There are two major elements in
the meditation and spiritual
journey path. The healing and the
energy cultivation.

Both elements interact with each
other and this division is
arbitrary. Some healing is part
of the cultivation, while some
cultivation is part of the
healing. Some practices also
integrate both of these elements.

In the last few years, there has
been a lot of focus on the
healing part. Everything
spiritual is about healing. To
the point that energy cultivation
and developing spiritual powers
is not part of the journey
anymore. You spend all you time
healing and there is nothing
else.

The problem with healing is that
it never stops. You have a million
things to heal in this lifetime
and if you start with past
lifetime you'll never be done
healing. And if healing your
stuff is not enough you can heal
the whole planet too since we're
all interconnected. Don't get me
wrong, healing is a really
important part of the process,
but focusing only on this, will
unbalanced one's life.

On the opposite, if you only
cultivate your energy and develop
siddhi, or spiritual powers, you
end up weaponizing your spiritual
powers at the guise of your
unhealthy emotional body and
trauma. If you haven't dealt with
your early childhood trauma of
abuse, what do you think will
happen when you develop powers?
These powers will be used to
abuse the others, or hurt people
that you felt hurt you.

I've seen it often, were
spiritual master are the most
asshole people I've met. They
have power, they have done the
practices, but they never dealt
with their emotional body. They
barely can control their anger
when they are triggered. It's
easy to get lost into the glamour
of spiritual power.

But I've seen the opposite too.
People who only focus on healing.
They have become depleted,
without much pleasure or
vitality. Everything is about
healing, so life gives them,
again and again, more work to
deal with. There is a blockage, a
mind spin, that stops them from
awakening, because there is
always more healing to happen.
Just one more trauma, just one
more ceremony, just one more
wound to open. It becomes a sad
energy, that doesn't celebrate
the power of being human.

There is a moment in life that we
have to give up on our small
human drama. Yes we're all
fucked, yes we all have been
abused, yes we've all made
mistake. This is the human
journey. You can be sad about it
and try to fix it all, or just
accept it and move along.

I was massaging 2 people in the
last few weeks and I had a
similar feeling, or download.
There is something about the
excretion, something that needed
to leave. It wasn't related to
food itself, although they both
looked bloated, but it was about
the teaching, the learning and
the healing. You can eat well,
digest well, assimilate well you
food, but if you don't poo, all
of the rest doesn't help.

I feel like this is related to
people focusing too much on the
healing and not enough on the
energy cultivation, and the
letting go. When you work on
energy cultivation, you have to
accumulate, but also let go of a
lot of energy. I have weeks or
months of energy cultivation to
get to the place where I can hold
it in anymore. I have to dance or
party or have sex and deplete all
my accumulated energy, as it's
too much for me. Even my nervous
system goes on over drive during
these time of too much.

I think this forced evacuation is
really healthy, and is a good
flush for anyone's journey. I
would say, if you are mostly
focusing on your healing, both
emotional, psychological, mental
and physical, bring a bit more
energy cultivation, through chi
kung, tai chi, visualization,
sexual practices, breathing
etc. And if you only cultivate
your energy and often get to a
wall where you habits and
emotional body take over and
waste all that energy, work on
healing, through plant medicine,
reflection, selfless services
etc.

I find it important to bring back
to the table that spiritual
practice bring about power. In my
last mystical experience, I
realized that I've not only seen
part of my future, I've also tap
into people around me, what they
were thinking and saying about
me. I could hear and feel the
general flow of who and what is
around me. Events happened right
after which proved that what I
saw and what I heard was real. 

This is just one example of how
spiritual power could be used to
make one's life better. It could
guide you in business or love or
help a community go in a better
direction. But there is a lot
more that could be practice and
used.