supergirls don't cry
september 1st, 2000

i'm *very* sleepy. extremely. i woke up at 4:15 a.m. this morning thinking 
my alarm clock was going off...which it wasn't. and i didn't get my little 
self to sleep until sometime near midnight...and i can't do sleep 
deprivation the way i used to.

i put the new wonderous mix tapes that susanne and malice made for me to 
the test today. listening to them while driving down 11E off to school 
with the windows rolled down. needless to say, they both surpassed the 
test. and the song that susanne sent me, "supergirl", made me cry for some 
reason. but i think because it is a song that personifies susanne more 
than anything i can think of. it just *sounds* like her. she *would* say 
something like, "it's okay, i got lost on the way, but i'm a supergirl, 
and supergirls don't cry." she's said something to me like that before. 
and it makes me miss her a lot.

but i had a good day. school was awesome. i felt like i got back into the 
swing of things with my spanish class, art history was...well...art 
history (not exactly an eventful class, but hey, i get to learn about all 
those crazy artsy peoples from long ago and far away.) and i transferred 
to a different section of probability and statistics, and i *really* like 
the new professor. partly because she had me fill out one of those 
information index cards, and she also had other random questions on it, 
like "take your pulse" and "pick one: door number one, door number two, or 
door number three." there's probably some logical statistical reason to do 
so, but it still is pretty cool. and she's just a really clear, concise, 
and interesting teacher. so perhaps i might learn a little bit of math 
after all.

no postmodern literature today. :( only monday and wednesdays that. i 
think that class for me is like the big slice of chocolate cake after the 
healthy meal.

speaking of healthy meals, i'm eating a lot less meat, lately, and a lot 
less snack-things, and much more breads and fruits and veggies. and of all 
the new domestic-motherly type of things i am doing now - keeping house, 
going to bed at a normal time and getting up at an early hour, keeping a 
balanced checkbook, attempting to learn to sew - this is probably the 
strangest to me. all my life, i've lived off sugar and sweets and other 
foodstuffs which were not the greatest for me. i'd push veggies and fruits 
and other morsels of vitamins and goodness away, and keep my belly 
half-full of sugary things and chocolate and pizza and ice cream. and now, 
i'm all about a nice place of rice and beans, or steamed carrots and 
brocolli, wheat bread and all-natural blueberry preserves. meat just 
doesn't appeal to me anymore. i mean, every once in a while, but really 
not all that often. so there you have it. i'm eating healthy.

now if you will excuse me, i've got a big weekend ahead of me.

...and supergirls just fly...