[HN Gopher] Mourning and moving on: rituals for leaving a career...
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       Mourning and moving on: rituals for leaving a career (2014)
        
       Author : luu
       Score  : 163 points
       Date   : 2024-08-22 06:03 UTC (10 hours ago)
        
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       | flobosg wrote:
       | (2014)
        
       | mgaunard wrote:
       | I quit the company I was working for many times.
       | 
       | It was usually an opportunity to leave the drama behind, not
       | create more.
        
         | jacobgkau wrote:
         | To be fair, this blog post is more about making a complete
         | career change, not just switching companies within the same
         | general field.
         | 
         | Having one of your friends bring you funeral lilies does seem a
         | little much, though.
        
       | campervans wrote:
       | Wonder how it went for her. Probably the best decision of her
       | life
        
       | the_real_cher wrote:
       | Seems a bit dramatic
        
         | KSteffensen wrote:
         | I don't know anything about the author and their situation, but
         | in my experience the first time you realize that your life is
         | not going to be as you expected in major ways can be quite
         | hard.
         | 
         | I don't think mourning is an inappropriate word to use for
         | this.
        
         | bowsamic wrote:
         | Leaving academia is like this. It's very sticky and scary to
         | leave. I remember how devastating it was for me. I think it's
         | because there's a very strong sense of a missed dream, and that
         | you can never return.
        
           | 0xEF wrote:
           | I feel the need to point out that it's not difficult for
           | people whose identity is not centered around their jobs,
           | since I see that disconnect in the comments. I found the
           | author's take full of the pageantry that I often associate
           | with people who make big deals out of fairly inconsequential
           | things, but before I begrudge the author their take, I have
           | to remember that my career is of relatively little importance
           | to me.
           | 
           | Hypothetically, when you meet someone new, do you introduce
           | yourself as your job? Is one of the first exchanges of self-
           | identifying information what you do for a living? A lot of
           | people do and while I do not understand it, I guess that is
           | what their lives are. Tbh, I find it a bit sad. Generally, my
           | career does not enter the conversation unless there is some
           | relevant reason. I'd rather talk about my productive hobbies
           | where I am making or building or learning a thing.
           | 
           | Breaking this down, when we use our jobs as our identity, I
           | find it exceptionally difficult to pull the "why do you do
           | it" out of that conversation, because a career is just a
           | paycheck, in the end and involves very little personal
           | enrichment. Of course, not everyone views careers that way
           | and I'm not here to try to change minds, but shed light on
           | why it might seem silly to many of us.
           | 
           | Perhaps we are not one of the lucky few with those unicorn
           | jobs that both pay the bills, offer a bright future, and
           | promote personal growth. They exist, I am sure, but they are
           | the exception to the rule.
        
             | bowsamic wrote:
             | I agree for most jobs, but academia is different. It's so
             | wildly different to other careers, that it does feel more
             | like a calling, and is far easier to identify with.
             | Especially if you are a first generation academic, you are
             | doing something considered wildly more prestigious than
             | anything anyone before you has done.
             | 
             | That is, I think it's relatively easy to dismiss your
             | career as not that important if you have a normal job. But
             | I think it's inherently much harder if you are an academic
             | for many reasons.
        
             | tpoacher wrote:
             | I think academia is one of those special places where a lot
             | of people who enter it are altruistic and idealistic, and
             | consider it a part of their identity to make a change in
             | the world in a larger sense. You are literally taking a
             | pay-cut, willingly, in order to make the world a better
             | place. At least in theory. So, in that sense, academia is
             | (or at least used to be) more akin to monasteries than
             | corporations.
             | 
             | Not that other jobs aren't making a change in the world,
             | but you know what I mean. It's one thing to be a knowingly
             | replaceable cog in a team that tries to offer more
             | effective ads, and it's quite another to singularly,
             | completely in isolation, try to devote your life trying to
             | invent the MRI, where if you fail the MRI may never come to
             | exist. So yes, a lot of people in academia traditionally do
             | ascribe a big part of their identity to their jobs, but I
             | think this goes beyond the superficial sense you describe
             | (i.e. I'm so boring and soulless that my work defines me).
             | 
             | Which is also why it's such a big deal when some academics
             | are found to be 'cheating' the system (again, see
             | monasteries). Traditionally, the whole edifice has been
             | based on 'honor', but the tide seems to be changing; the
             | rampant corporatisation of academia has been a very recent
             | phenomenon, and now that the inevitable shills and snake-
             | oil merchants have entered the game, we don't quite know
             | how to handle them.
        
               | xtracto wrote:
               | >You are literally taking a pay-cut, willingly, in order
               | to make the world a better place
               | 
               | This is a pretty interesting take. I feel that it may be
               | even a bit "western " if not 'American ' centric.
               | 
               | In my country Academia is perceived as a "ladder" in the
               | socioeconomic level. It's one of few ways people coming
               | from low class can actually climb their SE level. As
               | such, there is a different kind of pressure one side, and
               | on the other, a lot of people are 'living their best
               | life' doing the academia dance.
        
             | foldr wrote:
             | You can't really be an academic whose identity is not
             | centered around their job. This is because it virtually
             | never makes sense to pursue an academic career as a means
             | to other ends (given that pay and conditions tend to be
             | quite bad).
        
