[HN Gopher] My mindfulness practice led me to meltdown
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       My mindfulness practice led me to meltdown
        
       Author : mudita
       Score  : 415 points
       Date   : 2021-07-20 06:57 UTC (16 hours ago)
        
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       | avalys wrote:
       | This thread is blowing my mind, although not for the obvious
       | reason.
       | 
       | I'm just astounded by all the anecdotes people are mentioning
       | here that suggest meditation, mindfulness, etc. actually _work_ ,
       | even the secularized, distorted, popularized versions we get here
       | in the West.
       | 
       | Previously I just assumed this was all a bunch of wackadoo woo-
       | woo bullshit designed to separate dissatisfied California yuppies
       | from their money.
       | 
       | The fact that it could be dangerous and mentally destabilizing,
       | and lead to such dramatic changes in personality and outlook as
       | described in the linked articles and reinforced by replies here,
       | is obviously reason for caution - but it also signifies strong
       | evidence that this a very powerful and effective practice. I'm
       | much more interested in learning about meditation than before
       | reading the article.
        
         | Taylor_OD wrote:
         | I've got ADHD and 7 minutes of guided mediation in the mornings
         | changed my life. I didnt believe it would when a doctor
         | suggested it. But it did. I cant really explain it but I sure
         | wish I knew about it earlier in my life.
        
           | groby_b wrote:
           | Any kind of guided meditation? Specifically focused on
           | aspects of ADHD? And how did it change your life?
        
         | bruja_gorda wrote:
         | It's not the meditation that is destabilising. It's the weed:
         | 
         | > I spent my last day in Los Angeles riding on a Segway, buying
         | legal marijuana and staring at some turtles in an on-campus
         | pond at UCLA.
         | 
         | What's left unsaid is that the majority of this "practice" goes
         | hand-in-hand with "recreational" use of weed. Scare quotes
         | because once you start reading revelatory texts under the
         | influence, and probably meditating under the influence, the
         | road to psychosis is just a few turns away.
         | 
         | I've had friends who went mad reading the bible or The Eagle's
         | Gift, or The Tenth Insight, while smoking weed. I can't explain
         | the mechanism, but smoking weed and opening yourself up to all
         | the enlightened bullshit of the New Age, or the Old Religions,
         | can tear a hole in your mental health, big enough for a truck
         | to drive through.
         | 
         | People who believe in the supernatural are already half-mad.
         | The weed comes along and closes the deal.
         | 
         | Without weed, meditation is as woo-woo bullshit for California
         | yuppies as you thought originally.
        
         | kirse wrote:
         | At least for the author, it worked because he _wanted_ it to
         | work.  "Seek and you shall find" is another spiritual
         | principle. i.e. His faith in the process is what produced the
         | results:
         | 
         |  _I began meditating in search for a decrease in stress and
         | anxiety. I got that..._
         | 
         | I've always found the "empty your mind" meditation quite hokey.
         | Number one because I find that exercise is naturally
         | meditative, and also healthy to boot. And second, in Christian
         | prayer you are focused on something - whether God or Jesus or
         | your cares or thankfulness, etc, and the point is the reverse -
         | to fill your mind with what is good and holy. God has no
         | interest in creating empty-minded self-focused people, he wants
         | them full of thoughts of love, compassion, mercy, and others-
         | focused on the good deeds that flow from that.
        
           | amanaplanacanal wrote:
           | Most meditation I'm familiar with (of the Buddhist variety)
           | is more about focusing the attention on the meditation object
           | than about emptying your mind. I'm certainly not familiar
           | with all the different meditation schools though.
        
             | beaconstudios wrote:
             | the Soto style of zazen meditation is about emptying the
             | mind though.
             | 
             | I think the parent misunderstands meditation though - it's
             | not an empty practice for the self-absorbed; it's only been
             | repackaged that way as mindfulness.
        
         | m12k wrote:
         | It's important to set expectations. Meditation won't make you
         | happy - and that's not the point of it. What it can do is let
         | you be more present of mind, less prone to flights of fancy or
         | worries. It teaches you a practice where you look into yourself
         | and actually face what's going on in there, and gives you some
         | gentle coping mechanisms to help lay to rest intrusive thoughts
         | and feelings that have started "looping" in you. So the goal of
         | becoming "enlightened" should probably be read more as
         | "unburdened" or even "undistracted" - it's freedom to
         | experience the moment you are in more clearly with fewer
         | distractions and "ticks". What you do with that freedom is up
         | to you. And it's not a state you achieve once and for all, it's
         | something you do again and again, both to wipe the slate clean,
         | and to train your ability to do so. It's more like taking out
         | the trash, or daily stretches to stay limber, and less like a
         | religious awakening (those who claim otherwise are
         | hallucinating or having a mental breakdown like the author of
         | the post).
        
         | tyjen wrote:
         | Yes, it's surprising to people outside the retreat meditation
         | community. If I read this blog entry prior to folding
         | meditation practice into my daily life, I'd be equally
         | surprised. There is a lot of commercialization and Westernized
         | metaphysical woo-woo stuff to sift through to discover the type
         | of meditation discussed in Upanishads, Bhagavad Gita, or
         | Dhammapada, so the initial and superficial impression of
         | meditation generally perceived from a Yoga class at the local
         | strip mall or YouTube guided meditations are of different
         | varietals. The perception being that meditation is terrific for
         | destressing and wouldn't lead to a psychotic break.
         | 
         | When you start to peel back the conditioning layers that define
         | you, the sensations that reveal themselves can become
         | destabilizing if you choose to focus on those distractions
         | instead of allowing them to pass and refocus on the meditation
         | object. If you're not prepared for what lies ahead and/or do
         | not have a devoted mentor, the strands that define you and
         | serve as identity reference points can snap leaving you with an
         | existential crisis.
         | 
         | Also, while many meditation retreats and programs are designed
         | to separate yuppies from their money, the retreats I'm familiar
         | with operate on a donation basis to remain open for everyone
         | independent of financial status.
        
         | Tenoke wrote:
         | >it also signifies strong evidence that this a very powerful
         | and effective practice
         | 
         | I still see no reason to think it's a beneficial practice
         | though. PCP is also powerful and effective with effects on your
         | psyche all over the place.
        
         | cs2733 wrote:
         | Ha! I salute your openess.
        
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         | stjohnswarts wrote:
         | I love how when the west gets something and does its own
         | interpretation that it's "watered" down as if the west can do
         | nothing right and we're all spiritually and morally bankrupt
         | idiots.
        
           | beaconstudios wrote:
           | the West has its own spiritual traditions, that the type of
           | people who meditation is pitched towards have completely
           | abandoned. Mindfulness and such are spiritual practices
           | stripped of their philosophical roots and repackaged in a
           | consumable form.
           | 
           | If SE Asian companies were selling the Lord's Prayer as a
           | quick de-stressing technique for busy atheist office workers,
           | I'd say they were missing the point too.
        
         | myfavoritedog wrote:
         | I applaud your current open-mindedness, although your past
         | open-mindedness could have used a tweak.
         | 
         | If you are serious about looking into meditation further, read
         | Sam Harris' book Waking Up. Sam Harris is about as far from a
         | "woo-woo bullshit" practitioner as you can get. He was one of
         | the leaders of the New Atheist movement, and has a PhD in
         | neuroscience.
        
         | praptak wrote:
         | It is a practice that does _something_ , by which I mean
         | something observable via MRI. Here's a meta analysis of the
         | papers on MRI scans of meditators' brains:
         | https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4471247/
         | 
         | The cautious conclusion is that meditation is on par with being
         | a cab driver in a large city (which also shows up on brain
         | scans).
        
         | logicalmind wrote:
         | I'm 40+ spent a lot of time stressed out about work, family,
         | etc. Rather than go the medication route, I decided to try to
         | just find ways to calm and de-stress myself. Certainly exercise
         | works to some extent. But I also learned meditation.
         | 
         | I'm not interested in any religious aspects of it, I don't pay
         | any money towards it. I believe I started by reading a book on
         | how to do it, then listened to some guided audio on what I was
         | supposed to do. With that knowledge I was able to continue on
         | my own.
         | 
         | Specifically, my mind would tend to get stuck in loops of
         | problems or worries, especially right before bed. What I really
         | learned from doing this is that I would consciously reset my
         | mind back to the present once it started going down these loops
         | about the past or future. I do this for about 10-20 minutes
         | before bed so that I can sleep without my mind racing and
         | keeping me up. Even now I've noticed I don't have to do it as
         | much or for as long when I do because I've learned to control
         | my thoughts a lot better when I need to.
         | 
         | I know meditation goes much further beyond this (as outlined in
         | the article), but just having this level of skill is very
         | valuable if you have this type or racing mind. I very much
         | differentiate between meditation as a skill and meditation as a
         | way of life. The skill part is valuable for anyone.
        
         | avalys wrote:
         | This article might as well have said "The Shenrikki school of
         | telekinesis is popular, but if you're not careful while
         | practicing you might accidentally crack the foundation of your
         | house or give your spouse a concussion, and no one will warn
         | you about this. " and then a bunch of people jumped into the
         | thread to say "Yes yes, this happened to me, and my home
         | insurance didn't cover it!"
         | 
         | My reaction is: wait, what, really, this is an actual risk
         | here?!
        
           | beaconstudios wrote:
           | if you want to continue in that vein of complete scepticism,
           | you could just claim that all those people are experiencing a
           | placebo effect.
        
           | seanc wrote:
           | I forget where I heard it, but someone once said "The mind is
           | like a boomerang. If you throw it, there is a very good
           | chance it won't come back."
        
         | uoaei wrote:
         | > designed to separate dissatisfied California yuppies from
         | their money
         | 
         | Can I ask how the generic advice of "sit for 20 minutes a day
         | paying attention to your own attention processes" costs
         | anything?
        
           | avalys wrote:
           | Are you disputing the fact that there are a very large number
           | of people who charge money for instruction, training,
           | retreats, etc. around the concepts of meditation and
           | mindfulness?
           | 
           | Are you suggesting that "sitting for 20 minutes a day paying
           | attention to your own attention processes" will lead to the
           | profound revelations, mental changes, existential crises,
           | etc. described in the article and in comments posted here?
        
             | samat wrote:
             | 20 minutes a day -- unlikely. 2 hours a day for 10 years --
             | you bet.
        
           | michael1999 wrote:
           | The author is a professional meditation instructor,
           | describing attending professional meditation training and
           | conferences. Someone is paying money.
        
         | cranesnake wrote:
         | Every therapist I've gone to has suggested this meditation,
         | along with cognitive behavior therapy and medication.
        
         | bamboozled wrote:
         | I think it's supposed to change your personality right?
         | 
         | For example, making one less reactive?
        
         | fossuser wrote:
         | There's decent empirical evidence of an effect.
         | 
         | It's not a huge surprise when you think about it - therapy
         | works because of helping people change how they think.
         | 
         | The reason it's often dismissed by skeptics is because it's
         | often surrounded by a lot of religious woo and other nonsense
         | so people often dismiss the entire thing.
         | 
         | I have a pet hypothesis that it can make anxiety worse if
         | you're not careful due to Hypervigilance
         | (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypervigilance) - anxious people
         | tend to have issues with ruminating and paying too much
         | introspective attention to their bodies already. Most
         | meditation rhetoric appears to be targeted to people who never
         | introspect. Getting control over ruminating thoughts is
         | helpful, but I've found mindfulness to be a mixed bag
         | personally.
        
         | prometheus76 wrote:
         | This will sound esoteric, but I feel should say it: sometimes
         | when you are involved in a practice for which you have no
         | context, you will open a door to things for which you have no
         | name. You won't be able to name what you see or what you feel,
         | and this can cause everything to come crashing down. An
         | experienced guide can help you avoid this outcome.
        
         | Apocryphon wrote:
         | > dissatisfied California yuppies
         | 
         | What do you think the primary demographic of HN is?
        
       | nabla9 wrote:
       | (background: I have been doing zen meditation for 20 years.
       | Several hours per day and participated in 50 intensive retreats
       | or so).
       | 
       | Absolutely. If you meditate so much that it starts to work, it's
       | like any effective medicine or treatment. It has potential for
       | adversarial side effects. Even mentally healthy people get into
       | some crazy states and can experience meltdowns while meditating.
       | I have seen several cases of people having full blown psychosis
       | needing psychiatric care.
       | 
       | Saying that if you get into a bad place you are not meditating
       | right is also wrong. Buddhist tradition knows about these, but
       | they are described in a way that often makes people think it's
       | some kind of philosophical otherworldly metaphor. They can be
       | pleasurable or horrifying or just weird. Japanese zen tradition
       | calls all these just makyo (the realm of demons).
       | 
       | Everyone who has meditated long enough has encountered them. You
       | can read sutras to see Buddha fighting with crazy. Almost every
       | honest autobiography from famous meditation teachers has mentions
       | of them. Zen Master Hakuin had probably the most famous complete
       | meltdown. He called it Zen sickness.
       | https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hakuin_Ekaku#Zen_sickness He had to
       | stop and seek help.
       | 
       | Many things that are worth doing and give meaning to life are not
       | safe.
       | 
       | --
       | 
       | Making things worse: Meditation attracts people with mental
       | issues, and many treat them as a substitute to medication or
       | therapy. Meditation is neither. It can be used as part of
       | therapy, but it's not a substitute. Better get your
       | therapy/medication right and then meditate moderately if that
       | feels fine.
        
         | addicted wrote:
         | This is key. Meditation is not a substitute for therapy or
         | professional mental health of any sort.
        
           | mapcars wrote:
           | This doesn't match my experience. Professionals can help you
           | only to the extent they understand themselves. Do they
           | understand nature of consciousness, mind, thought? Most
           | likely they do not. Meditation is supposed to bring one to
           | the state where you get control over those things and if it
           | happens there is no question of mental issues for this person
           | anymore.
        
             | nabla9 wrote:
             | That's overly idealized and wrong view. Meditation together
             | with mental treatment often works really well but they are
             | not direct substitutes. There are meditation therapies that
             | mix the two.
             | 
             | What meditation does to the mind is not completely
             | separated from the mental health, but it's not on the same
             | line either. Understanding the nature of your mind heals
             | only minor neuroses, and sometimes with depression.
             | 
             | You can be mentally ill and still have "prajna wisdom" or
             | being "realized" in a very fundamental way. "Prajna wisdom"
             | does not translate directly into normal wisdom or mental
             | health (can help in some cases). The history is full of
             | mentally ill meditation masters, "funny monks" and "crazy
             | wisdom" that is crazy in real way and just not metaphor.
             | 
             | In religious settings people have tendency to attach attach
             | every good thing to meditation in linear way. Morality,
             | mental and physical health, everything. In reality you get
             | "something completely different" (in the Monty Python way).
             | It can help you in other things but it never solves other
             | problems in your life.
        
               | mapcars wrote:
               | So how do you know what is mentally healthy? How do you
               | know those meditation masters were mentally ill?
        
         | mapcars wrote:
         | >Many things that are worth doing and give meaning to life are
         | not safe.
         | 
         | That sounds wrong to me, meditation is supposed to destroy all
         | meanings of life, not to give anything. Also doing or not doing
         | anything at all is not safe. There is no safety - once we are
         | alive we will die.
        
           | nabla9 wrote:
           | > meditation is supposed to destroy all meanings of life, not
           | to give anything
           | 
           | Those are all metaphors to describe something "Die before you
           | die so you don't' have to die before you die", "See your true
           | face before you were born", "enlightenment", "entering the
           | stream of holy", "satori", "be one with everything", "be
           | nothing", "emptiness". None of those descriptions will help
           | you understand. You either meditate or not. Then you can
           | describe what happens to you in your own words contradicting
           | everybody else.                 "Well, there is sitting
           | meditation,        there is walking meditation.           Oh,
           | and then, of course,         especially in the West,
           | there is talking meditation.         No good."
        
             | mapcars wrote:
             | Sure, my point is that losing meanings in the process can
             | be quite crushing experience or liberating depending on
             | one's attitude.
        
           | beprogrammed wrote:
           | He was born, succeeded in living a meaningless life, and
           | died.
        
       | bluepizza wrote:
       | > In the aftermath, I floated for months in a state free of
       | discontent.
       | 
       | This is interesting. As a human, I always have something to be
       | discontent about. It never stops, and it is not supposed to stop
       | - as those are my instincts driving me.
       | 
       | I love my mindfulness moments, and being able to look into my
       | emotions. But I wouldn't want to stay months without discontent.
       | 
       | Overall, several of the author's quotes point to a very extreme
       | practice. He is mixing internal state and reality as if it was
       | one and the same. These two factors are bound to lead to
       | problems.
       | 
       | But I don't see most people doing 30 min per say having these
       | issues.
        
       | rickbad68 wrote:
       | It sounds to me like the author had a severe anxiety attack for
       | the first time. And just throwing out a wild guess that they
       | possibly had recently experimented with ayahuasca or some other
       | form of DMT.
        
         | KingFelix wrote:
         | it would be interesting to know this. and/or what other things
         | he was involved with prior to his experience
        
       | plutonorm wrote:
       | I also experienced something similar. While meditating at work I
       | experienced a state of profound bliss and extreme bodily
       | sensations. What followed this was a disintegration where I
       | dropped into an existential crisis that lasted for about a year.
       | However during this time I faced a number of demons which I
       | hadn't been able to face up until that point. Now, about 5 years
       | later I am in a good place and am ramping up my meditation
       | practice once more.
       | 
       | Meditation is what it says on the tin, a way to uncover real
       | truth. It's powerful and dangerous. It's a path for truth
       | seekers, who are willing to pay whatever it takes to see what is
       | truly there. For me its a blessing.
       | 
       | For most these experiences are ones of positive disintegration
       | rather than negative. After the dark night of the soul has passed
       | we find ourselves more fully integrated than before.
       | 
       | For many that's not something they were after and in this way I
       | agree with the article, meditation is being miss sold.
        
         | maxduckworth wrote:
         | If you are open to sharing, what did you do, if anything, to
         | make it through the year of crisis? Did you stop meditating
         | like the author, seek outside help, continue meditating or
         | something else?
        
       | stevebmark wrote:
       | The end goal of mindfulness is to make you realize that you don't
       | exist, and to make you realize you don't have free will, and
       | there is no you. While it's all true, it's not a good place to
       | leave someone without a next step. It can be useful to make
       | people realize that their thoughts aren't their own, which can
       | help with anxiety. Maybe it can also lead to meltdowns like the
       | one in this article if you continue the practice long past "I
       | don't exist and I have no free will."
        
         | t0mbstone wrote:
         | I think you might have a misunderstanding about the end goal of
         | mindfulness.
         | 
         | There is more than one way to practice mindfulness, but the
         | goal of any mindfulness technique is to achieve a state of
         | alert, focused relaxation by deliberately paying attention to
         | thoughts and sensations without judgment. This allows the mind
         | to refocus on the present moment.
        
       | mlang23 wrote:
       | > This terrain was fresh. I had never previously experienced a
       | psychotic episode and have no history of mental illness besides
       | occasional bouts of mild anxiety and depression. ... > Why did I
       | start meditating? The short answer is that in 2009 I started a
       | fist fight in a French Quarter bar over some jambalaya, a steamy
       | kiss, and a stray comment I didn't take fondly. The evening ended
       | hours later after I broke a window with my fist, misplaced my
       | shirt, and guzzled about 16 bottles of Miller High Life.
       | 
       | YYMMV, but I feel the author is having problems they dont want to
       | really accept. That is what the contradiction in the two quotes
       | above indicates.
       | 
       | Aside from that, I couldn't help but think about people having
       | access to too many psychedelics. For a while, tripping can give
       | you the most profound experiences ever. But after a while, it
       | sort of becomes mondane, and this is when the bad trip
       | probability suddenly skyrockets. Or, put another way, even
       | Siddhartha didn't find awakening in the samana practices. They
       | were only the first step (of three) to reach his goal. You can
       | overdo everything, even the very very nice things.
        
         | icybox wrote:
         | Alan Watts used to say "When you've received the message, hang
         | up the phone."
        
           | salemh wrote:
           | A former student of Alan Watts, then a Taoist monk, found
           | Orthodox Christianity after his searching, and has become a
           | revered Priestmonk across the Orthodox world - he offers his
           | own journey and offers the Eastern Orthodox Christian
           | perspective of seeking God and His revelation.
           | https://orthochristian.com/81732.html
           | 
           | https://www.ancientfaith.com/podcasts/illuminedheart/father_.
           | .. >The impersonal concept of deity was actually an
           | experience of the non-being from which we have come
           | [already], and that the true understanding of God - the
           | highest, fullest understanding of God is God as person, as I
           | AM - He has revealed Himself as I AM. Archimandrive Sophrony,
           | from His Life is Mine
           | 
           | Small short booklet Fr Seraphim Rose wrote:
           | https://www.amazon.com/Gods-Revelation-Human-Heart-
           | Seraphim/...
           | 
           | In my own journey out of buddhism, taoism, stoicism,
           | psychadelics, Fr Seraphims writings helped clarify why their
           | was still a hole in my soul, and why western Christianity
           | made no sense to me.
           | 
           | In the Orthodox Christian perspective, they are the Church
           | that followed the Council of Jerusalem (the Book of Acts),
           | the earliest writings of the Church (St Ignatius, the
           | Didache, etc.) then all the councils which codified the canon
           | of scripture, the Ecumenical Councils, etc. Every council
           | must affirm _previous dogma_ ; believed everywhere, by all
           | (Orthodox Christians), and at all times - so the below
           | article on the Essence and Energy distinction of God, by St
           | Gregory Palamas, affirms the early writings of St Basil and
           | the Cappadocian Fathers of the Church who were fighting
           | heretical notions of what God is - the Church defined what
           | _He is not_. The Cappadocian Church fathers affirm the
           | Apostles and scriptures, etc.
           | http://orthodoxinfo.com/phronema/florov_palamas.aspx
           | 
           | This is a nice comparison video of Tabernacle and Jewish
           | Temple worship, and its continuation in the Orthodox
           | Christian temples. The western church in Rome was of the same
           | One Mind of Christ in worship, Creed and sacrament until
           | 1054, and then subsequently the Protestant revolted against
           | their dogmatic innovations, and yet now are splintered into
           | thousands on thousands of beliefs.
           | https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jkmh68urI6A
           | 
           | WHAT IS THE NOUS AND HOW IS IT DISTINCT FROM THE SOUL?
           | https://orthochristian.com/79038.html
        
             | rdtsc wrote:
             | Thanks for sharing, lots of good references and well
             | written.
             | 
             | I especially like the one from Florovsky. I'd just like to
             | leave a reference to
             | https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hesychasm for those who may
             | be wondering what this is all about.
        
             | scoopdewoop wrote:
             | This just sent me down such a hole reading about Fr
             | Seraphim Rose, thanks.
        
             | dragonwriter wrote:
             | > The western church in Rome was of the same One Mind of
             | Christ in worship, Creed and sacrament until 1054
             | 
             | The political/administrative disputes of 1053-1054 that
             | directly produced the Great Schism didn't involve
             | theological change on either side, so this (or the inverse,
             | painting the Orthodox as the moving party, which I've also
             | seen) position is simple factional-identity reinforcing
             | revisionism.
             | 
             | > and then subsequently the Protestant revolted against
             | their dogmatic innovations
             | 
             | Quite a few of the things Protestants objected to in the
             | Roman Catholic Church were features it still shared with
             | the Eastern Orthodox Churches (and many of them, both in
             | the shared category and not, were not issues of dogma), so
             | no, that's not true in much the same way as the preceding
             | claim about 1054 wasn't, even before any debates about
             | which issues of dogma or other doctrine may or may nor have
             | been innovations.
        
             | bobthechef wrote:
             | > why western Christianity made no sense to me.
             | 
             | What specifically? You haven't explained what made no sense
             | to you and what finally made sense to you in Eastern
             | Orthodoxy (I would also avoid lumping Protestantism in with
             | Catholicism under the label "Western"). Could it be that
             | you simply did not understand? Here, I would stick to
             | traditional Catholic teaching as the point of reference as
             | the veritable source for orthodox doctrine and tradition,
             | not some Protestant innovation or corruption.
             | 
             | Mind you, the Catholic Church understands God as the Ipsum
             | Esse Subsistens. Thomistic metaphysics uses this term. Thus
             | God is understood as Existence itself, as Being, not _a_
             | being (you might say that God does not exist, but rather
             | _is_ , or to abuse the terminology, _is existence_ ). God
             | is the "to be". This is to be identified with the "I Am" of
             | Exodus 3:14.
             | 
             | > This is a nice comparison video of Tabernacle and Jewish
             | Temple worship, and its continuation in the Orthodox
             | Christian temples.
             | 
             | The Catholic mass is liturgically, etc. the continuation,
             | fulfillment, and perfection of the sacrifices made at the
             | Temple of Jerusalem. The _altar_ is where the perfect,
             | unbloody sacrifice of Christ is offered at each and every
             | mass. This sacrifice is the very purpose of the mass.
             | (Following the destruction of the Temple, the Jews have no
             | priesthood, no temple, and no sacrifices, only synanogues.)
             | So that is no news from a Catholic POV (it may be for
             | poorly catechized and Protestantized Catholics today, but
             | that 's a different story).
             | 
             | > The western church in Rome was of the same One Mind of
             | Christ in worship, Creed and sacrament until 1054 and then
             | subsequently the Protestant revolted against their dogmatic
             | innovations, and yet now are splintered into thousands on
             | thousands of beliefs.
             | 
             | I'm not sure you have an entirely accurate view [0].
             | 
             | [0] https://www.catholic.com/encyclopedia/eastern-schism
        
             | throwawaygal7 wrote:
             | One of the major problems with American 'orthodox' are that
             | they embrace only the easy parts of orthodoxy. Often I've
             | heard that 'orthodox dont believe in original sin' and
             | other such nonsense. These beliefs are widespread in
             | westenized, modern orthodox but aren't true of much of
             | orthodox practice in the east. St Gregory Palamas was a
             | wonderful theologian, but we have tried , only in the last
             | century to built a system of thought around him that his
             | works simply dont and cant support. This is obviously due
             | to an awareness of the more codified thought of the western
             | church. Sometimes, I've even heard orthodox claim that the
             | latin fathers are manifest heretics when they have been
             | saints in the east for centuries! One of my American
             | friends almost treats St AUGUSTINE as someone to be
             | dismissed.
             | 
             | The consensus of the fathers includes all of the fathers,
             | if you must cherry pick a subset or an individual to make a
             | point its simply not in the apostolic tradition.
        
           | mlang23 wrote:
           | Good point.
        
           | brodo wrote:
           | I think the biggest problem is that people who had an ego
           | death experience are trying to experience it again by dosing
           | up when it is largely a set and setting issue. Firstly, you
           | can't have a life-changing, ecstatic experience of being
           | connected to the universe every couple of weeks. Secondly, if
           | you don't have some philosophical or religious framework to
           | frame the experience, I imagine it can be really devastating.
        
             | mlang23 wrote:
             | Consumerism paired with sensationalism. Some people take
             | psychedelics like others consume television... To amuse
             | themselves. Remember what Tim Leary wrote in the
             | psychedelic experience? If you have hallucinations, you're
             | doing something wrong. But that is getting a bit off-topic
             | regarding the original post.
        
           | hderms wrote:
           | man, I love Alan Watts. We're so lucky to have so much of his
           | actual speech recorded as the tone of his voice and the way
           | he communicates ideas are really fascinating
        
         | IG_Semmelweiss wrote:
         | I agree with your conclusion.
         | 
         | I'd go a step further and state there is no such thing as a bad
         | trip. There are just situations where loss go of control can
         | result in the surfacing of things that are unresolved... and
         | unpleasant. No one has a bad trip without the latter.
         | 
         | Another reason why psychedelics should come with clear warning
         | labels that describe bad outcomes for specific situations.
        
           | thinkingemote wrote:
           | A bad trip can tell people unthruths or falsehoods that they
           | then believe. That is objectively bad.
           | 
           | In other words, a bad trip can manifest pathologies where
           | none existed before.
        
             | SyzygistSix wrote:
             | The problem there is belief, not the psychedelics. It can
             | happen with happy or blissful experiences as well.
        
             | lm28469 wrote:
             | How's that different from a "good" trip that make you
             | believe you're in direct contact with god or even god
             | himself though ?
             | 
             | It goes both ways, you can't say the "good" experience is
             | the truth and the "bad" experience is false. They're both
             | the same thing and are just a mirror of your internal
             | state, your job is to analyse them and decide what value
             | you want to put on them. There is no "objectively" good or
             | bad
             | 
             | I think a looot of people are conditioned by what they read
             | on internet about psychedelics, they spend hours watching
             | videos and reading about experiences before trying it for
             | themselves and are already fully trapped in some form of
             | mental cage of what they experience will/should be.
        
