date: Tue 16 Sep 2025 05:44:11 PM PDT subj: parents hanging in there --------------------------------------------------------- ---------------------------------------- The other day I woke up and I had about 3.4 hours of sleep clocked on my watch. I thought how long its been since I've written about my twins, and how much I wanted to write about them, but every night after that when bed time comes (8:30 PM) I'm too tired to actually write, instead I end up watching some youtube video about the Altair 8080 or IMSAI 8080. The videos always fall short of what I'm looking for; mostly some type of IMSAI or old system online and available hosting users, and accepting some odd job that nobody would do, but the IMSAI or Altair is doing. I've skipped writing for sleep. I had started to write a paper on AI that I haven't finished, mostly because when I think about it my mind is fresh but by the time I get to the evening to write, I'm wiped out. I've had some great weekends and times with my family, but sleep is a factor right now. As they say online in other mainstream areas of the internet, its like a marathon being parents to 4.5 month old babies. Marathons are difficult, and how that my wife and I are both back at work, its not getting any easier. Still there are moments that are so wonderful all the work and frustration vanish. ---------------------------------------- The past Friday, I got to take care of the babes all day. See we've had to get a nanny because there is no daycare slots available for our babies in the area I live. Having a nanny is an odd thing. It feels on some levels bad, because I'm handing over my job as a parent to someone else. In doing so I have to accept the nanny's style and trust the nanny's judgement, that isn't easy to do. I love my babies so much and trusting someone else to take care of them kinda makes me scared what if the caretaker hurts them some how, trust isn't easy. When Friday came around my day off, I was so happy to be with my children, just doing the basics like feed them, change them, talk to them, love them, I can see they aren't as used to me as they were a week before. A week in a 4 month old's life is a long time. Still Friday was fun and I enjoyed all the moments while I had energy, but the day went by quickly, six-o-clock rolled around and the fuss machines were activated, we were all getting exhausted, and before I know it time to get ready for bed, and start it all over again. One of the nights was bad, babies woke up a lot at night just kicking their bed mattress all night like a drum, so I couldn't get much sleep. My wife took over at 5am, but sleep wasn't coming to me. Saturday Grandpa and Grandma came over! Babes were still a bit fussy and the nanny vibe is on them so we struggled, but Grandma and Grandpa are great with kids. Grandpa loves to make funny faces at them and interesting clicks and pops with his mouth. I just laugh and enjoy every minute of it as I watch. While they played with the babies, I installed unbuntu 16 on Grandpa's older laptop computer, then initiate upgrades to get to bring the system to 2024.04 (took a couple days). My son is rolling over on his own now. He is so funny. The other morning he rolled over in his crib, he was having a happy time, but when he rolled over he was too close to the side of the crib, and has his head waved back and forth he hit it on the side of his crib. That made him so upset. He started crying, really crying, not like is normal manipulative crying, but rather a higher pitch crying. I picked him up and laughed a little tried to convince him he is OK, but I'm not sure he didn't think it was me who caused him to hit his head on the crib. Good thing I had a bottle to help him forget about his insult. Later in the evening on his play matt he rolled over, then dragged himself to the edge of the matt and found interest in the tag, got bored of the tag, turned himself around on his belly and drug himself back to the center completing a triangle pattern. I'm super excited for him, he is figuring out how to move. He expresses some frustration because he is working really hard to propel himself, but if I had rolled him on his back, he would have been very upset. My daughter she seems to be satisfied that her brother is the one on his tummy and she'll just observe the world lying on her back. It was interesting she seemed to be the leader but brother saw her actions and decided tummy time isn't so bad after all, he passed her up. Daughter is getting more relaxed these days with laying flat and being held. I work with her on that. After work yesterday even though everyone is running low on energy, I made a point to wrestle the kids. I had a fun time with them and pushing them to smiles even though they wanted to fuss it up. Dang I love those kids. I hope my next file is closer to the date time than the last from 9/2/2025. ------------------------------------ my floppy finally filled up! I had to xz files in order to create a new file. time to format a new sdf gopher floppy -- volume 2. ------------------------------------ EOF