[HN Gopher] Passing for Human: Philip K. Dick in Vancouver (2018)
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       Passing for Human: Philip K. Dick in Vancouver (2018)
        
       Author : cpp_frog
       Score  : 81 points
       Date   : 2023-03-04 13:16 UTC (9 hours ago)
        
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       | atombender wrote:
       | It's a nicely written article, but I have to take issue with the
       | attempt to attach a psychiatric diagnosis to PKD, more than 40
       | years after his death. By all accounts he was increasingly
       | mentally unstable -- the heavy drug and alcohol use did him no
       | favours -- and certainly had episodes of deep clinical depression
       | and what would probably qualify as narcissistic traits. But to
       | armchair-diagnose him as a _psychopath_ seems wrong.
       | 
       | The Vancouver period retold in this article is interesting and
       | tragic because it marks the nadir of his 1970s drug addiction;
       | after his suicide attempt, he was able to enter a recovery
       | program (albeit an unfortunately cultish one with parallels to
       | Scientology), weaning himself off heavy amphetamine use, moving
       | out of the drug house and to Orange County, then starting to try
       | write more "adult" novels (he wrote "A Scanner Darkly" during
       | this time), which would lead to his significant international
       | recognition towards the end of his life. But just as things got
       | better, the VALIS incident happened, and he relapsed and started
       | drinking whiskey every day, which contributed to his early death.
        
       | joemazerino wrote:
       | Good read. Interesting how there hasn't been a connection made
       | between his stimulant abuse and clear manic symptoms -- high
       | emotion, sex drive and narcisissm.
        
         | TheRealPomax wrote:
         | Perhaps if this is the only article you ever read about him.
         | But any biography on him includes notes on his personal drug
         | abuse.
        
       | patrickscoleman wrote:
       | As a glimpse into the man's mind, here's a 1977 speech PKD gave
       | on the nature of time.
       | 
       | https://youtu.be/DQbYiXyRZjM
        
         | JKCalhoun wrote:
         | The Christian cross-pollination is fascinating/odd.
        
           | Trasmatta wrote:
           | He seemed to favor a Gnostic view of Christianity in
           | particular. He talks a lot about it in VALIS and the
           | Exegesis. There's quite a bit about the Demiurge, and how
           | we're stuck in something called the "Black Iron Prison".
        
             | madaxe_again wrote:
             | The Empire Never Ended. We live upon a very detailed map
             | that was crafted in the millennium following the Bronze Age
             | collapse -- not in the "real" world, by any stretch.
        
               | Trasmatta wrote:
               | Perhaps the Plasmate will reveal the true nature of
               | reality to us eventually.
               | 
               | I thought about getting "The Empire Never Ended" as a
               | tattoo once. Also considered a Ubik tattoo. I can never
               | actually commit myself enough to actually getting a
               | tattoo though.
        
               | x86x87 wrote:
               | Lol. We can be tattoo brothers. I actually got a
               | temporary tattoo to see how it looks and still thinking
               | about if i should pull the trigger and get it done.
        
           | throwanem wrote:
           | There is much of interest in Christian and especially
           | Catholic mysticism, I find - the latter especially; there are
           | many mansions in the house of the Bishop of Rome, and some of
           | them are strangely inhabited indeed.
           | 
           | Thomas Merton is a good example. Back when Ratzinger still
           | ran the CDF, you'd sometimes find Merton's books shelved in
           | Catholic bookstores in shrinkwrap, bearing an orange warning
           | label cautioning the devout reader against being led astray
           | by the contents.
        
       | ftxbro wrote:
       | I wish PKD could be here to play with the GPT-N AIs.
        
         | pavlov wrote:
         | I wonder if he'd find them very interesting at this point when
         | he predicted something similar half a century ago.
         | 
         | Fundamentally these models look backward. They're a sum of what
         | the Internet contained last year and can write you anything
         | from that viewpoint. But an author like PKD was always looking
         | forward. He might nod to GPT and go back to thinking about how
         | much further things can go.
        
           | x86x87 wrote:
           | To be fair PKD predicted a lot of things that make our
           | current dystopian present.
           | 
           | Checkout Vulcan's Hammer for a PKD on AI story.
        