             | nonrandomstring wrote:
             | In the 19th century you had the same job for life. If you
             | were a blacksmith you stayed a blacksmith and died a
             | blacksmith in the village where you were born. Your surname
             | was synonymous with your skill. Wheeler. Smith. Potter.
             | Even in the mid 20th century people worked for the same
             | company for life. The "corporate" (body) world meant
             | something very different than today. The corporation took
             | care of you. It paid for your health and holidays. If you
             | were unhappy in work, it helped sort that out so you would
             | stay. As late as the 1960s, and still for some people who
             | work in government, and still a culture in Japan, you can
             | get a "job for life".
             | 
             | "Career" means to move haphazardly. It replaced the more
             | stable notions of "vocation" and "calling". Today you might
             | spend a year in hospitality, a few years in sales, then do
             | a diploma in programming, move to California, get into
             | media design, and then open a juice bar on the beach...
             | Everyone is at the mercy of ever swirling markets and the
             | slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, layoffs and
             | takeovers, new trends. Who here didn't "get into AI" in the
             | last 2 years?
             | 
             | In a way that's a richer better life. It's more
             | challenging. It is also shallower. There are less places to
             | put down roots and grow anything worthwhile. People with
             | active minds and a lust for life naturally outgrow scenes,
             | groups and institutions. Moving on should be an exciting
             | joy. What I see of America and UK now (at least here on HN)
             | is that people are held in place by fear. We've regressed
             | to 19th century ideas about work and life, minus the
             | positive 'belonging'.
             | 
             | What I think people sometimes "grieve" is the sunk-cost
             | spiritual investment in what they thought an institution
             | represented. Or they found themselves in an career that is
             | in decline. or in institutions that have decayed - and it's
             | painful to move on. Those reasons may be emotionally noble;
             | loyalty, fidelity to values etc. You can let go of values
             | and of a dream. Or you can take them with you, by realising
             | that they never belonged to any "institution" in the first
             | place. They're yours.
             | 
             | Academia is definitely that place in 2024. The reality of
             | academic life is the antithesis of human values we
             | traditionally associate it with. If the institutions we
             | inhabit are inflexible, ineffectual, and less than our
             | ambitions then it's time to move on. The problem is not so
             | much that people identify with what they "do", but where
             | and with whom they do it. It's a strong and valuable kind
             | of person who keeps their calling/purpose separate from
             | their employment identity.
        
           | greener_grass wrote:
           | Out of curiosity, why can't you return?
        
             | zer0tonin wrote:
             | Cults sometimes don't allow returnees.
        
             | noelwelsh wrote:
             | Academia tends to have fairly linear career paths. You do a
             | doctorate, then maybe do a post-doc, then become a lecturer
             | / assistant professor, etc. If you don't follow the path
             | you end up without the track record (publications, funding,
             | etc.) you need for promotion and will be passed over for
             | other candidates who look more likely to succeed. There are
             | many more applicants than positions in most fields.
             | 
             | If you're not on this career path, there is basically no
             | alternative in most institutions. You can be an adjunct, or
             | lab assistant, or other low-level employee forever but this
             | will lead nowhere. This is particularly a problem in the
             | US, where the tenure track system gives you seven years of
             | grind to achieve tenure, and if you fail your academic
             | career is basically over.
             | 
             | (Things are changing. Some institutions have, for example,
             | teaching track positions.)
        
             | bowsamic wrote:
             | Well, for one, people usually leave for systematic issues
             | with academia that won't just magically be fixed over time.
             | 
             | Second, it's very difficult to get back in anyway, you will
             | have a publication gap and with the extreme increase in
             | publish and perish it's hard to imagine it being a good
             | choice. Here in Germany, getting any permanent academic
             | position is a pipe dream even for the extremely motivated.
             | This ties back into the first point.
        
             | tpoacher wrote:
             | Not OP, but in general to be hirable in academia you need
             | to demonstrate a constant flow of papers and grant
             | proposals.
             | 
             | Being 'out of the game' for a couple of years means you
             | have not published or applied to grants within that time.
             | At best, you might be looking at restarting at the bottom
             | of the ladder until you've reasonably caught up in numbers
             | to climb back up again.
             | 
             | And it's not even just a case of "computer says no" because
             | of automated metrics. In the UK at least, government
             | initiatives like the REF mean that the university will
             | actively avoid hiring you because by definition you would
             | be costing the university money. (and conversely, you have
             | an advantage for being hired if you demonstrate the right
             | REFfable metrics, even if you weren't the most suitable
             | candidate at the interview, because this automatically
             | brings a university money that is directly linked to your
             | recent REF outputs).
             | 
             | I don't know what the situation is like in the US, but I'm
             | fairly sure similar exercises exist with effectively the
             | same effect.
        
           | KineticLensman wrote:
           | Another anecdata point... For me leaving academia was a big
           | challenge - I'd have to find a job, pass interviews, move
           | home, etc, etc. Scary stuff! But as soon as I had actually
           | done this, my new career path in industry went smoothly, and
           | my first year in industry massively improved my personal
           | confidence. As an academic I was surrounded by other
           | academics, but in industry I was forced to interact and
           | communicate with a more diverse group of people, and I
           | quickly found that it wasn't as scary as I had thought. E.g.
           | doing product demos to senior people, supporting our
           | marketing people by building prototypes, etc.
           | 
           | Amazingly, the company I moved to had much better tooling for
           | the type of software research research I was recruited for
           | than I had had access to at Uni. I built something (as part
           | of a supportive team that understood software dev) in about
           | six months, that I had struggled (and failed) to build in
           | academia over a couple of years.
        
             | ghaff wrote:
             | At some level in industry you have at least the potential
             | to have the paradox of choice. Of course, some people are
             | perfectly happy and successful with roles that are
             | essentially the same in the fundamentals from one company
             | to the next. But others largely reinvent themselves with
             | each new role both between different companies and even
             | within the same one. That really isn't an option in
             | academia.
        
           | xtracto wrote:
           | For me it was more of a 'good riddance' moment haha .
           | 
           | But I ded finish my PhD and a postdoc, so I didn't leave with
           | a feeling of 'I have failed '
           | 
           | I remember though, that feeling when I was doing my PhD and I
           | got the quits fever.
           | 
           | I think a lot of people struggle mentally when they quit in
           | the middle mainly because of a sense of defeat.
           | 
           | To them I would say scree it. If you found out the stupid
           | churn of the academia process is not for you, leave without
           | remorse.
           | 
           | It's like game programming. It's fantasized during childhood,
           | but once you get in and see the swamp it is, you realize it's
           | either for you or it isn't no shame at all in leaving.
        
