0.2g of molly
0.7g of shroom
a few leaf of coca
a couple shots of mezcal

the molly was supposed
to calm the intensity
of the shroom, but I
forgot, I didn't think
I snorted a line of k

It was fine at first
but then it all mixed
in my head, in my body

I was going out
walking barefoot
in the forest
cooling my body
cooling my mind
coming back in
I had to keep
my shit together

It was pretty harsh
it was pretty intense
not physically uncomfortable
just confusing and scary

I left again
this time to vomit
that was easy
my body only
wanted the doritos out
Why as I even eating
doritos?

the hallucinations
from the shrooms were
at the center of the show
while the ketamine darkness
was trying to envelop me

I could see form the
side of my eyes this
darkness similar
to falling asleep
this pressure closing
onto my reality
I could give in,
I could let go
I didn't want
I held my ground

The k-hole was close
but I didn't want
to fall in.
It  wouldn't last
long but the mix
was something new
something I've never tried
was a bit too strong

but time would pass
I waited, 10, 20, 30
minutes, and reality
slowly came back
my mind calmed down
I was back...
I didn't lose myself

Ketamin really kicks
in with other substance

By itself it's really
gentle, somewhat useless
a mild anti-depressant

But as soon as it's mixed
with even weed, it boost
the effect exponentially

I am unsure what
I am looking for
Where I am going now

The different medicines
brought clarity to my
mind, but created some
habits too

using without a goal
was fun a couple weeks
back, but tonight it
felt quite intense

For the next few weeks
I'll be traveling
so I won't have
access to all of this

It'll be good to have
a moment to check in
with reality