[2024-11-09 16:35:17]

My inquiries are the shovel, my mind is the dirt and coffin. 

How did I find SDF?

Through hearing mentions of gopher in different servers I was in at that time,
I started to browse. I found SDF pretty easily from there I created my first
account and sent my one dollar and username to the nice people over at SDF. 

Why did I choose SDF?

At the thought of my dad attempting to break into my phone to read my memos,
I decided that I needed a better approach. This is where SDF comes in, 
security through obscurity. If my dad didn't know how to use OPENssh or the 
sshutils of linux then how was he going to access or even know about SDF.
It was perfect, it was hidden. 

Why is the Oktober log so small?

Due to factors of depression, a lack of motivation, and an overall small 
footnote that SDF had left on my psyche at the time, I forgot about it. 
I had big plans for my gopherspace at the time. I was going to write
at least once a week and show my progress with learning german. Both
never came to fruition. 

What made you return to SDF?

I returned to SDF in March in the same way I had found SDF. Pure luck.
I was randomly reminded of SDF while looking through an old HDD. 
The account and password was listed. From there I looked through the
old logs and decided that now was the time to start writing again. It
was right at the very end of my dad's relationship. The last times I'd
ever lay eyes on him that wasn't in a formal sense. I needed something to
archive my thoughts that wouldn't be lost to time as quickly. Especially
since it takes so many steps to delete it, unlike my iphone XR, my old
laptop logs, and pretty much everything else. Physical media could be 
broken into with little to no force and is hard to hide, so I never
wrote anything down. Ever since I was small everything was digital. 
It was a necessity. 

What does the future hold for you?

I plan on writing more logs and reviewing PAYDAY2 maps. I hope that
I don't end up doing something stupid as that'd kink the flow of logs.


Have a good rest of your day SDF