             | bowsamic wrote:
             | I did a PhD and postdoc too. My issue was how drawn out it
             | was. I had a 3 year postdoc contract with great pay, so it
             | seemed like a really bad idea to quit. Basically I spent 3
             | years wanting to quit but knowing I couldn't because it
             | made no economic sense. Our group leader didn't care at
             | all. He was totally fine with me sitting around earning
             | money while doing everything.
             | 
             | I think I would have done far better if I were simply
             | fired.
        
               | xtracto wrote:
               | Golden handcuffs. I've had them in previous industry jobs
               | as well. I understand how frustrating it is.
        
         | swores wrote:
         | They aren't claiming their career decision is a monumental
         | thing for anyone but themselves, but a complete change of
         | career _is_ a monumental moment for the person whose career it
         | is.
         | 
         | If you're suggesting that having a dinner party with friends to
         | mourn/celebrate the change, and writing a blog post about it,
         | is overly "dramatic" then I completely disagree. If, on the
         | other hand, you just mean that some of the minor specifics such
         | as the invite including " _Dressing in your personal version of
         | mourning wear, the more over-the-top the better, is highly
         | encouraged but not required._ " then I think you're just not in
         | sync with her(his?) sense of humour.
        
         | DeborahWrites wrote:
         | The process in my mid-20s of realising I was not going to have
         | the career I'd expected since my mid-teens was pretty rough. I
         | eventually dusted myself off and pivoted, but it might have
         | been healthy to mourn (although I can't imagine myself
         | summoning my friends to a gathering for that purpose - but good
         | for her, sounds like she had a sense of humour about it)
        
       | Jgrady wrote:
       | rip "Frances Hocutt is a scientist by training and computer
       | wrangler by trade, with interests that have covered fiber arts,
       | dance, martial arts, trauma, embodiment, makerspaces, free
       | software and open knowledge, and other kinds of knowledge-sharing
       | and mutual support. Frances spends possibly too much time reading
       | about queer/trans anything in a long-shot attempt to make gender
       | and sexuality add up to something remotely coherent."
       | 
       | https://www.glbthistory.org/events/2020/2/27/following-lou-s...
        
       | emmelaich wrote:
       | Reminds me of Sabine Hossenfelder's "My dream died, and now I'm
       | here"
       | 
       | https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LKiBlGDfRU8
        
         | roel_v wrote:
         | Not to highjack this topic, but she was recommended (like to
         | many others of you no doubt) quite a bit in my Youtube feeds
         | over the last few months; and the first few videos I watched
         | seemed to be solid enough. Yet as I watched a few more, I
         | couldn't shake the feeling that she's so out of left field that
         | she's not just a 'quirky renegade' anymore, but rather a quack
         | who dresses up her quackery with just enough 'real' physics to
         | make it all sound very convincing. (By that I don't mean that
         | she says factually wrong things, but that her conclusions or
         | extrapolations from established facts seem to me, well,
         | outrageous). However, I don't know enough physics to be able to
         | tell if this is a correct feeling, and the Youtube comments
         | are, as usual, one big fanboy fest, which is true for any large
         | enough channel - even those of flat earthers and similarly
         | delusional content).
         | 
         | So my question is - just how serious should she (and others
         | like her, who denounce 'mainstream' academia as much as those
         | other fringe groups who go on and on about the corruption of
         | 'mainstream' media) be taken? Anyone have an opinion on this?
        
           | Tazerenix wrote:
           | As an expert in at least some of the things Sabine makes
           | videos about (string theory), Sabine is a contrarian who, if
           | you are not otherwise an expert on what she is talking about,
           | it would be best to avoid.
           | 
           | Sabine, like many contrarians, takes advantage of the fact
           | that there _are_ smart and convincing criticisms of many
           | mainstream ideas, and she does her best to rely on those
           | criticisms. However like all contrarians she presents a
           | biased and exaggerated view of things in order to stoke
           | engagement, and unless you are an expert it can be difficult
           | /impossible to determine whether the view she is giving is
           | balanced.
           | 
           | This is a classic issue with string theory critics, because
           | string theory has many legitimate problems with it, but many
           | of the critics are intellectually dishonest and you probably
           | shouldn't listen to their criticisms on principle (but even I
           | must admit it's quite hard to find good quality
           | intellectually honest criticism of string theory which is
           | digestible, so these contrarians tend to be the only loud
           | voice).
           | 
           | In Sabine's case it is not so bad, because it is clear from
           | some of her other positions that she is basically a crank.
           | MOND and superdeterminism are basically crank physics at this
           | point but she supports them purely because she is a
           | contrarian. On this evidence alone you should not trust
           | anything she says on any other subject, otherwise you're
           | falling for a kind of Gell-Mann amnesia.
        
             | n4r9 wrote:
             | Likewise. I did my PhD in quantum foundations/information,
             | albeit some years ago now. I'm not aware of any serious
             | researchers in the field that look kindly on
             | superdeterministic interpretations.
             | 
             | It's bizarrely parochial to suppose that every single
             | photon is magically correlated with the experimenter's
             | future measurement choices in a way that will exactly
             | violate Bell's Theorem.
             | 
             | Another way to put it:
             | 
             | > If such a theory did exist, it would require a grand
             | conspiracy of causal relationships leading to results in
             | precise agreement with quantum mechanics, even though the
             | theory itself would bear no resemblance to quantum
             | mechanics. Moreover, it is hard to imagine why it should
             | only be in Bell experiments that free choices would be
             | significantly influenced by causes relevant also to the
             | observed outcomes; rather, every conclusion based upon
             | observed correlations, scientific or casual, would be
             | meaningless because the observers's method would always be
             | suspect. It seems to us that any such theory would be about
             | as plausible, and appealing, as, belief in ubiquitous alien
             | mind-control.
             | 
             | Causarum Investigatio and the Two Bell's Theorems of John
             | Bell, Wiseman & Cavalcanti,
             | https://arxiv.org/pdf/1503.06413
        