       | JKCalhoun wrote:
       | > On the second day of the convention, having made public his
       | desire to remain in Vancouver, Phil had been invited to stay with
       | Michael Walsh, a journalist for the Vancouver Province, and his
       | wife Susan, at their home in the city.
       | 
       | And instantly my alarm bells were ringing. So I shouted back into
       | the time portal: "Don't do it! He's going to make a play for your
       | wife!"
       | 
       | As is often cited, sometimes you don't want to meet your heroes.
        
       | photochemsyn wrote:
       | Philip K. Dick's untimely death by stroke likely robbed the world
       | of a least a few more great works. He seems to have come out of
       | his earlier period of amphetamine addiction and tumultuous female
       | relationships, and had written some interesting material like The
       | Transmigration of Timoth Archer, which features a sympathetic
       | female narrator. Apparently Ursula K LeGuin influenced him to
       | some degree here:
       | 
       | https://blog.loa.org/2010/12/what-philip-k-dick-learned-abou...
       | 
       | Dick's earlier works do have a particularly bleak flavor, the
       | story of A Scanner Darkly is certainly one of the first major
       | dystopian sci-fi works, which contrasts with a lot of the more
       | utopian sci-fi published in the 50s and 60s. Could have been
       | influenced by Brave New World, some themes are similar.
        
         | Jtsummers wrote:
         | Just to clarify, _A Scanner Darkly_ was not one of his earlier
         | works, it was one of his last. It was written in 1973 (double
         | checked, publication date was 1977, though) which was 21 years
         | after he was first published and 9 years before his death. He
         | only wrote 5 more novels after it.
        
           | hungryforcodes wrote:
           | Only :)
        
             | Jtsummers wrote:
             | He had written over 40 novels from 1950 to 1970. He wrote 6
             | in his last 12 years of life. It just seemed odd to me to
             | describe _A Scanner Darkly_ as one of his earlier works
             | when it very clearly was not.
        
               | hungryforcodes wrote:
               | Of course I agree with you. My point was that he "only"
               | wrote 5 novels in the last 9 years of his life -- which I
               | find incredible and amazing (in a positive way).
        
         | gumby wrote:
         | > Philip K. Dick's untimely death by stroke likely robbed the
         | world of a least a few more great works.
         | 
         | He had lymphatic cancer, and had fallen for the Laetrile scam
         | (traveling to Mexico for "treatment") so the stroke did him a
         | favor. As with the cancer he initially refused treatment.
        
           | atombender wrote:
           | Where did you read this? The Sutin biography reports that he
           | died of a stroke, and his Wikipedia page says nothing about
           | cancer. Are you confusing him with the Sherri Solvig
           | character in VALIS?
        
             | gumby wrote:
             | I didn't read it, I remember it being talked about at the
             | time by some colleagues who happened knew him well (he had
             | an eclectic circle). One of them was quite distressed about
             | the Laetrile thing.
             | 
             | I was just a kid at the time and only met him once, in
             | passing, so take my statement as you will.
        
         | zabzonk wrote:
         | i really don't see any similarities with brave new world, it's
         | not particularly dystopian, and your dates are a bit off.
         | 
         | there is a realy interesting film of scanner darkly, with a
         | great cast:
         | 
         | https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_Scanner_Darkly_(film)
        
         | miguelazo wrote:
         | I think the statement "A Scanner Darkly is certainly one of the
         | first major dystopian sci-fi works" needs some qualification.
         | There were major dystopian sci-fi works dating at least back to
         | the previous century. _The Island of Dr. Moreau_ by HG Wells
         | comes to mind.
        
       | Trasmatta wrote:
       | PKD was such a fascinating and tragic person. I always recommend
       | the book VALIS if you really want to get inside his mind. Truly
       | brilliant man, but also full of pain, and unfortunately that pain
       | often spilled out and hurt those around him.
       | 
       | > If he could fake being a human so well, how did he know that
       | everyone else wasn't doing the same?
       | 
       | I have this problem with friendships and relationships. I can
       | pretend to be friends with anyone, while secretly harboring
       | strong dislike of that person. Then when I finally connect with
       | somebody I do like, I have this constant fear that they're the
       | ones pretending, while harboring resentment towards me. (I'm in
       | therapy, and this is something I'm working on.)
        
         | x86x87 wrote:
         | But how do you explain what happened to Kevin's cat?
         | 
         | There are also 2 PKD flavors: before and after Valis. Almost a
         | completely different PKD.
        
