNONradio and merveilles.town. 

Similar to the process of cleaning
out my house, letting go of
a lot of 'stuff' I only keep
the most beautiful object and
the most useful tools. 

This is a culmination
of processes that lead me here.
I am writing more on here,
and I assume that will
continue to a certain degree.
Keeping the good things going,
and letting go of the useless,
brain washing activities.