[HN Gopher] The internet changed my life
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       The internet changed my life
        
       Author : janvdberg
       Score  : 501 points
       Date   : 2022-01-19 18:11 UTC (1 days ago)
        
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       | Brajeshwar wrote:
       | I have a cousin much older than me. Everyone thinks he is weird,
       | and he is indeed. Absolutely no one understood the things he do,
       | why he does a particular thing but I found him pretty
       | fascinating. Once in a particular talk session with him, we
       | discussed about the upcoming thing called Internet. This was 1993
       | or 1995 -- about the time Internet was a buzzword and soon to be
       | introduced in India.
       | 
       | Besides all the talks, I will never forget what he told me.
       | Something in the lines of -- anyone from anywhere can do anything
       | they want for anyone anywhere. I would spend hours reading the
       | magazines he bought, and tinkering with his computer.
       | 
       | It wasn't until 1999 that I was introduced to the Internet and
       | (maybe) another 5-7 years for him. Well, I felt right at home on
       | day-zero, and I knew that changed everything for me.
        
         | sillysaurusx wrote:
         | So what did you do with this knowledge? I was 11 in 1999 and
         | couldn't do much.
        
           | Brajeshwar wrote:
           | Well, here is the brief https://brajeshwar.com/about/
        
           | laputan_machine wrote:
           | I was 11 in '99 too, we had the internet since 97/98. I spent
           | my time making dumb websites and playing Half-Life mods
           | online (tf/cs/sven coop). Great times. The one strange thing
           | I often think about is that I don't remember any toxicity,
           | nothing like it is today in online games.
        
             | fy20 wrote:
             | Same age, but I didn't really get into online communities
             | until the early noughties. I got into programming working
             | with a gaming community to build out their website
             | (building phpBB themes and mods) and building a matching
             | service, and then it went from there... There was
             | definately a lot of toxicity in that community though (even
             | though we had maybe 20 regular members), so I think you
             | were lucky :)
        
             | JKCalhoun wrote:
             | Old internet was better than new internet.
             | 
             | What would I bring from 2022 back to 1999?
             | 
             | Our robust Wikipedia. archive.org. Stackoverflow. YouTube.
             | Github.
             | 
             | Maybe just those?
        
               | skinkestek wrote:
               | I'm not sure I'd bring back the 2022 version of
               | Stackoverflow, somewhere the last 5 years it went from
               | just rampant deletionism to ugly.
               | 
               | Can we take HN instead?
        
             | 101008 wrote:
             | I know you say it without any offense, but don't call them
             | "dumb websites". They were the thing I miss mostly about
             | the old internet, specific niche websites made by people
             | with passion for every need.
             | 
             | - Specific websites for Half-Life mods run by a group of
             | people from different parts of the world with a creative
             | name (now you have to go to a subreddit or discord with a
             | generic name, because of SEO?) - Specific website to follow
             | all the news about my favourite soccer team, visiting every
             | hour or two hours to see if they updated something. Now
             | Twitter (Instagram later) has stolen that urgent sense. -
             | Am I waiting for a new movie? Let's update the forum that I
             | regular visit to see if the studio released a new trailer
             | in .mov format and different resolutions. When it's done,
             | send the link to my friends over MSN. Now it's on YouTube
             | and I get a notification.
             | 
             | Those dumb websites were the best and I am glad people like
             | us spent their teen years creating them. Not only because I
             | learnt a lot (and now I am a professinal thanks to them),
             | but also because I think we give enjoyment to a lot of
             | people around the world just because of it.
        
               | kitsunesoba wrote:
               | Honestly I think there's still a lot of space for simple
               | HTML niche interest websites today, based on my
               | experiences with various hobbies and topics. It's
               | surprising how many things out there don't have any "one
               | stop" pages, requiring anybody who's just getting started
               | to have to synthesize from several different places of
               | varying accuracy, completeness, and relevance.
        
               | kragen wrote:
               | It's just hard to find them nowadays because they don't
               | rank on Google.
        
             | sylens wrote:
             | Is it weird to have nostalgia for sitting in a download
             | queue for patches to Half-Life and its mods on FilePlanet
             | or FileShack?
        
             | tremon wrote:
             | _I don 't remember any toxicity_
             | 
             | I'm sure there was plenty, judging from ancient IRC logs
             | that drift by occasionally. But maybe those were saved
             | because they were still the exception.
             | 
             | The kids from back then were also raised in a directly-
             | connected environment (the only non-direct communication
             | was via snail mail, or "mail" as it was called), so they'd
             | get corrected much sooner for violating the social contract
             | in some way. Most children quickly learned to keep their
             | unkind thoughts to themselves. The kids today are growing
             | up with all manner of indirect connections, which both have
             | fewer opportunities to correct behaviour and even if those
             | corrections do happen, they're unlikely to have as much
             | effect (if any) as real-life direct feedback.
             | 
             | Also, the Internet wasn't "popular" back then so if people
             | were bored, they'd hang out and troll somewhere else, like
             | a mall or a parking lot. The Internet was mainly inhabited
             | by serious people back then, I guess.
             | 
             | That's my two cents, at least. In today's currency, not
             | inflation-adjusted.
        
         | nefitty wrote:
         | Damn, that is actually pretty trippy to imagine. I can engage
         | in transactions with basically anyone on the planet... That was
         | part of what used to excite me about crypto.
        
           | selestify wrote:
           | Why doesn't that excite you anymore?
        
             | krallja wrote:
             | Excitement has a $52 gas fee.
        
               | nefitty wrote:
               | Yeah, it also feels grimey and risky, like buying crappy
               | drugs in an alley.
        
       | burntoutfire wrote:
       | The Internet was an important stepping stone towards web3.0.
        
         | qnsi wrote:
         | web 3 is going great
         | 
         | https://web3isgoinggreat.com/
        
           | exikyut wrote:
           | I honestly don't think the cynicism this site is basically
           | powered by is unwarranted. One needs sharp needles to pop
           | thick balloons, or something.
           | 
           | It also has a pretty nice design too.
        
       | lordnacho wrote:
       | Great essay. I also got on IRC in the late 90s and ran into
       | someone who was feeling down. They didn't say they were about to
       | kill themselves, luckily, just that they were quite depressed.
       | Somehow before the everyone got online I had a number of quite
       | deep conversations with people.
       | 
       | The internet now is a double edged sword. You can learn a lot
       | from it, you can give or get help, you can do things that you
       | couldn't just a few years ago. But you can also get helplessly
       | addicted to things you find there, spending years looking for a
       | dopamine hit that you perhaps thought was on the other side of
       | the sword.
        
       | marban wrote:
       | Speaking of fads, it's always fun to revisit the naysayer
       | comments on Slashdot when the iPod, iPhone, etc. were announced.
        
         | chinathrow wrote:
         | The famous reply to the introduction of Dropbox [1] here on HN
         | in 2007 comes to mind:
         | 
         | "1. For a Linux user, you can already build such a system
         | yourself quite trivially by getting an FTP account, mounting it
         | locally with curlftpfs, and then using SVN or CVS on the
         | mounted filesystem. From Windows or Mac, this FTP account could
         | be accessed through built-in software."
         | 
         | [1] https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=8863
        
         | phone8675309 wrote:
         | No wireless. Less space than a nomad. Lame.
        
         | bserge wrote:
        
       | richardfey wrote:
       | This story is so heart warming! Loved it
        
       | exikyut wrote:
       | > _The next day, I had the TV on in the background and the
       | evening news program was just starting. At the start of the
       | bulletin, they gave a quick outline of the stories they were
       | going to cover. Among those stories, the news anchor read
       | something to the lines of "an internet user saves the life of a
       | young woman in distress". Then they cut for an ad break. I was
       | very excited to hear the actual news story, but suddenly, my
       | mother called out "dinner is ready!" and insisted that I come and
       | sit down to eat. I got distracted, and I never did hear the full
       | news story (ha!)._
       | 
       | It would be really cool if it were somehow possible to pin down
       | the time this was aired on TV and identify the full bulletin.
       | 
       | I wonder if the author remembers the rough time period this
       | happened within. Even a span of months to years doesn't produce
       | an intractably-sized search space.
        
         | mooreds wrote:
         | I got the chills when I read this section. What an act of
         | kindness!
        
