Fri Feb 17 07:42 EST; goldblum
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  I'm meeting with the co-op people at 8, quite excited. I have no idea
  where the conversation will go, or indeed what it is I need to know or
  ask about. All I have is the question: how do I make this happen such
  that I can bring in friends and with as little friction as possible,
  get them payrolled and working.

  I want to note another thing though, a pathology which shows up every
  time I have a scheduled commitment. No matter how enthusiastic I am
  about it when I set it up, I spend the time immediately prior to it,
  sometimes even extending to the previous night, increasingly dreading
  it. This often makes it impossible for me to do anything useful during
  that lead-up period.

  It's never awful when it finally comes arould, though sometimes I feel
  like I wasted my time and the initial impulse was a false one. But
  it's always debilitating. Even going to see a band, or going on
  vacation, there's always a growing sense of resistance and loathing.

  I bet this has an entry in the DSM. Time to download the DSM and go
  full hypochondriac.