             | prof-dr-ir wrote:
             | As another 'mainsteam' academic with relevant expertise I
             | think this comment is spot on.
             | 
             | I would like to add that Sabine's video on her academic
             | experience was quite a tragic thing to watch. If her
             | allegations are true then the behavior of her PhD
             | supervisor was completely outrageous.
             | 
             | She also did seem a bit too dreamy-eyed about academia.
             | Sure you can criticize everything you want, but she never
             | seemed to have understood that tone of voice still matters.
             | Academics are busy people with emotions, and not likely to
             | engage with someone whose claims appear to have more
             | loudness than substance.
        
               | Tazerenix wrote:
               | I certainly am not making any comments about her
               | experiences for sure! Academia is difficult and full of
               | terrible stories, and its not surprising that it causes
               | many people to become exceedingly bitter and contrarian
               | (Peter Woit is famously of the same ilk as another string
               | theorist critic who fell out of academia like Sabine).
               | 
               | Unfortunately a chip (even a legitimately earned one) on
               | ones shoulder about the bad parts of academia doesn't
               | save you from being criticized for being crank-y.
        
             | beezle wrote:
             | Sabine has repeatedly touched the third rail of current day
             | physics - the string theory industry and HEP. The comment
             | above reflects that.
             | 
             | On the latter, her beef is not that HEP has not made
             | signficant discoveries in the past, rather that the costs
             | going forward can no longer be justified and starve many,
             | many other areas of physics of needed funding. Compounding
             | her disdain for future projects are the increaingly lofty
             | claims of what will be discovered since inception of LHC.
             | Do you really think she is alone on this?
             | 
             | On the former, who is the crank here? The person with the
             | advanced degree calling out the failure of a 50 year old
             | theory to make one scientifically provable and confirmed
             | prediction? (I could say 80 years if going back to the
             | beginnings with S-matrix theory)
             | 
             | I'll grant that some maths have been developed that may be
             | tangentally useful but other than enriching the publishing
             | industry, what has string theory brought? Zilch. It seems
             | that the more public this becomes, the louder the cries of
             | those with deeply vested interests. I can think of no other
             | large theory that has gone for so long with no experimental
             | confirmations at all and is not likely to in mankinds
             | future either.
             | 
             | As to MOND like theory, Sabine has had varying degrees of
             | support over the past twenty years as data has come in and
             | theory has changed. Very frankly, the reason to give a
             | degree of trust to her on other subjects too is because she
             | is willing to be objective and call people out on their BS.
        
             | eru wrote:
             | For superdeterminism, see eg
             | https://scottaaronson.blog/?p=6215
        
           | stdbrouw wrote:
           | I'm not a physicist so I can't answer that question, though
           | personally I trust in her expertise and really loved her book
           | Lost in Math, but many of her most recent videos and tweets
           | are not about physics at all but instead about nuclear power,
           | capitalism, climate change, not having children, trans
           | athletes, AI and so forth. The lure of punditry...
        
             | eru wrote:
             | I tend to disagree with her on superdeterminism. See eg
             | https://scottaaronson.blog/?p=6215
        
           | fruffy wrote:
           | >So my question is - just how serious should she (and others
           | like her, who denounce 'mainstream' academia as much as those
           | other fringe groups who go on and on about the corruption of
           | 'mainstream' media) be taken? Anyone have an opinion on this?
           | 
           | I know nothing about her but the video on her experience in
           | academia is spot on. It's a pretty common experience among
           | STEM academics. You will face the point where you have to
           | compromise your academic "purity" and curiosity for trendy
           | topics to survive. This also implies publishing "bullshit"
           | papers and "bullshit" grants. Only certain types of people
           | make it through that.
        
             | contrarian1234 wrote:
             | I don't think this is generally true and the generalization
             | is actively hurtful. Promoting a skewed/miserable
             | perspective on academia. It all depends on the institution,
             | your funding situation, your field etc. The miserable
             | academics are the ones that moan the loudest. There is
             | often an online circlejerk of whining academics that wind
             | themselves up (esp PhD students). Also the ones that are
             | barely scrapping by are the ones that need to resort to
             | bullshit. You may be able to game your stats but people can
             | smell bullshit from a mile away. Everyone will know you're
             | just good at playing the system
        
               | CheddarB0b42 wrote:
               | "Complainants and their critiques can be safely discarded
               | because they need to git gud."
               | 
               | She states in the first three minutes of the video linked
               | above that she was excelling academically. How bizarre to
               | observe a lack of research in a thread complaining about
               | how the academy has drifted from the conduct of pure
               | research. Three minutes. One hundred twenty seconds.
               | That's all it would have taken.
        
             | prof-dr-ir wrote:
             | Can I ask what you mean with "pretty common"? Do you think
             | more than half of all STEM graduate students had a similar
             | experience as she did? Do you have actual data to support
             | this?
             | 
             | I am asking this because HN neems to be so much more
             | negative of academia than what I am seeing around me.
             | 
             | More generally I think it is worth stressing that any site
             | like this can be a terrible echo chamber at times.
             | Generally there are smart people here, but on some topics I
             | suspect that the consensus could be completely misguided.
        