         | maxime_cb wrote:
         | I honestly don't remember which exact year this happened. I can
         | give you a super wide time bracket to make sure it's in this
         | range, which is between 1998 and 2004. In actuality it was
         | probably closer to 2000-2002. It was aired on one of the big
         | French Montreal news channels (TVA, TQS). It was probably TVA
         | because we watched the news there most of the time. The new
         | bulletin aired ~6PM. They used the French term "internaute" to
         | talk about an internet user. So you might try keywords like
         | "internaute sauve jeune femme". I'd be curious to watch it if
         | it's somehow possible to find it. I don't need to contact the
         | person and I don't need a "thank you" though. I just hope that
         | wherever she is, she's doing okay :)
        
       | sylens wrote:
       | I had a much more stable upbringing and family life than the
       | author, but one area that I can relate to is being incredibly
       | bored as a kid - most of my friends lived across major roads or
       | outside of walking distance in suburbia. The internet and all it
       | offered was an endless fountain of entertainment for me. I really
       | don't know what I would have done without it.
        
       | af8a90n2mr wrote:
       | I hope his mother eventually received the help she needed.
       | 
       | I know it can be difficult as a child to see through the flaws of
       | a troubled parent, it's difficult to feel more than resent when
       | you have to live through it night and day - an occasional glimmer
       | of their vulnerability might open your eyes as child, that they
       | are just another human struggling like you, but it can be
       | fleeting.
       | 
       | I've been in a similar but far less extreme situation. With time
       | it's possible to appreciate what was essentially a dysfunctional
       | yet supportive parent, she was clearly a well intentioned, good
       | person trying to do the right thing. As much as her mental health
       | troubled her, she clearly cared far more than many better
       | positioned parents out there.
        
         | pwdisswordfish0 wrote:
         | > I hope his mother eventually received the help she needed.
         | 
         | "His"?
        
           | mmcgaha wrote:
           | Thank you for making me go back and look. I was reading this
           | from the perspective of a young boy too. For whatever reason
           | I visualized myself when I was reading this.
        
             | maxime_cb wrote:
             | I specifically didn't mention gender in the story because I
             | figured that it would make it easier for more people to
             | relate. When you write a story, you get to choose which
             | aspects to highlight on or not :)
        
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           | 8addd76a wrote:
        
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         | sha256sum wrote:
         | One thing I have learned as a parent is that you grow with your
         | child. I've also learned that some people simply should not
         | raise children, let alone by themselves.
         | 
         | I hold much more sympathy for the author. Hopefully all
         | involved have gotten the help they need, but in perspective
         | this person did little to change it sounds like and deprived
         | the author of a loving household. Those who survived violent
         | upbringings from parents understand.
        
           | maxime_cb wrote:
           | It was a strange mix. She was a very loving mother when I was
           | a kid. She told me that I was a wanted child (not an
           | accident), and that I was the most important person in her
           | life. I have good memories from when I was 4 to 8 years old.
           | Things took a turn for the worse when her mental illness
           | surfaced, but it was always like, she really wanted to be a
           | good parent and she really tried her best, but the mental
           | illness made that difficult/impossible.
        
       | toyg wrote:
       | The internet to me was a blessing and a curse. In economic terms,
       | it has granted me lots of opportunities I might have not
       | otherwise had; in social terms, it has taken a big toll,
       | significantly isolating me from the world, which I didn't admit
       | until very recently. I remember a smart classmate at university
       | who, one day, just stopped attending and sold his computers,
       | saying something like "these little colored lights have turned me
       | into something I don't like". Some days I wish I had done the
       | same.
        
         | slothtrop wrote:
         | I've forgotten what the alternative is like. Most of my
         | hobbies, notwithstanding the minimal social media use, rely on
         | the computer. I use it to write, to manage and search recipes
         | to cook with, to use music notation or tabs, to game. I've had
         | to deliberately schedule some low-tech/low-fi activities for
         | myself but they are few in number: there is a barrier of
         | inconvenience in the form of travel, cost, and timing for
         | social activities. Therefore they are relegated to the weekends
         | if anything. I wonder if historically after working hours and
         | time with family, were people primarily engaged in social
         | activity owing to the dearth of ways to amuse ourselves alone?
         | I say this not really wanting or missing more of a social life
         | than I have, I have my needs met with just family and
         | occasional friends. On the other hand I recognize a kind of
         | saturation point with electronic use, that if I rely on them
         | too long it is to the detriment of my well-being.
         | 
         | All of which to say I have no idea how I ought to organize life
         | around computers differently.
        
           | basisword wrote:
           | >> All of which to say I have no idea how I ought to organize
           | life around computers differently.
           | 
           | I'll give you an example of something I've done recently
           | which has made a big difference. Although, I don't have ideas
           | on how to apply this to other aspects of my computer use (but
           | open to ideas).
           | 
           | I listen to a lot of music. My teenage years/20's revolved
           | completely around music. But I've gotten to a point where
           | Apple Music/Spotify have become like Netflix to me - I have
           | so much choice I don't know what to choose. I like to buy
           | vinyl but it's expensive and not practical for most of my
           | daily listening. I thought about it and realised that, for
           | me, the time when music and technology merged for the best
           | overall experience was the iPod (pre-Touch). I would mostly
           | listen to albums I bought via iTunes (i.e. I cared enough
           | about them to spend money and would listen to them a lot) and
           | I checked out new music via Spotify (which was available in
           | the UK in maybe 06/07) and then bought the stuff I liked on
           | iTunes so I could take it with me on my iPod.
           | 
           | So I bought an iPod Classic on eBay. I deleted all the music
           | I'd 'added' to Apple Music over the years leaving only my
           | pre-streaming purchases (I also signed up for iTunes Match to
           | backup and sync all my Bandcamp purchases + vinyl download
           | card tracks). I've went back to my system of Spotify for new
           | stuff, purchasing new stuff on iTunes, and syncing it to my
           | iPod. It weirdly feels like a burden has been lifted having
           | so much unnecessary choice removed. It's giving me a chance
           | to get obsessed with the stuff I like again instead of
           | quickly moving on to the next thing the algorithm throws at
           | me. I highly recommend it. Currently thinking of ways I can
           | apply this elsewhere in my life (e.g. purchasing TV/movies on
           | iTunes instead of using streaming services but this could get
           | very expensive very quickly).
        
             | slothtrop wrote:
             | Personally I don't rely on Spotify for recs, or even
             | regular listening. I like finding things through online
             | communities (including old ones), college radio, and in
             | lesser cases the youtube algorithm.
             | 
             | My only purchases now are through bandcamp or at concerts.
        
               | basisword wrote:
               | Likewise. The Spotify listening I do is to check out
               | albums I've discovered elsewhere before putting down some
               | money for them. So typically new releases from artists I
               | already know, recommendations from friends, or support
               | acts at concerts I'm planning to attend. I should try to
               | purchase through Bandcamp more as a first option before
               | iTunes.
        
         | Simon321 wrote:
         | You've isolated yourself from the world man, if it wasn't
         | Internet it would've been something else. If you really don't
         | want to be isolated you can change that right now.
        
           | mchaver wrote:
           | > if it wasn't Internet it would've been something else
           | 
           | I think that is a big assumption to make for someone we don't
           | know well. I do believe some unique experiences can have a
           | huge effect on individuals and other experiences might not
           | replicate the same results.
        
           | Cthulhu_ wrote:
           | I mean, the internet IS (was?) my social life; I hate going
           | out (see: overstimulation / sensory processing disorder), I
           | didn't understand existing social activities (see: autism
           | spectrum disorder), and most 'nerdy' hobbies that are then
           | advertised are dominated by (often toxic) men that I don't
           | want to associate with.
           | 
           | I mean I don't think I'm that far out there, these activities
           | cost a lot of mental energy and leaving my comfort zone, and
           | I like to think that thanks to the pandemic, a lot more
           | people have become OK with being at home.
           | 
           | Anyway yeah, the internet was my social life, it's where I
           | met my live-in girlfriend, it's where I spend my spare time,
           | it's fine for me.
        
           | periphrasis wrote:
           | Agreed on the latter point. But on the former, would it
           | though? Prior to the internet, isolating yourself from the
           | world involved making a very deliberate and drastic life
           | choice that completely changed your environment, like joining
           | a monastery. Now though, a compelling and addictive alternate
           | world awaits us in our pocket at all times. Indeed, I doubt
           | either of us really cares much about this "conversation" or
           | each other yet here we are wasting part of our morning
           | shouting into the void. On that note I think I'm done with
           | unintentional internet use for the day.
        
