The theater season ended with a
marathon of over 40 hours of
practices, shows, clean up, and
party during the last week.

Monday was a write-off,
dysfunctional, left the house
once to drop off the sound
system. Waking up today with
better energy, getting back into
the swing of things, still
feeling sleepy. The clouds hanging
low in the mountains, the gentle
rain, keeping everything quiet.

I'm taking a few month of
celibacy, until my birthday.
Not that there was any action in
my life, but my mind was
unsettled, keeping the
possibility open was draining.

Judging all my actions; would
I do this if I was with a girl?
Should I do more of that to
attract someone in my bed? It's
getting tiring, and I don't care
enough right now. I want to not
think about this for a while. 

Embracing the void completely,
caring for myself, my practices,
my creativity...