               | fruffy wrote:
               | > Do you think more than half of all STEM graduate
               | students had a similar experience as she did? Do you have
               | actual data to support this?
               | 
               | Yes, her entire description about her experience (safe
               | for that weirdness with the textbook sweatshop) is
               | relatable. I am not sure what you are looking for but
               | STEM PhD attrition rates speak for themselves. Those do
               | not include PhDs that decide to leave academia after
               | retrieving their PhD. Not to mention the frequently
               | discussed mental health crisis that consistently gets
               | Nature articles.
               | 
               | HN's negativity is comparable to the negativity I have
               | seen with CS, Maths, and Physics PhDs and Postdocs in
               | personal discussions. See also PhD comics:
               | https://phdcomics.com/comics/archive/phd072011s.gif
               | 
               | If you are an idealist you will of course be worn down by
               | the way many academic institutions are set up. There is a
               | ton of writing on this, e.g., https://www-
               | users.cse.umn.edu/~odlyzko/doc/decline.txt
        
               | noelwelsh wrote:
               | I did a PhD in CS. There were certainly some students who
               | had a bad experience, but I don't think it was the
               | majority or even near the majority. I think 1 in 5 is a
               | reasonable guess. The ones who did do tend to be more
               | vocal about it, which is natural.
        
               | adamc wrote:
               | Computer science is much, much more marketable than
               | typical PhDs.
        
               | xtracto wrote:
               | Let me add another point of anectdata. I did my CS PhD
               | with a full scholarship in the UK. Then a 3.5 year
               | postdoc in a great Leinbiz institute in Germany. Part of
               | a huge EU project (in Framework Programne 7)
               | 
               | By all measures, I was "living the life" in academia.
               | with both my parents being academics (both researchers
               | and pretty published in their fields)
               | 
               | Yet, I left it after the project finished. The prospect
               | of having to write papers just because. The amount of
               | trash papers I had to review _for free_ but then looking
               | at the cost of proceeding books (I got them for free
               | through my institution... but what a racket it is!!)
               | 
               | The prospect of the "academic path" ((abitur, lecturer,
               | associate prof and then prof) praying the stupid game..
               | 
               | I left it all and turned to the startup world . Maybe it
               | was my engineer mind, but I feel way more fulfilled after
               | 12 years in industry.
        
               | adamc wrote:
               | I was a biological anthropology postdoc for a year or so.
               | My office mate used to refer to the process of turning
               | one decent idea into as many papers as possible as
               | producing LPUs ("Least Publishable Units"). He was
               | joking, but it wasn't a joke.
               | 
               | It was depressing. I dropped out. I have love for
               | academia, but there is a pretty overwhelming amount of
               | gamesmanship in surviving that system. I found becoming a
               | developer a much easier career to navigate.
        
           | voxgen wrote:
           | I've seen similar reactions and I can't help but think she's
           | intentionally communicating provocatively to make people
           | engage their brains.
           | 
           | You shouldn't just "take her seriously", you should take what
           | she says *critically*. Hear the information and opinions,
           | then decide for yourself whether to accept them.
        
             | Aurornis wrote:
             | > Hear the information and opinions, then decide for
             | yourself whether to accept them.
             | 
             | This sounds awfully similar to the "do your own research"
             | defense that is often used as a cop-out disclaimer for
             | quackery topics.
             | 
             | When someone presents themselves as an expert on a topic
             | and invests a lot of time into making convincing videos
             | about their beliefs, defending them with a "do your own
             | research" feels like a tacit admission that they're not
             | actually the expert they present themselves as.
             | 
             | This feels somewhat like the high-brow intellectual
             | equivalent of Joe Rogan making confident statements about
             | COVID and then defending himself with "I'm just a comedian,
             | do your own research". You can't have it both ways.
        
               | imwillofficial wrote:
               | No, it sounds like he is promoting hearing somebody out
               | and thinking for yourself if they are to be trusted.
        
             | evilduck wrote:
             | Her channel has strayed far beyond the topics she has
             | credibility in. A physics academic talking about AI,
             | sociology, and politics... why should I care? Even of the
             | physics topics that she does cover it's all "pop-sci" news
             | coverage stuff, she's not even using her actual depth of
             | knowledge to make videos that are different than the layman
             | takes from dozens of other YouTubers.
             | 
             | Someone speaking provocatively and authoritatively on
             | topics they don't have credibility in is where you should
             | think critically and turn it off.
        
           | nonrandomstring wrote:
           | > just how serious should she... be taken?
           | 
           | Very seriously indeed if you value higher education and
           | research.
           | 
           | Lot's of people do. Over a decade ago now, Ben Ginsberg wrote
           | "Fall of the Faculty". Political scientists like Wendy Brown
           | have picked apart not only the evidence, but done deep
           | analytical work on the reasons for the disintegration of
           | academia in the West. Even Peter Thiel (who I profoundly
           | disagree with on almost everything) has given knock-down
           | commentary that I find impossible to ignore on how academia
           | went to seed, and is now unfit for teaching, learning and
           | honest research.
           | 
           | From a personal perspective; I worked in universities for
           | over 30 years. What we have now is unrecognisable from the
           | institutions I started teaching at in the early 1990s. Almost
           | all human values have been expunged and replaced by a puppet
           | show of performative theatrics, led by MBA educated impostors
           | and career administrators. It is fake to the core. I no
           | longer recognise these places as universities. I've seen
           | brilliant colleagues go crazy, retire early, turn to alcohol
           | and drugs, commit suicide, or just wander off to live in the
           | mountains and grow vegetables. I refuse to believe all those
           | smart and dedicated people are/were "weak". Academia is a
           | very toxic place and I would not advise any "smart and
           | sensitive" person to go into that life if you value your
           | health.
           | 
           | When you consider how much it costs a nation to educate
           | someone to PhD level and then look at the churn and
           | attrition, it's a massive bonfire of wealth.
           | 
           | I've written numerous pieces in the Times Higher on specific
           | failings of universities, but one cannot halt a juggernaut of
           | change with words alone. Now I am left only with curiosity at
           | how higher education will change and what will come after.
           | 
           | My response has been to conduct and publish my own research
           | independently outside the "academic system" and to start my
           | own companies for teaching. By my standards, both are
           | successful.
           | 
           | edit: grammar
        
             | lll-o-lll wrote:
             | I think - no, I fear, fear is the right word - that there
             | is much more than just academia disintegrating in the West.
             | 
             | > Almost all human values have been expunged and replaced
             | by a puppet show of performative theatrics, led by MBA
             | educated impostors and career administrators.
             | 
             | Not just academia.
             | 
             |  _This is the way the world ends
             | 
             | Not with a bang but a whimper._
        
               | Miraste wrote:
               | Yes, over the past few decades, that sentence applies to
               | every institution I can think of. Academia, government,
               | business, religion, medicine... I don't know why
               | administration has turned into such a plague, but it
               | keeps absorbing larger shares of our money, power, and
               | time to do less and less with more and more.
        
