[HN Gopher] Why can't we remember being born or our first words?
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       Why can't we remember being born or our first words?
        
       Author : Tomte
       Score  : 41 points
       Date   : 2022-06-12 11:54 UTC (11 hours ago)
        
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       | dboreham wrote:
       | Because the brain is running the wetware equivalent of CP/M at
       | this point.
        
       | wudangmonk wrote:
       | I remember waking up and walking around the house until I ran
       | into one of my parents. My father was complaining about something
       | that apparantly I had done, he wanted me to say a phrase that
       | obviously pointed to me and I remember thinking that it was dumb
       | since that was the same as a confession.
       | 
       | Notheless I repeated it to him since more than anything it seemed
       | he just wanted me to say it for his own amusement. Shortly after
       | while I was under this fog of confussion I was given photographs
       | of me with some cousins at some nearby park, the event had
       | happened a week earlier and I was very intrigued by these photos
       | and spent a long time looking at them trying to recall the event
       | in some way but no matter how much I tried I never did, to me it
       | was the same as looking at a stranger's photos.
       | 
       | That's my first memory, since then its been an uninterrupted
       | stream. By my calculations I must have been older than 3 and
       | younger than 5 since I remember when my sister was born who is
       | the youngest but not my younger brothers. If someone ever
       | mentions a past event all I ever need is a few pieces and then I
       | will eventually recall without problems and with many more
       | details than they themselves remember, same thing with any
       | photograph that includes others. I've never experience anything
       | similar to that initial event.
        
       | dsego wrote:
       | I've lost the visual memories, but I remember having memories
       | from an early time, short glimpses. Things like trying to repeat
       | words and the grownups not being patient enough and moving onto
       | the next word before I could attempt to speak. Faint memories of
       | my first steps, walking from my father to my mother, being proud,
       | stuff like that. I remember a particular new year's eve, the
       | grownups were dancing and I was in a crib alone, feeling left
       | out. I remember not liking to wake up in the dark, being scared
       | and crying for mom to get in, or the sensation of having a soiled
       | diaper. People don't believe that I remember. My brother is the
       | same, we still hold onto some distinct memories from really early
       | on, although the specifics are getting muddled and eroded.
        
         | mwint wrote:
         | Wow, I always thought I had abnormally early memories, but
         | nothing like this. Do you have these memories only from being
         | very young? Or are the glimpses there from infant up to now?
        
           | dsego wrote:
           | Unfortunately, I'd forgotten a lot from my school years.
           | There are of course moments, some more vivid than others, but
           | I can't really remember my classmates, teachers, school
           | activities and such anymore. I don't really reminisce a lot,
           | maybe I could dig up the memories if I had someone else from
           | that period to talk to.
        
         | mongol wrote:
         | I remember being carried around, having diapers changed on some
         | table in a bathroom. "Oh back here again", I started to think.
         | I am not kidding, of course I did not think that in words, but
         | just the familiarity of it happening over and over. I believe
         | those are true memories.
        
         | [deleted]
        
         | abyssin wrote:
         | During a psychedelic trip, I had similar memories of how
         | difficult speaking was in early childhood. It made me quite
         | proud afterwards that I had finally managed to master speaking.
         | 
         | During the same trip, I also heard my mother as if my mental
         | dictionary of sounds was made of her voice.
        
       | noasaservice wrote:
       | Weirdly enough, I have a distinct memory when I was "young".
       | Young was in my case, 1.5 years old.
       | 
       | I met my great grandmother, whom was nearing her death. She knew
       | that we were making one last visit and that I was coming. I
       | remember meeting her, being in the old 80's hospital room with
       | the upper white and lower green tiles. I remember how frail her
       | hands were, like delicate paper. I remember getting out of my
       | stroller and laying my head on her hand, carefully.
       | 
       | I could feel this was my last and only moment with her, and that
       | somehow a continuation or some completion was right then and
       | there.
       | 
       | I have other memories that become more 'solid' later. My memories
       | really start around when I was 3 onwards, along when I was able
       | to read. I never was _taught_... I just knew how to. My mom even
       | still has my first alphabet I wrote down when I was 2.5y old.
        