             | toyg wrote:
             | _> I doubt either of us really cares much about this
             | "conversation" or each other yet here we are_
             | 
             | One of the big problems is that we _do_ care for the
             | _conversation_ on these forums (see also the classic
             | "somebody is WRONG on the internet" xkcd), but we _don 't
             | really care for each other_. Relatively few of us end up
             | actually meeting offline or ever establishing real
             | relationships. So you get the illusion of socialization,
             | but when the chips are down, nobody is going to care in
             | your hour of need - which means you're indeed alone
             | shouting into the void.
             | 
             | This was maybe less pronounced in the '90s, when internet
             | groups were smaller and tighter. It's like sitting at some
             | cafe on a small square talking to strangers - where in the
             | past you'd be talking to the small cast of regulars,
             | because the square was a bit hidden away from the main flow
             | of people, but it has been since discovered by tourists,
             | and now you're just chatting with passersby you'll never
             | meet again, about topics you'll never do anything about.
        
             | JKCalhoun wrote:
             | Spot on. Much, much easier to isolate yourself now.
             | 
             | In fact, I'll concede it is even possible that you have to
             | work _not_ to isolate yourself when, after dipping your toe
             | into the internet, you trip into the rabbit hole.
        
               | sam0x17 wrote:
               | It cuts both ways though. Without the internet I know for
               | one I would definitely be a lot more isolated and have
               | fewer social connections.
        
         | andrew_eit wrote:
         | I don't understand these negative comments about what
         | "computers/internet" has done to me etc.
         | 
         | Yes, there are certainly aspects of computers, the internet and
         | especially social networking and instant-texting that have a
         | net negative impact on our lives.
         | 
         | But this argument strikes me as a "I'm such a victim" argument.
         | Surely if you allow some device to have such a massive negative
         | impact on your life then this would be the case even pre-90s
         | before computers and the internet became mainstream?
         | 
         | - Maybe you might have spent too much time hanging out at your
         | local bar? - Perhaps you'd have been addicted to television?
         | 
         | The one area, where I wholeheartedly agree and recognize the
         | serious dangerous of the internet and computer devices is in
         | children. The threat of cyber-bullying and indeed, rather more
         | subtle, the attention-seeking culture of always producing
         | content at a young age is IMO, very scary when thought of in
         | the context that these will be future adults who didn't know
         | better. We need to guard against these enabled social pressures
         | like we protect kids from smoking, drugs, alcohol and even to a
         | lesser extend (i.e. it's not illegal) addictions to things like
         | TV, video games and other behaviors that they might fall prey
         | to.
         | 
         | I guess, summed up what I am saying is: It appears that there
         | the internet has developed a predatory nature on one's
         | attention that extends to threaten one's social status and
         | reputation.
         | 
         | Where I disagree is that - as adults - we know better and can
         | combat this with self-discipline and by choosing our
         | friends/social circles wisely (I don't engage with friends who
         | constantly text or post online. I'm happy to meet but they know
         | not to expect my participation there).
         | 
         | Where I agree is that, children are vulnerable to this and must
         | be protected AND TAUGHT how to treat / interact with the
         | internet.
         | 
         | Unfortunately, since this is relatively a new thing in society.
         | We have not yet developed a solid culture around what is
         | acceptable and what is not. Just like it is inconceivable now
         | to smoke inside a closed room, or someone's house, I do hope
         | that in the future it would be inconceivable to upload
         | compromising information/pictures to random servers in foreign
         | countries. But alas, we are not there yet.
        
           | Mezzie wrote:
           | > The one area, where I wholeheartedly agree and recognize
           | the serious dangerous of the internet and computer devices is
           | in children. The threat of cyber-bullying and indeed, rather
           | more subtle, the attention-seeking culture of always
           | producing content at a young age is IMO, very scary when
           | thought of in the context that these will be future adults
           | who didn't know better. We need to guard against these
           | enabled social pressures like we protect kids from smoking,
           | drugs, alcohol and even to a lesser extent (i.e. it's not
           | illegal) addictions to things like TV, video games and other
           | behaviors that they might fall prey to.
           | 
           | This is always an interesting discussion to me as one of the
           | first kids to really grow up online. (It still weirds me out
           | that my childhood is illegal now.)
           | 
           | > Unfortunately, since this is relatively a new thing in
           | society. We have not yet developed a solid culture around
           | what is acceptable and what is not.
           | 
           | Also unfortunately, I doubt we will until Gen Z and Gen Alpha
           | grow up and start having their own kids. I didn't really
           | start to reckon with the bad parts of growing up online and
           | the ways that it may have shifted my development until I was
           | in my 30s and starting to see the same behavior in current
           | kids and realizing 'wow, that was f'ed up.' Right now, there
           | just aren't many adults who can speak to spending a shit ton
           | of time online as pre-teens, and kids can smell inexperienced
           | bullshit a mile away.
           | 
           | The other possible outcome is that the curriculum/culture for
           | this will be written by people in power who have no idea what
           | being a child on the internet is actually like + it will be
           | written as a political football, so it will be completely
           | ineffectual.
        
           | bserge wrote:
        
           | JKCalhoun wrote:
           | > Surely if you allow some device to have such a massive
           | negative impact on your life then this would be the case even
           | pre-90s before computers and the internet became mainstream?
           | 
           | Yes, but we are not living in the pre-90's. The internet is
           | the TV/bar/etc. for us now. Some of us recognize that we not
           | only gained but lost something as well.
           | 
           | And we want what we lost back.
        
             | andrew_eit wrote:
             | In many ways I agree with you. I would like also to return
             | to simpler times. Especially insta-texting (whatsapp) etc.
             | SMS was fine for me to organise a meetup and then talk in
             | person.
             | 
             | I guess my stance is more kind of to protect my mental
             | sanity, to try and make this a "self-discipline" problem
             | that I can control, and hence reduce my exposure/time
             | online. That suits me but I do agree that to some degree
             | there needs to be a wider societal change and I do agree
             | that it can't all be placed on the individual to be super
             | strong mentally when the internet is now literally a life
             | necessity for operating in society in any dimension.
        
             | slothtrop wrote:
             | Do we really want a return of drinking at the bar after
             | work?
             | 
             | I think a lot of social validation once came easy by mere
             | virtue that we lived so closely to one another, and
             | suburbia flipped that on it's head. Once it was the case
             | that social activity required a) transport, b) money, c)
             | time, it has become increasingly devoid from weeknights. We
             | could remedy this by changing physical structures, but we
             | won't.
        
               | JKCalhoun wrote:
               | In the U.S. we never had a "local" (Public House, Pub).
               | But from what I understand, it was a nice way to mingle
               | with those not necessarily in your social class,
               | "industry".
               | 
               | The DMV feels to me like the only place now where I share
               | a seat with people not like me.
        
           | slothtrop wrote:
           | Will highlight from your comments that alcohol consumption
           | appeared to be more of a scourge before the internet. Before
           | the world of personal leisure opened up, and after the
           | creation of disconnected suburbia, I would guess drinking at
           | the bar with workmates was a common extracurricular.
        
           | toyg wrote:
           | _> Surely if you allow some device to have such a massive
           | negative impact on your life then this would be the case even
           | pre-90s before computers and the internet became mainstream?_
           | 
           | The mechanisms of addiction and socialization are definitely
           | more complex than "it made me do it". I'm not saying that
           | without the internet I would have become World President, but
           | the technology definitely nudged me towards indulging some of
           | the worst traits in my character. It also allowed me to
           | tolerate situations that, probably, I should not have
           | tolerated - which feels good in the immediate but can
           | actually postpone a necessary reckoning. And it heavily
           | influenced my career choices, with mixed results.
           | 
           |  _> Maybe you might have spent too much time hanging out at
           | your local bar? - Perhaps you 'd have been addicted to
           | television?_
           | 
           | Maybe, but those are well-known behaviors, fairly easy to
           | spot and compensate for. Bars are actually hypersocial and
           | promote local connections and some degree of personal
           | expression. TV is very passive and boring, whereas on the
           | internet there is always something new to read or do.
           | 
           | It wasn't until the '80s that we got a fairly solid (and
           | popular) understanding of the mechanisms of broadcasting,
           | some 60 years since it had become mainstream; as you said,
           | there are a lot of things we don't know about the new world
           | of 24h online access. Undoubtedly my life choices are
           | ultimately my fault, but "no man is an island" cuts both ways
           | - particularly because I see a lot of my (bad) experiences
           | replicated in a lot of my friends.
        