               | gehwartzen wrote:
               | I was going to reply to a go further up but yes this has
               | absolutely crept into many other technical areas. I had a
               | similar grad school as others here have expressed but I
               | didn't stay in academia after school.
               | 
               | I've worked the past 15 years or so for several different
               | F100 companies in various technical R&D functions. These
               | companies manufacture real things and generally have
               | labs, resources, and staff that rival but the very best
               | academic institutions. The politics and worldviews with
               | which the MBAs have infect the technical teams with the
               | last 20 or so years is palpable.
               | 
               | I know there used to be real in-depth research done;
               | talking to the old timers and looking through old
               | technical reports showed that to me. Doing that now will
               | quickly get you RIFed. Now quickly getting to revenue and
               | moving onto the next project is all that matters. Nothing
               | is retained in classic 20-30 page technical reports that
               | help build true institutional knowledge or even allow us
               | to repeat projects based on the learnings from 2 years
               | ago. If you are smart you quickly learn how to test and
               | validate things to make whomever the customer is happy
               | (following the $) while providing the bare minimum to the
               | lawyers to make a specific marketing claim. In practice
               | this means I've become very good at not opening certain
               | doors during research (ie the ones that I intuitively
               | know have a high likelihood of derailing a project) even
               | if they probably should have been. See no evil, hear no
               | evil...
               | 
               | It's sad.
        
             | AlanYx wrote:
             | Has Peter Thiel ever put his thoughts on higher education
             | down in long-form writing? I've seen him speak about it,
             | but I'd be interested in a deep dive.
        
               | HarryHirsch wrote:
               | There was a lengthy interview with Peter Thiel a few
               | years back: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nM9f0W2KD5s
               | 
               | It's interesting and worth watching, but it becomes
               | apparent that Thiel is a financier, and science takes
               | place on a different timescale. Better seek advice from
               | someone who was active when US science was still
               | functional, let's say Roy Vagelos.
        
           | andai wrote:
           | You're asking the crowd for their opinion on someone who goes
           | against the opinion of the crowd?
        
           | gosub100 wrote:
           | Can you give any examples of her promoting "quackery"? I
           | don't know how you can admit you are weak in physics but
           | nevertheless sense she is phony.
           | 
           | My biggest criticism of hers is that she is cynical and
           | spends too much time tearing down other ideas rather than
           | promoting anything.
           | 
           | But overall she does great things with showcasing the more
           | ridiculous side of academia. She is adept at taking published
           | research and showing that it is quackery. She shows how they
           | manipulate data and mislead the media, often for more
           | research money. I also applaud her counterpoint in particle
           | physics regarding the waste involved in building yet another
           | gigantic particle accelerator. It's a POV I wouldn't have
           | considered, but I agree that the money could be better spent
           | in other areas.
        
       | kanodiaashu wrote:
       | Its interesting to me how you start with career maps. Maybe this
       | is advertising, but I made a career mapping app here -
       | https://www.moveup.ai/for-individuals - I wonder if you would
       | find it interesting.
        
       | avg_dev wrote:
       | Very nice read. I remember reading the one she wrote first too.
       | Quite moving.
        
       | unwind wrote:
       | What is the "alternate career path" the author mentions but never
       | explains? I didn't get that part.
        
         | noelwelsh wrote:
         | According to their CV, on the same site, they became a
         | developer at the Wikimedia foundation.
        
       | vouaobrasil wrote:
       | I'm afraid I can't relate. I initially invested a lot of time in
       | my first choice of career (over a decade) and just left last
       | year. I walked out the door, said goodbye, and the next day it
       | was out of my mind. That being said, I think the key is keeping a
       | strong mental separation between "passion for a field of work"
       | and "predetermined path by society to actualize that passion".
       | The latter, in my opinion, is something that one should never get
       | attached to.
        
         | esafak wrote:
         | If you wanted to become a doctor, say, and flunked out of
         | school, how would you find another path to become a doctor;
         | start again in another country? Sometimes the cost of failure
         | is high.
        
           | mp05 wrote:
           | Easy, just apply to a osteopathic medicine program.
        
             | lostlogin wrote:
             | I'm not sure that works in many places outside the US.
             | 
             | It's viewed as alternative medicine here in New Zealand, in
             | a similar ballpark to homeopathy, though perhaps a bit
             | closer to conventional medicine.
        
       | silcoon wrote:
       | This article is from 2014, the year should be included in the
       | title
        
       | thenoblesunfish wrote:
       | I made a similar move and felt a similar sense of loss. I wish I
       | had had the mental clarity at the time to throw fun parties
       | instead of just trying to keep life together. I'm comforted by
       | the fact that in my new career there are great people, just like
       | there were in academia, and that my friends who stayed there are
       | either (a) truly great scientists (b) struggling basically with
       | the same things (money, politics, , people, "work") that most
       | people in most white collar jobs struggle with.
        