         | madaxe_again wrote:
         | I'm working on pretty much the same thing with my therapist,
         | who I unfortunately seem to enjoy confusing and evading with my
         | freeform personality more than I do being therapised by them.
         | Shit, it's my money.
         | 
         | VALIS and the Exegesis are a good look at his end state, but
         | some of his non-sf work also gives a pretty clear insight into
         | the man - "Mary and the Giant" and "Confessions of a Crap
         | Artist" spring to mind. Actually so do "The Broken Bubble" and
         | "In Milton Lumkey Territory".
         | 
         | They're all deeply uncomfortable and utterly palpable works -
         | there's real pain and anguish and alienation graved into the
         | platens, stories of closeness morphing into terror and
         | estrangement as a natural result of intimacy.
         | 
         | His whole thing was Baudrillardian, the real versus the
         | consensus, perception versus reality - and his non-SF works lay
         | it out bare, without any of the allegorical window dressing.
         | 
         | I love the man, and feel real empathy for him, as many of the
         | questions which plagued him are those which are also ever
         | present in my mind.
         | 
         | Should we ever have met, I am certain we would have hated each
         | other, lovingly.
        
         | throwanem wrote:
         | "Mad, bad, and dangerous to know" - by all accounts including
         | this one, as accurate a description of Dick as of Lord Byron.
         | 
         | I've had lovers like that, and for all that they're immensely
         | exciting and compelling personalities especially at first, it
         | ends up being every bit as intense a relief to be done with
         | them in the end, because of all the trouble they can't or won't
         | help bringing in train. I think the only true way to know you
         | have the respect of such a man is when you tell him he's out of
         | your life for good, and he listens.
         | 
         | Don't get me wrong - I do love a good Dick! The man wrote
         | beautifully. But I'm just as glad not to have known him in
         | person.
        
           | sonofhans wrote:
           | FWIW I know two people who did know him, and spent a lot of
           | time with him -- Ursula LeGuin (RIP) and my old lit prof at
           | PSU, Tony Wolk. They both reported him to be warm, humane,
           | erratic, brilliant, fascinating and rewarding to be around.
        
             | throwanem wrote:
             | Sure, no doubt; I'd say the same of the man I had most in
             | mind while writing my prior comment. It's just that that's
             | not all there is to say.
        
             | pa7ch wrote:
             | Do you know where to find Ursula's accounts of this? I've
             | always been interested in her writing and life.
        
               | sitkack wrote:
               | I have to say, she is a damn fine writer.
        
         | finnh wrote:
         | Good luck, in all sincerity. I think that feeling of actual
         | connection is something recognized by both parties, and
         | hopefully you can let that fear go.
        
         | jason-phillips wrote:
         | > Then when I finally connect with somebody I do like, I have
         | this constant fear that they're the ones pretending, while
         | harboring resentment towards me.
         | 
         | We're all pretending; some do it blindly. It's easier to see
         | once one is aware of that which underlies the automaton in all
         | of us.
        
         | mpol wrote:
         | Seneca said real friendship has 2 attributes. You trust someone
         | as much as you trust yourself. And you talk with the other
         | person the same way you talk to yourself when you are alone.
         | 
         | Now, you could easily know if that is true for yourself. I am
         | not sure how easy it is to know it of your friend.
        
           | gptgpp wrote:
           | Hate to dumb down this interesting conversation, but... You
           | guys talk to yourselves when you're alone?
           | 
           | When I'm alone I kind of like... stop existing? It's made me
           | come to the conclusion that our identity hugely depends on
           | social constructs and our relationships with others.
           | 
           | I have thoughts but they're definitely not conversational.
           | It's like, "me hungry, want lasagna" or thinking about
           | mathematical/programming concepts, or "I should read more
           | about this" or "I'm sad/happy this happened."
           | 
           | Somebody help me out here... please give me an example of how
           | you talk to yourself when you are alone? What is that like?
           | You have an actual dialogue with another entity that is also
           | you? It's very hard for me to wrap my head around.
           | 
           | edit: Nevermind found an answer... It's from "psychology
           | today" which I know is not the best, but it seems to cite an
           | actual study and be by an actual psychologist.
           | 
           | https://www.psychologytoday.com/gb/blog/pristine-inner-
           | exper...
           | 
           | Seems the experience of inner monologues/dialogues has a huge
           | amount of variation and isn't well understood. Neat!
           | 
           | I guess we can include Seneca was an inner-monologue-er. So
           | you guys think to yourselves but whenever you change your
           | mind you experience it as some sort of conversation with
           | yourself happening. Cool.
        