               | jkhdigital wrote:
               | Yes, much better to just casually drop 100 mcg on a
               | Wednesday night in your friend's basement at age 16 like
               | I did, no preconceptions...
               | 
               | (To be fair, some of my friends still cite that night as
               | a distinctly positive life-altering experience)
        
               | lm28469 wrote:
               | I'm not saying people should casually use psychedelics
               | without any knowledge of them, especially not at 16 and
               | especially not in a basement. I researched the safety of
               | it and the general effects (during/after the trip) to
               | make sure I'd be physically able to go through it. Once I
               | learned there was virtually no risks for the dose I
               | "knew" I was in a good mental state to have the
               | experience.
               | 
               | It has to be something you want to try (not something
               | your friends semi forced you to join), you have to be
               | aware it can be unpleasant, and you have to do it in a
               | safe place (both mentally and physically), given that not
               | much can go seriously wrong.
               | 
               | My first time was 200ug of lsd in the middle of a desert
               | at night by myself, I had the idea after reading 1/4th of
               | a book from Alan Watts, the way he talked about
               | psychedelics made me curious and I didn't want to be too
               | influenced by his experiences/descriptions which made me
               | decide to stop reading and try it out.
               | 
               | It was my best trip, I gave up and replicating the
               | experience after 4 or 5 times (over 3 or 4 years) and I
               | stopped thinking about psychedelics since then.
               | 
               | Since then I learned two things:
               | 
               | - I'm much prefer tripping alone than with people,
               | especially if the people I trip with aren't very long
               | term/close friends I 200% trust on everything.
               | 
               | - Tripping inside isn't particularly enjoyable, I can't
               | imagine tripping in a basement. I vividly remember
               | feeling claustrophobic during my first trip, and that was
               | in the middle of a desert probably 50km away from any man
               | made structure
        
           | icybox wrote:
           | I see your point, but I prefer to live in a free universe. We
           | don't ban electricity or knives ... and both can do harm.
        
             | IG_Semmelweiss wrote:
             | I prefer so too.
             | 
             | Let's not jump to conclusions. I wouldn't propose a ban on
             | anything when a warning label or full disclosure would do
             | just fine. I've edited my comment accordingly
        
         | warent wrote:
         | My psychologist taught me that fear, anxiety, etc. destructive
         | emotions are surface events, bubbling up from somewhere deeper.
         | Mindfulness can be used as a resource for us to be with that
         | fear; in the words of Thich Nhat Hanh "those painful emotions
         | are like a child crying out. A child needs love and attention.
         | Hold them with love, be with them."
         | 
         | Once we can be with it, then we can start to follow it down to
         | its roots. Shining light into the darkness is how we heal.
         | 
         | Unfortunately the author seems to have gone astray down a false
         | path that seems to be very common in western civilization
         | called spiritual bypassing. Basically spiritual bypassing is
         | when you use things like meditation and spirituality to get
         | _around_ your deep seated psychological wounds. Doing this is
         | just a form of avoidance and repression which causes the wound
         | to fester, which can eventually culminate in more severe
         | symptoms like what the author describes.
        
           | pmoriarty wrote:
           | _" I couldn't help but think about people having access to
           | too many psychedelics. For a while, tripping can give you the
           | most profound experiences ever. But after a while, it sort of
           | becomes mondane, and this is when the bad trip probability
           | suddenly skyrockets."_
           | 
           | I'm not sure about that. Psychedelics can bring to the
           | surface all sorts of unconscious traumas, repressed memories,
           | and/or issues people have trouble dealing with on a conscious
           | level -- fear of death being a classic source of difficulty
           | during "bad trips", but also other things such as physical or
           | emotional pain, or making you face the way you've been
           | treating others or been treated by others, etc.
           | 
           | Many people just can't handle that... especially if they've
           | been running away from facing those things their whole lives,
           | which many, many people are.
           | 
           | Suddenly - bam - you're face to face with your own death,
           | say, living through it in excruciating detail.. and, yeah,
           | that can be very tough to deal with, and many people react to
           | a "bad" experience by trying to run way even further, but
           | once you're on the psychedelic rollercoaster there's rarely
           | any easy way out until the psychedelic wears off, and most
           | psychedelic therapists these days suggest that instead of
           | running away one should run towards the uncomfortable
           | material, facing it squarely and surrendering to the
           | experience, and this often results in cathartic relief and a
           | "good" trip afterwards.
           | 
           | Of course doing this with a trained therapist who can help
           | you before, during, and after the psychedelic session is
           | better than trying to deal with it alone, which many people
           | just aren't prepared to do.
        
             | hashkb wrote:
             | Trust the trajectory.
        
               | fzzzy wrote:
               | Fear is only illusion.
        
           | mlang23 wrote:
           | https://youtube.com/watch?v=TG2i_UoBEeg :-)
           | 
           | Sorry, not the most constructive reply ever, but I couldn't
           | resist...
        
           | jkhdigital wrote:
           | I'm sure the author would love to hear more about your
           | diagnosis of his condition based solely on the content of an
           | essay.
        
             | CTDOCodebases wrote:
             | To be fair the diagnosis does align with the authors
             | complaints.
        
             | mlang23 wrote:
             | If someone puts a posting on the net, they likely have to
             | accept that there will be reactions to it. That said, I am
             | not looking forward to a fist-fight with a wanna-be-monk,
             | so distance is probably the key. Dont you feel a fist-
             | fighting drinker is a rather comical mindfulness
             | practicioner? A bit like the gay nazi, or whatever
             | stereotypical contradiction you wanna imagine.
        
       | tommiegannert wrote:
       | > I relayed my experiences that afternoon to the two teachers who
       | were overseeing the retreat of about 40 meditators. They were
       | both kind, compassionate, and welcoming, suggesting various ways
       | that I might alter my meditation practice to alleviate my
       | symptoms > > In fact, in Britton's study, 60% of the participants
       | reporting distressing experiences were meditation teachers,
       | rebutting Davidson's argument that experienced meditators don't
       | end up in difficult territory.
       | 
       | It sounds like a scary failure mode due to survivorship bias,
       | where meditation retreats don't have experienced leaders, because
       | those that have had adverse effects of meditation simply stop
       | teaching it. I wonder how many other fields suffer from the same,
       | where it's easy to deny anything could go wrong until it happens
       | to you, and that removes you from the race.
       | 
       | > A few months ago, I began dabbling with teaching mindfulness
       | again, which may seem surprising. [---] I feel that I could do
       | something for my students that wasn't ever done for me: tell the
       | truth.
       | 
       | This is great, and I hope Dan succeeds in making it sustainable.
        
         | saalweachter wrote:
         | Finance comes to mind. You make money every year, until you
         | don't.
        
       | golyi wrote:
       | I believe a lot of people are doing meditation in a similar way
       | as they would do a workout session and it simply doesn't work.
       | It's supposed to be your time off and enjoyable. I've seen a lot
       | of starters that are extremely focused on doing at least 30 mins
       | a day, and it's just incredibly hard. Start small, start with
       | whatever you're confortable with, it could be a minute for all
       | it's worth and increase progressively but make sure that that
       | minute is mindful.
        
         | Cthulhu_ wrote:
         | Definitely, to the point where in addition to getting a stipend
         | to go to the gym from a previous employer, they offered to pay
         | for a mindfulness / meditation assistance app.
         | 
         | I mean they could also reduce the pressure to perform and to be
         | on top of everything a bit. I get that enthusiasm is contagious
         | and FOMO is a real problem in tech, but the company should have
         | done more to slow people right the fuck down.
        
       | jb_schirtzinger wrote:
       | Uh taking drugs and then meditating is probably going to lead you
       | straight to the demon that disposed you to taking drugs to start
       | with.
        
       | motohagiography wrote:
       | One could see how meditating could lead to a break like that.
       | When you do something that connects your mind to the real and
       | physical present inside your senses, which can suppress the
       | reflections and noise from the way we interpret the
       | representations of the world around us, coming back is jarring
       | and panic inducing.
       | 
       | This bad meditation effect sounds like the same effects of hyper-
       | paranoia from cannabis, or a "bad trip," on hallucinogens, which
       | can have dramatic short term and pervasive long term effects.
        
       | DantesKite wrote:
       | "I was a guitar string being tuned beyond its highest range. The
       | string popped. A spike of fear slashed through my guts. And
       | that's when I split apart."
       | 
       | I read on Twitter about this one guy who gave himself brain
       | damage by constantly working for months on end while programming.
       | 
       | It's interesting that a few others described a similar sensation.
       | Their brain feeling like a guitar string. There's a moment where
       | they can detect something goes wrong.
       | 
       | It seems like they put themselves through a very stressful
       | situation and triggered a cascading effect.
        
         | acuozzo wrote:
         | > I read on Twitter about this one guy who gave himself brain
         | damage by constantly working for months on end while
         | programming.
         | 
         | Link? I'm interested.
        
           | bckr wrote:
           | https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=27003207
           | 
           | https://archive.is/KD74v
           | 
           | "So I finally sorted out what happened to my brain"
        
             | Trasmatta wrote:
             | I remember that thread, the "I burned all the glucose out
             | of my brain & gave myself seizures" isn't how things work.
             | It seems like he has unresolved mental health issues (which
             | I'm sure were either caused or exacerbated by burnout), and
             | came up with a rather strange self diagnosis.
        
       | diimdeep wrote:
       | 4000 hours of meditation practice is a lot.
       | 
       | I'm doing guided meditation(with Headspace) for 20 min each day
       | and right now on 10 day streak and feeling good so far.
        
         | denton-scratch wrote:
         | Over 10 years? That's a bit more than an hour a day. That was
         | the minimum that my former teacher expected of his students.
        
       | CountDrewku wrote:
       | The guy just had a panic attack and didn't know how to deal with
       | it. Getting kinda tired of the sensationalist articles acting
       | like they discovered some unheard of horror that no other person
       | has ever known.
        
       | JoeAltmaier wrote:
       | A mind is a terrible thing to waste - or to tinker with
       | haphazardly. I'm reminded of when Palm came out with "Graffiti",
       | their stylus-stroke way of entering western characters into the
       | thing. Folks were hospitalized with aphasia, where they couldn't
       | figure out how to write normally any more. They'd jumped the
       | well-work grooves they'd been in since primary school and
       | couldn't find their way back.
       | 
       | As adults we are a wired mess of stimulus-response formed by
       | uncoordinated childhood and young-adult experiences. To start
       | pulling those wires and plugging them in elsewhere, risks losing
       | something. Maybe something you value.
        
         | julesnp wrote:
         | _Folks were hospitalized with aphasia, where they couldn 't
         | figure out how to write normally any more._
         | 
         | That's quite an extreme reaction. Do you have any links about
         | this? I'm unable to find anything through Google.
        
       | ghostbrainalpha wrote:
       | How did we give the hacker news "hug of death" to substack.com ?
       | This is basic text on page, pretty lightweight right?
        
       | [deleted]
        
       | saltmeister wrote:
       | "essential in the Buddha's awakening" yes...experience something
       | beyond... way above the stars and far across the sea you clown of
       | a human being
        
       | kazinator wrote:
       | Major selection bias here.
       | 
       | From a 10,000 foot view it looks like:
       | 
       | "Flaky dude attracted to Buddhist retreats who uses words like
       | _jhana_ had a freak out. Say it ain 't so ..."
        
         | exo-pla-net wrote:
         | That's what you see at 10,000 feet? Nothing about the frequency
         | of nervous breakdowns/psychosis among meditation practitioners
         | with no personal nor family history of mental illness? I think
         | you might need some prescription lenses at that altitude.
        
           | [deleted]
        
       | raincom wrote:
       | A similar story: https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=19222467
        
       | tralarpa wrote:
       | > As an instructor in Mindfulness-Based Stress Reduction (MBSR),
       | I spent four years teaching meditation as a full-time job. A
       | longtime meditator, I have logged roughly 4,000 hours of practice
       | over 10 years, including over 100 days on silent meditation
       | retreats.
       | 
       | These numbers are telling everything you need to know about the
       | the state of meditation in the Western world... His teachers were
       | probably not much better.
        
         | dorchadas wrote:
         | Yep, it's totally divorced from the teachings it developed in.
         | No wonder there's issues.
        
       | briantakita wrote:
       | > Why did I start meditating? The short answer is that in 2009 I
       | started a fist fight in a French Quarter bar over some jambalaya,
       | a steamy kiss, and a stray comment I didn't take fondly. The
       | evening ended hours later after I broke a window with my fist,
       | misplaced my shirt, and guzzled about 16 bottles of Miller High
       | Life. My girlfriend was not happy. I wasn't happy. Something had
       | to change.
       | 
       | > That speck in time represented a constant battle I had waged
       | over the prior decade with anger and other negative emotions. I
       | drank too much. I occasionally smashed printers that jammed. I
       | had volatile relationships with women. My mind wandered
       | uncontrollably.
       | 
       | > I spent my last day in Los Angeles riding on a Segway, buying
       | legal marijuana and staring at some turtles in an on-campus pond
       | at UCLA
       | 
       | > Yet, somewhere six or seven years into my practice, whatever
       | progress I was making petered out. I was experiencing a growing
       | sense of bodily agitation and began self-medicating with drugs
       | and alcohol. Looking back, it was also during this time period
       | that I had my first dissociative experiences, in which elements
       | of my sense of self became separated in a way that impaired my
       | ability to function.
       | 
       | Perhaps he has some unresolved deep-seated emotional processes
       | that have not been mastered, seeking a silver-bullet "cure",
       | whether it be meditation, drugs, or alcohol. He would need to
       | take responsibility over these "low-level" pains & train his
       | psyche, body, & soul to handle this feedback mechanism in a
       | holistic way, seeing these pains with his conscious mind, instead
       | of disassociating his consciousness from them. Blaming
       | meditation, drugs, alcohol are blaming the symptoms of a deeper
       | issue. People recoil after touching a hot surface for good
       | reason.
       | 
       | Note that dissociation is the conscious psyche's firewall against
       | trauma.
       | 
       | > I was halfway to awakening.
       | 
       | Building consciousness is a continuous journey, not a waypoint
       | where you can be halfway toward, since there is no end.
       | 
       | > Before her death, Vogt sent two emails to the retreat center
       | about her challenges, at one point writing that she thought her
       | distress was "a sign that I need to give up my life for a more
       | pure one."
       | 
       | She probably needs a better framework to view her life. This is
       | where upbringing & social conditioning come into play.
       | 
       | > In sifting through a patchwork of spiritual, psychological and
       | biological frameworks, I have had to mix and match and to trust
       | less in the words of experts and more in my intuition. It's been,
       | like much in life, an inside job.
       | 
       | People desire a simple silver bullet to solve all of their
       | problems. Life is complex & the map is not the territory, so it
       | can be disadvantageous to be too dependent & only focus on the
       | map.
       | 
       | > If you're a meditation teacher or hold a powerful position in
       | the mindfulness industry, perhaps take a moment to question what
       | sort of legacy you want to leave. Transparency, honesty and
       | humility are often the core values of religion, but are typically
       | abandoned the moment a sacred idea is critiqued.
       | 
       | > Is it the fate of the Western mindfulness movement to follow
       | this trend? Is there some wiggle room around the idea that more
       | awareness is always better? Is there potential for a pause in our
       | desperate attempt to prove that we've found a magic bullet for
       | all our ills?
       | 
       | He acknowledges the "magic bullet" singular tool to solve all
       | problems mindset as being problematic.
       | 
       | > My faith did not crumble gradually -- but collapsed like a
       | Jenga game, leaving me to pick through the ruins and to wonder,
       | with tremulous apprehension, if anything was salvageable.
       | 
       | This sounds like the Shamanic Journey, where the soul is cut to
       | pieces to be reassembled. Kindof like refactoring code.
        
       | josyulakrishna wrote:
       | I can only say that, please do not practice any advanced kind of
       | meditation without a guru/experienced teacher and don't do drugs
       | or alcohol if you are meditating.
        
         | blix wrote:
         | I've been starting a personal meditation practice, but I have
         | no teacher outside what I read (mainly Easwaran). Do you have
         | any recommendation for how one might find an experienced
         | teacher while living in the west?
        
       | Nursie wrote:
       | Wow, there are a lot of judgemental and defensive responses here,
       | from people who are allegedly working towards greater self
       | knowledge and detachment...
       | 
       | So many saying some variation of "he's not doing it right". Yet
       | with ten years of practice, it doesn't seem like this person was
       | just dabbling or dipping their toe in the water.
       | 
       | Surely, even if they are "doing it wrong" that just goes to prove
       | the point, that what's being taught and lauded so much as a
       | panacea by some in the western world is potentially dangerous?
       | And such dangers are downplayed or hand-waved away?
        
         | throwaway34241 wrote:
         | > that just goes to prove the point, that what's being taught
         | and lauded so much as a panacea by some in the western world is
         | potentially dangerous?
         | 
         | I'm not an expert or even regular meditator but I can
         | understand some of the defensiveness here. There is an analogy
         | I think holds up: Imagine a headline "How I hurt myself
         | exercising", in a world where people are so unfamiliar with the
         | idea of physical exercise they may arrive at the conclusion
         | that exercise is dangerous.
         | 
         | The word meditation these days just means almost any sort of
         | mental exercise. They could be totally different exercises,
         | with totally different goals.
         | 
         | The sort of meditation that is often praised and practiced by
         | the general public is usually something like 15 minute attempts
         | to relax and be undistracted, in a world with constant
         | distractions. The sort of meditation that you see people write
         | about mental breakdowns about are usually 10 day silent
         | retreats where you try to accept the impermanence of all things
         | or achieve ego death or something.
         | 
         | It seems very similar to the dangers of physical exercise. In
         | some types of exercise like weightlifting, technique is
         | important to avoid injury, but you can still get injured with
         | correct technique. Some extreme sports are inherently risky.
         | Even doing light exercise some people may get unlucky and have
         | a heart attack.
         | 
         | But despite all this saying "exercise is risky" is probably too
         | broad a generalization. I think especially the sort of
         | meditation you see commonly talked about and praised in
         | mainstream culture is pretty far off from these intense 10 day
         | retreats that the negative experiences are usually about.
        
         | andrewzah wrote:
         | 10 years doesn't really mean much by itself. If I incorrectly
         | practice guitar for 10 years, I'll have experience of
         | practicing the guitar incorrectly, and maybe RSI/health issues
         | from not learning correct posture, etc. There is no rule that
         | I'll actually get "good" at guitar by practicing that way.
         | 
         | "that <what>'s being taught and lauded so much as a panacea"
         | 
         | Lauded by whom? And <what> exactly? Buddhism? Meditation? Those
         | are very different and learning from an experienced
         | practitioner is important.
        
           | Nursie wrote:
           | > If I incorrectly practice guitar for 10 years, I'll have
           | experience of practicing the guitar incorrectly, and maybe
           | RSI/health issues
           | 
           | Whether the person in the article practised incorrectly or
           | not is not really the issue. The narrative on and praise for
           | mindfulness in recent years has not included any warnings
           | that there may be dangers. Quite the opposite, it is usually
           | posited as an unambiguous positive.
           | 
           | Your idea that this person was 'doing it wrong' is quite a
           | hand-wavy posture to start with, especially as the author
           | finds that such problems have been described by experienced
           | practitioners.
           | 
           | > Lauded by whom?
           | 
           | The article mentions whom - the various interested parties in
           | mindfulness, the great and the good that attend and throw
           | conferences, those that throw workshops and run retreats. To
           | some extent mainstream journalism and society at large, and
           | even hacker news - mindfulness has been favourably covered
           | here and in a variety of other places over the last several
           | years, never have I seen a warning that you may experience
           | mental health problems if you do it badly, or too much, or
           | whatever.
           | 
           | > Those are very different and learning from an experienced
           | practitioner is important.
           | 
           | Oh I'm sure they are, and I'm sure it is. Do you have
           | evidence that the author was not learning from experienced
           | practitioners? Or are you merely knee-jerking to the defence
           | of something you personally like?
        
             | andrewzah wrote:
             | > Your idea that this person was 'doing it wrong' is quite
             | a hand-wavy posture to start with, especially as the author
             | finds that such problems have been described by experienced
             | practitioners.
             | 
             | How they handled it and went about it was wrong. Actual
             | experienced practicioners may face those problems (see
             | dukkha nanas / the dark night of the soul), but with proper
             | instructors there are well-known ways of dealing with it.
             | 
             | > The article mentions whom ... the great and the good that
             | attend and throw conferences, those that throw workshops
             | and run retreats
             | 
             | What I was getting at is that <what> is ambiguous.
             | "Mindfulness" is anywhere from jhana, "intensive
             | meditation", etc, to more elements of stoicism. Practicing
             | stoicism has just about nothing that can actively harm
             | anyone or is dangerous. As pointed out in this article's
             | discussion, the author has been conflating terminology
             | which demonstrates a lack of understanding.
             | 
             | > Do you have evidence that the author was not learning
             | from experienced practitioners?
             | 
             | Firstly, problems like the ones described in the article
             | are well-known. Knowledgeable instructors are upfront about
             | them and provide frameworks and guidance for dealing with
             | them, instead of, as per the article, just "suggesting
             | various ways that I might alter my meditation practice to
             | alleviate my symptoms".
             | 
             | This looks to me like a case of the blind leading the blind
             | in a consumerized and repackaged version of meditation that
             | advertises "mindfulness/meditation" as a cure-all for one's
             | problems. There is a reason that Transmission [0] is a
             | thing. Just like even if I practice guitar for 10 years,
             | that doesn't mean I'm actually qualified to teach it or
             | provide useful guidance.
             | 
             | [0]: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dharma_transmission
        
           | camjohnson26 wrote:
           | But the point stands, if the most popular method of teaching
           | guitar is wrong and can lead to serious injury then potential
           | students need to be aware of the risks.
        
             | alex504 wrote:
             | This is the key takeaway.
             | 
             | This guy didn't do anything that the majority of meditators
             | in the West aren't doing. Taking such a serious piece of
             | advice from a book by some random guy (who seems like a
             | nutjob) is a particularly foolish thing to do but the
             | authors mindset that led him to that decision isn't an
             | outlier. To recap he
             | 
             | - Had no teacher
             | 
             | - Mix and matched various concepts and techniques from
             | different traditions that he inevitably had a poor / loose
             | understanding of
             | 
             | - Had a drug and alcohol problem
             | 
             | - Trained an intense schedule for years
             | 
             | And when he got himself into a bind none of the teachers he
             | went to could help him out because they are all doing the
             | same thing, more or less, minus the drugs and alcohol.
        
           | badkitty99 wrote:
           | Well said!
        
       | m12k wrote:
       | A lot of people come into meditation/mindfulness with this
       | preconceived notion that you sit down, close your eyes, focus on
       | your breathing, and find your inner bliss. In my experience,
       | nothing could be further from the truth. You sit down, close your
       | eyes, focus on your breathing, and come face to face with the
       | tornado of thoughts and emotions that is raging inside you. It's
       | like running htop on your brain to find the runaway background
       | processes that are consuming all your processing power.
       | 
       | It's what you do once you get to that place that matters. In the
       | eastern tradition, you're supposed to observe the thoughts and
       | feelings with non-judgment, accept them for what they are without
       | "running along with them", then let them be as you return your
       | focus to your breathing. IMO that's good advice - up to a point.
       | I think actually solving some of the problems weighing on your
       | mind should absolutely be part of your toolbox. (Stressed about
       | work? Maybe talk to your boss about setting more humane goals).
       | And finally, for the really big things you find, that can neither
       | be solved nor accepted easily (the skeletons and/or demons),
       | you're going to want to supplement meditation with something
       | else. Maybe just reflection, where you take time to actually dig
       | into it instead of trying to let it go. Maybe therapy where you
       | get help to unpack it. Maybe even medication to help you be less
       | anxious when you try to unpack it.
       | 
       | Whatever you do, don't scale up the duration of meditation if you
       | find yourself dissociating. It's supposed to be intense, but not
       | psychedelic. Start with short sessions (5-10 mins) and only
       | increase the duration if you find that you're able to
       | consistently return your focus to your breathing. If the thoughts
       | and feelings take you for a ride that you can't get off, and you
       | scale up the duration, then you're basically giving yourself a
       | bad trip.
       | 
       | Done right, it can be a kind of conscious garbage collection to
       | help ground you and train your awareness to return to the world
       | at hand. Done wrong, it can be gambling with your sanity,
       | removing avoidance as a coping mechanism without anything to
       | replace it.
        
         | JoeAltmaier wrote:
         | This.
         | 
         | I blame a modern world that puts a tv-box of constant stimulus
         | over our heads. Folks rarely have a moment to their own
         | thoughts, and have zero experience dealing with them.
         | 
         | I grew up on a farm. I had many hours a day with my own
         | thoughts. I grew up quite comfortable with long silences and
         | stillness. No storm rages in my head when I'm alone - more like
         | a little wind, and I can easily deal with it.
         | 
         | I remember getting to college and encountering people who
         | turned the TV or radio on the instant they got home. It took me
         | years to understand why anybody would do that.
        
         | Nursie wrote:
         | > Done wrong, it can be gambling with your sanity
         | 
         | I think the point of the article is that it's not clear what
         | 'wrong' is, and it's certainly not made clear that there are
         | potential serious negative mental health consequences.
        
           | m12k wrote:
           | Absolutely, I think it's important to not victim-blame or
           | fall into that "just do it correctly and you'll be fine"
           | trope that the author of the post describes. If you want to
           | try meditation, always ease into it with shorts sessions,
           | listen to your body and take note how you react to it along
           | the way, and do not continue (or at least downscale it) if
           | you find that your mind has a tendency to dissociate or
           | otherwise freak out from it. And frankly, those 10 day silent
           | retreats scare me - as someone who does short sessions once
           | or twice a week, I probably feel the same way about them as
           | someone who microdoses would feel about munching several
           | fistfuls of shrooms.
           | 
           | I think part of the problem here is also the mysticism that
           | this is steeped in. Hallucination, out-of-body-experiences,
           | dissociation - none of these are ok, or signs that you're
           | "transcending" or any bullshit like that. The "end goal" here
           | isn't to dissolve your brain and merge it with the universe -
           | in fact there is no end goal, just like there is no end goal
           | for going to the gym (and it's absolutely possible to over-
           | train there too, cf. rhabdomyolysis).
        
         | damontal wrote:
         | What do you mean by dissociating? What is that?
        
           | m12k wrote:
           | https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dissociation_(psychology)
           | 
           | https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dissociative_disorder
           | 
           | TLDR, it's when some of the core associations in your brain
           | start collapsing. E.g. you lose your sense of self, the world
           | starts feeling unreal, your emotional responses to the world
           | get out of whack. I think of it as semi-random rewiring of
           | the connection between regions of your brain. Changing the
           | layout of the connectivity of your brain is indeed a purpose
           | of meditation, but always slowly over months and years. Doing
           | so in a sudden, violent or random fashion most certainly
           | isn't.
        
             | babyblueblanket wrote:
             | Dissociation also is any sort of abstracting from reality.
             | This happens in daydreaming for example.
        
               | raincom wrote:
               | In fact, lucid dreaming is one of the techniques used in
               | 'buddhism'.
        
         | metabagel wrote:
         | "I think actually solving some of the problems weighing on your
         | mind should absolutely be part of your toolbox."
         | 
         | Yes, after meditation. I love your analogy of "garbage
         | collection". For me, it's like flipping over playing cards,
         | becoming interested in each card, and then remembering that I
         | don't need to get fixated, and then discarding that card and
         | returning to focus on my breathing, only to forget and flip
         | over another card. Eventually, I spend less time flipping over
         | cards and more time just sitting without judgement.
         | 
         | I am a lapsed meditator, and I will resolve to get back into
         | it. Meditation helps me to remember who I am and what I really
         | want.
        