             | andrew_eit wrote:
             | I see your point and think you have quite a valid argument
             | there! Some of the things you said definitely echo with my
             | experiences. For example, I do surf the net too much
             | because I love new information. And perhaps without that
             | access I'd be a lot happier focusing on actual physical
             | things in front of me.
             | 
             | I guess it's not as simple as boiling it down to the
             | individual's own self-control. To some degree maybe my
             | stance is also biased in that I want to empower myself to
             | be the one to reduce my time online.
        
             | mzg wrote:
             | > It wasn't until the '80s that we got a fairly solid (and
             | popular) understanding of the mechanisms of broadcasting
             | 
             | Curious what you mean by "the mechanisms of broadcasting"
             | here--what discovery/formalization/legislation/else do you
             | mean?
        
         | abyssin wrote:
         | This reminds me of the saying in the psychedelic culture: "Once
         | you've got the message, hang up the phone." In March 2021 I
         | made a similar decision regarding my use of Reddit. I've lost
         | years doom-scrolling, but it's also taught me useful things,
         | especially regarding how to take care of my health. Now I feel
         | like I'm getting more from books and I've transitioned to
         | reading more of them. (Some of the reclaimed time also went
         | towards caring for my first child.)
         | 
         | It isn't too late to hang up the phone.
        
           | JackFr wrote:
           | Stopped going on Facebook and Reddit.
           | 
           | YMMV but I honestly felt much better nearly immediately. My
           | life didn't change in any macro sense - same job, same
           | relationships etc, but baseline mood improved.
           | 
           | Again YMMV, and I'm loathe to say Facebook or Reddit or
           | Twitter or anything is bad or evil or even addictive. I'm not
           | a crusader. But for me going on Facebook for an hour
           | subjectively made me less happy than not going on Facebook.
        
           | iratewizard wrote:
           | Same boat on turning off reddit years ago. I hope
           | significantly more people do the same.
        
             | BolexNOLA wrote:
             | I unsubbed from all default subs except "world news" (which
             | I don't comment in) and basically only hang out on my niche
             | hobby/professional subs now. If you curate it and cut out
             | the really toxic, highly-attractive subs that really pull
             | you in, it's a _way_ better experience. Took me almost 10
             | years recognize the issue but I'm glad I did.
        
             | Cthulhu_ wrote:
             | It's all right these days, if you're into mindless
             | entertainment; they got rid of a lot of the more toxic
             | parts (the_donald and co) and pornography is de-emphasized,
             | likely will be removed altogether in the future. My feeds
             | are now mainly poorly Paint-edited memes, cat photos /
             | videos, and sometimes a bit of drama from the relationships
             | or "am I the asshole" subreddits.
             | 
             | I don't actually do that much for mental stimulation
             | anymore. HN doesn't do it for me anymore since three
             | quarters are about technology or industries I'm far removed
             | from, plus I never liked the SV culture of overhyping and
             | grinding out startups to fish for early retirement. It's
             | that culture that gave us the gig economy and that
             | encourages the sigma male grindset bullshit where if you
             | don't work 16 hours a day maintaining a healthy daily
             | balance of soylent, melatonin, LSD and meditation you're
             | not cool enough.
        
               | grp000 wrote:
               | 5 years later, browsing r/all is much worse in other
               | ways. Porn has been de-emphasized, but every other post
               | feels like an outrage post designed to evoke anger, often
               | without any proof, and it's enough to get people
               | completely riled up.
        
               | Mezzie wrote:
               | Same hat, though I've mostly moved on to TikTok for my
               | mindless entertainment.
               | 
               | HN is better because there are other internet olds here
               | and more of the content is interesting, but as somebody
               | with MS, the sigma male grindset thing gets under my skin
               | because there's an undercurrent of 'If you do these
               | things, you can ward off insecurity or poverty' and there
               | are cases where that's just not true. Plus the ability to
               | do those things often relies on external support, which
               | for some reason just isn't mentioned when people talk
               | about how they've worked to get where they are. (Which
               | I'm not discounting; it's just that two people can put in
               | the same effort and get drastically different results.)
               | 
               | It's a mindset for people in their 20s or people who can
               | outsource most life activities.
        
               | beaconstudios wrote:
               | I'm with you on Silicon Valley being a grift, but be wary
               | about mindless content consumption - even if it's not
               | doomscrolling, you're essentially putting yourself in
               | stasis and numbing yourself with a constant dopamine
               | drip-feed, which can lead to not actually enjoying life.
               | Basically, internet addiction is real.
        
               | iratewizard wrote:
        
             | Kiro wrote:
             | How is HN any better than reddit?
        
               | iratewizard wrote:
               | I'm hopeful that the HN I enjoyed 10 years ago can be
               | brought back when the reddit refugees who destroyed their
               | own site lose interest.
        
               | iso8859-1 wrote:
               | It was brought back, it is http://lobste.rs
        
               | fragmede wrote:
               | In many ways it is not. It's an endless source of
               | procrastination and staying here too long without other
               | influences will cause you to develop a most profound case
               | of engineer's disease and blind you to the specific brand
               | of groupthink here. Still, the level of discourse here is
               | high compared to the worst of Reddit, and sometimes on
               | topics I find highly engaging, which keeps me coming back
               | for more (distraction). Just don't fall into the logical
               | fallacy that any of us here are worth more than any other
               | human being because (some of us) have more money, or that
               | we're able to string English words together to form
               | complete sentences.
        
               | openknot wrote:
               | I admit to meeting up with an old classmate in-person
               | after spending weeks with HN as my main source of social
               | interaction, and then regularly referencing anecdotes on
               | old HN threads in the conversation and advocating for
               | Linux/GNU for an OS; talking down big tech companies in
               | favor of living frugally to contribute to open-source
               | projects; and arguing in favor of working at startups
               | versus big companies if given the chance.
               | 
               | I've since matured to avoid citing HN when referencing
               | anecdotes (instead saying "I read once that..."), being
               | agnostic about where one works (as long as it fits your
               | personal career goals), and trying to also develop my
               | worldview through well-regarded classic books.
        
               | abyssin wrote:
               | I'm not sure it is much better, but moderation does have
               | an impact on the tone of the conversation. New content
               | pops up a bit slower, so it's a bit less exciting.
               | There's a culture of sourcing information.
        
               | psyc wrote:
               | Moderation keeps most people 'civil' in a formal sense -
               | avoiding dang action. I still quite honestly find the
               | tone here mean and condescending a very significant part
               | of the time. Every one of my subreddits is refreshingly
               | wholesome by comparison. Of course, one can individually
               | quit any subreddit they find irritating.
               | 
               | However, after begging my therapist for help with my
               | doomscrolling, I deleted the Reddit app. We'll see if I
               | end up resorting to blocking HN somehow.
        
               | abyssin wrote:
               | I'm afraid I'm not going to be helpful here, but here's
               | how I quit Reddit: I simply did it. I realized I was
               | done. I stopped believing I was getting something from
               | it. In 2014 I quit smoking in a similar fashion. Just
               | realized it was bad, didn't smoke afterwards.
               | 
               | HN is still a great place to understand the ideology of
               | Silicon Valley and its industry. I've never left Europe
               | and this forum seems to give me an edge about what's
               | happening here.
        
               | speed_spread wrote:
               | The volume is limited and the density is higher. Once
               | you're on top of everything you found interesting you
               | just turn away and do something else.
        
               | wnolens wrote:
               | I view it like a single subreddit with a community of
               | pretty decent folks.
               | 
               | Reddit is a large wasteland, and comment interactions
               | very often turn sour.
        
           | huijzer wrote:
           | Yes! I completely agree. I also notice more and more that I
           | prefer a book more to the same old discussions online or the
           | same old TV series and YouTube videos.
        
           | qnsi wrote:
           | Not sure if he is an originator, but I heard this phrase from
           | Alan Watts recording [0]
           | 
           | I recommend his lectures to all, especially if you don't want
           | to take psychedelics. He mainly speaks about buddhism,
           | altough he was connected to counter culture movements in the
           | 60s and with LSD
           | 
           | [0] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g-A3C8FEscw
        
           | brightball wrote:
           | Reddit is one of the only sites I feel it's necessary to
           | block on my home network. The rabbit hole is long, deep and
           | dangerous for child/teen development IMO.
        
             | Liquix wrote:
             | Awesome. If the aim is to protect tweens/teens from strange
             | corners of the internet that could mess with their
             | development, make sure to block discord as well
        
               | KerrAvon wrote:
               | YouTube, google.com, the list is truly endless.
        
