and so it begins...

The friend showed up at my place,
a beautiful girl from Australia.
She is visiting Canada, loves to
dance, she is very fun, smiling
and present. She drives me in
town so I can do some shopping. 

I grabbed some food. A few dried
sausage, a bred, carrots, some
sunflower seeds. Fairly random,
but a good foundation when you
have nothing to eat.

I try to buy a tarp for the
hammock. It's fairly expensive,
but I though I had a lot of money
in the bank. I realized I was
really broke, so I returned the
tarp a few minutes later.

I go to help my friend move a bed
to the festival for the chill
zone, and then we drive to the
festival. She seems to enjoy my
presence. I feel at one point
there is a shift, I notice she
now appreciate who I am. It's a
nice feeling. I don't really try
to be liked by others, I'm just
being myself. I talk to people
like I knew then for a long time,
and I am really happy to help in
any ways possible. Two things
that make people feel comfortable
around me.

We drive to the event and all the
organizers are really happy to
see me. It really warms my heart
how welcomed I am.

"It wouldn't be the same without you"

I start helping decorating the
place. Hanging dream catchers,
helping with the sound system,
the generator, more decorations.
The day is full but it fly by. I
go for a nap in my hammock before
the party, eat a bit and then get
ready to dance.

I'm wandering around, and soon
realize that I don't have any
drugs or substances, and think
that maybe I'll do a gentle night
of dancing. But then I start on a
mission, I want to find free
drugs. I spot the drug
dealer. Maybe I can offer him a
massage. I hang out with a friend
and tell her my mission. She
offers some K and I gladly
accept. Just a bit to help in my
mission.

I keep on wandering, and find a
little tea house that offer micro
dose. I guess that would do. I
would just need a bit in order to
loosen up. I've seen that woman
before, I recognize the
tattoos. We chat for a
while. She's a psychonaut, and
really want to promote the
healing effect of the
psychedelic. I talk about my work
and we talk about me working for
her on some project.

She offers me some micro-dose
package. It say it contain 0.025
of MDMA and 25 micro gram of LSD.
So a quarter dose of each. It's
a bit expensive for it, but why
not. I start eating the gummies,
which are quite tasty and eat the
whole package.

What I did not realize is that
the quantity listed was for one
gummy. So what I ingested was 2.5
doses of LSD and 2.5 doses of
MDMA in a few minutes in a highly
digestible gummy form. And so it
began, the most extraordinary
trip of my life.

I died multiple time, I was
reborn multiple time. I cried, I
wanted to run in the forest, I
hated myself, I loved myself.
I almost passed out of
hypothermia, I was sure I was gay
for most of the time and still
unsure about my sexual
orientation. The reset and mind
fuck this whole event  had on me
is completely out of this world.

I'll take the time to write the
whole review of the trip soon,
but for now I need to get my life
in order. There were so many
lessons during that night, so
many things I want to change and
improve, there is a lot of work
in front of me.