             | ljf wrote:
             | I have full on conversations when I'm alone, with myself,
             | with other people, maybe with myself as a child or at some
             | point I'm thinking about.
             | 
             | I can hear the voices with different sounds - just like my
             | friends voices - as I type this I loudly hear this in my
             | own voice.
             | 
             | I always assumed everyone was like this, but of friends
             | I've spoken to about this I'd say it is 50/50.
             | 
             | Sounds so quiet in your head! Must be peaceful. I imagine
             | mine is linked to (or part of my) adhd (though my I don't
             | have a formal diagnosis).
        
               | dleslie wrote:
               | It's not ADHD, many people do not have any inner
               | monologue.
               | 
               | Here's an interview with someone like that which goes
               | into detail on how she experiences the world:
               | 
               | https://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/saskatchewan/inner-
               | monologue-...
        
             | jrumbut wrote:
             | That's so funny to hear! For me there is, if anything, more
             | conversation when I'm alone.
        
             | sitkack wrote:
             | You don't talk to yourself? I have like at least 3-9 minds
             | in my head at anyone time.
        
             | shrimp_emoji wrote:
             | > _You guys talk to yourselves when you 're alone?_
             | 
             | All the time.
             | 
             | > _When I 'm alone I kind of like... stop existing?_
             | 
             | That sounds horrible and alien to me. I definitely exist,
             | and talking to myself articulates and reifies my own
             | thoughts. It's me helping myself think something through or
             | overcome something, emotionally.
             | 
             | If anything, there's "less of me" when I'm talking to
             | someone else since then it's like I'm operating in a
             | relationship-appropriate subset of my true self with them.
             | 
             | > _Somebody help me out here... please give me an example
             | of how you talk to yourself when you are alone? What is
             | that like? You have an actual dialogue with another entity
             | that is also you? It 's very hard for me to wrap my head
             | around._
             | 
             | I don't imagine a second self that I'm talking to and who's
             | talking back. I'm one entity, and I can just be vocalizing
             | thoughts. "Ok, so this code needs to do X..." Or, if I see
             | an HN thread about how people can't get laid and a
             | commenter is talking about low value women, "Haha, they ARE
             | low value -- how many of them can even install Arch Linux?
             | Granted, that's not because they're dumb; it's probably
             | societal pressures stacked against their ever being exposed
             | to things that would predispose them to install Arch.
             | That's good. I think I'll write that and contribute
             | productively to this awesome thread that I can obviously
             | relate to which is why I'm alone right now and able to
             | vocalize these thoughts without it being weird."
             | 
             | Often, it's also motivational. "Ok, dude. I need to take
             | out the trash. What can I do to get me to take out this
             | trash? What's a good reward? Let's make a deal. With
             | myself. Right now. Because I need a reward to carry out
             | basic functions like taking out the god damn trash." And
             | that helps me come to an accord with myself about the
             | trash. The act of verbalizing it makes the thoughts way
             | more powerful. A silent internal monologue would be way
             | less rousing. I can just sit there, in silence, looking at
             | the trash, thinking that, but my mind might just
             | disinterestedly drift into distraction.
             | 
             | I read once that Japanese subway workers physically gesture
             | and speak out loud (to themselves) things they're about to
             | do and that this minimizes their rate of mistakes. I think
             | it works similarly to that.
        
             | robinson7d wrote:
             | In my personal experience, inner monologue can vary within
             | an individual as well. Some days mine is similar to what
             | you've described ("me hungry, want lasagna" - love it!) but
             | other times it can be 2-4 voices all debating a topic from
             | different viewpoints. They're typically similar to one
             | another but different enough to know which is talking, sort
             | of differences in tone/pitch.
             | 
             | "Monologue" might not be the right word at that point
             | though? I guess it is all me, so the dialogue is a
             | monologue.
        
             | MrLeap wrote:
             | I have an internal monologue. After accidentally dropping a
             | spoon full of ice-cream on my shirt, I ruminated on what it
             | would take for me to look at that event as the catalyst of
             | an abrupt change in the trajectory of my life.
             | 
             | Then it's a flutter of little shards of partial thoughts
             | one after the other, trying to solve the A* from shirt
             | stain to self actualization. Then I went and changed my
             | shirt.
        
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