           | Kye wrote:
           | This is me with a carefully curated set of RSS feeds and
           | podcasts. It's not all monocles and self-described thinkers,
           | but it does trend toward more contemplation and less
           | scrollbait. I found I got more out of people who read the
           | books and thought about them than from reading the books
           | myself.
        
             | curl-up wrote:
             | I wonder if there is a way to share your feed? Is there a
             | platform for well-curated feeds, both on different topics,
             | but even more so on different "mindsets"?
             | 
             | I feel like it would be very interesting, and I would
             | probably even be ready to pay for someone to carefully pick
             | interesting content, as I often feel like scrolling for
             | hours only to find one great article (like this one was for
             | me) is a huge price to pay.
             | 
             | This could even go for books. I try reading as much as
             | possible, but it seems like 98% of books I find randomly
             | recommended to me could easily fit into 10 pages, but
             | instead they get drawn out into infinite repetitions
             | because that's the only way nowdays to sell books. If
             | someone was willing to charge me for a well-curated list of
             | books with well written synopsis and a good indication of
             | "Is it worth reading the whole thing even when you know the
             | overall idea", I'd be a happy customer.
             | 
             | Maybe there are people on Substack doing this?
        
               | Kye wrote:
               | That sounds like Blinkist. They pitch it as a way to
               | avoid having to read books, but it seems like you could
               | use it to get the gist and decide if you want to read the
               | whole thing.
        
               | curl-up wrote:
               | Sounds like it, yes. However, re. my first question about
               | sharing feeds and building a sort of community around it,
               | I cannot really find anything interesting. But maybe
               | twitter/reddit/HN are fulfilling this gap already,
               | although not neraly to the extent I'm imagining here.
        
         | sneak wrote:
         | > _in social terms, it has taken a big toll, significantly
         | isolating me from the world, which I didn 't admit until very
         | recently._
         | 
         | counterpoint: my entire social scene, and all of my best
         | friends, came from a subculture that I found on an internet
         | mailing list, on a listserv run by the guy who made the Apache
         | webserver. A bunch of my other friends came from IRC.
         | 
         | If it weren't for the 'net, I'm not sure I'd have any good
         | people in my life at all.
        
       | whoomp12342 wrote:
       | this domain name is a relic of when people on the internet were
       | actually clever.
        
       | leshow wrote:
       | > Thanks to Canada's low tuition costs
       | 
       | I went to school in canada and I'm not sure I'd call it "low"
       | (especially when you're a broke student) but I don't have any
       | number to compare it to. I went to uni in the 2010's and I
       | remember it being like 8-10K/year or so for engineering.
       | 
       | What's the average price elsewhere? I think in the UK it's mostly
       | paid for through taxes?
        
       | tomhoward wrote:
       | I often wonder how I would have made a living and a good life
       | without the internet. I finished high school in 1994 with little
       | career inspiration, landed in a generic business degree that held
       | little interest for me, but it was at that uni campus I
       | discovered the internet in early 95.
       | 
       | I immediately found it exciting and grasped how transformative it
       | would be, and quickly got to work learning web development and
       | finding material and communities related to my interests (mostly
       | obscure Australian rock bands). It's been the platform for my
       | career ever since, and has also enabled me to go deep learning
       | about some unusual health and emotional challenges that had
       | afflicted me since early life, and enabled me to make profound
       | changes to my health and wellbeing, leading to the place I'm at
       | now, with a solid career, great relationship and a wonderful
       | young son.
       | 
       | When I think about the person I was and the path I was on when I
       | finished high school, it's hard to imagine how it would have
       | turned out well had I come of age in a different era.
       | 
       | Which is not to say life has been easy or simple; quite the
       | opposite, and the internet has no doubt made life more
       | complicated and challenging in many ways, My life has had several
       | major ups and downs that probably wouldn't have been as
       | pronounced without the internet. But I still have no doubt at all
       | I'm in a much better place than I'd have been without it.
        
         | iamsanteri wrote:
         | It's nice to hear about the positive side of internet and all
         | these stories people share here. Usually it's much more about
         | the negative aspects like one of my own personal posts I wrote
         | from the middle of lockdowns about a year ago, touching upon
         | the distractions of the internet and how it's been slowly re-
         | wiring my brain: https://www.lostbookofsales.com/age-of-
         | distractions/
         | 
         | Since I moved to a smaller town here in northern Finland from
         | the heart of Germany, thanks to the internet I feel no less
         | connected to communities, teachers (MIT, Harvard, etc. as I'm
         | doing my masters degree) and friends than before.
         | 
         | You have to balance the negative and positive sides and control
         | yourself. I think it's a huge net positive though as becomes
         | obvious from this thread.
        
       | ditegashi wrote:
       | What a beautiful, well written article. Good for you OP!
        
       | Markoff wrote:
       | from someone whose life was changed by internet I'd expect they
       | would use at least readable font for their website, not that HN
       | comments would use better size...
        
       | byteface wrote:
       | I remember the world before the internet. Full of rumour and
       | supersition and gossip and people you go to for certian knowledge
       | about things. Lots of people outside, all over the place.
       | climbing trees, riding bikes. Filling the spaces. Now you come
       | home from being on it all day working. your family are all on it.
       | don't talk to you, bark if you interupt them. You can access all
       | the facts and know everything. I kinda hate it. Here I am on it.
        
         | sneak wrote:
         | > _I kinda hate it. Here I am on it._
         | 
         | I don't think you hate it, otherwise you'd do something else.
        
           | BolexNOLA wrote:
           | Oh come on dude.
        
         | pragmatic wrote:
         | "Full of rumour and supersition and gossip and people you go to
         | for certian knowledge about things."
         | 
         | The more things change...
         | 
         | We've recreated that online. There was a brief golden age when
         | only the early adopters were online with visions of a digital
         | utopia and now it's just like real life but crazier.
         | 
         | The same thing will happen if we go to mars. It will just be
         | the same stuff just on another planet.
         | 
         | Wherever you go, there you are.
        
           | whatshisface wrote:
           | The people of Mars would likely be somewhat different from
           | the people of Earth, since they'd be so heavily influenced by
           | whatever idiosyncrasies they inherited from the first
           | colonists.
           | 
           | If there are genetic propensities to whatever would make
           | someone healthy enough to travel to Mars, intelligent enough
           | to run the machines, yet disconnect enough from Earthbound
           | society that they wouldn't mind leaving the planet, that is
           | what Martians would generally be like.
        
             | byteface wrote:
             | funny you say this. i was reading about peri wigs the other
             | day. and apparently washington didn't wear one. he
             | fashioned his hair that way. I guess he didn't have
             | syphilis and wanted to fit in.
        
           | supperburg wrote:
           | It's true but you're skipping over the early golden age that
           | mars will also have. Life is surfing and early golden ages
           | are the waves.
        
         | BolexNOLA wrote:
         | Without the internet I wouldn't haven't met some of my best
         | friends or discovered my passion for filmmaking. I'd also
         | probably be still using a lot of questionable language and
         | espousing some pretty whacky ideas like I did in high school.
         | Honestly the internet improved my life. I get what you're
         | saying but it's sort of an old take and lacks nuance IMO.
        
           | sneak wrote:
           | > _I'd also probably be still using a lot of questionable
           | language_
           | 
           | All sorts of cultures, online and off, involve members
           | policing the ingroup for transgressions against the internal
           | culture.
           | 
           | Language isn't "questionable", its usage is. There's no such
           | thing as a bad word.
           | 
           | The culture of the internet (and, as a subset, that of 2022
           | mass social media in the english-speaking world, which is
           | itself a subset of internet mass social media) is mostly not
           | because of the internet, but because of the participants and
           | the state of the wider world. The internet isn't responsible
           | for wokeness, it's just the medium through which this
           | particular human culture phenomenon travels.
        
             | BolexNOLA wrote:
             | Ok I'll be more direct: I was routinely using racial and
             | homophobic slurs because I lived in an insular,
             | conservative community that didn't teach me to be better.
             | "There are no bad words" is a flimsy excuse to hand wave
             | away the issue of discrimination, which language can and
             | does absolutely facilitate.
        
           | Liquix wrote:
           | We can acknowledge that the internet has done great things
           | for people while simultaneously acknowledging that it is
           | deeply altering the fabric of society.
        
             | BolexNOLA wrote:
             | I'd never disagree it's altering the fabric of society. But
             | I'm not sure I'm prepared to say it's a net negative, which
             | the comment above me definitely implied.
        
