I don't feel good today, I went to my school councelor's office and explained how I felt yesterday. She said that while she couldn't officially diagnose or give clincal opinions, most of what I said lines up with a psychotic 
episode. She instructed me to call my psychiatrist and schedule an appointment, I might need some meds. I cannot tell if what I went through this past week was some sort of psychotic delusion or if I really am trans. Either way I 
feel happy whenever I think of a life outside of these confinements. These journals help out a lot, they make my day go a lot smoother. Especially given that the rush of daily life gives me very little time to reflect, these 
journals help with those feelings. Journals are very theraputic and I hope that these stay up for a couple more years, don't know how well that'll work out but so be it. I've already lost a bunch of old message logs and haven't 
gotten closure on many topics, that's just a normal part of life, we don't always get what we want, we need to learn to cope with such problems. I hope the rest of the day goes well for me, and whoever reads these things.

Goodbye, for now