Sweet dreams!

All night I was flirting, and
hanging out with friends. Friends
that I've never met, yet I
already had history with them.

I had a girlfriend and we were in
love, it felt warm and relaxed. I
really like the sensation of love
in my dreams. It's always really
deep and really familiar. I often
meet with a similar woman. She's
petite, but has a strength to her
character, with a deep calm and
wisdom.

Once I dreamed about that
woman. She never look the same,
from dream to dream, 
but the feeling is very
telling. I was to go in the city,
but she couldn't come. She was
taking care of a herd of elk, and
gave me a lock to tie the
ropes. It was such a nice
feeling, there was a perfection
in the relation. I wonder if I'll
ever met that person in real
life. If I do, I'll remember the
feeling, this connection that
I've never really had with
anyone. 

In any case, today feels already
quite different. My emotional
body has been re-balanced with my
dreams. Oh! I was aware in my
dreams, that feels good. That's
interesting, I don't practice
lucid dreaming all the time. It's
a lot easier when you have the
space to repeat 'is this a
dream'. Lucid dreams are also a
lot more frequent when I meditate
a lot. 

Today I'm practicing Gankaku,
an advanced Kata, that I remember
better than my Sensei. So much so
that he never wanted to practice
it in class. We've learned from
another Sensei, from across the lake,
and for some reason I've
remembered the Kata, while the
other black belts in my dojo
didn't. It's a powerful kata,
lots of kick, lots of different
stance, and we have a special
training tomorrow about it. 

I realized that my daughter is
leaving in a couple week for 
about 3 weeks. I'll have to figure
out what I'm doing with my life
during that time, I'll really
have nothing else to do for a
while there. I am a bit scared, I
haven't been away from her for so
long since the separation. Every
few days she comes over, normally
we see each other at least every
3 days, and she stays for a few
days. Last week we spent the
whole week together.

I will be completely alone for 3
weeks, nothing to plan, nothing
to look for. Work and training...
Maybe I can fast for a while then
too. It's been on my mind for a
while now. And my good friend
will be in Peru too... I wonder
if I should plan to not be in
Canada?