The saying goes, before
enlightenment you fetch water and
chop wood, after enlightenment,
you fetch water and chop wood.
I'd say, before enlightenment,
you enjoy the food at the
restaurant, after enlightenment,
you taste all the ingredient,
separated from each other,
without being cooked. It really
feels like being unplug from the
Matrix and then being plugged
back. Kind of have to fake it for
a while, hoping the illusion will
kick in. 

Brewing a cup of Peruvian cacao
this morning. I still don't brew
coffee at home. I lost my
percolator that I got over the
summer, and when I got back home,
the tenant had broken my French
press. 

I wasn't too sure about Karate
this year. I'm not getting a
black belt anytime soon.
It became clear last season,
since we're not part of any
association anymore, it would be
pointless for anyone to give me a
black belt. 

It was nice to train at the dojo
yesterday anyhow. I got a good
sweat, my muscles are a bit soar
today. It's a bit more balanced
than boxing, as I kicked a lot,
kneel, elbow, knees, blocks and
punch. I could technically do 2
to 3 classes of karate or boxing
a week.

A friend came to meet with me at
the Ashram yesterday. We ended up
going at the beach, sitting in
the rocks, warmed up by the
sun. He had some Mapacho. When we
meet we talk about everything,
it's pretty inspiring. He's part
of my new friends group, people
who knows the new me.

I was day dreaming about a
possible future. I didn't gave it
much attention. Just debating, if
this would happen I would do this
and that, and if so I'd act like
that. I kept it lightly in my
mind, it made me smile. Then it
happened, that exact event, and I
was debating the same questions.

I often tell myself, no I don't
see the future. I just think
about all the possibilities and
some of them happens, which gives
the impression of seeing the
future. But sometime, like what
happened this week, the mental
vision are too clear, the
sensation are too real. Yet when
I was seeing the future in my
mind, I was simply discarding it
as a day dream.

The expansion of my self into
consciousness brings about a
sensitivity of the future, but
also of the others. It's hard to
stay sane, it's hard to calm the
emotional body. How can you keep
your shit together if you see the
future, and you hear people's
thoughts? It would be one thing
if you are 100% sure of your
vision and what you hear, but
what happens when you don't make
a difference between your
imagination and your inner
vision?