date: Thu 05 Jun 2025 12:24:51 AM PDT
subj: new parents twins frustration
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I'm too tired to write positive things. 
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I love our children. My wife loves our children. At this point
we are six weeks into keeping twins alive. This is what the
doctor praised us for. The lowest bar you get, but I appreciate her
irony, The simple idea there is just feed your babies. In doing
that when you have two at a time its so tiring, to the point it
gets frustrating. 

The baby wants to eat then be held, but when there is one parent
on duty and two babies its not possible to do this. 

The changing table had doubled as a feeding station. Two babies
laying opposite each other almost like a yin and yang, with wash
clothes stacked up to support bottles for them to feed. Lately
they seem to want to finish at the same time. This has made
burping them well not possible when a single parent is on duty. 

Sometimes they eating at different times, but not long enough to
give each baby the attention we want to give them. 

Then one child wakes up and starts calling out, and the other
hears it, and then starts to call as well. So babies are not
sleeping at the same time for very long. 

These things happen and it goes on all day and all night. So
making bottles becomes more difficult. Washing bottles becomes a
problem. Making a meal for ourselves is a huge challenge, let
alone trying to find a moment to eat it. It took me three hours
to cook a simple dinner of chicken, rice, vegetables. I was
hungry at 6PM and I finished cooking at 9:30PM. 

Then the crazy baby wanting food at all times, but crying when
eating it. The baby seems tired to me, because he falls asleep
when eating, but the moment I try to put him in his crib, he
wakes up and calls for more food. Just non stop. 

I wish I could just hold the baby, but the other baby is there
also wanting to be held, and dirty empty bottles are piling up.
Formula is running out. Each moment if we are lucky to get the
babes to remain content is not an opportunity to rest, but
instead get to work just to stay afloat. We are lucky if we get
to take a shower. A shower = loss of sleep. Something must be
given to shower, or eat, and that exchange is usually in the
form of sleep. 

Should we let the babes cry it out? 


These things are causing frustration, and its hard not to be
frustrated at the babies because they are very demanding. 

Six weeks straight of this starts to hurt.