         | ddingus wrote:
         | I have a couple! 2 years old and some change:
         | 
         | Direction was important to me somehow. I can remember the
         | orientation of every house we've lived in. And it's coarse,
         | like north, west, etc...
         | 
         | The very earliest one is of being in my crib, bouncing the
         | little spring that is wound around one of the shafts that hold
         | the crib together. I would lay there and lift it up, and it
         | would bounce. Boing, boing, boing... Lift higher, more bounces.
         | Slamming it down worked too. A related one, a bit later was
         | flicking the little springy door stop and realizing they were
         | the same kind of thing! And that realization is probably why I
         | remember.
         | 
         | I can remember my crib, parts of the house, and the porch with
         | little walk leading to the fence and the little gate that could
         | open to the sidewalk, out of our yard, into the world.
         | 
         | One day, my parents set me down, opened that gate and walked
         | next door, across the street! And there was this other little
         | kid. A little older than me, his name was "cash" and I had
         | associated "cash" with money, and why would someone name a
         | person like money? I thought about that a lot while we met, and
         | I have a set of photos from that day in my head. The walkway,
         | being set down to walk. The gate opening, or open. Walking up
         | to Cash, my parents on my left, us talking while they talked,
         | and then the best:
         | 
         | Cash said, "you want to play downstairs?" I said, "yeah"
         | because I had been downstairs in our house a time or two and
         | people had all manner of interesting stuff in the downstairs!
         | Parts, equipment, things, and all sorts of smells, and the
         | walls are usually not finished, can see stuff we don't always
         | see.
         | 
         | We walked in the door, Cash opened the door leading downstairs
         | and flicked a light switch, and the light came on. He said,
         | "Two way switch" and that it just worked when you needed it to.
         | I remember being super impressed! Like that was some high tech
         | our house did not have. Their house was much bigger than
         | ours...
         | 
         | I need to cut this short. Bottom line is those people were
         | thieves. They had way more stuff downstairs than I had seen and
         | it solidified in my mind. Tires, radios, stuff..
         | 
         | Years later, age 17'ish, I mentioned all this to my mother, who
         | said they moved after finding out!
         | 
         | The people in this discussion saying that memory is about
         | connections are on the right path. The earliest ones I have
         | also have a basis, a connection of sort, a place to be.
        
       | StopTheWorld wrote:
       | Another thing is how can we date when a memory is?
       | 
       | I have a collection of memories from when I was 22 months old,
       | but I can date those in retrospect. I also have various memories
       | of being fairly young, but have no idea if they were before or
       | after 22 months as there is nothing to date them by. It's not
       | that different than more modern memories - I can remember
       | something happened about a decade back, but often have no idea if
       | it happened eight years ago or twelve years ago, unless I can
       | date and contextualize it by some means.
        
         | jmyeet wrote:
         | I see a lot of claims like this. I believe you believe it's
         | true. The scientific evidence is to the contrary however.
         | 
         | Memory at this age is _extremely_ malleable. And I mean
         | "malleable" even years later. I mean "malleable" as in you can
         | create false memories. Consider this experiment [1].
         | Participants were told about meeting Bugs Bunny at Disney. A
         | significant number of participants then added their own stories
         | of the same thing happening. Bugs Bunny isn't at Disney. He's a
         | Warner Brothers character.
         | 
         | What I suspect happens is that you're told about these events
         | at various points, enough that you start to fill in the
         | details.
         | 
         | Dating memories from childhood is even more difficult. It's
         | easy to be _years_ off the mark. Often it 's only successfully
         | dated by corroborating details eg you remember a dog that died
         | when you were 4 or you remember your room in a house that you
         | moved out of.
         | 
         | [1]: https://www.washington.edu/news/2001/06/11/i-tawt-i-taw-a-
         | bu...
        
       | sampa wrote:
       | I remember reading a book by Soviet neuropsychologist Alexander
       | Luria about a man with 100% memory. Afair, he was able to recall
       | the events right from his birth when he was still in a a crib.
       | 
       | https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Solomon_Shereshevsky
        
       | crummy wrote:
       | There's an alternative explanation:
       | 
       | https://www.gocomics.com/calvinandhobbes/1989/08/01
        
       | elkos wrote:
       | My father died when I was 31/2 years old. Now that I'm a
       | toddler's father I remember a bit more of him and my mom carrying
       | me around or my crib.
       | 
       | Hope my kid will more memories of me, her mom and the people that
       | love her than the few I have of my dad.
        