         | awb wrote:
         | Thank you for this. I stopped meditating for a while after I
         | stopped judging things like my own happiness or lack of
         | happiness. I find greater meaning in life by striving for
         | happiness and solving problems rather than accepting things as
         | they are without judgement.
         | 
         | I do appreciate meditating though to observe the background
         | thoughts that are consuming energy as you mentioned. But I like
         | my conviction and plan to keep it :)
        
       | hunter-gatherer wrote:
       | Wow. Like a few others have commented, I'm surprised to see the
       | amount of positive associations people have had with meditation.
       | I'll admit, I definitely never thought the benefits of meditation
       | were anything more than the placebo effect, though I've also
       | never had reason to give meditation any real thought as a
       | solution to my problems, because I've fortunately always been
       | able to cope and function through them to find solutions. This
       | article definitely opened my eyes a bit, however.
       | 
       | That being said, I've been actively weight lifting or doing other
       | sports since I was a teenager, and I often wonder if that has
       | helped contribute to my successes. For example, proper weight
       | training takes years of practice to develop a solid mind-muscle
       | connection, and I find both the moments between sets and the
       | repetitions themselves help train mental focus. This is
       | especially true with heavy weight lifting because you need to
       | visualize the movement before you do it, and as you're going
       | through the movement you need to focus carefully on your muscle
       | tension throughout your body.
       | 
       | For those who have never seriously trained, it is probably easy
       | to dismiss that weight training can have a positive impact on
       | one's ability to focus. I assure you, a few sets of heavy squats
       | takes a toll on the nervous system as well as the musculoskeletal
       | system. Likewise, I find that when I am in a proper training
       | regimen, it is easier to eat better and easier to sleep deeper.
       | 
       | I've never done any guided meditation, so if there are any active
       | athletes who have practiced meditation as described in the
       | article, I'd be interested to here your thoughts.
        
       | rofws wrote:
       | Is it possible that the author suffering from undiagnosed
       | depression?
       | 
       | I've been a regular meditator for a few years and one thing I've
       | found is that the the initial stages, meditation enhances
       | whatever you're feeling subconsciously. That is why some people
       | have intense emotional experiences at the beginning.
       | 
       | Secondly, mindfulness is not a 10 minute scheduled practice. It
       | has to be followed throughout the day. However, you need to
       | gradually ease into it, starting with 10 mins.
       | 
       | It's like pouring milk into a glass. If you start gently, there
       | won't be a splash. But if you turn your milk container upside
       | down over the glass, there will be a big splash and possibly
       | spilling.
        
       | eurasiantiger wrote:
       | > And I didn't have a history of any major trauma prior to the
       | retreat
       | 
       | Yeah, right.
       | 
       | > in 2009 I started a fist fight in a French Quarter bar ... I
       | broke a window with my fist, misplaced my shirt, and guzzled
       | about 16 bottles of Miller High Life ... > That ... represented a
       | constant battle I had waged over the prior decade with anger and
       | other negative emotions. I drank too much. I occasionally smashed
       | printers that jammed. I had volatile relationships ...
       | 
       | Would put my money on unacknowledged childhood trauma.
        
         | littlethrowaway wrote:
         | Heh, a very similar thing happened to me actually, and while I
         | agree about the fist-fight comment, I honestly didn't have any
         | childhood trauma. Came from a loving, pretty privileged family,
         | but I still went off the rails with a 10 day silent retreat!
         | 
         | It's extremely easy to dismiss people like this, but, have a
         | care, there are real people on the other end of your dismissive
         | comments.
        
           | goodpoint wrote:
           | The author claims not to have "history of any major trauma
           | prior to the retreat" while also describing a decade of anger
           | and negative emotion culminating in a serious fistfight.
           | 
           | unacknowledged childhood trauma is a real thing, it's not
           | uncommon and does not constitute "dismissive comments" in any
           | way.
           | 
           | Ironically, you are being very dismissive of eurasiantiger.
        
           | Zababa wrote:
           | I don't want to dismiss your personal experience, this is
           | just a general comment. "a loving, pretty privileged family"
           | is not uncompatible with "childhood trauma".
        
           | eurasiantiger wrote:
           | Suggest you book an appointment with a professional to talk
           | about your childhood and family dynamics. Everyone has a
           | different sense of normal unless we compare.
        
         | 8note wrote:
         | Why childhood, vs unacknowledged trauma as an adult?
        
           | maxduckworth wrote:
           | I think it's just more likely that unacknowledged trauma
           | originated in childhood. It's certainly possible to have
           | unacknowledged trauma as adults, but it's less common because
           | 1) it's closer in calendar time and therefore easier to
           | remember and 2) you are more developed and able to actually
           | identify what is traumatic.
        
         | rkachowski wrote:
         | Yeah, on the surface level it looks like the author exchanged
         | an intensity for impulsive and aggressive behaviour with an
         | intensity for mindfulness and meditation.
         | 
         | I wonder if this is a symptom of going far too much in a
         | direction people don't normally do, similar to how people can
         | and do die from water intoxication but almost never under
         | regular conditions. The naive guidance of the meditation
         | teachers saying "more of a good thing is always a good thing"
         | with regards to meditation having the same role as organisers
         | of a water drinking contest.
        
       | nerror wrote:
       | Interesting post, but part of the post feels fairly disingenuous.
       | 
       | "One might wonder if these wounded meditators had preexisting
       | conditions that triggered these experiences. Most of us don't, a
       | finding similar to Britton and Lindahl's study, which reported
       | that 57% of practitioners suffering adverse effects didn't have a
       | trauma history and 42% had no psychiatric issues at all prior to
       | meditation practice."
       | 
       | The framing is disingenuous. If you flip it, nearly half of
       | people who have negative responses to meditation had trauma
       | histories, and nearly 60% had previous mental health conditions.
        
       | bruja_gorda wrote:
       | The author is a lost cause. He messed himself up following the
       | teachings of clueless gurus. Then, when he realised he was just
       | damaging his mind, he switched to different gurus. Now he's
       | teaching meditation again, so he is himself taking on the mantle
       | of the clueless guru, spreading around his mental illness to more
       | unknowing victims.
       | 
       | This never stops. These people never face reality. The lure of
       | the supernatural, of enlightenment, of insights, of metaphysical
       | experiences, is too strong and they eventually lose the ability
       | to tell the difference between reality and the crazy teachings of
       | their books and their masters.
       | 
       | Madness is the loss of the ability to discern the boundary
       | between reality and imagination. Meditation is just one of the
       | many ways that supernatural and metaphysical sects have to push
       | the mind beyond that boundary, lock the door behind it and throw
       | away the key.
        
       | NaN1352 wrote:
       | Healing trauma is a much better approach, look into Julie Brown
       | talks, "Nurturing Resilience" by Kathy Kain, Irene Lyons channel.
       | 
       | Vipassana is a form of trauma healing anyway, to clear the
       | nervous system from your past essentially, and then keep going
       | further where the ego itself as a form of "contraction" in the
       | entire musculature and nervous system, also lets go.
       | 
       | The problem with those retreats is Vipassana is a completely
       | outdated approach that was made for people living 1000+ years
       | ago. The world, our lives drastically changed since.
       | 
       | A buddhist on a podcast said "trauma is the human condition".
       | 
       | Practicing gratitude, loving kindness, compassion are spiritual
       | practices and also part of healing trauma... and should provide a
       | much more stable ground for opening the body .
       | 
       | Or for a purely physical approach Yoga is great, though after a
       | while... yoga will also surface anger, etc... if it needs to be
       | processed.
       | 
       | I also did retreats 3 times. Yes I felt an immense love when I
       | was there, and I was still miserable years later ... when I
       | finally looked into therapy in general, and then trauma
       | specifically.
       | 
       | When you go into the body and build capacity to feel the intense
       | emotions that may be there, some say possibly even inherited
       | trauma from before birth, you need to balance it out with some
       | kind of grounding. THAT grounding is somewhat provided on
       | retreats by the safe environment, and whatevers going on
       | energetically (very strange)... but essentially they dont teach
       | you that or very little, so then they send you on your way and
       | now you know how to intensely feel the body, but you have no
       | tools to handle the intense levels of fear, anxiety, grief and so
       | on..that may come up.
        
         | pmoriarty wrote:
         | _" The problem with those retreats is Vipassana is a completely
         | outdated approach that was made for people living 1000+ years
         | ago. The world, our lives drastically changed since."_
         | 
         | The world has changed, but I'm not so sure people have.
        
       | WalterGR wrote:
       | Actual title: When Buddhism Goes Bad
       | 
       | The author was practicing a specific kind of Buddhist meditation
       | while at a 2-week meditation seminar. It sounds like he was
       | meditating most of his waking hours?
       | 
       | This is not about "mindfulness" as you probably think of it.
        
         | qwerty456127 wrote:
         | One should meditate always, also also during their sleep. let
         | alone while doing chores, walking and talking. Formal sitting
         | meditation is just a minor part.
        
           | nix23 wrote:
           | Not sure about during sleep, but meditation is nothing else
           | then to life and think in the present, give your brain a task
           | and focus just on that, then the next one. If you go into the
           | future or past do it intended.
        
             | qwerty456127 wrote:
             | > give your brain a task and focus just on that
             | 
             | Not really. It is important to maintain conscious. When you
             | simply "focus on just that" you may then just wake up once
             | the task is complete and find out you've went through it
             | automatically like if it was a [non-lucid] dream.
             | 
             | As about meditating while sleeping - I have not explored
             | this part enough. Renowned Dzogchen teachers Tenzin Wangyal
             | Rinpoche and Chogyal Namkhai Norbu Rinpoche have books on
             | this subject. A Zen teacher quoted by Alan Watts also said
             | "when you are hungry - eat, when you are tired - sleep" and
             | explained that ordinary people don't actually follow this
             | as they think about countless things while eating and see
             | countless dreams while sleeping. If we go slightly farther
             | than secular mindfulness dares to go and consider the
             | Buddhist religious goal of after-death liberation, they say
             | "dream yoga is not an essential part of practice, but how
             | do you expect to stay conscious in death if you can't even
             | stay conscious in sleeping"?
             | 
             | As for me, I consider unmindfullness a voluntary death,
             | throwing parts of the life time you have been given (by the
             | G-d, or figuratively - whatever you prefer to believe, this
             | doesn't change the matter) away. You only live and actually
             | own/use your time when mindful. When you are not it just
             | disappears. AFAIK even Immanuel Kant believed something
             | like this.
        
               | Nursie wrote:
               | > You only live and actually own/use your time when
               | mindful. When you are not it just disappears.
               | 
               | This sounds both judgemental and obsessive, just so you
               | know.
        
               | qwerty456127 wrote:
               | Why? Now I'm here and enjoy the moment. Now I'm not and
               | the body just lives on its own doing it's job like a
               | robot could when I could be dead and not mindful of
               | anything. A minute is gone. To me this seems rather
               | simple. Perhaps my verbal abilities are not enough to
               | explain.
               | 
               | Once, as a schoolboy, I've heard about Buddhists who
               | train to always stay consciousness while living, talking
               | and whatever, I considered this amazing and have then
               | progresses from 80% daydreaming an 19% struggling life to
               | some way more (although still very far from 100%)
               | present, more mine and more happy.
        
               | 8note wrote:
               | I don't think that's sufficient.
               | 
               | Being mindful and doing nothing is still doing nothing.
               | 
               | You should be doing measurable work, otherwise your
               | minute is gone, and it's just as gone whether you're
               | mindful during that time or not. You still changed
               | nothing, and you can't backtrack to tell if you were
               | doing nothing or being mindful while doing nothing.
        
               | qwerty456127 wrote:
               | This is a matter of philosophy, your "world view". AFAIK
               | Buddhists don't believe you have to change anything or
               | even pursue a happy state. As for me at this phase of my
               | development being mindfully happy (and not hypnotized
               | happy like under narcotics or in a pleasant dream) makes
               | the most sense (and happiness often comes when you do
               | anything mindfully - AFAIK this is called "sukha"). And
               | in fact this is not useless even from a practical
               | (economical) point of view - this is genuine recreation
               | letting you take the most out of your resting (and even
               | doing chores) which makes you more stable and efficient
               | after that.
        
               | Nursie wrote:
               | Well, you appear to be telling others that their lives
               | and experiences have no value without mindfulness.
               | 
               | You also seem to be telling us that the only way you feel
               | your life experience has any value is through this thing
               | also, that your own experience is hollow or even non-
               | existent without it. That seems somewhat extreme.
               | 
               | I would make the same comment to (for instance) someone
               | telling us that they live every moment of their lives
               | through Jesus, and that without his love life can have no
               | meaning.
        
               | qwerty456127 wrote:
               | "Being with Jesus" is a rather vague concept which.
               | Different people may understand it differently. Often it
               | even is primitivized to just attributing yourself to a
               | church.
               | 
               | What I am telling, however, is a simple difference
               | between automatic functioning in semi-hypnotic state and
               | living in awake state. Let's take it to the extreme:
               | imagine you were given a choice to spend the rest of your
               | life in deep sleep (the kind you can't remember dreams
               | after) and wake up just minutes before die. Would you
               | agree? Would you consider such life making much sense or
               | value to you? I wouldn't. To me it seems almost the same
               | as dying straight away.
               | 
               | In fact Christianity includes the doctrine of Nepsis
               | which is very much related to this (although many people
               | believe it only means avoiding alcohol).
        
               | Nursie wrote:
               | > "Being with Jesus" is a rather vague concept which.
               | Different people may understand it differently.
               | 
               | Which is why I said if someone tells me that _" they live
               | every moment of their lives through Jesus, and that
               | without his love life can have no meaning."_
               | 
               | > What I am telling, however, is a simple difference
               | between automatic functioning in semi-hypnotic state and
               | living in awake state.
               | 
               | Do you not see how judgemental that appears, that unless
               | people join in with your special thing they are
               | effectively automata, asleep, may as well be dead?
               | 
               | I'm glad you have found benefit in your path through
               | life, but I'm not sure one should assume that yours is
               | the only valuable way to live, or indeed the only way to
               | actually 'live'.
        
               | qwerty456127 wrote:
               | I believe I get your point now, hopefully you will
               | understand mine.
               | 
               | Looking from the outside, from the practical (economical)
               | point of view the value/meaning of a unit does not depend
               | on whether it is conscious or not - it just does the same
               | job. Somebody probably can replace me with a future
               | version of GPT3 once and not even my mom will notice (as
               | she lives in a different country and my job also is
               | writing e-mails).
               | 
               | Looking from the outside, from the moral, empathetic and
               | spiritual points of view (although devotees of some cults
               | will argue), and from my own actual view all lives are
               | absolutely equally valuable and meaningful. I really feel
               | and see this way, not because this is a moral or
               | religious law.
               | 
               | I don't judge anybody based on anything, let alone on how
               | mindful their are. I even go further and believe no
               | criminal is actually a wicked person - they just feel and
               | act the ways they do because they are not mindful about
               | how bad (and conditioned) their actions are and how they
               | could avoid them. In many cases this even is a scientific
               | fact.
               | 
               | Looking from the inside, however, I indeed believe I
               | enjoy more value out of my life if I am more awake,
               | conscious for longer and more frequent periods of time.
               | Simply saying it's not worth to pay for ticket and go to
               | a cinema if you are deadly tired and will most probably
               | fall asleep there anyway. One night on a vacation I got
               | terribly drunk. The next morning we went to a museum and
               | that was a waste because I could barely stand on my feet
               | fighting drowsiness - there could be no paintings on the
               | walls and I would not notice. The day passed as if there
               | were no such day, I've got nothing but the next number on
               | the calendar.
               | 
               | Do you understand what I mean? It absolutely isn't my
               | goal to argue the hell out of us or convince you people
               | with ADHD (like myself) are worthless, I only keep
               | writing to make sure what I wrote is understood correctly
               | (not necessarily agreed with).
        
               | Nursie wrote:
               | I understand that's how you feel, that without meditation
               | and mindfulness you do not feel fully awake and
               | 'conscious', though I suspect what you mean by
               | 'conscious' is different to what I might mean. I am glad
               | you've found something that increases your enjoyment and
               | appreciation of your life.
               | 
               | I enjoy and appreciate mine, too.
               | 
               | And hopefully we all learn pretty quickly that drinking
               | too much can utterly ruin the next day....
        
               | qwerty456127 wrote:
               | This could be a nice end of the conversation as it was
               | obviously meant to be but now I feel very curious about
               | this:
               | 
               | > I suspect what you mean by 'conscious' is different to
               | what I might mean
               | 
               | What do you mean? I would sincerely appreciate if you
               | could dedicate some more time and try to explain.
        
               | Nursie wrote:
               | Well, to me, the semantic definition of being conscious
               | is simply to be awake, rather than asleep, insensible,
               | anaesthetised, blacked out or whatever else.
               | 
               | You seem to have a slightly different definition, I
               | think, based on these remarks -                 "It is
               | important to maintain conscious"       "I've heard about
               | Buddhists who train to always stay consciousness while
               | living, talking and whatever,"       "I enjoy more value
               | out of my life if I am more awake, conscious for longer
               | and more frequent periods of time"
               | 
               | I maintain consciousness whenever I am awake, because
               | that's what being awake is, as far as I understand the
               | word. The second quote, well being conscious is a pre-
               | requisite for me talking (unless you count mumbling in my
               | sleep, which does happen). And I don't think in that last
               | quote you're talking about deliberate sleep deprivation
               | so you can be awake longer (you could be?).
               | 
               | It just made me think you were not using the word in the
               | same sense I would. Do you think it's possible to be
               | awake (i.e. not asleep) without necessarily being
               | conscious? If so that would just confirm we have
               | different definitions of that word.
               | 
               | I could be wrong.
               | 
               | (And I don't especially want to direct this conversation
               | towards "what really is consciousness?" because it's a
               | very slippery eel of a topic)
        
               | qwerty456127 wrote:
               | I see. Thank you for the explanation. Indeed, we mean
               | slightly different things.
               | 
               | Have you ever (I would be surprised if you never ever
               | had, but perhaps this doesn't happen to you often) went
               | outdoors and then suddenly started wondering if you have
               | turnt off the stove/iron, locked the door and taken the
               | key with you? This happens to me every day because I
               | always exit "unconsciously" in the meaning of the word I
               | intended. When we go together with my wife she would ask
               | me "have you taken the key"? I respond "yes"
               | automatically (here I am speaking but "unconsciously")
               | because such is the habit and I am "daydreaming"
               | ("unconscious" as I label it) at the moment, we lock the
               | door (it locks itself when closed) and then I always feel
               | a boost of adrenaline (in such a degree I have even
               | started taking beta-blockers as this caused heart ache)
               | and think "have I? bloody hell! I probably haven't, we
               | will have to call a locksmith, wait an hour and pay $100
               | to get back in" (and occasionally this turns out to be
               | the case). Then I become "conscious" and tell myself it's
               | not a big deal, whatever, check the pockets calmly
               | (usually finding the key) and go on. The very phenomenon
               | of such strong anxiety at the moment itself takes place
               | because I still am not really "conscious" at it (if I
               | were I wold understand it's not a big deal). This
               | wouldn't occur if I were leaving the home "consciously".
               | I could put a huge red "wake up" sign on the inside of my
               | door but I know I will get used to it soon and it will
               | stop working.
               | 
               | The "doorway effect" has even gotten some scientific
               | recognition recently[1].
               | 
               | Another example of unconscious speaking is when I am
               | reading or writing something and somebody talks to me - I
               | get less than 30% of what they say and "consciously"
               | answer "yes" to everything then have no idea what did I
               | agree with (and often can't even remember I said
               | anything). And this is not intentional behaviour - they
               | started when I was reading and I was not "conscious"
               | enough to make a "conscious decision" (I tend to believe
               | this phrase is pretty standard English) and switching to
               | just listening them.
               | 
               | This is what I meant.
               | 
               | [1] https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/why-
               | walking-throu...
        
               | Nursie wrote:
               | The doorway effect is fascinating. I don't tend to
               | experience worry on leaving the house as you describe (I
               | know many do), but I certainly walk into rooms and forget
               | why I'm there.
               | 
               | I would talk about the issues you raise more as issues of
               | attention, focus and division of attention, than whether
               | one is conscious or not.
               | 
               | Though semantically of course I agree that there is
               | overlap between being conscious _of_ something, of your
               | surroundings, of other people, of your actions etc. When
               | someone says just  "being conscious" without a particular
               | object, I think of something different. Language is a
               | funny, imprecise and overloaded thing.
        
               | kup0 wrote:
               | I feel like "awareness" might be a good term to describe
               | what they are meaning by "conscious"
               | 
               | I think they mean conscious as in "to be conscious of",
               | for example: I exited my house while daydreaming/thinking
               | about other things, so I was not "conscious of" the fact
               | that I did not bring my keys with me _aka_ I did not have
               | _awareness_ or was not operating _in the moment
               | /mindfully_ because my mind was elsewhere
               | 
               | I think they're attempting to describe the difference
               | between being present/aware of every moment we
               | experience, vs. a habitual 'autopilot state' that we can
               | find ourselves in (the phenomena of driving somewhere and
               | then not even remembering the drive there, for instance)
               | where we're really not aware of what's going on in our
               | lives, because the mundane things are so habitual that we
               | don't even need to be fully aware of what we're doing to
               | do it - but that _alternatively_ , choosing and teaching
               | ourselves to be aware at all times, even during our
               | mundane, habitual routines, is potentially a better way
               | to exist
        
               | qwerty456127 wrote:
               | Exactly. The only problem with this explanation is
               | "daydreaming/thinking about other things" doesn't really
               | imply "my mind was elsewhere" it often is "nowhere" in
               | these terms. Oftentimes I'm not unaware of something just
               | because I concentrated my full awareness on something
               | else, I may be completely unaware of one thing (I should
               | have been concentrated at) and just slightly aware (like
               | of in an ordinary non-lucid dream) of the other I've been
               | distracted to. Or this can even be just one thing I'm
               | concentrated at (and not thinking about anything else)
               | yet not really aware of it (this happens often when
               | reading (it harms retaining then), writing (making stupid
               | mistakes), speaking (making you say things and make
               | sounds you wouldn't want to), watching TV or, if you
               | kindly excuse, nose picking). Whenever I am doing a
               | pleasant activity (like just doing nothing or watching a
               | TV show) I force myself (with partial success) to be
               | aware of every moment of it so I actually enjoy it rather
               | than fall into a sort of a hypnotic state and "wake up"
               | once it is over. This improved my life a lot and I would
               | hardly learn to do so without a clue from the Buddhists.
        
           | Nursie wrote:
           | And if one does, one may end up with mental health problems.
        
             | threatofrain wrote:
             | I'm still on the theory that this person already has some
             | problems.
             | 
             | He says he has no history of mental illnesses (except for
             | mild anxiety and depression), but that what provoked him to
             | pursue meditation was a bar fight that began with vague
             | details around jambalaya, a steamy kiss, and a stray
             | comment.
             | 
             | > Why did I start meditating? The short answer is that in
             | 2009 I started a fist fight in a French Quarter bar over
             | some jambalaya, a steamy kiss, and a stray comment I didn't
             | take fondly. The evening ended hours later after I broke a
             | window with my fist, misplaced my shirt, and guzzled about
             | 16 bottles of Miller High Life.
             | 
             | I'm not sure that makes sense to me at all, and the overly
             | romantic prose doesn't help with credibility.
        
             | qwerty456127 wrote:
             | If one does not, they end up with [often undiagnosed]
             | mental health problems anyway. Everything is dangerous, you
             | just should try your best to do it the right way under
             | supervision of a qualified person and stop if it goes
             | wrong.
        
               | Nursie wrote:
               | > Everything is dangerous
               | 
               | This is not what is being promoted by the
               | mindfulness/buddhism-lite industry that the article is
               | talking about.
               | 
               | > you just should try your best to do it the right way
               | under supervision of a qualified person and stop if it
               | goes wrong.
               | 
               | This appears to contradict "One should meditate always"
        
               | qwerty456127 wrote:
               | > This is not what is being promoted by the
               | mindfulness/buddhism-lite industry
               | 
               | Every industry is corrupt. But if you are lucky and smart
               | enough you can actually get away with something good for
               | you.
               | 
               | Out of curiosity, I have even attended a course in
               | extrasensory abilities once. Paradoxically, besides some
               | useful self-regulation and some trance-based techniques
               | they also taught observing your thoughts and feelings
               | detachedly and taking them critically which has boosted
               | my rationality and helped me so many times. And good for
               | them, they were pretty serious about making sure people
               | with mental issues are not allowed to participate. Sadly
               | most of the industry don't care.
               | 
               | > This appears to contradict "One should meditate always"
               | 
               | Almost nobody can meditate intensely for long periods of
               | time in the beginning. You just do your best to awaken
               | from unconscious daydreaming and stay conscious as often
               | and for as long as you comfortably can. If you try and
               | immediately find out you actually can (although not
               | necessarily comfortably) maintain undisturbed conscious
               | concentration for long periods of time you should go to a
               | doctor or a Buddhist teacher experienced in meditation
               | techniques and things which happen to people on this way.
               | Choosing the latter absolutely doesn't imply you have to
               | take the religion and believe in their saints - you only
               | really need the psychotechnical (and the philosophical
               | maybe) guidance.
        
               | Nursie wrote:
               | > Sadly most of the industry don't care.
               | 
               | I think that's the point of the article, though not just
               | about people participating who have mental conditions -
               | most of the industry does not care about the potential
               | negatives.
               | 
               | > Almost nobody can meditate intensely for long periods
               | of time in the beginning.
               | 
               | I don't think this is really the issue here, the issue is
               | that doing so seems to have the potential to cause (or at
               | least trigger) mental health problems for some
               | practitioners, and the advice to just "do it more and
               | practice better" when distressed is specifically called
               | out as harmful.
        
           | mangamadaiyan wrote:
           | Says who? (Citation needed)
        
             | justmedep wrote:
             | https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Th%C3%ADch_Nhat_Hanh
        
               | beebmam wrote:
               | Sounds like cultish behavior to me.
        
           | mensetmanus1861 wrote:
           | this is taking the advice literally IMHO. Most of the time
           | you end up being in a calm and attentive state of mind where
           | you are focusing on the present.
        
             | qwerty456127 wrote:
             | Good for you. Most of the time I don't. Being particularly
             | prone to daydreaming (or deep unconscious though productive
             | hyperfocused flow state at best) and having attention
             | problems is what got me interested with the subject in the
             | first place.
        
       | mcguire wrote:
       | In the midst of all of the "You're just doing Buddhism wrong!"
       | comments, I would like to point out the PLOS One paper mentioned
       | in the article, "The varieties of contemplative experience: A
       | mixed-methods study of meditation-related challenges in Western
       | Buddhists" (https://journals.plos.org/plosone/article?id=10.1371/
       | journal...).
       | 
       | " _In one of the only prospective studies to use qualitative
       | methods to deliberately ask about adverse effects, Shapiro (1992)
       | [67] found that 63% of meditators on an intensive Vipassana
       | retreat reported at least one adverse effect, with 7.4% reporting
       | effects negative enough to stop meditating, and one individual
       | hospitalized for psychosis._ "
       | 
       | It appears that mindfulness-based meditation is being prescribed
       | or promoted with no regard to the side-effects.
        
         | themodelplumber wrote:
         | That's kinda funny because there are thousands of different
         | ways to do Buddhism, and there are just as many, if not more,
         | ways to do mindfulness and meditation.
         | 
         | For this reason I think it'd be really good on the one end to
         | start pairing up terms and systems with psychologies and
         | gifts/preferred methods of perception, in order to make these
         | systems more effective...
         | 
         | And on the other end to build comprehensive guidelines for the
         | ethics of promotion of mindfulness and meditation. Be Like Me
         | is not a suitable ethical standpoint from which to prescribe
         | such a tool or system.
        
         | abledon wrote:
         | 10-day vipassana retreat was worst decision i did in my life
         | lol
        
           | 2mol wrote:
           | well please elaborate, now I'm curious!
        
         | thevardanian wrote:
         | I mean... That's exactly what the "you're just doing Buddhism
         | wrong" crowd is saying.
         | 
         | There's a vast variety of methodologies and approaches to
         | meditation, that come with their own effects, some bad some
         | good. This is all quite well documented among the practitioners
         | over the centuries. And beyond documentation, that's also why
         | it's heavily suggested that one have guru or someone to
         | actively guide and judge "progress", at least among the Hindus.
        
           | Retric wrote:
           | The study was looking at guided meditation which consisted of
           | 60% of it's sample. So, suggesting a guide on it's own
           | doesn't solve the issue.
        
             | thevardanian wrote:
             | Having better guides is exactly what will solve the issue
             | though. Unless you're making some kind of inherent
             | argument, where all meditation is inherently nebulous and
             | impervious to methodological approaches.
             | 
             | The guides may or may not be qualified. So the real problem
             | is the lack systematization of it in meditation, more
             | specifically a more reliable metric to judge "guides". As
             | the extensive literature on meditation quite clearly
             | outlines the limitations and dangers of various practices.
             | 
             | Tantra for example is quite clear about the dangers of
             | practicing it.
        
               | Retric wrote:
               | Suggesting the guides themselves are the problem is a
               | different testable idea. I am not saying it's wrong, but
               | without knowing what guidance is better there isn't
               | anyway for someone to implement it.
        
