Energy is really high. Driving
in town to get the car fixed
before the road trip.

Sitting in the sun on the ferry,
I had a sweet talk with a friend.
He is a pessimist, he knows that
I'm an optimist, he correct
himself a couple time.

Starts to talk about politics, I
remind him that I don't care.
We talk about God, the illusion,
the observer and how to dissolve
into observing. Removing the self
from the equation, it still all
part of Maya or the illusion.
He has beautiful realizations
lately, mixed with fear and
darkness. 

God is bored, birth itself into
the many for a moment, for
entertainment. We then try our
whole life to get back into
unity. In the meantime, are we
escaping into the many?

Or is it our way in?

"I got new shroom" I told her.
This batch is call transcendence.
We talk about enlightenment, she asked
if I'll get enlightened.

"Probably," I answered. So far,
from everyone I've met, I feel
like I've got the most chances.

Not from my dedication to my
practice, not from my overly
spiritual life, not from my
immense wealth of spiritual
knowledge. I don't have any of
that and it doesn't matters.

        .,oO()Oo,.

A woman enters the cafe.

Distract me from my writing. She
walks right into the bathroom.
Side eye me. Last time I smiled
at a woman, she responded with
the worst look I've received in a
long time. Maybe I don't smile
this time. I only look. This woman
distracted me for a moment.

I like that. She is too
beautiful, too different from me.
But that's kind of the point,
observing the impossible,
dreaming for a moment of a
different reality. 

She walks out, she isn't the same
anymore. The beauty, the
illusion, faded away. She is just
another girl that I won't ever
meet. I'm glad, I won't fall in
love today... again. 

        .,oO()Oo,.

I don't know what is required for
enlightenment. I wondered what I
would say to someone questioning
about it.

 - Don't take it too seriously
 - Don't over do it
 - Enjoy the ride

We are the sums of many life
time, what we do doesn't matter
much. How we relate to what is
being done is really what is
important.

 - Look into your dreams
 - Practice out of body
   experiences

Unglue your beliefs, hold them
lightly as you change and
transform. Anything and
everything will be dissolved in
the end. 

Lalla, a kashmiri poetess said
that you only need so-ham
meditation and self study,
nothing else, to reach
enlightenment. I agree.

Practice all day the so ham
meditation. Repeating so at each
inhale, ham at each exhale.

I'd add, breath in, SO, and
smile, breath out, HAM and relax. 

Study the self, explore your
sensations, your reality, your
body, your mind. Study the
presence you develop and how
other react to you and how you
react to others.

I should read more of her poetry,
I guess I can go to the used
bookstore in town. Lets get out
of this cafe!