               | byteface wrote:
               | I could totally relate. who couldn't? Didn't that lack
               | nuance? I'm only just past 40, and I don't take the
               | current for granted either btw. I guess it depends what
               | your counting in your net. Maybe we lost something.
        
         | Apocryphon wrote:
         | Growing up, I had a friend with a desktop PC in his room and I
         | was dumbstruck and intrigued by the idea of being able to stay
         | all day on a computer, gaming and IMing and surfing. Now we are
         | all like him, sitting at a desk the entire day. Sometimes the
         | desk follows us.
        
       | bityard wrote:
       | My story pales in comparison to the author's but having access to
       | the Internet in my teen years probably saved me from a life of
       | full-on mediocrity or worse.
       | 
       | I grew up in an extremely rural area of the Midwest. Town so
       | small it didn't even have a stoplight. One school served three
       | villages, grades K-12. You were considered rich if you didn't buy
       | your groceries with food stamps. As a teen, if you didn't have a
       | job (which was impossible to get if your parents didn't give you
       | a car), the only things to do with your free time were watch TV
       | or hope one of your friends was willing to pick you up and hang
       | out. Nobody from there went to college. The brightest ones went
       | to trade school.
       | 
       | The best thing my mother ever did for us was buy a computer we
       | could barely afford, and then eventually subscribe us to dial-up
       | Internet once it came to our town. I always liked computers and
       | electronics but reading about things in books and magazines only
       | takes you so far. It was until I could actually _look things up_
       | and see what others were doing that I became halfway proficient
       | at computer hardware, operating systems, and programming. My
       | crowning achievement while I was still living at home was
       | downloading two dozen floppies worth of Slackware Linux and
       | managing to make it dual-boot with Windows 98.
       | 
       | Today I live in a decent-sized city, have two decades of tech
       | career under my belt, a very solid financial situation, and a
       | great family. My parents did their best but the mid-90's Internet
       | (and beyond) is what got me here and I'm forever thankful for
       | that.
        
       | carapace wrote:
       | I'm getting all _verklempt_ reading this!
       | 
       | - - - -
       | 
       | I just want to add that Maxime is the genius who wrote Turing
       | Drawings, one of my personal all-time favorite uses of the
       | computer ever.
       | 
       | https://maximecb.github.io/Turing-Drawings/
       | 
       | https://pointersgonewild.com/2012/12/31/turing-drawings/
       | 
       | It's worth looking at the code too, IMO. It made me realize that
       | JS could be beautiful.
       | 
       | https://github.com/maximecb/Turing-Drawings
       | 
       | - - - -
       | 
       | You rock Maxime!
        
       | [deleted]
        
       | photochemsyn wrote:
       | The thing about the Internet is that the ratio of high-quality
       | educational and informational content to complete garbage is
       | fairly low. I couldn't say whether its falling or not, but it
       | seems to have been rather higher in the Internet's early days,
       | before the rush to commercialize everything in the late 1990s and
       | early 2000s. In particular, social media engagement algorithms
       | have gotten out of hand, it's kind of a problem. They're designed
       | to be addictive and you have to actively resist that kind of
       | thing.
       | 
       | Currently I'm leaning towards adopting a much more rigorous
       | attitude towards time spent online. My short list is : (1) have
       | specific goals for each online session, (2) don't get sucked down
       | distracting rabbit holes, (3) spend at least as much time reading
       | books as reading online content, (4) try to spend as much time on
       | physical activity as on mental activity, (5) don't just be a
       | passive absorber of information, try to create things as well.
       | 
       | As far as online social interaction as a substitute for offline
       | human interaction, I don't think it's that great of an idea,
       | particularly for children and young adults, but some people do
       | appear to benefit greatly from it in some circumstances, so I
       | remain neutral on the topic.
        
         | jonas21 wrote:
         | I think there's just a lot _more_ of the Internet these days.
         | Much more garbage, but much more high-quality content too. And
         | the same engagement algorithms that can drive you down into
         | rabbit holes can also lead you to deep wells of high-quality
         | educational content on whatever topic you choose.
         | 
         | Today's Internet is whatever you want make of it. And to me at
         | least, that's what makes it so exciting.
        
       | peter303 wrote:
       | For people growing up in the 1900s, the local library served a
       | similar function of releasing one from suffocating local life
       | into the wonders of the wide world.
        
       | throwaway2037 wrote:
       | I cried when I read this blog post. Thank you for taking the time
       | to share such a personal story!
        
       | sitkack wrote:
       | Very personal, well written story. Thanks for sharing it. The
       | author frequents hn. I wonder what their take is on this making
       | to hn?
       | 
       | At the risk of oversharing this has so many similarities to my
       | own story, only time shifted a little earlier, pre-web. Most
       | things were telnet,ftp,uucp,netnews.
       | 
       | I had read an article in Byte Magazine about the Transputer, so
       | wrote an email, I think this was literally the Unix mail command,
       | I wrote this email to the author and we chatted a bit about the
       | Transputer. I'd stay up late at night, calling into a long
       | distance Unix machine on the internet. It only lasted a couple
       | months until I was busted for the phone charges.
       | 
       | You can still basically email/chat with anyone in the world.
        
         | maxime_cb wrote:
         | I was surprised because when I posted it yesterday, I got a few
         | comments on twitter, but today my inbox was full of comments on
         | the blog post. I was afraid to post a story with many personal
         | details like this, but I figured, I've been self-censoring too
         | much recently. I have a story to tell, and I'm sure many people
         | will be able to relate.
         | 
         | I had a similar experience. I watched a YouTube talk about
         | using stacked k-means to do deep learning without artificial
         | neurons (deep learning without neural networks). I found that
         | super fascinating and I had a bunch of questions, so I managed
         | to find the author's email (public because he was an academic)
         | and we chatted about his research for a while. It was amazing
         | being able to talk directly to the researcher.
        
           | sitkack wrote:
           | I was also a single child of a single mother who wasn't doing
           | well. I didn't consciously make them same calculation, but
           | did.
           | 
           | Continue to make the world a better place by just being you.
           | 
           | *edit, We really should foster a better culture of making
           | these kinds of contacts. Even if occasionally we get snubbed
           | I have found most people to be delighted that someone is
           | interestin their work.
        
       | [deleted]
        
       | amatecha wrote:
       | Neat, I love this. The internet hugely changed my life too, and
       | was utterly fundamental to my development as a person. I wonder
       | if I'd ever take the time to write a story like this, but I think
       | I wouldn't be able to resist going into way deeper detail haha
        
         | JKCalhoun wrote:
         | Then I'm guessing you probably would go into way deeper detail.
         | But I suspect if you let it sit on your computer for a few days
         | after writing it, coming back to it you will see the parts you
         | needed to hew out and could then post something more succinct
         | to your liking.
        
           | maxime_cb wrote:
           | I can tell you that I've been thinking about writing up this
           | story for a couple of years, but I kept self-censoring
           | because my blog is mostly about tech, and because I was still
           | afraid of the judgment that comes with having a schizophrenic
           | parent.
           | 
           | In the end, I decided that I do have a story to tell, and I
           | don't care about the judgment. These things shouldn't be
           | stigmatized, the stigma is what prevents people from getting
           | help, and the only way to remove the stigma is to talk. So I
           | wrote the story up one evening two weeks ago. Then I had a
           | few friends proofread it by sharing with them on Google Doc.
           | Then I finally decided to post it.
           | 
           | Because my blog is focused on tech, I focused more on the
           | tech angle when telling the story. I knew that would appeal
           | to my audience more, but I think it's only fair, because tech
           | has been a huge part of my life. It's a huge part of what
           | makes me get up in the morning.
        
       | CyberRabbi wrote:
       | Heartwarming story, I would only say to be careful about
       | diagnosing close friends or family with mental illness based on
       | internet research. Even non mental illnesses.
        
         | booboofixer wrote:
         | Good advice, much needed for a lot of people. I'd say I'm a
         | victim of this. Once people think you need some sort of help,
         | they never let you live life as a normal person again, they're
         | never just "cool" to hang around and talk to ever again. It
         | takes a lot of effort to find new people who dont look at you
         | the same way or to weed out the smarter friends (who get over
         | their obsession to help you) you have from the rest so you can
         | feel comfortable socializing with them.
        
         | nickkell wrote:
         | The rest of my family have armchair-diagnosed my father as
         | being on the autism spectrum. I'm fairly sure his lack of
         | responsiveness is due to his hearing loss and the plain fact he
         | doesn't like his family as much as the friends he plays cards
         | with every Friday!
        