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         | dayvid wrote:
         | An intensive Vipassana retreat is just that, an INTENSIVE
         | retreat. I've meditated for ~10 years. I don't think anyone's
         | FIRST meditation experience should be a 10-day Vipassana
         | retreat. I don't think anyone's first silence experience should
         | be a 10-day Vipassana retreat. That's like going to a Navy Seal
         | bootcamp when you've never exercised in your life.
         | 
         | A lot of Buddhist or meditative practices also have close
         | student-teacher relationships. You should have an active human
         | coach guiding you through the process, because shit comes up,
         | people have different mental health setups (just like a
         | physical therapist has different workout plans for people with
         | injuries and physical conditions) and if it's just DIY
         | experimenting, you can encounter something and get screwed.
         | 
         | A good example of this is the Tim Ferris podcast where he did a
         | 10-day Vipassana retreat and decided to fast for a certain
         | number of days to amplify the effect and almost had a complete
         | mental breakdown. It worked out and led to a very vulnerable
         | podcast down the line (https://tim.blog/2020/09/14/how-to-heal-
         | trauma/), but these are things to keep in mind when going into
         | deep waters.
        
           | fossuser wrote:
           | > "A lot of Buddhist or meditative practices also have close
           | student-teacher relationships. You should have an active
           | human coach guiding you through the process"
           | 
           | This seems to also open the door to a lot of fraudster con-
           | man types and cults, so worth being wary of that relationship
           | imo.
           | 
           | The author seemed to have experienced a bit of this:
           | https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Depersonalization which I've
           | felt before and can be quite scary.
        
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         | murphyslab wrote:
         | > promoted with no regard to the side-effects.
         | 
         | Many people are blind to the inherent risks of anything which
         | can be labelled as "natural". We've been socially conditioned
         | through health campaigns and advertising to believe that if
         | something is "all natural" or part of a certain "organic"
         | lifestyle it literally cannot precipitate any kind of harm.
         | Those kinds of "appeal to nature" arguments are all around us,
         | constantly. And many people see meditation as falling within
         | the scope of "natural remedies". So it's not surprising that
         | people would, by their conditioning, believe meditation to be
         | innocuous.
        
       | odomojuli wrote:
       | "As I lay there musing in the brisk darkness, I suddenly sensed a
       | tightening inside me. It was as if I was being ever so gently
       | wound. Then quickly, the pressure intensified, and I breathed in
       | rapid-fire staccato and violently shook. I was a guitar string
       | being tuned beyond its highest range. The string popped. A spike
       | of fear slashed through my guts. And that's when I split apart."
       | 
       | This has come up in a number of threads about burnout which
       | frequent Hacker News. It's anecdotal per account and I've found
       | weak evidence to corroborate its actual basis however... I think
       | it's interesting that a lot of people report hearing the same
       | thing: a guitar string, bending and snapping in their head. More
       | specifically, a bass guitar.
        
       | i_dont_know_ wrote:
       | I definitely feel bad for the guy, and I hope he got/gets the
       | full help he needs.
       | 
       | That having been said, I think there's something about meditation
       | traditions that come from and are part of monastic traditions vs.
       | meditation techniques that have been removed from their monastic
       | roots.
       | 
       | Basically, he was meditating at monk-like levels, and if he were
       | actually in a monastery, he would probably have gotten help at
       | some point beforehand. Maybe he was neglecting part of his
       | health, or emphasizing one technique over another without being
       | fully-rounded in his approach, or a number of other similar
       | things that would have been caught by a community/teacher in a
       | monastery. They literally have hundreds of years worth of
       | meditation troubleshooting under their belts, though some of it
       | is codified in ways that directly intertwine with religious
       | beliefs/practices.
       | 
       | But when you try to remove the practice from the culture
       | surrounding it, there's a danger that you left behind some
       | important pieces. I find it kind of scary that he mentions there
       | are recovery groups and such, especially for meditation teachers.
       | I mean, it's awesome that they're supporting each other and
       | recovering, but this seems like a red flag that maybe the
       | a-religious form of meditation as it's being taught and marketed
       | right now needs to go back to the source and figure out what
       | monks are doing differently, or, even better, make sure they
       | immerse themselves deeper into the source cultures to be able to
       | troubleshoot adequately.
       | 
       | I guess it's like eating an olympic athlete's daily meal while
       | ignoring the rest of their training regimen as "religious
       | superstition" and getting drastically different results and being
       | surprised.
        
         | treebot wrote:
         | > Basically, he was meditating at monk-like levels, and if he
         | were actually in a monastery, he would probably have gotten
         | help at some point beforehand.
         | 
         | This is spot on. It seems to me like the author took meditation
         | and removed it from it's cultural, historical and spiritual
         | context. In Buddhism, the community of other practicioners is
         | extremely important, as well as the teacher, and it seemed like
         | the author didn't have those. Meditating for 10 minutes a day
         | on your own is fine, but meditating for hours a day and going
         | on week long retreats without a proper teacher or community
         | does seem like opening up the door for things to go wrong or
         | get too intense or for one to become confused or lost. The red
         | flags should have been when the author began convulsing or
         | disassociating or feeling bad. I think the warning is not about
         | the ill effects of meditation, but rather the ill effects of
         | practicing meditation deeply without the proper grounding in
         | tradition, spirituality and community.
         | 
         | To be fair, it's not really the author's fault that he removed
         | meditation from it's proper context. All of the workshops he
         | was going to did that as well. You go, do 1-2 weeks of really
         | intense meditation, and then leave. You might never see those
         | teachers again, or at least not for a while. It's on you to
         | integrate your experience, which can be very difficult.
         | 
         | I hate to invalidate this author's experience, but I really
         | think it was that the author was not doing it right. It's okay
         | to say this. If you start deadlifting every day for 30 days,
         | and then blow your back out, and then try to say there are
         | negative effects of deadlifting, the proper response would be
         | "you're not doing it right." Because that would be the truth.
         | Again, it's not totally his fault for not doing it right, as
         | all these retreats seemed to enable not doing it right. I think
         | he should spread the word about what happened, but it shouldn't
         | be "meditation has some bad side effects" but rather
         | "meditation can have some bad side effects when not done
         | correctly. This is how to do it correctly." The article doesn't
         | really present much of any framework for understanding how and
         | when the bad side effects occur, and a solution for avoiding
         | them. Which is why it's getting a lot of pushback I think.
         | 
         | The article also has a really bad title: "When Buddhism Goes
         | Bad". The article hardly talks about Buddhism. Things like the
         | four noble truths, the eightfold path and other important
         | Buddhist concepts are not mentioned at all. Meditation is not
         | the same as Buddhism. In fact, it seems like his mediation
         | practice was actually missing true Buddhism, and that might be
         | how this whole thing occurred. Regardless, the only thing that
         | went wrong here was meditation practice, not Buddhism.
         | 
         | Props to the author for sharing, and I hope everything goes
         | well for him, but I have to push back on the way he's trying to
         | communicate this warning.
        
         | jbgt wrote:
         | Indeed, in Theravadin Buddhism the Buddha is said to have
         | taught monks and laypeople skillfully, to their appropriate
         | level.
         | 
         | The Anapanasati Sutta, which is about Englightement through
         | mindfulness of the breath, is cited by many teachers as "the
         | shortcut to liberation". But the target audience of the
         | discourse was an assembly of the most developed monks to give
         | them the final tweak.
         | 
         | For laypeople, in for example the Kalama Sutta, the Buddha
         | teaches simple things on how to develop Morality and
         | Confidence, which are with Right Understanding the starting
         | points of the Path.
         | 
         | I am always amazed at the simplicity and clarity of the
         | teachings.
         | 
         | https://www.accesstoinsight.org/tipitaka/an/an03/an03.065.th...
        
       | denton-scratch wrote:
       | Lapsed Buddhist here.
       | 
       | > The Arahat Daniel M. Ingram
       | 
       | According to the instruction I received, there have been no
       | arahants since a few decades after the death of the Buddha.
       | Choose your teacher carefully. Many meditation teachers are
       | charlatans; watch out especially for those who claim to be
       | enlightened.
       | 
       | > The type of meditation I had been practicing was jhana
       | 
       | ...or "dhyana", if you go with the Sanskrit version.
       | 
       | The OP spends a lot of his words talking about "mindfulness" and
       | the industry associated with it. But if he was practising the
       | dhyanas, he was NOT practising mindfulness as such. Practising
       | the dhyanas is serious, headbanging stuff, involving deep,
       | single-pointed concentration. The dhyanas build on mindfulness,
       | which is really a basis for all practice; but single-pointed
       | concentration is almost the opposite of normal mindfulness
       | practice.
       | 
       | The OP is correct that the "mindfulness industry" blames the
       | faults of meditators for bad experiences. I've known people who
       | survived bad experiences with meditation, but who were finally
       | broken by being gaslighted by their teacher.
       | 
       | The "mindfulness industry" minimises the risks of meditation
       | practice. The industry generally claims to be secular, or at
       | least, to not depend on a religious interpretation. If you
       | folllow an openly-religious meditation teacher, you shouldn't
       | hear that reassuring touchy-feely nonsense; instead you will be
       | told that the path you have embarked on is dangerous, and that if
       | you aren't prepared to stick it out to the end, then it would be
       | better not to begin.
       | 
       | And if you arrive at meditation as a result of psychiatric
       | problems, step away quickly. You need to be mentally fit to
       | undertake meditation practise.
        
         | mandmandam wrote:
         | > According to the instruction I received, there have been no
         | arahants since a few decades after the death of the Buddha.
         | 
         | I don't believe that is the standard view. I haven't heard it
         | before at least. And it seems odd to me that anyone would claim
         | this, seeing as no one knows every person who's lived in the
         | last 3500 years.
         | 
         | >The industry generally claims to be secular, or at least, to
         | not depend on a religious interpretation. If you folllow an
         | openly-religious meditation teacher, you shouldn't hear that
         | reassuring touchy-feely nonsense
         | 
         | I think you are labouring under some dogma, all due respect.
        
           | mping wrote:
           | In Mahayana tradition, there are many many Arhats (not only
           | in the Mahayana but in the Hinayana too), and some
           | Bodhisattvas, even today. Of course, they don't announce it
           | but they were certified by Patriarchs.
        
       | [deleted]
        
       | SMAAART wrote:
       | The journey to the center of self in anything but easy; the ones
       | who do it seriously, will eventually face their own demons; and
       | it's not easy to look deep into the mirror.
       | 
       | The mirror, just like the abyss, will start looking back at you,
       | and it's ugly AF.
        
       | 5tefan wrote:
       | I have a soft spot for Buddhism teachings. Don't know ehy. But I
       | don't have the habit of meditating. It comes easy to me to let go
       | of things. I do okay to let go of emotions but some emotions
       | stick and it takes an effort to kind of pull you away to not sink
       | with them. You can't ignore that. You have to make that effort.
        
       | qwerty456127 wrote:
       | > The terrain of fractured, disruptive and altered states of
       | consciousness has often been explored in Buddhist teachings
       | through the centuries, but when these practices made their
       | journey into Western culture, a sufficient understanding of the
       | downsides of meditation was lost in transit.
       | 
       | Why would one go on a serious retreat not led by a real Buddhist
       | teacher? Is there a shortage of geshes already?
        
         | simiones wrote:
         | How do you tell a _real_ Buddhist teacher from a fake one?
         | 
         | What if you are interested in secular meditation and do not
         | believe Buddhism or other religions are truthful?
        
           | denton-scratch wrote:
           | > How do you tell a real Buddhist teacher from a fake one?
           | 
           | This is notoriously difficult. Buddhist teachers are
           | extremely reluctant to criticise one another; you won't get a
           | straight answer if you ask "Should I go on a retreat with
           | teacher X?". Ultimately you have to rely on your own
           | intuition, which makes it a bit of a game of dice.
           | 
           | > What if you are interested in secular meditation and do not
           | believe Buddhism or other religions are truthful?
           | 
           | Good luck finding a secular meditation tradition with more
           | than about 20 years of accumulated knowledge underlying it.
           | Find a real teacher with a lineage; if your inclination is
           | secular, discount the religious elements of the teaching you
           | receive.
           | 
           | A secular mindfulness teacher has no lineage support-
           | structure to support their teaching activity. And generally,
           | they don't have the experience and insight that comes from
           | practising a wide variety of techniques in addition to
           | mindfulness.
           | 
           | Vipassana has been mentioned, in the article, and here in
           | comments. Vipassana is a set of techniques for destroying the
           | belief that you have an independent self. Not believing you
           | have a self is itself a mark of psychosis. Vipassana is a
           | form of mindfulness; but it's a big mistake to think that
           | Vipassana practice can be secular. It's entirely founded on
           | the (religious) view that belief in an independent self is
           | the root of "suffering".
        
             | pmoriarty wrote:
             | _" Vipassana is a set of techniques for destroying the
             | belief that you have an independent self. Not believing you
             | have a self is itself a mark of psychosis."_
             | 
             | This way of looking at it reveals a clash between Buddhism
             | and mainstream "Western" psychology.
             | 
             | If one experiences the self as unreal, the world as unreal,
             | others as unreal, according to some forms of Buddhism
             | you're on your way to enlightenment (if not already there).
             | But according to mainstream Western psychology you're
             | mentally ill.
             | 
             | Which is it?
        
               | qwerty456127 wrote:
               | I'd say one should judge by other symptoms: what emotions
               | does the patient experience and how do they behave. If
               | the patient is depressed, apathetic and/or persistently
               | euphoric, walks naked in the middle of a city, ignores
               | his chores or attacks people "because they are illusory
               | and the hand isn't even mine so why not" that's an
               | illness. If he behaves like an reasonable compassionate
               | person and seems happy that's good - a reasonable degree
               | of dissociation can actually make a person better,
               | happier and more stable mentally.
               | 
               | Simplifying I'd conclude that this is not a binary but an
               | spectral phenomenon: there are 2, both undesirable, poles
               | of extremity and a harmonious middle.
               | Naturally/culturally people are more inclined to self-
               | association and a slight shift to the opposite generally
               | is desirable. Dissociate from your mind but don't in a
               | degree when you loose it.
        
               | loopz wrote:
               | A lil' bit of both actually!
        
               | denton-scratch wrote:
               | In Western psychiatry, the loss of a sense of self is
               | dissociation, and is a mark of psychosis (to diagnose
               | psychosis, you'd need some other marks, especially
               | delusions or hallucinations).
               | 
               | I was over-simplifying when I said "destroying the belief
               | that you have an independent self" - the cause of
               | suffering is _attachment_ to the sense of an independent
               | self. Attachment in general is seen as a cause of
               | suffering, but attachment to the sense of self is the
               | hardest attachment to get rid of.
               | 
               | The term "ego" is used in Western discourse about
               | Buddhism, as a cipher for the attachment to the sense of
               | self. That is not what is meant by "ego" in Freudian or
               | Jungian psychiatry (basically, the focus of
               | consciousness). I wish Western Buddhists would stop using
               | that word.
               | 
               | Western psychiatry doesn't pretend to address anything
               | like the state of nirvana. It's mainly concerned with
               | curing pathological conditions. I don't think any
               | reputable psychotherapy traditions propose to take you
               | any further than a condition of being free of the most-
               | obvious kinds of hang-ups (Jung and his followers might
               | be exceptions - I'm not sure - Jung's views were very
               | expansive).
               | 
               | The Abidharma is the closest thing in Buddhism to
               | psychology; it presents a detailed, practical (for
               | meditators) way of thinking about the mind and how it
               | works. It doesn't resemble Western psychology at all.
        
               | qwerty456127 wrote:
               | > The Abidharma is the closest thing in Buddhism to
               | psychology; it presents a detailed, practical (for
               | meditators) way of thinking about the mind and how it
               | works. It doesn't resemble Western psychology at all.
               | 
               | By the way, why does is not? What do you mean under
               | Western psychology at all? Freud and Jung? If so, is it a
               | mere incoincidence the models of the mind they invented
               | are different from that of Abidharma or did they sort of
               | look on the object from different angles?
               | 
               | When trying to model a mind there are obvious elements
               | everybody can note (can they?): the mood, the memories,
               | the focus of the attention, the sense of self, rational
               | logic, computational intelligence, slow and fast decision
               | functions, self-control, compassion, random thoughts
               | popping up and making mental noise, attitude, instincts
               | (like fear, jealousy, arousal, etc), probably some other.
               | Why do different thinkers come up with different models?
        
               | denton-scratch wrote:
               | Well, Western psychology purports to be "science". That
               | means that results have to be replicable, testable, and
               | observable. The Abhidharma was created by meditators, for
               | meditators. Those people were not constrained by
               | scientific method.
               | 
               | Some of the stuff in the Abhidharma reflects teachings of
               | the Buddha; but most of it was constructed by monks,
               | after the Buddha's death.
               | 
               | I don't know of anyother models of mind, other than
               | Western psychology and Abhidharma. There must be other
               | models; I'd be surprised if Vedanta, for example, didn't
               | incorporate a model of the mind.
               | 
               | I suppose the dominant model of mind in a society
               | reflects the preocccupations of that society.
        
               | pmoriarty wrote:
               | _" Western psychology purports to be "science". That
               | means that results have to be replicable, testable, and
               | observable."_
               | 
               | Not to go off on too much of a tangent, but the
               | testability criterion was seen as inadequate and was
               | replaced a while back with falsifiability[1], but even
               | that has its own problems.
               | 
               | String theory's claims are supposedly untestable. Is it
               | not a science?
               | 
               | I'm not a physicist, but I've heard there are cloud
               | chamber experiments for which the only observer is the
               | physicist performing the experiment, and are not
               | reproduceable and yet are published in physics journals
               | all the time.
               | 
               | That's not to mention that while many experiments are in
               | principle reproduceable, in practice they usually don't
               | get reproduced, and even if they were reproduced at one
               | point they're not going to be continuously reproduced
               | over and over again by each researcher (who has not the
               | time, education, budget, or interest to reproduce every
               | experiment they've ever read and not yet read but that is
               | still an accepted part of the overall body of scientific
               | knowledge).
               | 
               | Science, just like pretty much every other human
               | cooperative endeavor, largely runs on trust... trust that
               | what one reads and learns is mostly accurate. As
               | skeptical as they make themselves out to be most
               | scientists just don't run out and try to replicate every
               | experiment under the sun or every a large fraction of
               | them. They just trust the results they read are more or
               | less accurate, or expect someone else to catch them.
               | 
               | Back to Western psychology. Some branches of it (like the
               | Cognitive/Behaviorist branches) do purport to be more
               | "scientific", but others like Freudian, Jungian,
               | Humanistic, and Existential and Transpersonal psychology
               | (not to mention art therapy, dance therapy, drama
               | therapy, somatic therapy, life regression therapy, etc)
               | aren't so big on the "science" bit, and aren't so
               | interested in experiments or the scientific method at
               | all.
               | 
               | [1] - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Falsifiability
        
           | eurasiantiger wrote:
           | Buddhism is not a religion per se. I'm sure there are cults
           | around it, but as Dalai Lama put it: if science shows
           | Buddhism to be wrong, then Buddhism must change. Good luck
           | finding that sentiment in any actual religion.
           | 
           | If you require more proof, make it a priority to seek
           | understanding of "Buddha-nature".
        
             | denton-scratch wrote:
             | > make it a priority to seek understanding of "Buddha-
             | nature"
             | 
             | Seriously? Buddha-nature teachings are regarded as
             | heretical by many Buddhists. They assert that all beings
             | have this buddha-nature innately, and that it is
             | indestructible, because it does not arise dependent on
             | causes and conditions.
             | 
             | That is very much a religious view, and in direct conflict
             | with the traditional teaching that ALL phenomena without
             | exception arise dependent on causes and conditions.
        
               | eurasiantiger wrote:
               | > They assert that all beings have this buddha-nature
               | innately, and that it is indestructible, because it does
               | not arise dependent on causes and conditions
               | 
               | Yes.
               | 
               | > in direct conflict with the traditional teaching that
               | ALL phenomena without exception arise dependent on causes
               | and conditions
               | 
               | With all due respect, make it a priority to seek
               | understanding of "Buddha-nature".
               | 
               | Try the Koans.
        
               | denton-scratch wrote:
               | Studying koans is not a very good way of gaining
               | understanding of something like Buddha Nature; they're
               | designed to create confusion. I wasn't in a Zen
               | tradition, and I'm no longer a Buddhist; I appreciate
               | your respect, but I'm not about to start trying to figure
               | out koans. [Edit: aren't you supposed to have a master,
               | when you're working with koans?]
               | 
               | Note that I'm not declaring Buddha Nature teachings to be
               | heretical; in general, I think the really deep divisions
               | between the various Buddhist philosophical positions were
               | (are?) more political than anything else, and I've never
               | considered them important.
               | 
               | I've studied both the Uttaratantra and the
               | Uttaratantrashastra, under the direction of a western
               | academic who specialized in the subject (and also happens
               | to be an ordained Buddhist nun). I've also done
               | meditation practices designed to deepen understanding of
               | Yogacara-style thought. I think I have a reasonably good
               | understanding of the subject, for a lazy, lay
               | practitioner.
               | 
               | The accusation of heresy is because it's very easy to
               | misinterpret Tathagatagarbha teachings as monism.
        
               | eurasiantiger wrote:
               | > aren't you supposed to have a master, when you're
               | working with koans?
               | 
               | Buddha is my master, teacher and guide, etc. This is all
               | sorts of hilarious from a Zen perspective; interpreting
               | Tathagatagarbha as monism, or Buddha as anything, heh.
        
               | qwerty456127 wrote:
               | Regarding anything as heretical is a religious view.
               | Discard it and check yourself through experiential
               | practice and logical exercise. There are many
               | Buddhist/Bon teachers who will never insist on you
               | accepting any idea/dogma nor judge you for thinking
               | different and only guide you to how to actually see it,
               | without harming yourself. Needless to say, as a rather-
               | rational thinker, this is the kind of gurus I prefer.
               | Orthodox dogmatists are there for a different kind of
               | minds. People are different and there are to be ways and
               | teachers optimal for all kinds of them.
        
               | denton-scratch wrote:
               | > Discard it and check yourself through experiential
               | practice and logical exercise.
               | 
               | Discard what? I have said elsewhere in this thread that I
               | am a _lapsed_ Buddhist. I hold no religious dogmas. It 's
               | not me that considers buddha-nature teachings to be
               | heretical.
               | 
               | And what are "experiential practice" and "logical
               | exercise"? These sound like some kind of private jargon
               | you are using to support your "rather-rational" approach.
        
               | qwerty456127 wrote:
               | I mean you don't have to agree to dogmatic and mystical
               | parts of what a practitioner teaches to still consider
               | and use some techniques and/or philosophical ideas you
               | can also find in their teachings.
               | 
               | Experiential practice is when you do something and
               | experience the result. Rub your hands and feel warmth
               | appear - this is an experiential practice of experiencing
               | warmth in your hands. Meditating a certain way you can
               | experience a particular state of mind. This is important
               | because some things are either impossible or useless to
               | describe - you have to experience them and a particular
               | practice may trigger the experience.
               | 
               | Logical exercise is when you exercise logic and come to
               | conclusions.
        
             | pmoriarty wrote:
             | _" Buddhism is not a religion per se."_
             | 
             | There are many types of Buddhism, and some types are
             | definitely very religious.
             | 
             | Take Pure Land Buddhism[1][2], for example, one of the most
             | popular forms of Buddhism in Japan, believers of which
             | essentially pray to the Buddha for salvation and hope to be
             | reborn in a heavenly land. It has some interesting
             | similarities to Christianity.
             | 
             | Buddhism as it's actually practiced in parts of Asia has
             | many magical, "superstitious" components, like believing
             | that a red string connected to a statue of the Buddha can
             | transfer magical power from the Buddha to what the string
             | is tied to. Believers pray to Buddha all the time for
             | protection, luck, or even wealth. Some Buddhists believe in
             | magical effects from tattoos made by Buddhist monks or that
             | a Buddhist funeral would bring an auspicious rebirth.
             | 
             | Speaking of rebirth, the belief in reincarnation (which is
             | central to most forms of Buddhism) is certainly religious
             | in nature. Same with the belief in karma.
             | 
             | Also, one reason that Buddhism has been so successful
             | around the world is that it can co-exist with and even
             | absorb local religions to such an extent that many people
             | who consider themselves Buddhists still believe in all
             | sorts of gods, demons, or spirits, and for them Buddhism is
             | not seperable from such beliefs.
             | 
             | It's only certain types of Buddhism in certain contexts
             | which have been desacralized.
             | 
             |  _" as Dalai Lama put it: if science shows Buddhism to be
             | wrong, then Buddhism must change"_
             | 
             | He might have said it but I'm skeptical as to just how much
             | change he'd be willing to subject his version of Buddhism
             | to.
             | 
             | Anyway, the Dali Lama is a representative of just one form
             | of Buddhism: Tibetan Buddhism, which is far from
             | representative of Buddhism as a whole, and one that's
             | pretty far from being secular compared to, say, Zen or
             | Chan.
             | 
             | Even when focusing on just the more secular forms of
             | Buddhism, at what point does veneration of the Buddha
             | become worship? Is faith in the effectiveness of the
             | Eightfold Path, the Buddha, and the Sangha all that
             | different from Christian faith in God or in the
             | effectiveness of works, faith, or grace (depending on one's
             | denomination) in being saved?
             | 
             | There's been a concerted, conscious effort to desacralize
             | Buddhism to make it more palatable to Westerners, but if
             | you look at how Buddhism is actually practiced in the
             | places where it came from before it got to the West it's
             | pretty clear that it's a religion.
             | 
             | [1] - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pure_Land_Buddhism
             | 
             | [2] - https://plato.stanford.edu/entries/japanese-pure-
             | land/
        
               | qwerty456127 wrote:
               | > Is faith in the effectiveness of the Eightfold Path,
               | the Buddha, and the Sangha all that different from
               | Christian faith in God
               | 
               | Unlike the Christian G-d, the Buddha does not judge, does
               | not punish, does not forgive and has not died in tortures
               | for your sins, this way enabling priests demand you feel
               | guilty. AFAIK the Buddha taught you should pursue the
               | Eightfold Path as a tool to attain your ultimate goal,
               | not as a law breaking which is evil and a subject to
               | punishment.
               | 
               | > Buddhism as it's actually practiced in parts of Asia
               | has many magical, "superstitious" components, like
               | believing that a red string connected to a statue of the
               | Buddha can transfer magical power from the Buddha to what
               | the string is tied to. Believers pray to Buddha all the
               | time for protection, luck, or even wealth. Some Buddhists
               | believe in magical effects from tattoos made by Buddhist
               | monks or that a Buddhist funeral would bring an
               | auspicious rebirth.
               | 
               | > There's been a concerted, conscious effort to
               | desacralize Buddhism to make it more palatable to
               | Westerners, but if you look at how Buddhism is actually
               | practiced in the places where it came from before it got
               | to the West it's pretty clear that it's a religion.
               | 
               | Some times I contemplate what a blessing it is we have
               | been born in the west and given highest monastic kinds of
               | Buddhism right away instead of being born in a Buddhist
               | country where only (mostly) monks can pursue
               | enlightenment and the laymen only know worship and
               | magick. I know a monk would probably laugh at this and
               | tell I don't understand the point and I believe I know
               | why, nevertheless I won't deny such an idea visits me
               | occasionally.
        
