conversations with alestar june 13th, 2000 i had a very wonderful conversation with erin last night, and, with of course all rights and priviledges requested in advanced, i will publish it here, in all it's AOL instant message glory. (and before i forget, a big happy birthday to angie, though i doubt she will ever in a million years read my page.) Alestar213: Hey. :-) calicobackwards: hey there, what's going on, dancing monkey? calicobackwards: (i was a dancing monkey, too.) Alestar213: Hah! :-) calicobackwards: my mum was some lizard who jumped the border or something. Alestar213: I'm just reading and writing, darlin'. Oh! And I've been reading your book, too . . I'm not finished with the first chapter thing yet, tho . . Alestar213: Hee. I can see it. calicobackwards: *grin* that's fine. man, it feels good everyone reading my book! :-) Alestar213: Oh, yeah. Nothing like your name in print, y'know? ;-) calicobackwards: it makes me motivated to write more...which was, of course, my plan all along? Alestar213: Absolutely. That's what we're here for. calicobackwards: which is always absolutely wonderful. :-) calicobackwards: what's been up with you? calicobackwards: besides reading and writing. calicobackwards: any interesting intrigues? Alestar213: Well . . not much. Been moving and shaking-- doing actual work at dad's office-- I went to the Pride Festival and Parade Satyrday with Cora, Ely's younger sister-- I just finished a nifty story that I got to use a fairy tale in-- and, and, just generally good stuff. How's you? Alestar213: Oh, plenty of interesting intriguies. But that goes without saying, yes? ;-) calicobackwards: i'm doing well...working on my book, and letters...that cool nifty lady i told you about that i met on the internet is going to come down and visit me sometime this summer (hopefully) which is neat... Alestar213: Oh, neat. calicobackwards: my room's nearly decorated, and that's good...i feel much more comfortable there now... Alestar213: Yeah . . sigh . . my room used tobe clean and decorated . . calicobackwards: once long ago in a galaxy far far away, right? Alestar213: lol Right. When I was a Jedi, and *had* to keep my room neat. calicobackwards: and it was easier, because then you could simply use the force to levitate things. Alestar213: Exactly. calicobackwards: see, i'm going through this whole jedi-training-experience (you know, so i can truly educate my midichlorian-sprung daughter in the ways of the force) so i *have* to keep my room all neat and decorated these days. calicobackwards: i've not risen to the levitation mark on the jedi scale yet. calicobackwards: i remain but a mere novice. Alestar213: Keep the faith, padawan. calicobackwards: do you remember that bon jovi song? that was a weird flashback. Alestar213: lol Actually, I don't think I do. Unless it's important that I do in order to be cool-- in which case, yes, of course I remember. Alestar213: Opp. I'll be right back. Right back. Don't go nowheres. Alestar213: See? Right back. calicobackwards: very nice. see? the whole dissappearing reappearing thing. either you are in training to be a jedi knight or you are really space ghost in disguise. calicobackwards: and that bon jovi song SUCKED. you are much better off knowing nothing about it. Alestar213: . . Both? Alestar213: Oh. Alright, then. :-) calicobackwards: perhaps space ghost is really a jedi in training. Alestar213: . . I bet he's not in good with the Council. calicobackwards: probablly not....perhaps moltar and zorak are the representatives of the Council to make sure he doesn't do anything too out of line. ;-) Alestar213: I always did think they were a little cagey . . calicobackwards: i think brak may be the head of the Jedi Council. Alestar213: I think, probably, yes. calicobackwards: well, i think you rock. :-) Alestar213: Well, good. Because, you know, I'd hate to be the only one thinking the other rocked. You know. calicobackwards: yeah, i always hate it when hat happens. Alestar213: Yeah-- hat. Doesn't get much worse than hat. Alestar213: Like, you're just sitting there-- and, bam, fedora. It's really embarrassing. calicobackwards: *laughs out loud* Alestar213: Hee. :-) calicobackwards: would you mind to horribly if i published this conversation in my journal? calicobackwards: it's just really cool, and i have a thing about publishing conversations. calicobackwards: it's kind of like letter writing. Alestar213: lol Not at all, button. Be my adored guest. calicobackwards: wonderous. calicobackwards: are you liking the work you are doing for your dad? Alestar213: I'm not disliking it. It's good work. It's work that I feel vastly underqualified for-- but I can't complain. calicobackwards: oooh. i like feeling vastly underqualified for work. it makes me feel as if i'm getting away with something (like when i was working for toshiba) of course, usually i'm perfectly qualified - i'm simply not giving myself enough credit for my own abilities. Alestar213: Well. Maybe. I've only just begun-- so mabye I'll get comfortable with it, and everything will be fine. calicobackwards: how long are you planning to do it? just for the summer, or while you are in school too? Alestar213: I