       | Barrin92 wrote:
       | as a working class kid growing up in a German village of 800
       | people I credit the internet for a lot of the stuff I learned.
       | From coding, to learning English, to talking to people from other
       | walks of life, and so on. That together with the fact that I
       | could go to a good school with a healthy mix of people from other
       | backgrounds I'd credit with 90% of what got me to university.
       | 
       | Today there's a lot of negative discourse about the internet and
       | the post-truth world it creates, but people have to keep in mind
       | on the other hand it had and has an incredibly liberating effect
       | for a lot of people.
        
         | mclbdn wrote:
         | Also the same here - I'm from a little village (~2000 people)
         | in the Czech Republic.
         | 
         | I remember how (thanks to the internet) in the late 90's, I
         | started listening to English music and playing video games
         | without knowing any English.
         | 
         | A few years forward I had much better English than all of my
         | classmates, but without putting any work in.
         | 
         | Then, I learned Spanish also online and moved to the Central
         | America.
         | 
         | Anyway, I still wonder if my old classmates aren't better off
         | in that small village since they don't really know about the
         | huge and complicated world that's outside of their country.
         | Having a few friends that live a few hundred meters from your
         | house and working as a plumber seems liberating in a way.
         | 
         | Maybe ignorance is bliss?
        
         | LoveMortuus wrote:
         | Same here, but from Slovenia, equally a small village.
         | 
         | I think people forget the incredibly huge role internet has in
         | terms of openly available knowledge.
         | 
         | In my opinion the majority of negativity around internet is
         | from the general public and about the websites that the general
         | public uses aka. facebook, twitter, instagram, ...
         | 
         | This has became even more apparent when I started teaching
         | computer science to students and adults. The most noticeable
         | was their inability to use Google, actually being able to find
         | information online.
         | 
         | Techy people quite often forget that, since we're so used to
         | solving problems.
         | 
         | Imagine programming without internet... <insert stackoverflow
         | joke here>
        
           | adamddev1 wrote:
           | The fact that both of you could grow up in small, non
           | English-speaking villages and write such beautiful English is
           | a testament to the power of learning English through the
           | internet. It's amazing how natural and clear non-native-
           | speakers' English feels when they've learned it as they're
           | interacting with the wealth of discourse on the internet.
           | People who haven't learned foreign languages (looking at you,
           | fellow North Americans) won't quite appreciate what a huge
           | achievement this is. (To be able to write and communicate
           | freely in a way that feels native.)
        
       | remorses wrote:
       | Being born with the internet i cannot even imagine what would be
       | my life without it.
        
         | byteface wrote:
         | It was like world of warcraft but in reality. say for example
         | there was a rumour that someone called 'smokey' could catch an
         | eel. and you wanted to catch an eel. someone would say. Smokey
         | can catch eels. So you and 5 pals would walk 6 miles to find
         | Smokey. You'd sit in the sun and he'd share his stories of how
         | to carry out the task. Then you'd go to the said location at
         | night and fulfill the task. etc. It was fun.
        
           | gnramires wrote:
           | That's interesting: It's like we've introduced "spoilers"
           | into almost everything we do. I mean, if you have some
           | discipline you can still do things "spoiler-free", I guess
           | (specially if it's not a job or particularly dangerous),
           | which I agree sometimes presents a great learning opportunity
           | and completely different experience.
        
       | birdyrooster wrote:
       | Nah, just a passing fad
        
         | tamaharbor wrote:
         | I used to think digital was just a fad.
        
       | specialist wrote:
       | Terrific story. Personal, authentic, and very relatable. Interest
       | in and an aptitude for computers also saved me. (I even had a job
       | in a computer store.)
       | 
       | > _I made the cold calculation that as painful as my life was, it
       | was probably better than rolling the dice with the child
       | protection services._
       | 
       | Yup. I too decided at age 11, choosing to live with the less bad
       | parent.
       | 
       | And shortly thereafter, those decisions were made for me,
       | resulting in the state putting me into foster care. Somehow I
       | avoided the worst; while the 1st family was pretty much what
       | you'd expect, I later lucked into a good family.
       | 
       | --
       | 
       | I wonder how many of us there are. I've known so many runaways,
       | beaten kids, sexually abused kids, kids with broken parents. And
       | that's just in my wealthy, prosperous city. I can't imagine how
       | much worse it is every where else.
       | 
       | I also marvel that somehow some of us find a way out, while
       | seemingly most others get sucked into the abyss. So much human
       | potential lost due to poor circumstances and stupid luck. It
       | fills me with deep sadness.
       | 
       | And I wonder what the difference is. How are some able to escape
       | their fate? If we can identify those success factors, maybe we
       | can maximize chances for success. Could even be small measures,
       | like how we now have suicide prevention hotlines, and resources
       | for victims of human trafficking.
       | 
       | --
       | 
       | I had many, many people help me over the years. People who had no
       | reason to help, but did nonetheless. I call them my angels.
       | People like a little league coach (who'd drive me to practice), a
       | youth pastor (who mentored me), the foster family that raised me,
       | etc, etc.
       | 
       | As society becomes harsher, more coarse, more dog-eat-dog, I
       | worry that other lost kids won't have their own angels.
        
         | devwastaken wrote:
         | A friend whom has since passed at their choice was in the
         | system since birth. Computers and online friends was all he had
         | even as an adult at 21. Most of it through FPS PC games with
         | large battlegrounds and player communities. His high school
         | kicked him out after enough times reformatting the school
         | laptop so he could do what he wanted. No one to advocate for
         | him. No chance any uni would accept him, and too far away from
         | a community college. Plus this is when everything was mostly
         | still pencil paper. He was a good man in the wrong place with
         | the wrong support, and I miss him.
        
         | Mezzie wrote:
         | > I too decided at age 11, choosing to live with the less bad
         | parent.
         | 
         | I chose this at 13, but due to his new spouse and her opinions
         | about proper gendered behavior, it meant I had to move and lost
         | all the adults who were supporting my programming. I was
         | supposed to like clothes, make-up, and have feminine hobbies,
         | so no more electronics gifts and no more access to the classes
         | and meetings that the larger community had. (I moved from a
         | metro area of 500k to a town of 2k).
         | 
         | I still worry if it would have been better for my career to
         | stay and accept the greater abuse, which is fucked up. Am I
         | deflecting responsibility and blaming others for my own
         | failures? Etc.
         | 
         | > As society becomes harsher, more coarse, more dog-eat-dog, I
         | worry that other lost kids won't have their own angels.
         | 
         | I'm hoping I can be one. I'm trying to be a good adult, and I
         | want to work with foster teens eventually.
        
           | wbsss4412 wrote:
           | > I still worry if it would have been better for my career to
           | stay and accept the greater abuse, which is fucked up. Am I
           | deflecting responsibility and blaming others for my own
           | failures? Etc.
           | 
           | Wondering if growing up in a more supportive environment
           | would have helped you advance more quickly is a perfectly
           | reasonable question, that's not "blaming others for your
           | failures".
           | 
           | Don't be so hard on yourself, it sounds like you were placed
           | into a very difficult set of circumstances.
        
           | specialist wrote:
           | That's amazing. I'm so glad you survived.
           | 
           | > _Am I deflecting responsibility and blaming others for my
           | own failures?_
           | 
           | No. You were forced to make a decision. You did the best you
           | could.
           | 
           | You did not fail. You survived. You're still here. Fighting.
           | Trying to become the person you were always meant to be.
           | 
           | Doubt, rumination, self-examination can all be helpful. Those
           | of us without good role models have to work harder to figure
           | out which way is up.
           | 
           | I only encourage you to not dwell too long on the past. Like
           | I've done. There's only such much juice to squeeze from those
           | turnips. After a time, you'll be better served by looking
           | forward.
        
         | indigochill wrote:
         | > If we can identify those success factors
         | 
         | I don't have complete answers, but my capstone project in
         | college involved interviewing a handful of people who
         | volunteered in their communities to see if we could come up
         | with some hypotheses about hooks to get more people to engage
         | with their local communities.
         | 
         | My takeaway from the interviews was that people's reasons for
         | volunteering were essentially intrinsic, not extrinsic. One guy
         | had benefited from books donated to his prison so felt he
         | should pay it forward after he was out. A mom volunteered in
         | activities her kids were engaging in. Someone else volunteered
         | as a way of staying socially active. There _were_ clear
         | motivations, but not something you'd likely have much luck
         | leveraging en masse without knowing someone's history and what
         | they personally cared about.
         | 
         | However, you can maybe approach the problem preemptively by
         | creating an environment that creates the sorts of people who
         | will give back to their community (maybe being a good foster
         | parent to a kid who decides it's important to be a good faster
         | parent to someone else). It's not fool proof - even good
         | parents can see their kids go bad - but it's a start.
        
