These are really raw notes
about my sexuality and my
practices. It's a bit strange
to share, but I feel like we
should all talk more about
it, so here we are. 

No more ejaculations.

I don't need to, and I can
still have a lot of pleasure
without releasing sperms.
It also give me a lot
more control when with
someone else. It affects
my mood positively.

I am surprised how
quick this practice
has changed the relation
to my sexuality. There
is a lot less tension
and lust, my mind is
a lot clearer but I
still can get aroused
when I want to. 

Previously I would get
horny, and then my mind
would be filled with
desires. I would then
have to masturbate and
ejaculate. It would
calm the tension but
also make me tired and
sloppy. Now I don't have
these urges anymore,
and I decide when I
want to get aroused. 

Breathing and Mantra

When practicing alone
or with someone, I've
started to be aware
of my breathing and
also reciting mantra
in my head. I use a
mantra to Shiva which
I find appropriate
for the energy.

Being aware of my
breath is good at
any moment in my day,
and even more potent
when in any sort of
action. Again, this
added awareness helps
me decide instead of
being overwhelm with
lust.

I do tend to loose the
excitement a bit when
focusing too much on
the mantra and the
breath, so I am exploring
how to use my body in
a way to keep a strong
erection even when
the mind is somewhere
else.

Kundalini

The second chakra is
located at the genitals,
and there is a practice
specific for that chakra.
It consist of practicing
the muscle used for
stopping the urine. This
same muscle can be used
to keep the blood in the
organ, thus keeping the
erection going. This exercise
can be done at any time.

Holing the tension for 10
seconds and releasing,
doing this 10 time for a
round. Doing this twice a
day to start, then extending
the time to 15, 20 etc.

In the Kundalini practices,
there is this visualization
of the energy going up through
the chakra. I find it helps
to visualize the energy
that is stuck at the genitals
going up in the body to fill
the body. 

Yoga Bandas

In yoga, there are the bandas
in the first couple
chakra, where one pulls in
the energy from the anus,
to the internal organs,
pulling up at the diaphragm.
You can perform these 3
locks at the same time and
training the energy to
go upward.

The bandas are a type of
'lock' where you tense a
part of the body to direct
the energy where it needs
to go.

Yoga Asana

At the moment I do a simple
sun salutation as a daily
practice, where I focus a
lot on the lunges. This
stretch in the hips region,
is releasing the tensions
held deep into the body,
and the genitals. 

The crow, where you squat
and then balance on your
hand helps with that opening.

While the Lion movement
helps connecting the tongue
with the genitals. I don't
remember where I read that,
but there is an energetic
connection between the two.
More to come on this, but
I've experience a lot
of sexual control often
when I was in a yoga
retreat or when I was
practicing hatha for a
couple hours a day. 

Micro orbit circulation

While practicing, I also
add the micro orbit meditation.
This comes from the Taoist
chi cultivation, where you
circulate the energy around
the body. The arousal of
my sexuality creates a lot
of potential, and that energy
can be moved around quite
easily.

This is also preliminary
to circulating the energy
not only within your body
but also the body of your
partner. You can imagine
the energy flowing like 2
circle connected at the
genitals, creating an
infinite sign.

No more pornography

Although that has been
the case for a long time,
I am not using pornography
anymore. I think there is
a major loss of energy when
it's directed to the internet.
It does feel very strange
when I am faced with pornography
these days, so I simply followed
that sensation and gave it up.
I think one could actually
use pornography as a training,
but it might become also
have a negative effect
on the mind. I am not sure,
I might re-visit that at
one point.