               | pmoriarty wrote:
               | _" Unlike the Christian G-d, the Buddha does not judge,
               | does not punish, does not forgive and has not died in
               | tortures for your sins, this way enabling priests demand
               | you feel guilty."_
               | 
               | The gods are not the same, but the _faith_ seems very
               | similar to me.
               | 
               | What is the difference between a Pure Land Buddhist
               | believing chanting the nenbutsu[1] ("I take refuge in the
               | Buddha of Inconceivable Light!") in order to get in to
               | ensure rebirth in to Amitabha's pure land and a Christian
               | saying they accept Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior
               | in order to get in to heaven?
               | 
               | Not much, from what I can see.
               | 
               | Even in the more secular forms of Buddhism, Buddhists
               | regularly follow the precepts, take refuge in the dharma,
               | Buddha, and Sangha because they believe it'll get them to
               | enlightenment. And some believe "just sitting" for 20
               | years or whatever will make them enlightened.
               | 
               | Interestingly, some forms of Buddhism preach that one
               | should not be so goal-oriented and should "just sit"
               | without reason or expectation. That also sounds not very
               | different from blind faith to me, where the believer is
               | encouraged to throw reason out the window and "just
               | believe" or "just do" (whatever the religious authorities
               | tell them to).
               | 
               |  _" FAIK the Buddha taught you should pursue the
               | Eightfold Path as a tool to attain your ultimate goal,
               | not as a law breaking which is evil and a subject to
               | punishment."_
               | 
               | Well, the "punishment" in the case of Buddhism is
               | supposedly just the iron law of karma and rebirth in to
               | the world of suffering. It's not meted out by a god in
               | Buddhism's case, but it still serves as a very effective
               | stick on the Buddhist faithful.
               | 
               |  _" Some times I contemplate what a blessing it is we
               | have been born in the west and given highest monastic
               | kinds of Buddhism right away instead of being born in a
               | Buddhist country where only (mostly) monks can pursue
               | enlightenment and the laymen only know worship and
               | magick."_
               | 
               | Is secular Buddhism the highest kind? Just as in any
               | major religion, there is great disagreement among the
               | various Buddhist traditions as to which is the truer
               | Buddhism. Many of these branches don't accept each
               | other's most sacred texts as being as authentic or as
               | important as their own, which preach radically different
               | understandings of the Buddha's teachings.
               | 
               | One of them really might be more authentic, and
               | everybody's got their own opinion on that, but ultimately
               | who's to say?
               | 
               | [1] - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nianfo
        
               | eurasiantiger wrote:
               | Did Buddha teach rebirth from life to life, or from
               | moment to moment? Given the context of the Teaching, the
               | latter seems a better fit.
        
               | eurasiantiger wrote:
               | Here's what they have in common: https://en.wikipedia.org
               | /wiki/Basic_points_unifying_Theravad...
        
               | qwerty456127 wrote:
               | > Speaking of rebirth, the belief in reincarnation (which
               | is central to most forms of Buddhism) is certainly
               | religious in nature. Same with the belief in karma.
               | 
               | By the way, it is worth mentioning, not all Buddhist take
               | this literally. Alan Watts told there were some
               | Buddhists, understanding kind of like this (in my own
               | words, I can't find the original quote now):
               | 
               | At any given moment you are never the same person you
               | were in the previous. Your personality changes, your body
               | atoms get replaced with new ones. The past you is already
               | in the past. Today you are distinct from yesterday you.
               | You are reincarnating right now. Like an immutable value
               | in functional programming can never be changed, you can
               | (or you can't, this depends on the programming language)
               | just assign a similar value derived from it with some
               | change applied to the same identifier. So if you
               | practiced well, the future you (in this life time from
               | the conventional point of view) is a reincarnation of you
               | which will reap the fruits of "good karma" (karma being
               | just the causes (mostly mental) causing you to behave a
               | certain way and get into certain situations because of
               | this - nothing mystical). And the fruits are there: even
               | if good doings fail (not necessarily) to lead you to good
               | health and financial prosperity, mental practice results
               | are here to greatly help you cope with any problems you
               | face and also to help you behave in a more constructive
               | way.
        
               | goodpoint wrote:
               | > There's been a concerted, conscious effort to
               | desacralize Buddhism to make it more palatable to
               | Westerners
               | 
               | This is a big generalization without a clear definition
               | of what is "sacred".
               | 
               | > it's pretty clear that it's a religion.
               | 
               | I understand what you mean but using the world "religion"
               | creates a lot of generalizations.
        
             | simiones wrote:
             | > if science shows Buddhism to be wrong, then Buddhism must
             | change. Good luck finding that sentiment in any actual
             | religion.
             | 
             | This is actually not that uncommon, despite some popular
             | image problems.
             | 
             | For example, catholicism has a long history of scientific
             | thought being used to change the common understanding of
             | their scriptures. Even the infamous treatment of Galileo's
             | asssertions about the Earth moving around the sun were more
             | a question of scientific debate and politics than any
             | religious dogmatism: a lot of powerful people in the church
             | simply considered the heliocentric model better science and
             | a settled matter, and used their political power to silence
             | opponents.
             | 
             | In fact, today most christian churches regard the
             | scientific understanding of the world (big bang theory,
             | evolution, geological times etc) as correct, and consider
             | the biblical accounts to be metaphors and reflective of a
             | deeper truth about God's involvement in creation. I believe
             | the same holds true for most muslims, though I am not sure;
             | and I have no idea if it does or not in hinduism. Young
             | Earth creationists and other groups taking the bible as
             | literal truth (6000 year old earth, literal 6 days of
             | creation etc) are a small but vocal minority.
        
               | User23 wrote:
               | > a lot of powerful people in the church simply
               | considered the heliocentric model better science and a
               | settled matter, and used their political power to silence
               | opponents
               | 
               | It's good to remember that human nature hasn't changed
               | and the same thing is almost certainly happening today
               | too.
        
               | Y_Y wrote:
               | The Vatican runs a research observatory that produces
               | good scientific output.
               | 
               | Also they have a mega-rare tld: http://www.vaticanobserva
               | tory.va/content/specolavaticana/en....
        
               | User23 wrote:
               | Alas, the world may never see yeshi.va and di.va, to name
               | a couple.
        
       | BiteCode_dev wrote:
       | It's not unheard of. After spending a year in a meditation center
       | I have been in contact with several people that burned out. My
       | teachers forced me to take more time off to avoid this.
       | 
       | Meditation is wonderful, but it's powerful. Something powerful
       | can be misused to hurt yourself, otherwise it wouldn't have much
       | of an effect. A saw that can't cut your fingers will not be very
       | practical.
       | 
       | Having a proper environnement helps a lot to limit this, and the
       | right people with you, but it's not bulletproof.
       | 
       | I feel my practice is too taxing sometimes and slow down. One
       | should not create an idea of what the path looks like and force a
       | way into it until some kind of landmark is reached. Espacially
       | with our lifestyles, going steadily, but gently, is important.
       | 
       | I have several friends, including myself, that reverted to using
       | intoxicants, material comfort or distractions for a while because
       | we couldn't handle more. Then after some time, went back to a
       | more strict practice. Or didn't and accepted to stay at that
       | level.
       | 
       | It's hard, pace yourself. Other practitionners should not judge
       | you, we all have struggles.
        
       | ohgreatwtf wrote:
       | lotta zen bhuddist teachers on prozac
        
       | pphysch wrote:
       | Western "Buddhism" as repackaged solipsism is totally
       | antithetical to the teachings of the Four Noble Truths.
       | 
       | Probably because the Four Noble Truths are antithetical to
       | Christianity, liberalism and capitalism, the core aspects of
       | Western culture.
        
       | Uhthrowaway wrote:
       | 'Enlightenment' appears to be thrown around liberally while it is
       | clear that few people achieve it (if at all that word refers to a
       | concrete state) perhaps spiritual practice mixed with great
       | expectations underlines the same lack of clarity or understanding
       | and trust which lead the west to esoteric ego infalting
       | practices.
        
       | [deleted]
        
       | ganzuul wrote:
       | We don't really have the language to discuss the subtle emotional
       | states involved when experience turns uncomfortable. Music with
       | movement is better at communicating it.
       | 
       | People are going to keep poking around in their minds and finding
       | things that disturb them. There is a lot to be said for learning
       | to stay with the difficult things, if you can not yet afford
       | yourself faith.
        
       | ljm wrote:
       | I can relate to this a lot, also with my own experiences of
       | Somatic Experiencing and forms of therapeutic breathwork.
       | 
       | I did a few retreats myself, with the knowledge going in that it
       | would be fucking brutal and that I could bring a lot of shit to
       | the surface that I'd repressed for years. I had a therapist
       | before, during, and after, as the primary focus was healing
       | integrated with tantric practises.
       | 
       | Even then it was 6 years of deep introspection, an enormous
       | amount of suffering, and eventually a complete mental break that
       | led to a few suicide attempts, self-harming and a year or so on
       | medication. I didn't blame the retreats for that, or the
       | meditation, and I still don't. I just didn't have the capacity to
       | deal with it all and I never had a good coping mechanism in the
       | first place, yet I was still facing this incredible amount of
       | torment head on. Truly staring into my own abyss.
       | 
       | I would not recommend this, or any kind of deep meditation, to
       | anyone. Not unless they have a support network in place and only
       | if they understand that it is a difficult journey that can and
       | will see things getting worse for you before they get better.
       | 
       | These days I'm off the medication, and I'm a different, more
       | resilient, more self-aware person. Enough to know that what's
       | done is done, the past is exactly that, and there's a lot more
       | for me in the present moment. I am still very fond of what I
       | learned through Tantra in that sense, and I'm glad I found my way
       | through enough of that past trauma to start being able to live
       | with it.
        
       | littlethrowaway wrote:
       | Ha! I thought it might have been vipassana. My own experience of
       | this (a 10 day silent retreat, not having done meditation before)
       | was a full blown manic-psychotic experience (never having had any
       | such thing before, nor in family history). If you're interested,
       | I made some audio files [0] talking about what happened.
       | 
       | I honestly think it's _insane_ that they (vipassana) will take
       | regular people who haven't done meditation and allow them to do a
       | 10 day silent retreat. I honestly think it's like taking a
       | regular person and allowing them to go down a grade 4 or 5 river.
       | They might make it, but they might get seriously hurt too.
       | 
       | I actually raised this point with the local (New Zealand) health
       | and disability ombudsman. I said that vipassana ought to have a
       | psychologist to assess people as they left, or at least
       | _something_ like that. Nothing changed as far as I am aware.
       | 
       | I hope the author continues to get better. It was a long journey
       | for me.
       | 
       | [0]. http://livingvipassana.blogspot.com/2010/02/bipolar-
       | chronicl...
        
         | renewiltord wrote:
         | This sounds exciting and novel to experience. The risk thrills
         | me. What's the fastest way to self administer?
        
           | DantesKite wrote:
           | Sit and do nothing for a few months until you go insane.
        
             | renewiltord wrote:
             | Ah, that's a pity. I was hoping something like a sensory
             | deprivation tank or whatever would accelerate the process.
             | I, sadly, do not wish to assign that much time to this.
             | 
             | Maybe when I retire! Thanks for the advice!
        
         | pier25 wrote:
         | > _I honestly think it 's _insane_ that they (vipassana) will
         | take regular people who haven't done meditation and allow them
         | to do a 10 day silent retreat._
         | 
         | I did a Vipassana 12 day retreat (years ago) but I didn't find
         | it to be that wild.
         | 
         | The hardest part for me was actually sitting down 15? hours a
         | day. Had I known what I was going to do I would have prepared
         | by doing exercises to strengthen my back.
        
         | mircea wrote:
         | How would you describe your psychological state before going to
         | your first 10 day meditation retreat?
        
         | mandmandam wrote:
         | Bi-polar is specifically screened for as a contra-indication
         | for retreats, at least Goenka ones (along with Reiki practice,
         | interestingly). They may still allow a diagnosed individual on,
         | but are supposed to give extra attention.
         | 
         | What retreat did you go on, and did they ask about bi-polar
         | experience pre-retreat?
        
           | javajosh wrote:
           | They screen for a variety of things, but people aren't always
           | honest. Psychosis and bipolar are two criteria. There may be
           | more. They will also reject people if they are just clearly
           | off their rocker -- Vipassana at these centers is
           | specifically NOT for people with serious mental illness.
           | 
           | Reiki is a problem, I speculate, because it puts you in the
           | habit of imagining sensation beyond your body, and this may
           | lead to some problems. There may also be a spiritual aspect
           | to it. One counter-point is that there is one meditation
           | practice that goes beyond the body: metta. So maybe its a
           | specific issue with Reiki (like how you'll never see a
           | teacher wearing black and/or red at a retreat).
        
             | pier25 wrote:
             | > _They screen for a variety of things, but people aren 't
             | always honest._
             | 
             | And there is a form of milder bipolar disorder called
             | cyclothymia that is rarely diagnosed.
             | 
             | https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cyclothymia
        
         | lamalic wrote:
         | I've read quite a few blog and social media post of bipolar
         | people not responding well to meditation. Neither have I. I
         | actually thought I might have seen your post before.
         | 
         | People don't seem to accept either that 1. You're tired and
         | have been willing to try a lot, 2. Even the mystical panacea
         | doesn't help.
        
         | Sawamara wrote:
         | Yep. It makes big money, but it is literally gambling with
         | people's sanity.
        
           | lukasb wrote:
           | It's free.
        
             | jazzyjackson wrote:
             | I suppose we have two different "it"s happening here
        
       | JimTheMan wrote:
       | "Why my swimming practice, which involved me swimming the english
       | channel every day, eventually led me to drown."
        
         | phist_mcgee wrote:
         | An unkind sentiment. Every individual is unique, and some can
         | stomach challenges that would make others fall to their knees.
         | It's our different strengths and weaknesses that make us.
        
           | JimTheMan wrote:
           | While terse, the sentiment was to highlight that maybe it
           | isn't swimming that is the issue at hand here. It's swimming
           | the english channel every day.
           | 
           | A normal activity that when pushed to the limits of
           | endurance, can overwhelm an individual. But that doesn't
           | necessarily make swimming or meditation something to be
           | feared or avoided.
        
       | alex_duf wrote:
       | As someone who experienced countless panic attacks, I find the
       | description of his symptoms to be very on point with my
       | experience.
       | 
       | I've hit rock bottom about 10 years ago, experiencing these about
       | three times a week. The road to building myself back was pretty
       | long and is still an every day effort, but nowadays I only
       | experience these once or twice a year, if any.
       | 
       | If that's of any help to anyone, I've found countless of little
       | things that put together helped a lot. They aren't ground
       | breaking by any mean, just sharing my experience and tips:
       | 
       | - Therapy. yes, good old fashioned therapy. Shop around to find
       | the right person. - Life change, I moved from one country to
       | another. Spoiler alert, the panic attacks followed me, but it
       | certainly gave me more confidence. - Identify your triggers. It
       | took me years, but my trigger was a stomach inflammation that I
       | identified as being my heart having an issue. So I changed my
       | diet, stopped smoking too. - Exercise. Finding what you like is a
       | long and painful process, I only found what I liked around 30.
       | For me it was hiking, then climbing, then more recently
       | (pandemic), yoga.
       | 
       | I hope that's useful for someone.
        
         | hellbannedguy wrote:
         | I found his description of a Panic Attack well documented.
         | 
         | I have never convulsed though. My panic attacks were very brief
         | compared to the authors.
         | 
         | "The next four hours were a hellscape of terror, panic and
         | paranoia. There were almost no thoughts, only my body begging
         | to escape my skin, convulsing like a fish fighting for life.
         | The fear was a bottomless trench."
         | 
         | The last line hit home with me.
         | 
         | I've only had one bad Panic Attack. What I didn't realize is
         | how it would affect my anxiety levels in the following years.
         | 
         | I'm on a long half life benzodiazepine, and a drug they give to
         | opioid addicts, but the anxiety is still there.
         | 
         | I have noticed my anxiety levels impiroved a bit with age.
        
           | CountDrewku wrote:
           | I'm guessing the "convulsion" he's talking about was just
           | adrenaline tremors. I had these a lot after panic attacks, my
           | legs would shake like crazy. The thing I read that basically
           | made them disappear was that if you watch animals like a
           | zebra or something after they been chased by lion... they
           | usually twitch and shake all over. I used to get really upset
           | and more panicky when they happened which just made them even
           | worse.
           | 
           | It's a completely normal response after an adrenaline rush
           | and it's actually a sign that your body is calming down.
        
         | CountDrewku wrote:
         | Glad to hear you're doing better. I had a similar experience
         | about a decade ago. Went through 2 years of feeling awful,
         | changed a lot of things and got better. Had an attack out of
         | nowhere last year and felt off for a few months until I
         | remembered exactly how I got out of it before. Each time you
         | realize you can get better with your set of tools it becomes
         | less scary.
         | 
         | You definitely get to the point where they're just kinda meh
         | and you move on with life.
        
       | ggggtez wrote:
       | Isn't this a repost of a repost, where the underlying facts are
       | that he did a bunch of drugs, and then blamed his bad trip on
       | mindfulness?
       | 
       | Edit: yeah here it is
       | 
       | > I was experiencing a growing sense of bodily agitation and
       | began self-medicating with drugs and alcohol. Looking back, it
       | was also during this time period that I had my first dissociative
       | experiences
       | 
       | So, guy takes a bunch of mind altering drugs for years, admits to
       | having difficulty controlling his emotions his entire adult life,
       | and yet blames meditation for his psychological instability.
       | Definitely been posted here before. Completely unreliable
       | narrator. Meditation is not a replacement for psychological help
       | based on the practice of medicine. The guy probably needs to talk
       | to an actual psychiatrist who has worked with former drug
       | addicts, not just ignore his problem with feel good retreats
       | 
       | The truth is he probably fucked up his meatware with drugs. The
       | meatware malfunctioned, and he let it go untreated for years
        
       | bloniac wrote:
       | Sounds like a psychotic episode.
        
       | EdwardDiego wrote:
       | A former coworker of mine went to a silent meditation retreat.
       | He's been recovering ever since.
        
         | mircea wrote:
         | Without more details you're just announcing your biases to HN.
        
       | pajtai wrote:
       | Everything has a down side. Exercise is the most helpful thing
       | you can do for your health, but you can break your leg running...
       | or even die of a heart attack while running.
       | 
       | This is a great article to highlight how little most people think
       | about what the "healthy" amount of meditation is and how to know
       | if you're over doing it or are suffering an injury from it.
        
       | xiii1408 wrote:
       | There was an excellent article in Harpers about this a few months
       | ago: https://harpers.org/archive/2021/04/lost-in-thought-
       | psycholo...
       | 
       | I had no idea, but schizophrenic breaks and other psychological
       | symptoms are not uncommon at meditation retreats, and staff are
       | often untrained on how to deal with it.
       | 
       | Sorry this happened to you OP, and I hope you're able to get
       | effective help.
        
         | sbierwagen wrote:
         | Important sections:
         | 
         | >As early as 1976, Arnold Lazarus, one of the forefathers of
         | cognitive behavioral therapy, raised concerns about
         | transcendental meditation, the mantra-based practice then in
         | vogue. "When used indiscriminately," he warned, "the procedure
         | can precipitate serious psychiatric problems such as
         | depression, agitation, and even schizophrenic decompensation."
         | Lazarus had by then treated a number of "agitated, restive"
         | patients whose symptoms seemed to worsen after meditating. He
         | came to believe that the practice, while beneficial for many,
         | was likely harmful to some.
         | 
         | >One case study, from 2007, documented a twenty-four-year-old
         | male patient who had slipped into "a short-lasting acute
         | psychotic state" during "an unguided and intense" meditation
         | session. He was referred to clinicians following the onset of
         | "an acute sensation of being mentally split." He saw vivid
         | colors, hallucinated, and was overcome with severe anxiety. At
         | the height of the episode, he was tormented by "delusional
         | convictions that he had caused the end of the world" and talked
         | of suicide. The man had experienced one previous hypomanic
         | episode and had a history of untreated depression. The authors
         | posited that "meditation can act as a stressor in vulnerable
         | patients."
         | 
         | >Even as academic interest in meditation has mounted, with
         | hundreds of new papers published every year, the question of
         | adverse effects has received little attention. Most studies
         | don't monitor for negative reactions, relying instead on
         | participants to report them spontaneously. But the research
         | that does exist is not reassuring. More than fifty published
         | studies have documented meditation-induced mental health
         | problems, including mania, dissociation, and psychosis. In
         | 2012, leading meditation researchers in the United Kingdom
         | published a set of guidelines for meditation instructors,
         | noting "risks for participants," including depression,
         | traumatic flashbacks, and increased suicidal ideation. Four
         | years later, the U.S. National Institutes of Health cautioned
         | that "meditation could cause or worsen symptoms in people with
         | certain psychiatric problems." Jeffrey Lieberman, the former
         | head of the American Psychiatric Association, told me he'd seen
         | this in his own practice. "The clinical phenomenon is real," he
         | said. "There's no question about it."
         | 
         | >[...]
         | 
         | >Britton and her team began visiting retreats, talking to the
         | people who ran them, and asking about the difficulties they'd
         | seen. "Every meditation center we went to had at least a dozen
         | horror stories," she said. Psychotic breaks and cognitive
         | impairments were common; they were often temporary but
         | sometimes lasted years. "Practicing letting go of concepts,"
         | one meditator told Britton, "was sabotaging my mind's ability
         | to lay down new memories and reinforce old memories of simple
         | things, like what words mean, what colors mean." Meditators
         | also reported diminished emotions, both negative and positive.
         | "I had two young children," another meditator said. "I couldn't
         | feel anything about them. I went through all the routines, you
         | know: the bedtime routine, getting them ready and kissing them
         | and all of that stuff, but there was no emotional connection.
         | It was like I was dead."
         | 
         | ===
         | 
         | There seems to be something of a catch 22 here. Normal people
         | generally don't meditate. Some people meditate shallowly, and
         | experience light effects. But if you're the kind of person who
         | is interested in meditating for 10 hours a day, either to run
         | away from something or go on some mental journey, then you lose
         | your mind and either become a basket case or a yogi.
        
       | theqabalist wrote:
       | Forgive me if anyone has said as much, but something that
       | directly stands out to me about all of the comments heretofore
       | mentioned is that they are treating a state of consciousness in a
       | formalist way, as if the mind exists independent of the body. The
       | brain's activities and the things the mind experiences are very
       | much situated in the realm of bodily states. One state that is
       | very common amongst people who follow certain paths is
       | malnutrition.
       | 
       | I am not necessarily going to try to start a flame war over which
       | diet or whatever could cause which set of nutrient deficiencies,
       | but I think its a salient point that he has self professed
       | clinical symptoms (like convulsing muscles) and never sought
       | medical help, only seeking more help from the same overly formal
       | realm of rules.
       | 
       | Additionally, the author mentions following all these buddhist
       | frameworks, but in Theravada at least, part of the eight fold
       | path is not drinking or doing drugs, yet he says he would drink
       | and do drugs when he didn't get the jolt he wanted from the
       | practice. Alcohol and drugs, while not necessarily inherently
       | bad, are great at depleting the body of essential things like
       | vitamins, minerals, and neurotransmitters needed for proper brain
       | functioning.
       | 
       | The only real treatment he gives to this is saying, "no
       | preexisting conditions." Of course, I hope I don't have to
       | explain that just because you haven't been diagnosed with a
       | deficiency of some kind, doesn't mean it doesn't exist. I also
       | find his later comment that another practitioner had "no
       | preexisting conditions except anxiety," to be particularly
       | problematic. Anxiety is a preexisting condition, which lends some
       | probability that his evaluation of preexisting conditions could
       | be overly lax, and his consistent search for confirmation bias
       | that Buddhism would solve his medical/biological problems could
       | cause him to downplay actual preexisting conditions.
       | 
       | Anyway, I agree with many of the other people that dark nights,
       | etc are well known phenomena, so I don't want to downplay any of
       | that. I just wanted to add to the conversation that nutrition is
       | very important, and if you fuck that up, you can get really
       | fucked up psychologically due to dysfunctional parts.
        
         | scotty79 wrote:
         | I had pretty much the same symptoms as this guy with zero
         | meditation, just caffeine overdose. When I stopped drinking
         | coffee and tea all symptoms, including dread and feeling that
         | something is very wrong, muscle twitching and other odd
         | feelings went away.
         | 
         | And I didn't even drink that much by coffee drinkers standards.
        
           | lolc wrote:
           | I found it strange him mentioning drinking coffee in the
           | retreat, especially in the morning after experiencing strong
           | dissociation. In general I would have thought they'd skip the
           | coffee.
        
           | arvinsim wrote:
           | Switched to decaf for the same reason.
        
             | scotty79 wrote:
             | Me too. Can now drink even 6 cups of decaf daily with no
             | problems. And it tastes exactly as good.
        
       | leksak wrote:
       | I'll acknowledge some bias on my part as someone who has
       | experienced more disassociative episodes (unrelated to
       | meditation) than I care to have had but I think some of the
       | replies here are very callous given how scarring I've found those
       | experiences to be.
       | 
       | My first contact with mindfulness-based meditation was cognitive
       | behavioural therapy through mental health professionals and
       | haven't received any warnings to heed.
       | 
       | Seemingly, the author has had to endure their fair share and
       | maybe a modicum of sympathy is warranted - at least.
        
         | Rastonbury wrote:
         | If anything some of the comments here prove his point that
         | those invested in the practise have an interest to protect it
         | and therefore say the author was meditating the wrong way.
         | 
         | It's honestly so weird reading comments like those on HN of all
         | places.
        
       | dvh1990 wrote:
       | From my experience, what the writer is talking about is a
       | transcendental experience that sounds awfully similar to what
       | happens under psychedelics. Experiences like this are highly
       | influenced by set, setting and expectations, and can go wrong.
       | 
       | Meditation is an incredibly deep practice, and if you engage in
       | it you must be aware that it is much more than a stress-relief
       | tool. Many people meditate with the explicit purpose of reaching
       | that state. When you keep that fact in mind, experiences like
       | what was described in the article are desired and welcome.
        
         | stupidcar wrote:
         | If we're to believe the author, they meditated for 10 years and
         | attended numerous classes, seminars and retreats. Clearly they
         | _were_ engaging it as more than a  "stress-relief tool".
         | 
         | The article I will take as a single data point, about one
         | person's experiences. But comments like yours, and others in
         | this thread, worry me far more. Collectively, they exhibit the
         | dismissiveness, defensiveness, condescension and victim-blaming
         | that is absolutely typical of members of religions/cults both
         | spiritual and secular. Anyone who can describe the experiences
         | related in this article as "desired and welcome" has lost any
         | sense of perspective.
        
       | thinkyfish wrote:
       | I've found that many people (myself included) start down the path
       | of Vipassana(analysis) type of meditation too early or from a
       | position where we weren't prepared for the consequences. I wish I
       | had spent more time with metta(compassion) and samatha (calmness)
       | meditation and build up stability/forbearance and
       | kindness/compassion first before starting to de-construct
       | experience. It is said that one type of meditation leads to the
       | others and even with Vipassana you might have the realization
       | that "I'm suffering because I was doing a thing, I laid the trap
       | and stepped in it" and achieve peace of mind, but that won't
       | happen on a schedule. I would recommend any busy person to avoid
       | Vipassana until they have more experience and focus more on
       | sense-calming (avoiding sensuality), and compassion/generosity
       | practice. It will bring a quicker (though possibly less deep)
       | taste of the peace of mind that is possible.
        
         | jmfldn wrote:
         | Strongly agree. It seems quite common in the west to go into
         | the deep end without the necessary foundations. Certain ethical
         | behaviours, strong compassion for others, a desire to do this
         | for the good of the world not just for yourself etc. These are
         | all essential parts of any spiritual path and just trying to
         | reach straight for insight is potentially dangerous imho. I'm
         | not a Buddhist as such but for me every aspect of the eightfold
         | path is utterly essential and mutually supporting.
        
       | blunte wrote:
       | Is it surprising that extended, intensive mental practice (in
       | this case, mindfulness style meditation) can reshape how our
       | brains work?
       | 
       | As babies, we form our sense of being - from what touch "feels"
       | like to what food tastes like - from our experiences. And we tend
       | to go through life adding and slightly modifying those
       | fundamental neural pathways we've built.
       | 
       | But if you then do a 180 and start practicing and reinforcing
       | very different pathways, where will you end up? In the article,
       | where he ended up seems bad indeed, but that is relative to where
       | he started (and where most of us live).
       | 
       | Probably many of us here have at one time or other spent way too
       | much time and focus on one obsession. Take chess, for example. If
       | you spend hours a day focused on chess, it will absolutely
       | reshape the way you think, and that will bleed over to non-chess
       | moments. You may find yourself sitting at a restaurant, mentally
       | playing out the possibilities and scenarios of an impending
       | conversation with the server where you will attempt to avoid
       | having to buy dessert (because you don't want it, or whatever
       | your reason). Or you may find that in the middle of a meeting,
       | you suddenly only exist on a chessboard, stuck in a game problem
       | you have been trying to find a good answer to.
       | 
       | But with this mindfulness meditation, especially since it also
       | explicitly closes off external reality, you will be building some
       | very strange new paths in your mind. Stay there too long, and
       | perhaps you get lost.
       | 
       | The old wisdom is probably worth heeding here: all things in
       | moderation.
        