           | Consultant32452 wrote:
           | I don't believe communities will bond together as long as the
           | state provides a fake feeling of social security (lower
           | case). The state came in and declared itself the entity you
           | turn to when times are tough: you lost your job, became
           | disabled/sick, need daycare/schooling for your kids, etc.
           | Now, instead of having relationships with your community, you
           | have a relationship with the state.
           | 
           | With the modern design of communities with powerful
           | governments, you will only find small pockets where people
           | have chosen to come together for some higher purpose like
           | religious communities. And yes of course small/random
           | exceptions to these rules will exist, but this is how it
           | works at scale.
        
             | KittenInABox wrote:
             | Does this track actually track with places where the
             | government has largely ignored, such as lgbtqia and
             | immigrant communities? Would anyone reasonably describe
             | undocumented immigrants as having a community that is more
             | robust, bonding together, and having less folks slip
             | through the cracks than a well-funded government with a
             | strong safety net could provide? How is the lgbtqia
             | community going to fund trans people's surgeries and
             | medications, and are they doing it better than what a well-
             | funded healthcare system with minimal bigotry towards trans
             | medical needs would do?
             | 
             | In turn, does this mean we can extrapolate and figure out
             | whether or not more social safety net containing countries,
             | like say the nordic countries, do they have a lesser sense
             | of community than somalia?
        
               | specialist wrote:
               | > _...does this mean we can extrapolate and figure out
               | whether or not more social safety net containing
               | countries..._
               | 
               | I've long assumed that financial insecurity leads to all
               | sorts of bad outcomes. Alcoholism, abuse, suicide, etc.
               | The damage spanning generations and very hard to heal.
               | 
               | So I support any and all efforts to improve that
               | security. Universal healthcare, universal childcare,
               | affordable housing, living wages, parental leave, small
               | business loans. Name it, I probably support it. In other
               | words, Nordic style social democracy, or whatever it's
               | called.
               | 
               | But in truth, I don't actually know that kids in Denmark
               | and Norway do better than in my home state. Overall.
               | 
               | I feel like this is something I should know. I have
               | friends who work on progressive policy issues. So I know
               | tidbits. For instance, that generously investing in
               | preschool greatly improves the lifetime outcomes of those
               | kids.
               | 
               | But I don't even know where to look for population level
               | comparisons. And my quick foraging online was fruitless.
        
             | wing-_-nuts wrote:
             | I really feel like you would benefit from learning more
             | about what life was like before the advent of social safety
             | nets. What charity there was was _woefully_ insufficient
             | for the need, and one often only qualified if they were of
             | a particular religious group. Mostly, people were at the
             | mercy of their family. I know that sounds like a  'good
             | thing' but go read biographies of the time. People were
             | forced to endure horrific abuse by their close or extended
             | families simply because they had no where else to go.
             | 
             | The state providing it's citizens a basic foundational
             | safety net is a _good thing_. There are tons of things that
             | have broken down social cohesion, but safety nets are not
             | one of them. Have a look at the scandi countries.
        
               | Consultant32452 wrote:
               | We're not talking about breaking down social cohesion in
               | the sense of total chaos in the streets. We're talking
               | about neighbors knowing each other and taking care of
               | each other. Loneliness and depression are at all time
               | highs despite the largest social safety nets in history.
               | 
               | Cherry picking a few of the wealthiest countries in the
               | world that are racially and culturally homogeneous is not
               | very helpful. One of those scandi countries just
               | announced suicide pods where you can go kill yourself
               | because so many people want to.
               | 
               | It's fine to say the social programs are worth the cost,
               | but don't deny the cost.
        
             | EricE wrote:
             | Exactly. Centralizing resources at the state level -
             | whether it's financial, social or whatever - removes the
             | biggest success factor: what's in it for me? A lot of
             | people tend to look at that phrase cynically. I tend to be
             | more pragmatic - no one is going to care about my needs
             | more than I am. And if I go the 100% selfish path then no
             | one else is going to want to interact with me, so it's in
             | my self interest to NOT be a jerk - self governing.
             | 
             | Start to break down those personal interdependencies (and
             | remove some of those self governing mechanisms at the same
             | time too) by inserting shortcuts around them - like
             | substituting resources from government - and you start to
             | see things break down.
             | 
             | Just look at the effects of welfare on minority
             | communities. Disincentives for young women from getting
             | married and you have generations of kids, especially young
             | males, without the influence of a father - and the results
             | of that are pretty apparent. As others point out, even
             | crappy parents are often way better than the alternatives.
             | 
             | The middle class of the black community in particular was
             | rapidly expanding post WWII - until the "great society"
             | welfare programs kicked in, with pretty devastating results
             | - to them, anyway. It was a boon for politicians who now
             | had power over an ever growing and dependent base.
        
               | erosenbe0 wrote:
               | Your romanticization of post WWII conditions is highly
               | inaccurate. Black middle class expanded because of
               | migration insofar as segregation and maltreatment
               | allowed.
               | 
               | Take Silicon Valley. Segregation was legal and often
               | preferred there until 1964 so the growing Black middle
               | class was systematically denied entry in the 1950s to the
               | growing job potential there. How many Blacks worked at HP
               | in 1960s, or Intel in 1970s? How many Blacks worked at a
               | mechanic shop or a cleaning service or a coffee place or
               | any auxiliary business in Silicon Valley in the post WWII
               | era, so their children could gain a foothold in the
               | schools and the massive wealth creation engine? How many
               | Black dental hygienists were there in Santa Clara county?
               | Secretaries? Schoolteachers? Firefighters?
               | 
               | How many Black friends did Steve Jobs have in grade
               | school in the 1960s?
        
             | specialist wrote:
             | What policies do you advocate for reducing child abuse?
        
               | Consultant32452 wrote:
               | I don't have a good solution to child abuse and have
               | never seen a good solution in practice anywhere in the
               | world.
               | 
               | Are you aware of any organizations or collections of
               | individuals that are responsible for more child abuse and
               | death than the governments of the world?
        
               | specialist wrote:
               | The _whole_ world? Perhaps start by comparing child abuse
               | per capita, see if there 's any correlations?
        
       | kewp wrote:
       | I agree completely. The internet was such a blessing. Thanks for
       | posting this
        
       | ospzfmbbzr wrote:
       | General Purpose Computing changed my life.
       | 
       | The Network is the Computer.
       | 
       | For some like me it's the Memex, for many it's the Panopticon.
        
         | ospzfmbbzr wrote:
         | Both things in varying degrees actually
        
       | ChrisMarshallNY wrote:
       | I am happy the Internet is here. I feel that it was inevitable,
       | and I also believe that we are just starting to emerge from the
       | "rough teenage years" of teh Internets Tubes.
       | 
       | Maturity can be a real bitch. We'll be seeing a lot more
       | guardrails and walled gardens. People that have become accustomed
       | to (and thrived in) the "Wild West" nature of early Internet,
       | will throw tantrums, but it will be for naught.
       | 
       | I definitely couldn't do my work, without the Internet, a
       | persistent, high-speed connection, and a whole lot of folks that
       | contribute to various sites out there. I often have to google
       | even the most basic stuff. Because of the Internet, these
       | sidebars seldom take more than about five minutes. I do it
       | several times a day.
       | 
       | I have a Facebook account that I barely use. The place is a
       | cesspool. I just keep it, because I need to help support a
       | technical initiative that has a fairly prominent Facebook
       | presence.
       | 
       | What struck me most about her story, is how little help her
       | mother got. Sadly, I am familiar with exactly that type of mental
       | disease, and know how destructive it can be, and how treatable it
       | is, nowadays.
        
         | Underphil wrote:
         | I'm interested to dig deeper into this. What is your job and
         | would it even exist without the internet?
        
           | ChrisMarshallNY wrote:
           | I am "semi-retired," but spend 60 hours (or more) per week,
           | writing software (mostly Apple stuff, in Swift).
           | 
           | It would probably not be here, without the Internet. It would
           | certainly not be as lucrative, or as easy.
        
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