       | lucraft wrote:
       | > "You are formally invited to A WAKE for THE RESEARCH SCIENCE
       | CAREER of FRANCES HOCUTT FRIDAY from 7 PM to MIDNIGHT"
       | 
       | When I quit my PhD I had an Ungraduation Party! My wife made a
       | cake and everyone sang Happy Ungraduation To You! It was sad and
       | happy but overwhelmingly such a relief to get out
        
         | bumby wrote:
         | What went into your decision to drop out?
         | 
         | Good on you too not wrap your identity too much in a credential
         | to allow yourself that decision and also having unconditional
         | support from those close to you.
        
           | lucraft wrote:
           | Thanks... I haven't thought about it in a long time, as it
           | was difficult, but looking back it seems quite positive.
           | 
           | Three things:
           | 
           | 1. Full disclosure at that time in my life I was rather bad
           | at motivating myself to work independently for long periods.
           | In hindsight starting a PhD was a bad idea for this reason
           | alone.
           | 
           | 2. The university closed the department I was in. I was
           | transferred to another supervisor in another department, who
           | was nice but saw his role as more administrative. After a
           | while he then announced he was retiring so I was looking at
           | moving to another supervisor again.
           | 
           | 3. I turned out to be far, far more interested in writing
           | software than doing research. E.g I wrote an open source unit
           | testing library in Prolog to support my research tooling. I
           | was learning Rails on the side. I went to the Hacker News
           | meet-up in London, and the startup that was running them
           | offered me a job, and the rest is history!
           | 
           | I had sunk multiple years into it so it wasn't easy. But in
           | hindsight it was not even a close decision.
        
       | 11101010001100 wrote:
       | Reading their first post about leaving
       | https://modelviewculture.com/pieces/i-didn-t-want-to-lean-ou...,
       | I'm not sure how seriously I should take this piece. 'They don't
       | tell you ...'. Of course not, but they certainly hint at it. This
       | is something that goes well beyond academia...
        
       | ryukoposting wrote:
       | > We create meaning around the stress and soften transitions with
       | rituals and rites of passage.
       | 
       | I graduated into the height of the pandemic, so I never had a
       | graduation ceremony. Instead, they played a shitty video
       | presentation over Zoom and my parents cracked open a beer and
       | watched it on TV.
       | 
       | By the time I got invited back for a ceremony, I had already
       | moved hundreds of miles away from my university. Obviously, I
       | turned down the offer. I sometimes wonder if I'll regret that
       | choice later on down the line.
        
         | helsinki wrote:
         | You won't.
        
         | hemloc_io wrote:
         | As someone who also graduated during the pandemic an moved
         | across the country.
         | 
         | Maybe man, but honestly it just isn't the same as actually
         | getting to say goodbye to your friends.
         | 
         | Out of all of the things that went poorly that year, ppl
         | missing their graduations is definitely pretty low on that
         | list, but on a personal level it just really sucked having your
         | entire social circle just disappear out of your life basically
         | randomly.
        
         | dustincoates wrote:
         | > Obviously, I turned down the offer. I sometimes wonder if
         | I'll regret that choice later on down the line.
         | 
         | I could not tell you a single thing about my graduation
         | ceremony.
        
           | icedchai wrote:
           | Same. It's been over 2 decades. I was practically a different
           | person.
        
         | 01HNNWZ0MV43FF wrote:
         | I don't regret skipping college graduation and I barely
         | remember high school graduation
         | 
         | I do regret that I didn't join any clubs in college until my
         | last semester, and that I didn't make the kind of friendships I
         | wanted
        
           | ghaff wrote:
           | One of the clubs I belonged to (film committee) is pretty
           | much the only college group I stay in touch with.
        
           | eru wrote:
           | I didn't join many clubs when I was in university (in
           | Germany). But for my first job I lived in Cambridge, and just
           | attended clubs at the local university over there, and they
           | mostly just let me in.
           | 
           | I have particularly fond memories of the Diplomacy club:
           | https://www.cambridgesu.co.uk/organisation/7831/
        
           | bee_rider wrote:
           | ^ listen to this person.
           | 
           | The ceremonies at the beginning and the end--not a big deal.
           | The part that matters is what you do there.
           | 
           | I think the celebrations are more for the parents, really. We
           | live our lives in the bulk, the area, the day-to-day. We
           | experience others' lives at boundary transitions, the
           | perimeter, the ending ceremonies.
        
             | j_bum wrote:
             | > I think the celebrations are more for the parents,
             | really.
             | 
             | This is important, and not to be brushed off.
             | 
             | During my PhD, my program had what's called a "white coat
             | ceremony". This is typically a medical school ceremony, but
             | my grad program does it after the second year of study to
             | recognize the transition from being a graduate "student" to
             | a graduate "research assistant".
             | 
             | I was a very isolated and focused student, spending the
             | majority of my waking time in lab from day one of school.
             | By the end of year two, I already viewed myself as being
             | fully immersed in research. So, the ceremony felt trivial
             | to me, and I didn't plan to attend.
             | 
             | However, at the last minute, my advisor told me he wanted
             | me to attend despite my protest.
             | 
             | Due to the last minute change, I didn't invite my parents
             | to the ceremony, as they lived several hours away and I
             | didn't want them to feel obligated to travel on short
             | notice.
             | 
             | As the ceremony started, I immediately realized that it was
             | just as much for the parents as it was for the students. So
             | many parents were there, with clear pride at their
             | children's growth and success (even though most had no clue
             | what their kids were even studying).
             | 
             | I immediately and deeply regretted not telling my parents
             | about the ceremony. I realized I had made a unilateral
             | decision for them, and that my behavior was very self-
             | oriented and inconsiderate of their desire to see me
             | succeed.
             | 
             | They were disappointed when I told them about it, and I
             | apologized for not inviting them and acknowledged that it
             | was a selfish thing. They're chill people and didn't make a
             | fuss over it, but it was a closed door that could never be
             | reopened.
             | 
             | Two years later when I defended my dissertation, that was
             | _the_ moment I wanted my parents to be present, and of
             | course they were. We had a blast celebrating afterwards, so
             | all's well that ends well.
             | 
             | I strongly believe "maturation" happens in discrete
             | moments, and the start of that white coat ceremony was one
             | of those moments for me. I grew up a lot that day.
        