       | draw_down wrote:
       | This is just sad to read. You wonder what is the point of all
       | this stuff. Imagine inducing trauma in yourself for no
       | discernible reason. Why, why?
        
       | JesseMeyer wrote:
       | Meditation is a blade with no hilt.
       | 
       | I _accidentally_ fell into a vipassana state of mind after the
       | first time trying a particular religious chant, seriously, from
       | out of the pains of boredom as a 20 year old.
       | 
       | At the time I lived nearby mountains, and after 'coming to', I
       | saw them through the window. I cannot describe to you the
       | overwhelming feeling of beauty and awe that crashed over me. It
       | was as though this was the very first time I had ever seen
       | mountains. I think the best description I can manage comes from
       | 'Both Sides Now' by Joni Mitchell.
       | 
       | 'I've looked at clouds from both sides now From up and down, and
       | still somehow It's cloud illusions I recall I really don't know
       | clouds at all'
       | 
       | The experience was so disorienting. As if I was seeing the
       | mountains for what they were directly through my senses and not
       | mediated by my knowledge of what mountains were like,
       | linguistically.
       | 
       | It changed my entire life -- weeks later later I lost my job and
       | fell into a 5 year extreme depression / anxiety spell in the
       | attempt to reconcile my adolescent religious upbringing with the
       | continued insight from that experience. Absolutely worthwhile, in
       | hindsight, but it cost me near everything for it.
        
       | pantulis wrote:
       | As with many other types of exercise, practitioners are bound to
       | have injuries. I'd even say the injuries the author suffered are
       | equivalent to breaking a leg while running.
       | 
       | This is the take away for me:
       | 
       | > "I believe that these practices, with the correct framework,
       | dosage, and education, can be a valuable tool for improving
       | mental health. "
        
         | pantulis wrote:
         | While most people are safe --most of us struggle to keep a
         | 30-min daily meditation practice- there is also a lesson to be
         | learned: there is no such thing as a free, harmless lunch.
        
           | Dylan16807 wrote:
           | If someone spends one or two entire days doing little more
           | than eating, and then has a horribly unpleasant night, I
           | don't think that disproves the free harmless lunch.
        
         | denton-scratch wrote:
         | > This is the take away for me
         | 
         | Well, perhaps you haven't read the article; the OP is saying
         | that meditation is dangerous, and that meditation teachers
         | don't warn you of the dangers. Isn't that the opposite of your
         | "take away"?
        
           | pantulis wrote:
           | It is a verbatim copy from the article, somewhat hidden in
           | one of the last paragraphs (perhaps you didn't read the whole
           | article? sorry could not resist!). Which was kind of
           | surprising given the previous content, but it makes sense.
        
       | barkingcat wrote:
       | Horrible premise.
       | 
       | None of this is Buddhism and "using" Buddhism doesn't do what you
       | want it to do.
       | 
       | It's like someone saying "I tried to go to confession at the
       | Catholic church but I don't feel any better after killing and
       | raping. This doesn't work!"
       | 
       | or saying "I went and got baptized but I don't feel any
       | different! I'm supposed to be saved! Where are my just rewards
       | and I'm supposed to be able to see Jesus!"
       | 
       | erm ...
        
       | the-alchemist wrote:
       | I try to follow the more science-y literature and news on
       | meditation, so here's my take.
       | 
       | Diana Winston [1] runs the Mindfulness Education at UCLA's
       | Mindful Awareness Research Center (MARC). In her book, The Little
       | Book of Being, she describes a mental breakdown--for lack of a
       | better word--during an extended meditation retreat, just as this
       | author. She spent a year as a Burmese nun, too.
       | 
       | In it, she talks about how she would cry every day on some
       | retreats, even in front of her meditation teacher. Looking back,
       | she credits the experience to some psychological issues (my
       | words, not hers).
       | 
       | Sam Harris PhD, one of most unforgiving people of bad science,
       | has a great meditation app, Waking Up [2], which I really like.
       | In it, he specifically says, if this is causing you harm, or
       | you're losing touch with reality, STOP immediately.
       | 
       | He likens it to exercise. Exercise is great for you; hell, it's
       | one of the best things you can do for your mind and body, and the
       | research is very clear on this.
       | 
       | But, some exercises might be bad for you. If you have a bad
       | shoulder, DON'T DO PUSHUPS. If you have bum knees, STOP JOGGING.
       | You need to talk to a professional to find out how to do work
       | around your specific injury.
       | 
       | Most of us aren't able to self-diagnose our psyches like this.
       | It's almost impossible. There are, however, trained meditators
       | out there of various religious and non-religious persuasions that
       | can help you on your journey.
       | 
       | My two cents, and others have mentioned this too, is that
       | removing some of the "Eastern aura" of meditation is great for us
       | in the West. Less robes and incense, more love and kindness. The
       | Dhali Llama has said that the Buddhism that he here in the West
       | study is some of the "purest" there is.
       | 
       | But there's thousands of pages in Buddhist literature about all
       | the demons and bliss you can experience during meditation, and
       | how to approach it and understand it. Put it into context, some
       | one to tell you, "Keep going, you're starting to get it", or,
       | "Stop, you're doing it wrong, you're doing more harm than good."
       | 
       | BUT going on a 10-day silent meditation retreat, even one day, is
       | insane if you've never meditated. Much like running an
       | ultramarathon with no training. If your body doesn't break down,
       | your mind certainly will.
       | 
       | Personally, when I started meditating, I couldn't do >5 minutes
       | at a time. Took me weeks to get to 20 minutes. And you gotta do
       | the reading or join a group to help you understand what you're
       | going through, which also was very helpful for me.
       | 
       | [1]: https://twitter.com/dianawinston [2]: http://wakingup.com/
        
       | pmoriarty wrote:
       | Also see _" The Dark Knight of the Soul: For some, meditation has
       | become more curse than cure..."_
       | 
       | https://www.theatlantic.com/health/archive/2014/06/the-dark-...
        
       | cranesnake wrote:
       | Vipassana and Marijuana lead me to a full-blown psychosis for 2
       | weeks in a medical center which unraveled my mind and the
       | perception of my world. But I also feel I have a deeper
       | understanding of myself and how balances in my mind work, having
       | now recovered. I was forced to reconstruct my mind manually.
       | Before this my control over my depression and anxiety was null,
       | but now I may be getting off of medication soon.
        
       | camdenlock wrote:
       | > I thought awakening was right around the corner and now feel
       | broken and betrayed
       | 
       | While I feel sympathy for the author, I can't help but think that
       | this is ultimately a self-caused problem. You shouldn't be
       | absorbing yourself in a meditation practice with the goal of
       | "awakening" or "enlightenment" or whatever. That's dragon-chasing
       | nonsense which will lead you to bad times.
        
       | bserge wrote:
       | Ah yes, the realizations of pointlessness of life, inevitability
       | of death and the prison-like construct of our physical bodies for
       | our actual minds.
       | 
       | Don't need meditation to get there. But more importantly, you're
       | supposed to keep going and find peace with it. Not stop and run
       | away in terror.
       | 
       | You have yet to succeed at awakening.
        
         | adwn wrote:
         | > _Congrats, you failed awakening._
         | 
         | This is needlessly dismissive and condescending. It's like
         | saying "Congrats, you failed running a marathon" to someone who
         | suffers an injury after 20 kilometers.
        
           | bserge wrote:
           | Hmm, I didn't intend it that way, you're right.
        
           | plutonorm wrote:
           | And yet it has a grain of truth. Which tickles me.
        
             | saltmeister wrote:
             | you're both clowns in fact
        
       | sjayasinghe wrote:
       | I interpret the author's difficulties and frustration as a
       | byproduct of a particular misapprehension of Buddhist teachings
       | in modern society. Many modern-day practitioners, both in the
       | east and the west, are under the impression that simply by
       | mechanically practicing mindfulness meditation they will
       | eventually reach a state of enlightenment. Unfortunately, this is
       | a misunderstanding that the Buddha himself addressed in the
       | teachings. The Noble Eightfold Path is at the heart of Buddhist
       | practice, and it's structured such that "right view" comes in
       | first place, while "right mindfulness" and "right concentration"
       | come at the very end. According to these teachings, it's
       | impossible to attain the right kind of mindfulness conducive to
       | the cessation of stress without first satisfying the precondition
       | of right view. Without right view, the practitioner is
       | essentially flying blind. The modern mindfulness movement in its
       | zeal to secularize these practices is incapable of accepting the
       | proposition that the right teaching has to be first grasped
       | before embarking on the practice, as this contradicts the purely
       | empiricist approach of mechanically practicing mindfulness with
       | the expectation that this leads to enlightenment. The author's
       | comments such as "I thought awakening was right around the corner
       | and now feel broken and betrayed" are indicative of such an
       | expectation being broken. The Buddha explains the danger of
       | misconceiving the teachings using the snake simile, in which the
       | Buddha compares the teachings to a snake that has to be first
       | grabbed by the head and then tail. Trying to grab the snake by
       | the tail first will only result in being bitten. This simile can
       | be applied quite literally to the structure of The Noble
       | Eightfold Path, where right view can be interpreted as the head
       | of the snake, and right mindfulness/concentration as the tail.
        
         | mtalantikite wrote:
         | Came here to say something similar. When I was about 20 some
         | close friends of mine started practicing (and eventually
         | ordained) with the American Theravadin monk Thanissaro Bhikkhu,
         | which got my meditation practice started. Unfortunately I made
         | the mistake of doing a lot of sitting and not a lot of learning
         | of the Buddha's teachings at that time, other than reading some
         | Pali translations and listening to Thanissaro Bhikkhu's dharma
         | talks here and there. It got to the place where I didn't have
         | the proper view to make sense of things that were happening and
         | it felt like sitting was making life harder, so I gave up daily
         | practice.
         | 
         | About 10 years later I encountered the Diamond and Heart sutras
         | from the Mahayana traditions and things made a whole lot more
         | sense. It allowed me to get back to daily practice, which I'm
         | very thankful for. It's not a teaching emphasized in the
         | Theravada traditions that many of these American "mindfulness"
         | movements draw from - although it's there - but the teachings
         | on emptiness (sunyata) I found to be transformative for my
         | practice. When the author writes things like "...elements of my
         | sense of self became separated in a way that impaired my
         | ability to function", it makes me think he'd benefit from
         | learning the teachings on emptiness and the doctrine of the two
         | truths.
         | 
         | This is all to say that I find it pretty irresponsible and
         | potentially dangerous to have people with very little
         | understanding of the Buddha's teachings get thrown into 10-day
         | silent meditation retreats where you're sitting for 10 hours
         | per day as often seems to happen. Or to divorce the practice of
         | meditation from the teachings as is common in lots of modern
         | western "mindfulness" spaces. Many traditions teach these
         | things slowly, over the course of months and years, while
         | moving you along as your understanding deepens for a reason.
         | 
         | I'd recommend taking your practice slowly, preferably with a
         | skilled Buddhist monk to guide you. Read the sutras. Find a
         | tradition that resonates with you personally. Know that there
         | are risks involved and often times the practice will be
         | difficult and confusing. It's not a magic pill to make you a
         | better worker under capitalism.
        
           | lazide wrote:
           | Amen (hah) - I doubt (up until recently with these getting
           | more visibility) it was ever a problem enough that retreats
           | are screening for this.
           | 
           | Additionally, retreats taught in 'weight loss' fashion are
           | only going to make this worse, as there may be no one with a
           | comprehensive grounding or experience even present on the
           | retreat.
           | 
           | This is one area where years of experience (and depth) and
           | accuracy/correctness matter a lot. Which is hard. And
           | expensive. And hard to scale.
        
         | vinceguidry wrote:
         | Americans are in the habit of treating all goals as achievable
         | in a systematic manner and to break down all obstacles into
         | simply more things to learn and apply. With materialistic and
         | worldly goals this works very well.
         | 
         | However by ignoring the soft needs of self in favor of the hard
         | needs of ego, one applies the above methodology right up until
         | their psyche falls apart because there's nothing left holding
         | it together. The ouroboros runs out of tail to eat.
         | 
         | And Buddhist tenets, as understood by Westerners, don't help.
         | Anatta, the doctrine of no-self, does _not_ mean you can just
         | ignore the needs of your psyche! It means your self is
         | illusory, constantly changing. Illusions, have rules! They 're
         | durable, they don't just go away because you naively decided
         | they don't matter anymore.
        
         | nineplay wrote:
         | I've frequently seen "Buddhism" adopted by westerners from a
         | secular or Judeo/Christian background and treated as though
         | it's some sort of feel-good practice which lets them feel
         | vaguely superior to other religions without any serious changes
         | in beliefs or practices.
         | 
         | I saw a well regarded movie recently where the main
         | characterized Buddhism as "a philosophy rather than a religion"
         | which made it clear that no Asians had been involved in the
         | making of that film. I was with a friend at a Asian market and
         | he looked snottily at some of the Buddha statues and said
         | "Those don't have any relationship with _my_ religion". I
         | wanted to ask if they'd ever been in a Thai restaurant. It's
         | such a dismissal of the way Buddhism has been practiced in
         | cultures for a couple thousand years - but this white American
         | clearly knows better.
        
           | bobthechef wrote:
           | I don't understand the mention of "Judeo/Christian
           | background"[0] or the invocation of race where religion is
           | concerned (cultural is downstream of religion, anyway), but
           | in any case, it is true, based on what I have read, that
           | "American Buddhism" as practiced in the United States is sort
           | of a consumerist ethos dressed up in Buddhist garb. The case
           | is similar where Hinduism is concerned. The phrase "I am God"
           | coming from the mouth of a traditional Hindu means something
           | different than it does coming from an American who has
           | immersed himself in a kind of Hindu-coated consumerism. The
           | latter is sort of a pantheistic claim, at least
           | theologically, while the latter is likely the expression of
           | consumerist egoism.
           | 
           | [0] Btw, I would suggest using "Christian" or "Jewish or
           | Christian" instead of "Judeo-Christian". There are important
           | incompatibilities between post-Christian Talmudic Judaism and
           | Christianity (itself fractured) that cannot be glossed over
           | with a hyphen.
        
             | nineplay wrote:
             | Thank you for pointing that out, it is an unfortunate
             | shorthand and I should stay away from it. I tend to use it
             | as a hand-wavy way to say "fair-skinned Americans who
             | probably celebrated Christmas or Hanukkah growing up" but
             | I'll stop.
        
           | pradn wrote:
           | Throughout Buddhist history, the contemplative, meditative,
           | "philosophical" Buddhism has always been practiced by a small
           | minority of monks and nuns. Even at the height of Buddhist
           | fervor in the middle of the first millennium, far under 0.5%
           | of the population of, say, China were monastics. (In fact
           | most of those simply had certificates of monkhood that
           | exempted from corvee labor - taxes in the form of labor, and
           | weren't seriously committed to spiritual practice.)
           | 
           | Most Buddhists have been lay followers content to pray at
           | temples to ease their worries and bring good luck, seek the
           | monastics for ceremonies like weddings and funerals, and
           | donate to monasteries to keep their spiritual practices
           | going. The whole of Mahayana Buddhism is far more concerned
           | with the worship of spiritual intercessors called
           | Bodhisattva's, those who have achieved enlightenment but have
           | chosen to stay behind to help devotees. This form of Buddhism
           | constitutes the bulk of religious practice in East and South
           | East Asia. To ignore it in favor of only one strand of
           | Buddhism is like seeing Christianity only through the eyes of
           | Flagellants or Dominican monks or anchorites.
        
             | travisjungroth wrote:
             | The source of the conflict is that when most people in the
             | US say "Buddhism", they mean "Buddhism that was exported to
             | the US in the 60s." which was an odd combination of
             | monastic and secularized. It's actually a strange combo
             | when you think about it. Most Buddhists are more like
             | Americans on Easter Sunday.
        
           | potatoman22 wrote:
           | Why villainize the "white American", portraying them as
           | "knowing better"? Yes, the mischaracterization of Buddhism is
           | disrespectful, but it comes from ignorance, not malice.
        
             | copio wrote:
             | How can you pick and choose without on some level being
             | aware of what you are excluding?
        
             | nineplay wrote:
             | It is ignorance that borders on arrogance. They must know
             | that Buddhism is over two thousand years old. They must
             | know that it is central to many cultures all over the
             | world. Yet they somehow are confident that their way is the
             | 'right' way.
        
               | medstrom wrote:
               | Ah, the amorphous "they". Like the amorphous "many". I'm
               | not sure there's all that many that do this.
        
               | mcguire wrote:
               | " _I was with a friend at a Asian market and he looked
               | snottily at some of the Buddha statues and said "Those
               | don't have any relationship with _my_ religion"._"
        
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           | pmoriarty wrote:
           | _" I saw a well regarded movie recently where the main
           | characterized Buddhism as "a philosophy rather than a
           | religion" which made it clear that no Asians had been
           | involved in the making of that film."_
           | 
           | Asians are as capable as anyone else at secularizing Buddhism
           | (or of doing anything else, really).
           | 
           | Take the example of D T Suzuki[1] himself -- the man who is
           | arguably more responsible than anyone else for bringing
           | Buddhism to the West.
           | 
           |  _" In the mid-20th century, Japanese lay scholar D. T.
           | Suzuki was instrumental in creating a Zen which would be
           | acceptable to Westerners, a project undertaken to position
           | post WWII Japan as a modern, powerful nation and its culture
           | as refined and superior in the face of Western hegemony.
           | Suzuki sought to remove Zen from its historical and cultural
           | context and make it accessible and applicable to everyone.
           | This extraction cut its ties to monks and monasteries, the
           | precepts, sangha life, rituals and teachings, and set up
           | instead the individual internal experience of awakening as
           | the only reliable "truth." Positioning Zen as based on the
           | truth of personal experience protected it from rejection as
           | superstition or as a creation of a bewildered community. At
           | the same time, it could not be replaced by science or
           | rationalism because the awakening experience was said to be
           | subjective and ineffable. It was beyond all the limitations
           | of organized sects, cultural manifestations, or political
           | exigencies. As Robert Sharf explains,"_
           | 
           |  _" The notion of "pure Zen"--a pan-cultural religious
           | experience unsullied by institutional, social, and historical
           | contingencies--would be attractive precisely because it held
           | out the possibility of an alternative to the godless and
           | indifferent anomic universe bequeathed by the Western
           | Enlightenment, yet demanded neither blind faith nor
           | institutional allegiance. This reconstructed Zen offered an
           | intellectually reputable escape from the epistemological
           | anxiety of historicism and pluralism."_[2]
           | 
           |  _" Several scholars have identified Suzuki as a Buddhist
           | modernist... Buddhist modernist traditions often consist of a
           | deliberate de-emphasis of the ritual and metaphysical
           | elements of the religion, as these elements are seen as
           | incommensurate with the discourses of modernity. Buddhist
           | modernist traditions have also been characterized as being
           | "detraditionalized," often being presented in a way that
           | occludes their historical construction. Instead, Buddhist
           | modernists often employ an essentialized description of their
           | tradition, where key tenets are described as universal and
           | sui generis. It was this form of Zen that has been
           | popularized in the West... In his discussion of humanity and
           | nature, Suzuki takes Zen literature out of its social,
           | ritual, and ethical contexts and reframes it in terms of a
           | language of metaphysics derived from German Romantic
           | idealism, English romanticism, and American
           | transcendentalism."_[1]
           | 
           | [1] - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/D_T_Suzuki
           | 
           | [2] - https://ancientwayjournal.wordpress.com/2016/05/15/orig
           | ins-o...
        
             | nineplay wrote:
             | I don't have any problem with practicing a seculars form of
             | Buddhism. I have a problem with somehow believing that it
             | is the only way to practice Buddhism. Suzuki removed it
             | from its historical and cultural context, but he wouldn't
             | have acted as though the historical and cultural context
             | didn't exist.
        
               | dorchadas wrote:
               | > I have a problem with somehow believing that it is the
               | only way to practice Buddhism.
               | 
               | Or, worse, that it's _more_ authentic than any types of
               | Buddhism practiced in areas that have traditional
               | Buddhism. I saw /see this attitude a lot. It just reeks
               | of arrogance and ignorance.
        
           | astrophysics wrote:
           | Ugh, a WHITE american. They are the worst. Also, what is a
           | racist like you doing in a thread about mindfulness?
        
           | lhorie wrote:
           | I'm confused by this comment. Do you mean to say that
           | Buddhists ought to engage in religious flame wars? FWIW,
           | Buddhism is fairly centered on self-improvement, with
           | idolatry being generally seen as respectful reverence, or at
           | worst as lucky charms.
           | 
           | I don't see the problem in taking just the teachings of a
           | belief system while ignoring the idolatry aspect. In fact,
           | some western takes on religion could use less idolatry.
        
             | nineplay wrote:
             | I think it is pure ignorance to call Buddhism a "philosophy
             | rather than a religion" and sneer at idols. You might as
             | well sneer at a display where a round, black-and-white ball
             | is called a 'football'. It shows a complete lack of
             | knowledge about any form of Buddhism practiced anywhere
             | outside of your little world view
        
               | lhorie wrote:
               | So, for a bit of perspective, as a child, I was mostly
               | exposed to the ritualistic aspects of buddhism, which is
               | probably the closest experience to what a westerner
               | thinks of when thinking of "religion". Do I think that
               | people prioritizing mindfulness to de-stress and calling
               | it Buddhism are kinda missing the point, sure. Do I get
               | offended that they aren't aware of the existence of
               | things like buddhist prayers, for example? No, not
               | really. Honestly, assuming that "bastardizing" buddhism
               | would offend people like me seems like needless SJW-ness
               | for its own sake, especially considering Buddhism has
               | already been bastardized to the wazoo throughout history.
               | </two-cents>
        
               | nineplay wrote:
               | Can I rid myself of the "SJW" label if I say that I'm not
               | offended, I just think they are idiots?
        
               | lhorie wrote:
               | I didn't mean to call you one, sorry if it came out that
               | way. Personally, I just tend to see this the same way I
               | see grammar nazis (in the context of language being a
               | malleable construct over time)
        
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             | pmoriarty wrote:
             | _" Buddhism is fairly centered on self-improvement"_
             | 
             | That's one aspect central aspect of some types of Buddhism,
             | but compassion is also central in many forms of Buddhism,
             | particularly in the Bodhisattva traditions and teachings of
             | the Mahayana branches of Buddhism, where the goal of self-
             | improvement is sacrificed for the sake of easing the
             | suffering of the rest of humanity.
             | 
             | Community (the Sangha and the lay people and every other
             | sentient being) is also very important to many forms of
             | Buddhism, and many Buddhists are socially active or at
             | least engage in charitable works which are as much about
             | helping others as anything else.
             | 
             | That's not to mention the selflessness and the giving up of
             | attachment to goals like "self-improvement" at higher
             | levels of Buddhist practice that is also emphasized in some
             | forms of Buddhism.
             | 
             |  _" idolatry being generally seen as respectful reverence,
             | or at worst as lucky charms"_
             | 
             | There's lots of idolatry throughout the real practice of
             | Buddhism around the world. Lay Buddhists in particular (on
             | whom monastic Buddhists are so dependent, and without whom
             | monastic Buddhism would would largely cease to exist) often
             | pray to the Buddha for protection, luck, cures and wealth,
             | and worship various gods and spirits. This is all Buddhism
             | to them, and Buddhist monks are not free of such beliefs
             | either.
             | 
             | In Tibetan Buddhism belief in gods and magic is widespread,
             | as it is South East Asian Buddhism. Buddha is effectively
             | treated as a god in Pure Land Buddhism, where he is prayed
             | to for salvation and in hopes of being reborn in what is
             | essentially paradise.
             | 
             | Claims that Buddhism as a whole is secular, atheist, not
             | idolatrous, "scientific", etc, are not credible. Sure, some
             | forms of Buddhism are (particularly the kinds that have
             | been created for Western consumption), but many others
             | aren't.
        
               | lhorie wrote:
               | > Buddha is effectively treated as a god in Pure Land
               | Buddhism, where he is prayed to for salvation and in
               | hopes of being reborn in what is essentially paradise.
               | 
               | I knew of Buddha being prayed to (mostly for luck) and of
               | prayer for salvation separately, but not both
               | simultaneously, that's interesting. I was personally
               | exposed to prayer rituals for deceased family members,
               | but my understanding is that the prayers aren't directed
               | at Buddha per se, it's more seen as the act of praying
               | itself helping to open a path to everlasting peace or
               | something like that. IMHO, this is several degrees
               | removed from the original teachings though, similar to
               | how there are multiple abrahamic denominations with
               | various degrees of "quirks".
               | 
               | I'm also aware of some historical conflicts branched off
               | of some of these "interpretations", hence why I tend to
               | look for historical common ground between buddhism
               | flavors.
        
             | hangonhn wrote:
             | "Do you mean to say that Buddhists ought to engage in
             | religious flame wars?"
             | 
             | We have engaged in far worse than flame wars. Buddhists
             | have fought in actual wars at various points of history and
             | done other not so great things. For example, D.T. Suzuki is
             | known for his writing on Zen Buddhism but he was also
             | something of a right-wing nationalist.
             | 
             | I think GP is advocating that we approach Buddhism in its
             | whole form rather than just the bits and pieces we are most
             | comfortable with.
        
               | rendall wrote:
               | Buddhists are currently engaging in the genocide of the
               | Rohingya in Myanmar. No philosophy is beyond being
               | subverted to evil, and ascribing to a particular
               | philosophy will not protect you from doing evil.
        
           | hef19898 wrote:
           | Buddhism always had a lifestyle aspect to it in the West. We
           | have benn in Ladakh once, for the monastery festival season.
           | There we also witnessed a procession around one the holy
           | mountains. The monastery festivals were quite touristic,
           | especially the ones in famous locales. This procession was a
           | purely local thing, besides my parents and myself there was
           | another tourist couple. The people there measured, above
           | 3,500 meter over sea level, heat and dust the distance of the
           | route in their body length for a full day. That quashed any
           | illusions I might have had about Buddhism being an "easy"
           | religion.
           | 
           | Also the people their were just sincerely nice. I didn't want
           | to bother them, keep a distance during their break. 20
           | minutes later I had lunch with them.
        
         | exo-pla-net wrote:
         | The author wasn't ignorant: "I'm extremely knowledgeable of
         | both Buddhist and secular frameworks of meditation, have read
         | countless books on the subject."
        