don't know. I. Y'know. I don't know. Alestar213: We'll see. I'm getting an apartment in August-- so I'm pretty sure I'm going to need to have a job, if not this job. And this is a really good job for me to have . . calicobackwards: oh, you're getting an apartment? where? Alestar213: Well-- White and I were considering Chad when we went apartment-shopping, so we were looking for a three-bedroom place . . but Chad backed out, so now we're back to two-bedroom places, so we have to go looking again. calicobackwards: white? who's white? Alestar213: But, darling, I found this beautiful place in north Knoxville . . the rent is good, and it's just-- beautiful, and it's right off of I-164. Alestar213: Kristi. Alestar213: See-- her name is Kristi, and my little sister's name is Chrissy, which used to be confusing, so we just started calling her White. calicobackwards: oooooh. wonderous. apartment, or house? calicobackwards: ah, i see. :-) Alestar213: Oh, apartment. Definitely. :-) Alestar213: But-- she wants to move out before school starts again, which means early-to-mid August. calicobackwards: and is that bad? Alestar213: Nah. It's time, y'know? I mean, the idea of moving out has been passed back and forth for about two years now. And. I don't know, maybe it's not time-- but maybe it is, and I need to do it. Alestar213: I don't know. I'm no authority on sane living. :-) calicobackwards: i think you should....there's something very spiritually fufilling about living in your own space. Alestar213: I think maybe so. And, I mean, I have enough shit to decorate sixteen apartments-- and I can't use any of it here. And I don't a *me* space here, y'know? calicobackwards: i totally understand that...i was like that when i was living next door with my grandparents. it drove me crazy. Alestar213: I can imagine. :-) calicobackwards: i think it would be wonderful to have your own place. then i could go hang out at "erin's place" and that would rock. :-) Alestar213: Hah. That *would* rock. Alestar213: Erin's place. Like the sound of that. calicobackwards: so are we still road-trippin'? i put it on my wish list. Alestar213: Plans were never my forte, darling . . calicobackwards: *grin* calicobackwards: one week, we'll simply call eachother up, and say "hey, let's go to new mexico!" and then we'll be there. :-) Alestar213: Hah. I'm all about it. :-) calicobackwards: i even purchased a travel-book so i can get my travel energy flowing. ;-) Alestar213: Oooh. You're the man with the plan. I'm envious. ;-) Alestar213: Actually . . I'm more tired than envious. calicobackwards: would you like to sleep, love? Alestar213: Would you be terribly insulted if I bowed out for the evening? Alestar213: If only for a little while. :-) calicobackwards: no, i would be perfectly understanding. our conversations never really end, anyway. they are always stopped with a "to be continued" label tagged at the end. Alestar213: lol Absolutely. Alright, then-- same button time, same button channel? calicobackwards: always. :-) calicobackwards: dream well. Alestar213: You too, lovely. I'll see you soon. Be well. water babies june 13th, 2000 today is going to be a good day. i can already tell because when Aisling woke me up this morning, i brought her into my room and we played on my bed for a good 45 minutes while i fully brought myself to life (it takes me a little while - i don't do mornings.) those are the cutest moments with my little starfish. i tickle her, she touches my face and pulls my hair, we both laugh hysterically and jump up and down as she burrows into my pillows and blankets. she usually wakes up in a very fabulous mood. there are exceptions, as always, but nothing is more precious than those cuddly mother-daughter bonding moments first thing in the morning, when we both still have sleep in our eyes. and it was comforting for other reasons, too. i was plagued with scary dreams last night, where every single frightening possibility that could happen to Ash was present. i would be holding her and almost dropping her through holes in the floor, or nearly tripping out of open second-story windows, or she'd be in the car and we would almost get into a car wreck. i suppose in truth i should consider myself lucky since nothing bad ever really *happened* to Ash in the dream. there was just this ever-present danger that seemed impossible to protect her from. i was very relieved to wake up with my starfish safe and sound. it has also been confirmed that Aisling is a water baby. we bought her a little wading pool the other day, and she absolutely *loves* it. she especially likes to play the splash-the-mommy game...not that i can blame her for that. she also loves to be spun around, swung, and nearly any type of activity that resembles a carnival ride in the slightest...and my bloodline produces yet another carny... so much to do...my appologizes that so little of my website has actually resurfaced as of yet...between housecleaning and babyraising and jobsearching, i've not had much "free time". plus, it's been much too hot to really accomplish anything in this house. but that should change tomorrow. we are getting another air conditioner. another day, another dollar.