I am getting back into
clean up mode. I am not
too sure why, I stop and
then start again.

Now this is not a normal
clean up. It's the great
clean up, the clean up
that started when I separated
from my wife, more than a
year ago.

Yeah that is not done.
There is still stuff
all around the house
that need to be purged.

Each time I get back into
it, I feel the emotional
churning of the stuff.
Everything has an emotional
weight, some lighter, some
heavier, and it adds to
the grinding of the clean
up.

I'm planing to spend the
weekend cleaning up, making
fires outside, and clearing
up at least the kitchen
storage (a full room) and
maybe more. I should
probably go bring the
recycling during the
week so that I could
go to the dump on Sunday.

Yeah I live in a place
where you have to deal
with your own garbage
and recycling. No one
to pick stuff up, I think
that might have helped
if I could simply put
stuff in garbage bag
and put it outside.

I feel like I am ready
to let go of most of the
past. I am also contemplating
to sale my electronic music
gear. It's been weighting on
me. I think I like the idea
of making electronic music,
but I don't get to it very
often. I would still keep
a minimal setup, a synth
and a sampler and looper,
with an effect pedal...

Anyway, lets see where
that leads me! It feels
like movement is coming
my way. The last wave of
clean up was pretty heavy,
I hope this one will be
even deeper!