           | grogenaut wrote:
           | I played college football which for the purposes of this
           | conversation isn't a brag but call it a club. A big club.
           | This was at a D3 non scholarship for the love of the game
           | school.
           | 
           | Two weeks before school started I knew 110 students, 15 adult
           | employees, and about 10 recent alums. It was great. I had
           | easy access to people who could answer all my questions. What
           | classes, what professors, what forms, what majors, what
           | restaurants, how to move exams, parties, of age people, cars,
           | parking, tutors etc. Can't recommend it enough.
           | 
           | My daughter is very indoors and "nerdy" for shorthand (So am
           | I I just also do everything and played football). She loved
           | DND. We lived about 12 miles from campus so as soon as she
           | got in I found that they had DND club. I got her to ask to
           | play in the discord early summer. She had a pack of friends
           | by the time school started. A few freshmen and plenty of
           | older classmates.
           | 
           | Can't recommend it enough. Also it generally accelerated me
           | more than the time it took up
        
           | gosub100 wrote:
           | For me the graduation was significant because of how
           | miserable the previous 4 years were, largely for the reason
           | that you mentioned.
        
         | senkora wrote:
         | Ironically, several of my friends and I got COVID at our
         | delayed graduation ceremony.
         | 
         | And they did multiple years of graduations at once, which made
         | it exceptionally long. By the midway point even the professors
         | onstage in their regalia were all scrolling on their phones.
         | 
         | I think you made the right choice!
        
         | kayodelycaon wrote:
         | Having been bored to death at a relatives ceremony, I skipped
         | mine and went straight to celebrating with friends at a sushi
         | bar.
         | 
         | Grandma was a bit miffed. Rituals are what you make of them. :)
        
         | pradn wrote:
         | These ceremonies are meaningful if you invest meaning into
         | them.
         | 
         | For my college graduation, the dean did something small to make
         | the ceremony more meaningful. He asked us all to stand up, look
         | back to our family, and applaud them for supporting us all
         | these years. For me, looking back at my parents and thanking
         | them for all they've done for me was a beautiful moment. And it
         | was a full-circle moment for our family, the culmination of a
         | long journey of immigrating to the US, moving around in search
         | of stability. We had moved to be able to buy a house and to get
         | us good, affordable educations. Both of those dreams were
         | fulfilled at that time.
         | 
         | I don't recall much else from that ceremony. Not the speakers,
         | but a few of the interactions afterward with my fellow students
         | and their families.
        
           | anal_reactor wrote:
           | > He asked us all to stand up, look back to our family, and
           | applaud them for supporting us all these years.
           | 
           | God I have such a difficult relationship with my parents.
           | Yes, their methods worked, but damn, I'll need years of
           | therapy.
        
         | _heimdall wrote:
         | If it makes you feel better, my college graduation was the only
         | one where my school decided to have an outdoor ceremony...in
         | May in the deep south.
         | 
         | Needless to say, wearing a black gown over dress cloths is not
         | great when its 95F and humid out. For our families of all ages,
         | sitting in the football stadium for hours in the middle of the
         | day was even worse. Multiple people were taken to the hospital
         | for heat stroke.
         | 
         | Graduation was a decent excuse for my uncles and brother to
         | come into town for a visit, but I would have happily celebrated
         | graduation at a Mexican restaurant with air conditioning and a
         | margarita without the big ceremony.
        
         | vampiresdoexist wrote:
         | You won't. It's a small day in the grand scheme of things. I
         | hope you make time for family and friends tho!
        
       | PaulHoule wrote:
       | I can say I did it with a lot less grace as a postdoc but I did
       | get my honorable discharge from my PhD program.
        
       | imwillofficial wrote:
       | Holding a wake for one's career and inviting people strikes me ad
       | incredibly narcissistic.
        
         | wy35 wrote:
         | I don't agree. It's obviously not a "real" wake, just something
         | for friends to hang out and show support. And switching careers
         | often means moving to a different city, so it would be nice to
         | say goodbye to friends who won't be seen for years (or
         | forever).
         | 
         | I've been to a couple "deportation parties" for friends who
         | couldn't get their visas renewed, and it's sort of the same
         | thing. Mostly lighthearted but a slight somber undertone.
        
           | imwillofficial wrote:
           | Man, I could see that being somber! That seems like a great
           | way to have a goodbye party.
        
       | goldfishgold wrote:
       | This is from 10 years ago. I would be curious to know where they
       | are now and how they feel now about this career decision and blog
       | post.
        
         | HarryHirsch wrote:
         | Looking at the webpage, she is now active in the diversity &
         | inclusion space, which is still booming. She gets an
         | endorsement from Sumana Harihareshwara, who turned the DEI up
         | to 11 in Wikiland.
         | 
         | The talks of the Women in Chemistry section at the recent
         | American Chemical Society meeting included gems like
         | "Metalloids and mentoring: Life at a PUI as the 'Other" and
         | "Transgender chemistry graduate students navigating between
         | trans and STEM identities".
         | 
         | All of that sounds nice until you start teaching in Alabama or
         | get students from a reservation in New Mexico, then you see
         | that what the DEI folks offer is completely useless when it
         | comes to deprivation.
        
         | Eridrus wrote:
         | Seems like they got into tech, like many people leaving
         | science: https://www.usenix.org/conference/lisa19/speaker-or-
         | organize...
        
       | ziofill wrote:
       | A few years ago I left a tenured position and transitioned to
       | industry. It was quite a mixed bag of feelings, including grief
       | for a career that I had identified myself with. It's very
       | difficult not to identify ourselves with our jobs.
        
       | cgearhart wrote:
       | Thanks. I needed this today. :-)
        
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