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           | arbitrage wrote:
           | The author obviously isn't ignorant. The comment you failed
           | to respond to directly is talking about "a particular
           | misapprehension of Buddhist teachings in modern society."
           | 
           | This is not about ignorance, and framing it as such is
           | directly supporting the thesis of the original article.
        
             | exo-pla-net wrote:
             | Misapprehension is a function of ignorance. If you're free
             | of trapped priors, you'll eventually sort out your
             | misconceptions, as you learn more.
             | 
             | Regarding this particular slice of turkey on the table,
             | since you insist: "[T]his is a misunderstanding that the
             | Buddha himself addressed in the teachings."
             | 
             | The teachings? The teachings a person would likely be
             | exposed to and eventually come up understand, if they've
             | read countless books on the non-secular/Buddhist practice
             | of meditation?
             | 
             | Regardless, if failing to "correctly" understand a bit of
             | squishy woo-woo in Buddhist religion is the difference
             | between safe meditation practice and psychosis/nervous
             | breakdown, then that's all the more alarming.
        
               | kjaftaedi wrote:
               | Regardless of whether the author understood the
               | teachings, he clearly ignored them with the drinking,
               | drugs, and coffee.
        
           | Sawamara wrote:
           | The author was not ignorant. He was also nowhere near close
           | to any sort of enlightment, or else he would not have thought
           | things like that.
           | 
           | This is, however, a moot point. The article is important and
           | a warning to a lot of people. The current state we live
           | creates such a tense situation for most people that these
           | hardcore retreat-size meditation doses can literally act like
           | shocks to both the trained and the untrained.
        
         | jbgt wrote:
         | I am very happy to read this. Most people in the west
         | understand Mindfulness in isolation, and often only mindfulness
         | of the breath as meditation. And the intention is to "feel
         | calm" or "not think", or want the Headspace experience on
         | steroids or believe they can brute force their way to
         | "Englightement"...
         | 
         | Without Right View and Right Intention, without the morality
         | development of the Noble Eightfold Path, there is no wonder
         | that they practice unskillfully, and develop unfulfilled
         | expectations.
         | 
         | I highly recommend reading / listening to the talks / going to
         | retreat at (1) for a firm foundation for practice; for more in
         | depth reading from one of the most important Theravadin monks
         | who brings balance to the practice and emphasizes wisdom (2). A
         | nice podcast (3) with also a good balance of teaching.
         | 
         | I hope this helps people better understand meditation / mental
         | development beyond mindfulness and concentration practice.
         | 
         | 1 https://rosemary-steve.org/data/practice.htm
         | 
         | 2 https://www.watnyanaves.net/en/home
         | 
         | 3 https://tunein.com/podcasts/Religion--Spirituality-
         | Podcasts/...
        
         | wizzwizz4 wrote:
         | > _as this contradicts the purely empiricist approach of
         | mechanically practicing mindfulness with the expectation that
         | this leads to enlightenment._
         | 
         | This isn't really an empiricist approach. Empiricists look at
         | what works, and (from what you're saying) this _doesn 't_. I'm
         | not sure what to call it, but that's the wrong word.
        
           | pphysch wrote:
           | You are describing what could be called pragmatism;
           | "empiricism" has specific epistemological meaning.
        
           | jessedhillon wrote:
           | In this sense, this person is talking about empiricism as the
           | outlook that only what can be measured matters. Hours spent
           | in meditation can be measured, but your embodiment of right
           | view can't (or isn't, at least).
        
           | sjayasinghe wrote:
           | I'm using the word here to mean a philosophical position
           | which only accepts knowledge that can be gained via direct
           | meditative experience and rejects everything else. I'm open
           | to suggestions for a better word to describe this position.
        
             | mcguire wrote:
             | Empiricism sounds right. " _The Empiricism Thesis: We have
             | no source of knowledge in S or for the concepts we use in S
             | other than sense experience._ "
             | (https://plato.stanford.edu/entries/rationalism-
             | empiricism/#E...)
        
             | lhorie wrote:
             | I think it can be summarized as "recklessness" (i.e.
             | jumping the gun without proper understanding of/regard to
             | foundational concepts)
        
               | kovyrin wrote:
               | > I think it can be summarized as "recklessness" (i.e.
               | jumping the gun without proper understanding of/regard to
               | foundational concepts)
               | 
               | Well... I tried to approach it properly. You google or
               | look up in wikipedia a bunch of info on Buddhism, then
               | you find most popular authors writing on the topic. You
               | end up with "Zen mind, beginner's mind" and a few others.
               | None of them tell you it may hurt you, none of them
               | mention doing it on group settings or with teachers, they
               | recommend you starting alone and doing it daily. One of
               | those foundational books (don't remember which one),
               | recommended doing an hour a day... How is one supposed to
               | know that it is dangerous?
        
               | lazide wrote:
               | In general, one key tenet you will find even in those
               | books is a focus on 'being' and 'experiencing' reality
               | over taking as truth an abstract knowledge of how
               | something 'should be'.
               | 
               | An approach that might work better could be a gradual and
               | expanding exposure, talking physically in person to
               | others, and exposing oneself physically to the practices
               | and reality of a number of different sects and groups
               | over time - while evolving your own understanding with
               | book reading. It is very unlikely that meditating, or
               | following basic practices, is going to cause anyone harm
               | - but definitely not impossible based on their state of
               | mind or circumstances. Given a large enough group trying
               | something, it is inevitable someone will have a terrible
               | outcome. It doesn't mean others won't have amazing
               | outcomes, however.
               | 
               | It is our own individual responsibility to take ownership
               | for making the decisions we make, taking the path we
               | take, and owning the results, or we lose all handle on
               | the little we can actually control and become even more
               | lost.
               | 
               | Going to a meditation retreat (12+ hrs) without a solid
               | grounding and understanding of the context would be a bit
               | like hopping on a race motorcycle on a track day right
               | after getting a learners permit - ill advised, and
               | unlikely to result in anything healthy. Not impossible it
               | wouldn't go well however, and not something likely to
               | need screening for from the retreat (or track) side.
               | Usually most people would realize pretty quickly even if
               | they were dumb enough to get started and quit before
               | anything really terrible happened.
               | 
               | If someone doesn't know or recognize that, they are
               | unlikely to find the right ways to get in trouble -
               | usually.
               | 
               | Book knowledge can help expand or refine knowledge, but
               | should always be validated and integrated with personal
               | experience. There are too many conflicting ways to take a
               | specific passage, too many personal traumas or gotchas,
               | too many environmental variables for anything else
               | frankly.
               | 
               | It should not be your only or especially your only
               | foundational knowledge about something so fundamental as
               | how to understand or approach reality and yourself.
        
               | arbitrage wrote:
               | Maybe getting your only information from a cursory
               | grazing of wikipedia isn't approaching the topic
               | properly?
               | 
               | The article in question isn't about meditating once a
               | day. It's about meditating aggressively for TWELVE hours
               | a day two weeks straight, and how it negatively affected
               | the author.
        
               | lhorie wrote:
               | > How is one supposed to know that it is dangerous?
               | 
               | It isn't supposed to be dangerous, but if you dive head
               | first into hardcore "retreats" with unrealistic
               | expectations, that might end up badly, yes.
               | 
               | For starters, if you have to seek recommendations on the
               | Internet, you're probably already several steps detached
               | from the original tradition. Buddhism has an insane
               | amount of breadth: there are west asian flavors and east
               | asian flavors, and there's literally thousands of years
               | of history to go with them. Some forms of practice don't
               | even focus on meditation (for example, as a child, I was
               | largely exposed to ritualistic aspects of the japanese
               | flavor). If you're interested in it as a westerner, it's
               | likely because you've heard of mindfulness in the context
               | of mental health benefits, but that's in large part a
               | western concept bolted on top of the original tradition.
               | 
               | It would be helpful to try to understand where stuff is
               | getting lost in translation. Learning more about the
               | original Buddhist philosophy and its roots can help give
               | more context on things like what enlightenment is
               | supposed to be about (coming to understand _what_ it is
               | is actually kind of the point) and how meditation and
               | mindfulness are supposed to fit in.
        
         | blastro wrote:
         | amen.
        
         | crazydoggers wrote:
         | > _I interpret the author's difficulties and frustration as a
         | byproduct of a particular misapprehension of Buddhist teachings
         | in modern society._
         | 
         | I interpret his difficulties as an experience of how the brain
         | is an organ and has physiological responses we're not often
         | prepared for.
         | 
         | Most people would agree that going on a retreat where you run
         | 20 miles a day would have adverse consequences for your body.
         | 
         | Yet the same kind of workout for your brain doesn't garner the
         | same respect or caution.
         | 
         | Perhaps the dogma/teachings of Buddhism prepare people for
         | these things better than Western adoption of mediation
         | practices, but to me they don't get to the heart of the matter,
         | which is true understanding of the brain. Just like kosher
         | practices protected people from disease before the germ theory
         | was understood.
         | 
         | Ultimately until we accept that our brain is a physical organ,
         | that self does not stand apart from body, our mental health as
         | a society is going suffer.
        
           | lazide wrote:
           | The brain as an organ analogy doesn't also reflect the self-
           | reflective, self-influencing, learning side of it well.
           | 
           | A kidney doesn't remember the last time someone abused it and
           | react reflexively when they see that person. It also doesn't
           | tend to go into tight loops of racing thoughts about that
           | person randomly either.
           | 
           | If you treat it like it is a simple organ (x thing happens,
           | give drug y), it can lead to some really toxic long term
           | effects with avoidance of environmental or self regulatory
           | issues, lack of awareness of what is going on and how to
           | correct it, etc. I've seen it personally, and lost friends
           | and loved ones to the effects a naive 'medical' approach can
           | have.
           | 
           | The reality, near as we can tell, is the brain is an organ,
           | that in ways we don't understand is also part of what we call
           | 'self', which is also part of the system of our body, which
           | is also part of larger systems that we interact with and
           | influence us.
           | 
           | I don't know of any monks that, if you broke a leg, would say
           | 'Meditate and your leg will be healed'. Most monks, if you
           | had not yet gone to a Doctor to have it fixed, would ask you
           | something along the lines of 'How can I help you?' to help
           | you see the need and get you there, or ask you to sit with
           | them so you could see the need yourself.
        
       | rolleiflex wrote:
       | Since this is a long article, here's a summary for fellow readers
       | -- it's mostly about the negative side effects of meditation that
       | the author believes is under-documented or under-reported due to
       | the 'hype' of meditation as the 21st century cure-all. He talks
       | about dissociative experiences (which is well documented in
       | medical research), it being a pseudo-religion, and lastly, his
       | belief that the extended use of meditation is the 'opposite' of
       | stoicism in the way that it can render a person not less, but
       | more susceptible to breakage from smaller stresses, like one of a
       | traffic jam. He also attempts to make a biological argument on
       | how this works by invoking something he calls the limbic system
       | feedback loop, however I have found that argument unconvincing
       | due to lack of any actual evidence.
        
         | mcguire wrote:
         | The author does not mention stoicism at all.
        
         | mettamage wrote:
         | > He talks about dissociative experiences (which is well
         | documented in medical research)
         | 
         | Experienced this as well.
         | 
         | > it being a pseudo-religion
         | 
         | IMO, too simple. Many experiences feel quite pseudo-religion
         | like.
         | 
         | > more susceptible to breakage from smaller stresses, like one
         | of a traffic jam
         | 
         | Didn't experience this. In fact I believed I was more or less
         | invincible and became pretty deluded. Thankfully a part always
         | stays skeptical. Being skeptical saved me and it made me stop
         | meditating for a while and now I have it at a level where it's
         | beneficial.
        
           | froh wrote:
           | looking for a good level for myself, I'm curious which
           | practice and level you find beneficial for yourself?
        
         | arcturus17 wrote:
         | Thanks for the summary.
         | 
         | Not the first time I hear about these negative side effects,
         | but every time I'm reminded of the possibility I'm surprised.
         | 
         | It also reminds me however that my meditation practice is
         | infinitely shallower than what people suffering negative
         | consequences describe.
         | 
         | There was a time where I would practice very rigorously (for me
         | at least) and all I can remember is that I felt more empathy
         | and emotion but never in a bad sense. I remember getting
         | tearful if I heard a story of human suffering, and I also
         | remember getting quasi-orgasmic sensations with food. Never
         | things like losing it at a traffic jam.
         | 
         | I wish I could recover the positives, but unfortunately I don't
         | remember what my practice consisted of back in the day. Maybe I
         | should go to a class or something.
        
           | dgb23 wrote:
           | I personally had intense experiences pretty quickly but
           | didn't overdo it after. I (now) have a healthy respect of
           | psychedelic experiences.
           | 
           | As another commenter said, don't overdo things.
           | 
           | Edit: whether you get more intense experiences likely is some
           | function of how stable and sensitive you are, what other
           | experiences you already had and how much you meditate.
           | 
           | I imagine that very grounded people don't get problems as
           | quickly. That's a good thing, not shallowness.
        
           | emoII wrote:
           | > It also reminds me however that my meditation practice is
           | infinitely shallower than what people suffering negative
           | consequences describe.
           | 
           | Actually, the author describe people having similar negative
           | experiences just from dabbling with meditation apps, so the
           | catalyst is not necessarily a 14-day silent retreat, but
           | rather something more intangible, in which case it could
           | happen to anyone, really
        
         | quijoteuniv wrote:
         | Trying to <<gain>> something from mindfullness/budism is a bad
         | one. Is adviseable that people with drug use history refrain
         | from using drugs for an extended period of time before taking
         | on other mind altering experiences. I believe the grove of the
         | brain need some repairing. Disrupting natural processes like
         | breathing is not adviseable for beginners and probably
         | unnecesary anyway. Beware of powerfull exercises and quick
         | fixes, people get damaged by reckless/selfish/clueless gurus
         | very often. Usually slow, gentle exercising over longer period
         | of time is more benefical. For sone meditation in motion like
         | Tai Chi works best. And finally you will not stop being an
         | idi0t just by meditating, you are likely to turn into an idi0t
         | with a lot of energy! Probably the biggest pitfall.
        
         | loup-vaillant wrote:
         | > _it's mostly about the negative side effects of meditation
         | that the author believes is under-documented or under-reported_
         | 
         | Before this article, I didn't know meditation could have _any_
         | adverse effect. Until today, I haven ' read a single depiction,
         | a single _mention_ of meditation going wrong. Except in
         | fictions.
         | 
         | So this claim that one does not simply learn about the negative
         | side effects of meditation sounds very plausible to me.
        
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         | mensetmanus1861 wrote:
         | I did a 10 day meditation (vipassana) few years ago. I remember
         | some fellow meditators (majority of the sessions are in a hall
         | full of meditators) having emotionally intense experiences
         | (someone would cry inconsolably, someone will shout for few
         | moments suddenly). I personally per say did not experience any
         | such external emotional outburst but definitely got better
         | clarity and calmness towards daily routine life.
         | 
         | The output of meditation is supposed to be a clearer mind from
         | before and it may take a while to reach the desired state of
         | mind. Stoicism should not be misinterpreted as having no zest
         | for life. One psychologist I know told me something that made
         | an impression on me "Just because life is going to end or that
         | many good things come to an end eventually doesn't mean you
         | should not enjoy the present". I am sure different people have
         | different outcomes but I think the purpose of meditation is to
         | learn the joy of life. One could see stoicism as being
         | pessimistic towards life. I personally see meditation as a tool
         | that hopefully helps you derive the joy of living in every
         | moment of your daily existence while not being attached to it
         | so that that if the circumstance changes, you don't lose the
         | joyfulness and adapt to the new things in life knowing that the
         | change won't last either.
        
         | cyberpunk wrote:
         | These sorts of things have been dealt with for centuries by
         | Buddhists, it's a fairly common effect when you start with
         | Zazen. This is why taking one part of the practice and
         | abandoning the rest (most specifically, an experienced teacher)
         | isn't a great idea for everyone. Most of the time all you need
         | to hear is "just let whatever comes up during Zazen go, and
         | return to the moment" but alas, if you don't things can go a
         | bit wrong.
         | 
         | I don't think it's actively harmful, but the "mindfulness
         | industry" is full of charlatans and poor advice, and it does
         | make me rather sad that it's being monetised in such a way.
         | 
         | Just sit.
        
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           | throwaway_zen wrote:
           | > the "mindfulness industry" is full of charlatans and poor
           | advice
           | 
           | Thank you for saying this.
           | 
           | There is an endless, dangerous trend of dismissing monastic
           | traditions like Zen and trying to extract meditation from its
           | context, under the assumption that teachings and formal
           | practice are unnecessary.
           | 
           | It happens in scientific research on meditation as well as on
           | popular McMindfullness.
        
             | babyblueblanket wrote:
             | Isn't this a common/popular stereotype in so many movies?
             | Hoity-toity protagonist believes they're more
             | educated/better than the savages who follow old tradition,
             | then have to eat some humble pie.
             | 
             | An age old tale we can't seem to learn.
        
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             | blunte wrote:
             | Every industry is full of charlatans and poor advice.
             | Unfortunately, some cost you more than just lost money or
             | lost time.
             | 
             | In this case, however, the participants may more likely be
             | vulnerable. They are seeking some solution to their
             | problems, and mindfulness is promoted as one. As the author
             | makes the case, it really was a solution to his problems.
             | But it seems he took it too far.
        
           | lhorie wrote:
           | One take I heard about yoga that kinda applies here is "if
           | yoga is injuring you, your _understanding_ of it is wrong "
           | 
           | I think the underlying issue with all these asian-
           | spiritualism-turned-western-nouveau-health is that western
           | people sometimes come in wanting things to be intense,
           | clinical and goal-oriented. But that's literally the opposite
           | of what most of what these disciplines are all about. Asian
           | health upkeep practices (yoga, tai chi, meditation, radio
           | taiso, etc) are mostly about gentle but consistent practice
           | to keep gears oiled for the long run. Most of those aren't
           | even meant to be healing disciplines.
        
             | ghostbrainalpha wrote:
             | "western people sometimes come in wanting things to be
             | intense, clinical and goal-oriented."
             | 
             | That describes me exactly. I spent forever look for a
             | "quantified meditation" course.
             | 
             | I even kept a mediation journal where I could track how
             | many times I lost track of my breath in a 5 minute session.
             | I started out around 50 and was desperately trying to get
             | to 0.
             | 
             | I even used an app that counts taps, that I would rest
             | under my finger, so that I could mark each failure as
             | quickly and easily as possible. Without trying to
             | "remember" the count of failures because it would distract
             | me from the breath.
             | 
             | I felt that if I could get to 0, that I wouldn't be ready
             | for enlightenment, but I would at least achieve ACCESS
             | CONCENTRATION and be able to enter the stream. At that
             | point, it could become a spiritual practice, but I wanted
             | to develop sufficient concentration abilities and conquer
             | my ADHD before thinking too much about what mediation was
             | actually for.
             | 
             | It's been really hard for me to let go of the idea that my
             | meditation needs a score to track my progress.
        
               | cyberpunk wrote:
               | Woah that seems really the polar opposite of what I
               | practice..
               | 
               | I think you're doing yourself a bit wrong with this
               | approach.
               | 
               | Can I suggest a book to you? It's "Sit down and shut up"
               | by Brad Warner, it may help.
        
               | ghostbrainalpha wrote:
               | Just downloaded it from Audible. Thanks.
        
               | mirekrusin wrote:
               | Thank you for sharing, that feels bad and opposite
               | indeed. I wonder what percentage of westerners approach
               | it with this type of gym mindset?
        
             | oasisbob wrote:
             | _if yoga is injuring you, your understanding of it is
             | wrong_
             | 
             | That feels a lot like either victim blaming, or being fed a
             | No True Scotsman truism and accepting it.
             | 
             | One could say the same thing about staying within their
             | skill level for any high-risk adventure sport. "If that
             | advanced ski course is injuring you ...."
        
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               | lhorie wrote:
               | It's interesting that you brought up high risk sports.
               | The context of that quote was related to people injuring
               | themselves by being too aggressive on stuff they should
               | know better (one example was a relatively advanced
               | practitioner pulling a calf muscle on a downward dog of
               | all things). That's an example of a type of injury where
               | the person sets goals (e.g. stretching to some specific
               | previously achieved limit) without paying attention to
               | the current state of the body (e.g. it's a fairly well
               | known phenomenon that muscles are tighter in the morning
               | than early evening, especially before warm ups).
               | 
               | Yoga isn't about quantified stretch goals, it's a daily
               | fitness regime. So if you pull a leg muscle by going on a
               | super deep downward dog first thing in the morning
               | without warming up because you're aspiring to reach some
               | guru-like level quickly, instead of seeing yoga as a
               | fitness program to carry your body to old age, then yes,
               | your understanding of the practice _is_ wrong.
        
           | justsomeuser wrote:
           | I think you are ignoring the fact that people have different
           | brains. Sure, persist through mild discomfort.
           | 
           | But would you advise people who are hallucinating to do the
           | same?
        
             | cyberpunk wrote:
             | My teacher would, and has, yes. But I wouldn't advise
             | anyone to do that, or even get into that situation in a
             | hippy dippy setting with a bunch of dreadlocked "teachers"
             | who have studied just one aspect of the Buddhist tradition
             | from deepak chopra, no.
             | 
             | The stuff that comes up, including the hallucinations, are
             | brought to the surface through your practice, but they are
             | not caused by it. The only way to deal with them is with an
             | experienced teacher, therapist or with self discipline (the
             | latter i only include as seemingly this is what shakyamuni
             | apparently did).
             | 
             | Everyone is different, I agree, but sitting with
             | inexperienced people and expecting some enlightenment
             | experience is definitely going to go wrong for you.
        
           | shmageggy wrote:
           | This is exactly the kind of inappropriate advice that the
           | author is cautioning against. He was not just starting out,
           | he had experienced teachers, and the horriffic panic-attack-
           | like state he was not something that could have been
           | addressed by "returning to the moment".
        
             | cyberpunk wrote:
             | He was an instructor in "Mindfulness-Based Stress
             | Reduction" -- sorry, this is not a real thing. He's been
             | teaching things he clearly does not understand, and his
             | mind was blown by this. When I say "a teacher would tell
             | you to come back to the moment" it's not quite as simple as
             | I make it sound, the key thing is who the advice is coming
             | from (read: an actual zen teacher who has received
             | transmission, not a charlatan mindfulness camp fleecing
             | wannabe mindfulness bro's out of several hundred dollars to
             | sit with no experience for 10 days).
             | 
             | I don't really have much sympathy here, it seems, but I
             | don't really understand how one could not expect something
             | like this to happen unless they really avoided speaking to
             | anyone with actual experience (which, yes, means a zen
             | monk, and not someone who spent 3 days in a Hilton
             | doubletree learning how to teach people to 'breathe' and
             | 'unlock their chakras' -- which is all bollocks.)
        
               | pmoriarty wrote:
               | _" the key thing is who the advice is coming from (read:
               | an actual zen teacher who has received transmission, not
               | a charlatan mindfulness camp fleecing wannabe mindfulness
               | bro's out of several hundred dollars to sit with no
               | experience for 10 days)"_
               | 
               | Why Zen specifically? There are many different types of
               | Buddhism.
               | 
               | Even if it does have to be Zen, which kind of Zen? Rinzai
               | or Soto, or some mix of the two (which some Zen schools
               | advocate)?
               | 
               | And why Buddhism, anyway? Meditation is practiced in many
               | different religious traditions.
               | 
               | "mindfulness" is itself rooted in the Theraveda -- not
               | Zen -- Buddhist tradition, but that doesn't necessarily
               | mean that the "right" way to meditate must be a Buddhist
               | way as opposed to, say, one of the many Hindu forms of
               | meditation.
        
               | cyberpunk wrote:
               | I can only speak from my own experience as a Soto zen
               | Buddhist. It's ridiculous really, to spend years staring
               | at a wall.
               | 
               | Of course there are many paths, however I am only aware
               | of the one I've been down. So, yeah, I have zen tinted
               | glasses on such subjects and whatever I am saying should
               | be taken with the appropriate sodium chloride.
        
               | NoOneNew wrote:
               | No one is obligated to list every facet to anything just
               | to tickle your "I'm included in what some random person
               | is saying". The commenter is speaking out of _their own_
               | experience. It 's not about you. Actually add something
               | regarding those other practices instead of virtue
               | signaling.
        
               | cscurmudgeon wrote:
               | The OP is mentioning different forms to probably indicate
               | some forms might be easier to learn.
               | 
               | If you don't have anything positive or constructive to
               | add, why not stay silent? That too is a form of
               | mediation.
        
               | shmageggy wrote:
               | So, to clarify, you are aligning with the view he's
               | opposing in the article that if someone has a profoundly
               | negative experience due to meditation they're just "doing
               | it wrong". That the practice, when done a certain way,
               | carries 0% risk for very bad effects?
        
               | stelonix wrote:
               | No, he's stating what the author seems to have missed:
               | mindfulness is not Buddhism; mindfulness is _based_ on
               | some Buddhist teachings. The author talks about
               | meditation, mindfulness and Buddhism as if it were all
               | the same thing, but that 's not true. It just shows that
               | whatever they're selling as "mindfulness" lacks what
               | basic zen teaches. The author is blissfully ignorant of
               | Buddhism and it's not his fault: that's how he learned
               | it. What's his fault is that he's spreading what he
               | learned as if it were truth, which simply isn't.
               | 
               | There's no worldwide buddhist conspiracy to shun the
               | "bad" parts of meditation, the post author learned from
               | teachers with no qualification.
        
               | SyzygistSix wrote:
               | If one is thinking about these experiences as "right" or
               | "wrong", they have certainly failed.
               | 
               | Uncomfortable, sure. Experiencing the dark night of the
               | soul is not meant to be comfy. It can be rewarding
               | though. Sometimes it is merely insight into our physical
               | and psychological make up though. I don't care what kind
               | of adventures one gets into but if you start getting
               | extreme with them, you're eventually going to experience
               | some really sketchy, uncomfortable, and even life-
               | threatening situations.
        
               | cyberpunk wrote:
               | Yes, essentially.
        
               | shmageggy wrote:
               | That just seems wildly unlikely to me. We're talking
               | about a practice whose goal is to manipulate the brain,
               | an organ that has been called the most complex object in
               | the universe, something that centuries of science have
               | only begin to understand, and that comes with vast and
               | poorly understood diversity across people. There are
               | first hand and scientific accounts of this happening,
               | albeit rarely, to experienced and knowledgeable people.
               | To claim that a certain group of monks has figured out a
               | foolproof and risk-free formula for exploring altered
               | states of consciousness seems implausible.
        
               | cyberpunk wrote:
               | Well, keep in mind this is a practice that as far as we
               | know people have been practicing for at least 2600 years,
               | I think doing things like a 5-10 day Vipassana retreat is
               | _not_ a risk free thing, but you really shouldn't be
               | doing those unless you are ready.
               | 
               | I follow the Soto school of Zen Buddhism, my teacher
               | would not allow me to go to Sessin (which is a multi day
               | meditation retreat) until I had been practicing for like
               | two years, and I had a lot of stuff come to the surface
               | at my first one that really disturbed me... however, I
               | had my teacher there, and he knew exactly what to say and
               | do to help me through it as he has been through the same.
               | He would not have permitted me to leave in such a
               | disturbed state.
               | 
               | This guy would not be able to do that for his students,
               | and even for himself he didn't even know about such
               | things. This is bad, and more stories like this will
               | happen as long as charlatans are taking one aspect of an
               | established practice and ignoring the rest.
               | 
               | As a whole, shikantaza when practiced with a teacher is
               | safe. Things like breath awareness, vipassana and such I
               | think are harmful, but that is due to my training and
               | perhaps I am wrong, but for sure, meditation without the
               | "rest" is largely a money machine these days, and people
               | will be harmed by that.
               | 
               | Edit: I would also add that shikantaza as opposed to
               | other forms of meditation is not about manipulating the
               | brain in any way, but simply observing it. This is why we
               | do not do things with a goal, such as counting of breaths
               | or trying to still the mind. Simply sit, observe, and the
               | stillness comes with no effort. There is no goal, and no
               | enlightenment. There is no separation of practice and
               | experience, the practice _is_ enlightenment.
        
               | wnkrshm wrote:
               | Interesting. I had never even imagined that meditation
               | could be so distressing. I don't know anything about Zen
               | really, do you feel the article gives a good impression
               | of being in a disturbed state from meditation or would
               | you say it's likely inaccurate in general?
        
               | cyberpunk wrote:
               | All zazen enables you to do is observe yourself and your
               | reality very closely; this includes the good and the bad.
               | Seeing under the veil of the stories we spin for
               | ourselves to function can be extremely freeing but at the
               | same time also very difficult to cope with.
               | 
               | I can't make a call either way in the authors mental
               | state, but clearly there was stuff going on unrelated to
               | meditation which he clearly needs some help dealing with.
        
               | krageon wrote:
               | > I had never even imagined that meditation could be so
               | distressing.
               | 
               | It was not evident to you that taking some time to be
               | alone with yourself could be uncomfortable? It's almost a
               | polar opposite to how most people live their lives. I am
               | genuinely curious what made you believe otherwise - I
               | cannot imagine it.
        
               | mirekrusin wrote:
               | He mentions sharing his experiences with teachers who
               | seem to be clueless, not his fault, is it?
        
               | cyberpunk wrote:
               | You can pick your teachers...
        
               | Zababa wrote:
               | Reading about your experience makes me realize that the
               | mindfulness industry is probably another case of trying
               | to remove the human element to improve scalability, with
               | terrible results.
        
               | cyberpunk wrote:
               | Or profit heh. How much do you recon headspace is worth?
               | ;)
        
               | mandmandam wrote:
               | >To claim that a certain group of monks has figured out a
               | foolproof and risk-free formula for exploring altered
               | states of consciousness seems implausible.
               | 
               | ... Why would that be implausible, at least for non-
               | pedantic values of risk-free?
               | 
               | More and more, modern neuroscience confirms aspects of
               | Buddhist teaching; from the nature of self to the
               | workings of emotion. Buddhist meditation practice has
               | been shown to have real and permanent (and positive)
               | effects. Monks have studied the workings of the mind in
               | altered and unaltered states for lifetimes, over
               | thousands of years. Can you name any practice more
               | effective? Because if you can, I'm certain the monks will
               | be interested.
        
               | EdwardDiego wrote:
               | > an actual zen teacher who has received transmission,
               | not a charlatan
               | 
               | I'm really hoping you were going for darkly ironic
               | humour, if not, please reread your sentence I quoted and,
               | I don't know, contemplate on it.
               | 
               | Received transmission? From the Trisolarians perhaps?
        