       | aaron695 wrote:
        
       | uberdru wrote:
       | Lot of interesting comments here. It is odd that we Cartesians
       | consider "memory" to be a kind of passive process, like geologic
       | sedimentation, RAM, or something like a material impression.
       | Memory is interactive. It's a skill, like walking. I've taught
       | kids the art. It takes work and very specific techniques. I'd
       | point anyone interested in the topic to folks like Henri Bergson,
       | or Frances Yates's "Art of Memory".
        
       | analog31 wrote:
       | Being born is a clearly demarcated event, but first words are
       | probably not.
        
         | trompetenaccoun wrote:
         | More like being conceived is, but at the moment we likely
         | weren't conscious. From then on it is a long and slow process
         | of becoming aware. Birth is only one of many steps on the way,
         | it's more special for the mother and others than the person
         | itself.
        
       | mackman wrote:
       | I remember visiting my moms house in my 20s and seeing an old
       | dresser I had as a baby. I immediately had a flash of the feeling
       | of chewing on the drawer handle. My theory is that the memories
       | are there but they just don't make a lot of sense to us once we
       | start to use language for storage and recall.
        
       | mackman wrote:
       | We moved when my baby was one year old. Both our old and new
       | houses had stairs he would scoot down backwards on his belly.
       | Once right after we moved he would reach the bottom and keep
       | scooting backwards on the floor. He pretty clearly was thrown off
       | by the fewer steps in the new house.
        
       | dadjoker wrote:
       | As Steven Wright says, "I kept a diary when I was born. It said,
       | "Day 1 - Still recovering from the move. Day 2 - Everyone talks
       | to me like I'm an idiot."
        
       | strogonoff wrote:
       | Among the different takes on consciousness one goes that we
       | become conscious when our minds begin to model humans close to
       | us. As you model others in your mind continuously over time, you
       | end up modeling _their_ minds, which leads to creating a model of
       | yourself embedded in them; consciousness as a sort of feedback
       | loop.
       | 
       | Yes, it implies that we are essentially conscious _through
       | others_ and no man is truly an island.
       | 
       | As the article mentions, it might explain the lack of
       | autobiographical memories in early years.
       | 
       | It also explains how treating a person as if they were X results
       | in them eventually behaving as if they are X, especially if you
       | are of consequence to them (a parent, a teacher) or if this
       | treatment is persistent in their life. Since their model of
       | themselves is partly your model of them, it adjusts
       | correspondingly to whatever label they are assigned.
        
       | justinlloyd wrote:
       | Memory is weird.
       | 
       | Interestingly language shapes memory. There was a study I read
       | years ago (digging up that citation would be next to impossible)
       | that revolved around psychologists asking adults to recall
       | memories from their childhood. And what was curious about the
       | study is that all of the participants reverted to using simpler,
       | more child like vocabulary to describe the memories, because the
       | memories formed at the time were formed along with the level of
       | language they had.
       | 
       | I have observed this in myself when discussing certain computing
       | concepts, talking about projects I undertook 20 and 30+ years
       | ago, and describing in language those concepts that today we
       | would simply say "oh, that's this data structure" or a particular
       | technique or algorithm or concept.
       | 
       | You observe the same thing in certain cultures that do not have
       | the words to describe certain concepts, e.g. complex familial
       | relationships in English. And you observe certain things in
       | gendered and non-gendered Romance languages.
       | 
       | I grew up before there were camcorders and video recording in
       | every phone or even instamatic polaroid cameras in every hand at
       | every point in life, and I have "core memories", very distinct
       | events in my life, where I describe them as "riding a bicycle"
       | moment. One day you cannot ride a bicycle, and then something
       | clicks inside you, and then you can. Learning to swim, learning
       | to read, learning to ride a bicycle, learning to wire up a
       | circuit, learning to stand up in my crib, learning to take my
       | first steps, learning to get out of the pushchair. I have a
       | recurring nightmare, that has lessened over the years, as I've
       | gotten older, but still holds the same terror, that forms part of
       | my earliest memories, I would say I have had that nightmare
       | before I could even speak coherently. It's like a movie that
       | plays in my head, the exact same way, the exact same sounds, the
       | exact same feelings of dread.
       | 
       | I also log a lot of my life, so I don't recall "yesterday" but I
       | can tell you a lot of what was going on in my life on any
       | particular day, from deaths of pets and family members, to
       | changes to my workshop, to code I wrote, to algorithms I was
       | pondering, to new stuff I learnt.
        
       | al_borland wrote:
       | Most strong memories are either linked to a strong emotional
       | event or can be linked to a lot of other memories/ideas.
       | 
       | If I get a new piece of information, I'm much more likely to
       | remember it if I can relate it to things I already know. The
       | things that don't relate to anything else are difficult to
       | remember, or at least difficult to recall.
       | 
       | My theory is that when you're first born you have no basis to
       | relate anything to. Eventually you experience enough things that
       | your brain starts making connections to make it easier to start
       | remembering things. Those early memories, if they exist, are
       | orphaned and lost to time without a clear path to recall them.
        
         | kqr wrote:
         | Except when you're born you've been around for a few months
         | already, likely felt one thing or another shared with your
         | mother.
         | 
         | You're right in another way, though: when you are born your
         | body is still not physically wired up completely yet, a process
         | which starts in the womb but we're not in there long enough to
         | allow it to complete.
         | 
         | This is part of the reasons newborns flail around so much --
         | they're learning what's connected to what, and that takes lots
         | of repetition.
         | 
         | I would be surprised if this didn't affect the physical wiring
         | of the brain, too.
         | 
         | Also keep in mind that in the body, connectedness is not a
         | binary idea. It's really the strength of connections in
         | relation to each other that make up how we respond to things.
        
           | pessimizer wrote:
           | > Except when you're born you've been around for a few months
           | already
           | 
           | With the same level of stimulation that you get from a
           | sensory deprivation tank (by design.) Without memories and
           | associations to get lost in, lying in a sensory deprivation
           | tank would probably be a completely timeless thing, no
           | different than being dead. There's very little you're going
           | to learn in the womb that will help you to interpret what's
           | happening outside, other than you may get some experience
           | with the sounds of your mother's language. [edit: Feelings of
           | acceleration? A sense of one's own mass?]
        
       | mosquitobiten wrote:
       | Am I the only one who remembers the "black void"? Before my first
       | visual memory I was feeling something and nothing at the same
       | time, it was like a black void that lasted a moment.
        
         | mongol wrote:
         | I don't know what you refer to. But I have some kind of memory
         | that I think may be from the womb. It is very hard to put into
         | words, but something similar to waking up from sleep. Just a
         | memory of consciousness. Even if this memory may not be real,
         | just "remembering" it makes me dizzy, because it feels like it
         | is a memory from when the light was turned on inside me, so to
         | say. A very strange feeling.
        
         | peterburkimsher wrote:
         | My ex-girlfriend told a similar story. Her mum had chosen a
         | "natural" home birth without anaesthetic.
         | 
         | Years later, soon after learning to speak, the baby girl (my
         | ex) kept talking about going back into the warm, dark, safe
         | room.
         | 
         | By the time she and I were in a relationship, it was unclear
         | whether it was her own memory, or just what her mother had
         | repeated back to her over the years. But the story has stuck,
         | and it does make me think deeply about life.
        
       | pessimizer wrote:
       | There's very little in a baby's head to hang those memories on.
       | Not only can we not remember birth, but I'd bet that the baby
       | doesn't remember it after five minutes or so (after the fear that
       | it might happen again dies down.)
       | 
       | The only reason I can recall anything is because the words that I
       | use to try to recall it ("what did I do yesterday morning?") take
       | me down a chain of associations that hopefully will spit me out
       | yesterday morning sometime, and that thing I remembered (maybe
       | that I dropped one of my shoes when I was putting them on, or
       | that one of my teeth hurt when I brushed it) can be a conduit to
       | remember the rest of my morning.
       | 
       | The memory experiment just seems like spaced repetition to me
       | [edit:which you can use to teach a cockroach, or a worm.] They
       | show a baby a unique object with a particular use. The next time
       | they show the baby that unique object, they either recall the
       | particular use, or the experimenter demonstrates it again. As
       | these periods grow longer and longer, the memories grow longer.
       | The intuitive reason it would be less effective earlier in life
       | than later is because babies can't see properly, or understand
       | the positions of things in space, so they don't care when a
       | mobile or a train moves; they don't recognize it as interesting.
       | 
       | Note: I can never remember what I did yesterday morning, because
       | with the way I process the world, there's usually nothing in the
       | sentence "What did you do yesterday morning?" that would
       | associate with a particular day; every morning is yesterday
       | morning. If I'm celebrating having done something significant
       | "yesterday," however, I can start with that thing and work
       | backwards to how I prepared for that thing. Some people are
       | journalers/diarists, or heavily scheduled, and knowing what they
       | have to do today, or maybe the last thing they wrote in their
       | journal, would bring up almost immediately the memories that I
       | have a huge difficulty recalling.
        
