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Title: Exhaustion
Date: March 29, 2025

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  I'm finally free to do a bit of writing and work on other things. I've been
taking care of my uncle, and while my mate has been visiting family in another
state, I'm on my own until April 1st when he returns. Cue me getting another
foot injury that needs attention, followed by my uncle going into the hospital
with pneumonia. So I'm on my own with an injured foot, but I have free time and
can still take care of myself.

  Admittedly, I'm exhausted on top of everything else. I'm using YouTube less,
I'm being much more picky about what blog and phlog posts I read, and just want
to try and lessen the mental burden I have as much as possible right now. Even
more so when it comes to technology. But I still end up wanting to collapse out
of mental exhaustion and stress every few hours or so.

  Negativity sticks in my brain for long periods, and it always ends up hitting
me like a truck from out of nowhere. Just writing /this very post/ has me in a
state where I feel like I want to pass out at my desk and forget this world
exists. After I finish, I probably /will/ collapse in bed and sleep for a few
hours or so, just to recover. But when I'm like this--and I've been so quite
often lately--I can't really do anything meaningful. I can't write, or chat,
or socialize in any way, or be creative. Not until I get some rest and kinda
/reset/, so to speak.

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  Funny... I ended up falling into bed shortly after writing that previous
paragraph. 8 hours later, I'm awake again, and still feeling worn out.

  That said, I'm doing an install of Debian on some spare hardware to maybe
give my brain something to work on: continuing to move my workflow off of all
the things I might not have access to in the future, and onto something I can
easily keep going myself if needed. With vim and vimwiki, pandoc, imagemagick,
and a few other tools, I can definitely do it, but it's going to have one hell
of an adjustment period for my brain once I'm writing again. Mostly because of
LaTeX or Markdown for PDFs, but yeah... That's gonna be /fun/.

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