               | SyzygistSix wrote:
               | Transmission is a form of teaching/learning.
        
               | jazzyjackson wrote:
               | It's just another word for matriculation - to contrast
               | from those that learn meditation from YouTube.
        
               | imwillofficial wrote:
               | Transmission refers to receiving chi, or a spark of
               | energy from an advanced teacher. Perhaps less snark, and
               | more curiosity would serve you on topics like this.
        
               | cyberpunk wrote:
               | Transmission simply means their teacher considers them
               | ready to also become teachers, it's not some whoo science
               | fiction mind meld or something... There are some cases of
               | teachers giving this out inappropriately however these
               | are rather obvious if you were to speak to one who has
               | achieved the real deal vs not..
               | 
               | Buddhism is largely an oral tradition, in that the
               | teachers who exist today can trace their education back
               | up a tree, this is all I mean by transmission.
        
               | spadros wrote:
               | I've practiced zen and Tibetan Buddhism for years. They
               | both contain lots of "spiritual bullocks woo" at times,
               | as does most forms of Buddhism I've encountered. You
               | really need to filter out the good parts for yourself, I
               | find. There are many paths to "meditation" or
               | "mindfulness"; I disagree that those are necessarily
               | separate traditions. This sounds like a "No true
               | Scotsman" type fallacy.
        
               | cyberpunk wrote:
               | This is really what led me to soto, I don't buy into the
               | ritual, the chanting (unless it's at a sessin, and even
               | then only for the bonding experience) and the codes and
               | so on of a lot of the other sects. Soto to me is a very
               | pure expression, I'm also not a big fan of the Sotoshu
               | (my teacher calls them the "funeral directors
               | association") and the more established Soto schools like
               | the SF Zen Center.
               | 
               | Soto, as I understand it, is all about just shikantaza.
               | The rest is optional. I don't shave my head and wear
               | robes, I just sit.
               | 
               | It took me a while, but this shoe fits. I read Dogen and
               | he seems to agree with this for the most part, but of
               | course ymmv.
        
             | SyzygistSix wrote:
             | The author certainly had a meditation practice, maybe even
             | a meditation habit. But it sounded very naive and like
             | amateur hour to me.
             | 
             | I would think any moderately well-traveled psychonaut would
             | not be surprise by anything that the author experienced..
        
           | stelonix wrote:
           | This is exactly what I took from it. He uses the terms
           | "mindfulness" and "Buddhism" interchangeably, but they're
           | not. Buddhism has ways to deal with meditations that "go
           | bad", but mindfulness takes the Buddhism out of the practice.
           | 
           | Mindfulness is not Buddhism.
        
             | ljm wrote:
             | I wouldn't conflate mindfulness (or capital M mindfulness,
             | you could say) with meditation either.
             | 
             | Meditation has always been a deeply spiritual practice;
             | Mindfulness attempts to turn it into a psychological,
             | clinical one.
        
               | loopz wrote:
               | From the article:
               | 
               | > "I spent my last day in Los Angeles riding on a Segway,
               | buying legal marijuana and staring at some turtles in an
               | on-campus pond at UCLA. I was unsettled yet intrigued by
               | Britton's message. Some of the adverse experiences she
               | had described were similar to challenges I had faced.
               | But, at this point I was a decade into my intensive
               | mindfulness meditation practice. I was too deep to get
               | out. "
               | 
               | There's just so many things that is bad with this new-new
               | age wave.
               | 
               | First of all, doing spiritual practices generally do not
               | go hand-in-hand with taking drugs. Just taking marijuana
               | or hash may bring panic attacks, and even psychotic
               | episodes. If you rely on drugs to keep your emotions in
               | check, you're already dealing with them wrong. Meditation
               | together with drugs won't help that, but may worsen
               | things if done intensively.
               | 
               | Second, there's no such thing as "intensive mindfulness
               | meditation practice". Mindfulness is gentle and short,
               | and more about stillness than meditation.
               | 
               | Third, "intensive meditation" is something everybody
               | should be wary about. Max 20 minutes is recommended per
               | day, and there is no need to do more in order to "get
               | anywhere faster". Most important of all, do it with an
               | experienced teacher you trust. The most important
               | ingredient in meditation is to let go and relax, and is
               | not yet another "work".
               | 
               | In the end, something can always go wrong. Not everyone
               | can deal with meditation, and not sure if there's a way
               | to ensure to filter out people. Often people come to
               | classes because they have some issues, not when
               | everything's alright. So there are already things to deal
               | with. Recommended is that people doing medication like
               | antipsychotics, should be prescreened from joining class.
               | 
               | In the end, meditation is a powerful tool. But not sure
               | the stress of Western life is the right way to channel
               | the clarity and calmess one may get from it. You may come
               | back from long retreats, but need tools to deal with the
               | stresses in modern day life. So just meditation may be
               | too confusing or not enough, to deal with one's life once
               | more.
        
               | ljm wrote:
               | Intensive meditation does seem to be oxymoronic, too.
               | 
               | Meditation will take you down many unknown paths:
               | difficult paths, painful paths, joyful paths...
               | 
               | An intensive meditation sounds more like a doing, like
               | hitting the gym hard on a 30 day diet plan, rather than a
               | state of being meditative and progressively turning
               | inwards. You can't intensively find your inner peace, as
               | an intense thing isn't a peaceful thing.
               | 
               | To my mind, intensive meditation is still going to result
               | in something that feeds the ego, rather than something
               | that feeds the soul. You wouldn't call it intensive if it
               | wasn't ego-driven.
        
               | cranesnake wrote:
               | Marijuana intensifies many aspects of the mind. It's
               | dangerous, but it like jumping into deep water to learn
               | to swim, or training to drive on a fast, manual car. If
               | you can bring your mind back from psychosis, you can
               | bring it back from the lesser anxiety you felt before.
        
               | cyberpunk wrote:
               | Crazy.
               | 
               | Agree with everything, although I would say at least in
               | Soto 45 mins seems to be the maximum for one period
               | during sessin, and 15 of that will be kinhin (walking
               | meditation), I tend to do about an hour a day in two
               | sessions, but any longer and there isn't really any
               | reward.
               | 
               | Drugs are a hard no, I mean do them all you want but
               | don't combine the two.
        
               | loopz wrote:
               | Of course, different traditions will have different
               | meditation techniques of varying lengths. There are many,
               | and best to follow one path where people don't experiment
               | too much on you and themselves. That the same techniques
               | have been practiced for a looong time (think: like a
               | vaccine!).
               | 
               | As a "beginner" meditator, 20 mins a day is plenty
               | though. As an "experienced" meditator 20 mins is enough
               | too (you may in time meditate anytime/anywhere).
               | 
               | It's when people take on themselves to "do much more",
               | mix several spiritual practices or follow cults that do
               | extreme regimes that things might sometimes get crazy.
               | Most people do OK, but there are people who need
               | medication or have deep-rooted issues that maybe should
               | not be doing meditation, at least not until those issues
               | have been settled.
               | 
               | Another issue is that some deeper practices were
               | basically developed for monks, to be learned after years
               | of initiation and acceptance.
        
               | BoxOfRain wrote:
               | >Meditation has always been a deeply spiritual practice;
               | Mindfulness attempts to turn it into a psychological,
               | clinical one.
               | 
               | Interestingly this is covered in the context of
               | psychedelics too (which in my opinion are often touted in
               | a similarly misleading way) by Dr Rick Strassman's
               | fascining _DMT: The Spirit Molecule_. Making things like
               | this too clinical or for lack of a better word _mundane_
               | can alter their effects enormously.
        
               | __MatrixMan__ wrote:
               | Agreed that you shouldn't conflate them, but there are
               | many types of meditation that you can practice and:
               | 
               | - not all are rooted in spirituality
               | 
               | - some are directly related to mindfulness
               | 
               | I find that if I meditate regularly, I'm more likely to
               | catch myself practicing mindfulness by accident in my
               | daily life. In those moments I usually discover something
               | about my surroundings that I didn't know before. Really
               | practical stuff, like an unexplored trail that's a better
               | way to take on my commute home from work.
               | 
               | Intentionally practicing mindfulness is fine, but for me
               | it's the cases of being mindful without explicitly
               | setting the intention that make it worthwhile. They're
               | really pleasant, nothing spiritual about it.
               | 
               | And meditation is linked to those moments because, if I'm
               | lucky, it causes them.
        
               | mxmilkiib wrote:
               | Here is a multi-hour playlist from a retreat by Sujato on
               | the main mindfulness sutta that covers various points
               | like this;
               | 
               | https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PL70fWqztn7OXdbGqWEOvhO
               | Vqf...
        
               | namlem wrote:
               | Mindfulness is a category of meditation, which has been
               | somewhat bastardized in the West. Most Buddhist practices
               | incorporate both mindfulness and focus-oriented types of
               | meditation.
        
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         | montenegrohugo wrote:
         | Appreciated!
        
         | raincom wrote:
         | Isn't (esp dissociative experiences) what is called "dark
         | nights" in the Buddhist traditions?
        
           | bencollier49 wrote:
           | The "Dark Night" is typically attributed to St. John of the
           | Cross, although I'd be willing to believe that the term has
           | been used in other traditions.
           | 
           | https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dark_Night_of_the_Soul
           | 
           | Ah, note the last paragraph in this article:
           | 
           | 'In modern mindfulness practice, many authors have named a
           | similar phenomenon in meditation as the dark night of the
           | soul after the poem. It is often described as a lengthened
           | and intense state of depression or ennui caused by errant or
           | irresponsible meditation practices. Author John Yates
           | compares it to a Theravadan term, dukkha nanas, or
           | "knowledges of suffering".'
        
             | Leparamour wrote:
             | >irresponsible meditation practices
             | 
             | I can't imagine what an irresponsible meditation practice
             | would look like. Any pointers?
        
               | orwin wrote:
               | Meditating alone for starter? Meditating too long.
               | Meditating before your day start and you get into
               | stressfull situation.
               | 
               | It should be done step by step, carefully.
               | 
               | I think philosophers talked about habitus, and nowadays
               | we might be able to "fix" phobia with a mix of MRI and
               | reinforcement learning, slowly. Or how to reduce your
               | fear of falling when rockclimbing, by falling "on
               | purpose" when you are in between pitons by an
               | increasingly large length.
        
               | bencollier49 wrote:
               | It's worth ruminating on the fact that all medicines are
               | also poisons. This is why homeopathy is so safe.
        
               | bencollier49 wrote:
               | Ah, this needs explaining - any tool which can cure can
               | also cause injury. Too much of a medicine will kill.
               | 
               | Homeopathy is useless, which is why you can't harm anyone
               | with it.
               | 
               | Meditation _does_ work, which is why is can also be
               | dangerous.
        
               | SyzygistSix wrote:
               | In Buddhism, one big one would be not keeping in mind the
               | primary goal of non-attachment. Non-attachment to bliss,
               | horror, expectations, and certainly not to any goal.
               | 
               | The Biography of Naropa would make an amazing horror
               | movie. Really wild read as well.
        
               | goodpoint wrote:
               | Meditating without an experienced and well trained
               | teacher.
        
             | bobthechef wrote:
             | I would be very careful in comparing what St. John means
             | and what is meant in the Buddhist sense. See [0] for those
             | interested in a brief comparison.
             | 
             | Selected quotes:
             | 
             | "The ultimate end of man for Christians is union with God,
             | while for Buddhists it is Nirvana (complete detachment, or
             | a state of nothingness)."
             | 
             | "For Buddhists, salvation is a privation of individual
             | consciousness; for Catholics salvation is an eternally
             | fulfilling relationship with a loving Creator."
             | 
             | "For both Buddhists and Catholics "detachment" is
             | important, but for Catholics detachment is not an end in
             | itself. St. Francis de Sales preached that man must desire
             | to "possess his soul" rather than allow it to be possessed
             | by worldly things. Catholics pursue this for the purpose of
             | elevating their soul by offering it back to Christ. So
             | detachment is a means to a rich and meaningful "higher
             | awareness" (if you will) that reaches its culmination in
             | seeing God face to face."
             | 
             | So this (temporary) dark night of the soul ultimately leads
             | to a deeper, perhaps more mystical relationship with God.
             | 
             | [0] https://www.catholicculture.org/commentary/catholicism-
             | and-b...
        
               | amanaplanacanal wrote:
               | He may have a good grasp of what Catholicism is about,
               | but his grasp of Buddhism seems pretty shallow. I would
               | not take this article on faith.
        
           | rocqua wrote:
           | The article mentions that he experienced this, read about the
           | dark night and the advice to "push through it" and that that
           | advice backfired horribly.
        
           | automatic6131 wrote:
           | Yes, this is mentioned explicitly in the article too.
        
         | blunte wrote:
         | I think it's also worth noting the extent of time and focus he
         | dedicated to this practice before the negatives appeared.
         | 
         | Putting in 10% of what this guy put in would likely give you
         | measurable benefits without the disassociation risks, unless
         | you already have some mental peculiarities.
        
         | stinos wrote:
         | _in the way that it renders a person not less, but more
         | susceptible to breakage from smaller stresses_
         | 
         | That should be _can render_ I think, the author seems well
         | aware that what happened about him isn 't bound to happen to
         | anyone.
        
           | rolleiflex wrote:
           | Good idea, I just corrected it. Thanks.
        
       | wonderwonder wrote:
       | Do poor people have breakdowns? Always read about rich or middle
       | class people having breakdowns or burning out. Dude is on a
       | Buddhist retreat and has a meltdown, but I feel like poor people
       | rarely get like this, they just trudge on.
        
       | rain1 wrote:
       | I've been meditating for years and never had any problems.
        
       | calkuta wrote:
       | Like psychadelics, these meditation practices are a journey to
       | the limits of our consciousness. Acceptance of all that comes is
       | an essential starting point.
        
       | pphysch wrote:
       | Sounds like a bad trip. Not saying it was in this case, but I
       | could definitely imagine seedy retreats putting a little
       | something "extra" in the evening supper to boost the spiritual
       | RoI of their service offering.
        
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       | m3kw9 wrote:
       | " In 2011, I sat my first meditation retreat in the Vipassana
       | tradition of S.N Goenka. I spent ten days in silence, focusing on
       | my breath and body for 10 to 12 hours a day. It was grueling, but
       | toward the end of the retreat I had a life-changing experience."
       | 
       | In hindsight sight, maybe he should have got out on top.
        
       | gerbilly wrote:
       | The guy who invented this, the historical Buddha, recommended
       | many more techniques than just vipassana.
       | 
       | I think what happened in the west, is that--aside from zen
       | centres/monasteries which draw upon a wider, established set of
       | traditions and practices1--we have focused too much on a single
       | technique.
       | 
       | Especially in clinical settings. I imagine that to get your
       | therapy to be approved in clinical settings, and to get funding,
       | you have to publish papers and your paper can't be a survey of
       | hundreds of differing 'treatment' approaches.
       | 
       | You would get more traction by isolating a potent subset,
       | preferably a single one, and then using it and publishing your
       | results.
       | 
       | None of what I said above is to imply cynical motives to the
       | researchers doing this, it's just the usual reductionist
       | worldview applied to a tradition spanning thousands of years, and
       | what happens when "early results are promising."
       | 
       | tl;dr: Buddhism is more than just Vipassana. There are multiple
       | techniques that complement, counteract each other. The Buddhist
       | 'system' included different approaches for different personality
       | types. More is not always better.
       | 
       | [1] Not that 'tradition' is sufficient to insulate these
       | organisations from problems either.
        
       | IG_Semmelweiss wrote:
       | One item that i found intriguing is the research that negative
       | experiences are more common than people think.
       | 
       | One must wonder, why this is not common knowledge? Also, are
       | there causation links, or not?
       | 
       | My personal conclusion is that the sample is biased -- that is,
       | some people seeking meditation are looking to self-medicate
       | (subconsciously or not) on personal issues they wish to overcome.
       | 
       | It would seem that perhaps a non-trivial portion of meditation
       | practitioners are ending up with worse outcomes than they started
       | out.
       | 
       | One is left to wonder whether meditation practice should come
       | with warning labels ( just like medication does for adverse
       | effects)...
        
         | ljm wrote:
         | A lot of it can come from those self-help books that are, in
         | reality, thinly veiled sales pitches intended to market the
         | author as some sort of consultant.
         | 
         | You'll only ever read about the happy path or the success
         | story, with some lip-service paid to how difficult it is to
         | actually do in practice. You'll rarely get the raw detail of
         | it, or a fully authentic account.
         | 
         | I'm not talking about quality literature here, but the short
         | 250-pager you'd pick up in an airport bookshop that makes you
         | feel good by the time you finish.
        
       | sgeorge96 wrote:
       | Ffs just be normal.
        
         | CamperBob2 wrote:
         | Also, if you meet the Buddha on the road, kill him.
        
         | rnd0 wrote:
         | Ok, fine. First define "normal", then answer the question of
         | "normal according to who".
         | 
         | If it was just that simple, you wouldn't have entire industries
         | (self help seminars, retreats, religious cults of all kinds,
         | pop psychology, and so forth) built on looking for an
         | alternative.
        
         | teekert wrote:
         | Have you ever met a normal Human being? And was it a nice
         | experience?
        
       | barrenko wrote:
       | The real point of meditation is immolation of the person doing
       | it. Done correctly, no Buddhism or religion can help you. Vehicle
       | is discarded after destination.
       | 
       | Caveat empor, act accordingly.
        
       | w4llstr33t wrote:
       | I've practiced mindfulness and meditation for more than a decade.
       | 
       | Mindfulness, as I've learned it, means being aware of your
       | thoughts and feelings, introducing positive thoughts and
       | feelings, and replacing negative thoughts and feelings.
       | 
       | Meditation is also meant to be positive. You start with short
       | sessions. The idea is to slow down and eventually stop your
       | thoughts.
       | 
       | From what I've heard, a lot people just fall asleep at Vipassana
       | retreats, due to the long meditation sessions, which would not be
       | very useful. The way I learned meditation is that short, focused
       | sessions are better than long sessions where you don't focus /
       | just fall asleep. Based on this article, it sounds like these
       | extended sessions might even be dangerous for some (almost like
       | sensory deprivation or psychedelics can be in some cases).
       | 
       | Meditation on its own is not dangerous. The idea is to feel more
       | grounded and centered after. The idea is to focus and develop
       | your concentration. Otherwise, it's just "spacing out", which
       | I've always been told is not meditation. If you space out and
       | start to go into weird states of mind, that is not meditation,
       | that is just dissociating / falling asleep / etc. There is a
       | difference.
       | 
       | There's nothing wrong with slowing down your thoughts. If people
       | think that slowing down your thoughts is dangerous, to me that
       | just sounds like the ego not wanting to lose its grasp. Egos can
       | be almost as crazy as someone having a psychotic break. It's fine
       | to let yourself rest in your natural state for a little while.
       | Nothing wrong with that. In my experience, that actually makes
       | you more balanced then someone overthinking their whole life /
       | not being aware of what's going on inside themselves.
       | 
       | I'm not a doctor, so get help if you need it, but one suggestion
       | for a meditation practice is to start with 15 minutes a day,
       | morning and evening. Set aside some space in your home and sit
       | quietly for that period of time. Build up from there. Sitting in
       | nature can also be helpful. If you start to feel weird, try to
       | use your mindfulness practice during the day of focusing on
       | positive things to get yourself out of it. Don't stay in a
       | dissociated state, that is unproductive and potentially
       | dangerous. If that doesn't work, stop and come back at a later
       | time.
       | 
       | Meditation and mindfulness are meant to support one other. They
       | are not exactly the same, but they are related. When you start to
       | meditate you will become aware of how many thoughts you are
       | having (most people go day to day not paying that much
       | attention). With mindfulness, you practice directing your mind in
       | a more positive way (i.e. neuroplasticity, you are restructuring
       | your mind with a positive intent). This helps your meditations be
       | better and more productive, and helps your life be better and
       | more productive.
       | 
       | The way that I've been taught meditation and mindfulness are that
       | they should be positive practices that support your life. If they
       | are making life worse, something is off with that teacher or
       | meditation school. Your own results can inform you if a teacher
       | or meditation school is positive or not. If you're not getting
       | positive results, that's not a good sign. These practices should
       | make your life better.
        
         | runyaga wrote:
         | > replacing negative thoughts and feelings
         | 
         | Really? That sounds like efforting.
         | 
         | > The way that I've been taught meditation and mindfulness are
         | that they should be positive practices that support your life.
         | If they are making life worse, something is off with that
         | teacher or meditation school.
         | 
         | Um. This is not the accurate from vajrayana point of view and
         | certainly didn't seem the case from the theravada school (when
         | I practiced at IMS.). The waking up process is incredibly
         | painful. As Ken Mcleod says - if you can avoid going down a
         | spiritual path - avoid it. It is nothing but a pandora's box.
         | 
         | Witnessing suffering is hard. I would say the first two years
         | of practice for me was pretty difficult. Setting aside
         | transient mental states - just being aware of my moment-to-
         | moment suffering, striving, wanting, grasping, etc. Is hard.
         | Very hard. It is neither positive nor negative.
         | 
         | I am pretty convinced at this point that I have fully been
         | brainwashed by Vajrayana teachings. I think something like
         | Diamond Approach is more likely useful for people in the west.
        
           | w4llstr33t wrote:
           | I've studied Vajrayana, so it may vary per school.
           | 
           | Nothing wrong with self-effort from what I've been taught.
           | The idea with mindfulness if that if you are just aware of
           | your thoughts, but don't do anything, it's not that helpful.
           | It's like if someone is in a gutter and is mindful about
           | that, they are still in a gutter. That can help them want to
           | make a change, since that experience is probably not very
           | pleasant, but the point is to make a change.
           | 
           | The waking up process can bring up stuff, for sure, but the
           | idea is to bring a positive mind the whole time. This is how
           | you go through the stuff and don't just get stuck in it, you
           | go through it.
           | 
           | As far as I understand, past thoughts and actions build up
           | karma which is basically the path folks will head down, since
           | at that point it becomes automatic. That is the default state
           | of being for those people. If they just go with it and don't
           | try to change, they will do more of the same.
           | 
           | Not everyone wants to get to the advanced stages of
           | meditation, which can be intense. Some basic meditation and
           | mindfulness can be used to improve peoples' lives though.
           | Even just basic mindfulness, like what is taught by Chade-
           | Meng Tan at Google, can be helpful. It all depends on what
           | the individual wants. I'm not familiar with the Diamond
           | Approach, but like I mentioned in my first comment, I think
           | whatever people find that brings positive results in their
           | lives is probably a good thing.
           | 
           | It's posts like the article where I feel like certain
           | spiritual teachers and schools are doing something wrong, if
           | it's leading to someone having such a serious break down.
           | That person might have had underlying issues, but as far as I
           | can tell, meditation is pretty safe. Going farther on the
           | spiritual path can be intense, and it's not for everyone, but
           | what you learn in the basic practice helps you along the way
           | so that you don't lose it when you get to the more advanced
           | stages of meditation.
           | 
           | You also mentioned non-duality which is a more advanced
           | subject, i.e. looking at things as neither positive or
           | negative. The way I've learned basic meditation and
           | mindfulness is to try to think less, slow down your thoughts,
           | be more aware of what you're thinking and feeling, and
           | replace negative thoughts with positive thoughts. This is
           | pretty safe for beginners and the basics lay down the
           | framework for more advanced meditation. I think it's good to
           | hold off on the advanced subjects until people have a solid
           | basic practice, but to each their own.
           | 
           | I have found that there is some use in the beginning in terms
           | of looking at things as positive or negative, so people can
           | clean up their lives and minds, which allows for deeper
           | practice as they progress. The end goal is to overcome all
           | karma and go beyond good and bad, but I don't think people
           | can be expected to do that right away, it takes practice. If
           | people can even just think a little more positive, be more
           | aware of everything that runs through their head, and maybe
           | be a little less reactive with others, their lives will be
           | better and likely their relationships, as well. That's
           | probably pretty safe for the general public to try to do, if
           | they want to. The more hardcore spiritual stuff is not for
           | everyone (most people don't actually want it, they just want
           | to feel a bit better, which is great, too).
        
       | surfmike wrote:
       | I see a lot of defensive comments here, but this post made me
       | aware of the fact that there are a lot of documented cases of
       | adverse effects of meditation as well. TLDR:
       | 
       | > Willoughby Britton is a clinical psychologist, neuroscientist,
       | and associate professor at Brown University
       | 
       | > The meat of Britton's talks was the results of a 2017 paper she
       | co-published with her husband, Jared Lindahl, called the
       | Varieties of Contemplative Experience1. In it, they examined
       | distressing and functionally impairing meditation experiences of
       | 60 Western Buddhist meditators. They documented 59 types of
       | adverse effects in their study, including involuntary
       | convulsions, panic, anxiety, dissociation and perceptual
       | hypersensitivity--a far cry from the mainstream branding of
       | mindfulness meditation as a panacea for all our woes.
        
       | krono wrote:
       | This "Buddhist meditation retreat" in a tiny cabin in the North
       | Carolina mountains goes way beyond the practicing mindfulness the
       | author describes it as.
       | 
       | As with everything else in life: don't overdo it.
        
       | SyzygistSix wrote:
       | I am nowhere near the experienced meditator or Buddhist student
       | that the author is but this part stuck out: " I described how on
       | numerous occasions all my thoughts disintegrated and I bathed for
       | extended periods of time in states of deep, non-conceptual bliss.
       | I thought awakening was right around the corner "
       | 
       | Isn't this particularly warned against in meditation? To me this
       | is more akin to trance and in Buddhism, more akin to escapism and
       | self-delusion. From a magical perspective, it seems obvious this
       | guy was playing with fire.
       | 
       | Just like the quote about how one can travel extensively and
       | still leave all their preconceptions intact, people can meditate
       | a lot and still leave their attachments intact. My impression was
       | not that meditation leads to bliss; that's some New Age pap. It
       | leads to awareness, and that includes the good, the bad, and the
       | ugly.
       | 
       | It sounds like the author may have delved into meditation enough
       | to access the control panel, but that is a dangerous place to be.
       | It's why there are so many safeguards built around it in the
       | first place. I am just surprised that this was unexpected.
        
         | disgruntledphd2 wrote:
         | So, the trouble is that meditation as a practice, was always
         | embedded into a larger sense of spirit/community/whatever.
         | 
         | The popularity of MBSR broke that largely, and now lots of
         | people start meditating with the notion that it's just mental
         | exercise (which it is, sortof) and are very unprepared for some
         | of the negative side-effects (which are normally parts of the
         | mind that your consciousness doesn't want to accept).
        
           | ljm wrote:
           | I wouldn't even call them negative, per se, even though you
           | might perceive them as such.
           | 
           | These are things you've held deep down that are, through your
           | heightened self-awareness, being dragged kicking and
           | screaming to the surface.
           | 
           | Once the duck is out of the bottle, you can't put it back in.
           | You have to take care of the duck. Having a support network
           | or community certainly helps, and the meditation just shone
           | the light on what was already there.
        
           | SyzygistSix wrote:
           | People like Aleister Crowley, Austin Spare, and modern
           | psychonauts interested in chaos magic have worked/played in
           | these spaces outside of established traditions and
           | communities. And there have always been people like this. But
           | they also fully expect some weirdness to occur.
           | 
           | Meditation within a community and tradition is certainly a
           | safer, and often more fruitful way to go about it, just like
           | traveling anywhere with a group, a guide, on established
           | paths, and with a good map. It's a good way to learn the
           | ropes but some folks like to take more adventurous
           | approaches.
        
             | disgruntledphd2 wrote:
             | > Aleister Crowley
             | 
             | I'm kinda with his student, Israel Regardie on this stuff
             | though, which was that if you want to engage in spiritual
             | practices, you should get therapy.
             | 
             | Essentially the notion is that in order to deal with the
             | divine/universe/whatever, you need to have dealt with the
             | mundane.
             | 
             | I think that this is really accurate, and would support
             | this. Unfortunately, the "mindfulness" movement didn't
             | really keep any of the baby when they experimented on the
             | bathwater.
        
               | SyzygistSix wrote:
               | Agreed. I think therapy and counseling is under-rated and
               | under-utilized. There are many situations in life where a
               | counselor's help can be beneficial. It's not just for the
               | weak, ill, or for people who have failed. And even the
               | strongest among us have been all three at times.
               | 
               | And New Age-type movements are not a good replacement.
        
       | dogman144 wrote:
       | "Sam Harris never warned me about _this_!"
        
       | