motion is the  only solace in "dark messiah." survival horror in my life 
is not comparable to the gun-toting games like "resident evil." i am not 
interested in those games. neither am i interested in "clocktower." the 
interruption of monsters in those games is comforting and dull. in "dark 
messiah" i am constantly moving. puzzles are secondary to moving and there 
is no way to fight back effectively.

more later..

rites of passage, gates of fire, 

my camper whose name is also ross prodded me about finding adults boring 
sometimes. he asked if i ever sit with the other counselors at lunch. i 
said yes, but sometimes i find them boring. he asked me if i find 
[specific antics of an athletic counselor] boring. i said yes. ross is 
curious and prodding because he knows what it's like to feel old before 
one's time. his mother's paralyzed. he's seen too much on the internet. 
he's 13 years old, and never boring.