         | codefreeordie wrote:
         | We have done some interesting studies on infant memories. At
         | first, you are correct that they basically can't remember
         | anything.
         | 
         | Even then, though. At a very early age, they will recognize
         | their mother. This comes well before "object permanence," which
         | happens at about 8 months.
         | 
         | (Object Permanence is the ability to remember a thing even
         | after you can't see it anymore, and to recognize it as the
         | same, rather than a new one, when it returns. It is the ability
         | to mentally follow an object when it "goes away" and to
         | understand that it still exists)
        
           | pessimizer wrote:
           | > At a very early age, they will recognize their mother.
           | 
           | If there's any stimulus that gets worked over and over, it's
           | your mother's face. Surely in a traditional mother-child
           | relationship you use your mother's face to learn how faces
           | work, probably even your own face.
           | 
           | I'm not sure what you're trying to explain to me. I'm aware
           | of object permanence.
        
             | RobotCaleb wrote:
             | Maybe they were trying to explain object permanence to you?
             | How do they know you know it already?
        
       | dontbenebby wrote:
       | Would you want to?
        
       | ksaj wrote:
       | I think in order to recall something, you need to have some
       | internalized understanding of it. In those very early formative
       | years, you're still trying to understand 3D vision, and haven't
       | yet learned to apply the shapes and colours you see to the
       | crayons your using to scribble on the wall.
       | 
       | In the same way that if you fail a high school math test based on
       | material you covered in class already, it is because you were
       | unable to recall the bits you don't yet understand. You've seen
       | it before the test, but since you didn't understand it, you can't
       | recall and apply it.
        
       | lottin wrote:
       | I remember standing on two legs for the first time.
        
       | jannikarndt wrote:
       | I find the distinction between "semantic memories" (of facts),
       | "procedural memories" (how to do something) and "autobiographical
       | memories" (stories from the past) very helpful when thinking
       | about memories.
        
         | verisimi wrote:
         | Yes - that's very good.
         | 
         | I would re-state what you said as:
         | 
         | "semantic memories" (of facts in objective reality),
         | "procedural memories" (how to do something) and
         | "autobiographical memories" (of subjective experience).
        
       | wmwmwm wrote:
       | I remember several times putting my eldest son to bed when he was
       | a few months old and having this intrusive thought that maybe the
       | reason why he was yelling was because he knew he wouldn't
       | remember today when he woke up the next day and that every day
       | was like being reborn! Darker than a Black Mirror episode for
       | sure! It only went away when he started developing more of his
       | own personality
       | 
       | (This stuff + sleep deprivation is a heady cocktail!)
        
         | eatbitseveryday wrote:
         | Better yet: do not feel as bad because kids won't remember. If
         | you are sleep-training them and they cry for hours, they won't
         | remember the next day anyway.
         | 
         | Edit: this is what a pediatrician said to help console a parent
         | who was hesitant to try sleep training
        
         | jessermeyer wrote:
         | This is some approximation of what half the globe already
         | believes to occur with reincarnation, but it is not felt
         | exclusively as a dark terror. More like the setting and rising
         | of the sun. The nights are dark and full of terror, but it is
         | cast away with the coming rays.
        
         | treeman79 wrote:
         | https://hyperioncantos.fandom.com/wiki/Merlin_Sickness
         | 
         | A variation on Merlin Sickness.
        
       | tails4e wrote:
       | I've a terrible memory (actually I think its more accurate to say
       | recall, the memories are in there, it's just hard to access at
       | times). However my earliest memory is of seeing an orange glow as
       | I was on bed. I found out many years later, well in my 20s, that
       | I used to sleep in a cot in my parents room that had an electric
       | bar heater on the wall. We moved from that house before I was 1.
       | Crazy.
        
       | cvccvroomvroom wrote:
       | Compared to many other species except marsupials, human babies
       | aren't close to fully developed. It has to do with evolutionarily
       | with infant brain size and the size of a woman's pelvis. Few
       | other animals have such as a high mortality rate. Sheep, which
       | are domesticated animals, are close in infant mortality rate to
       | humans.
        
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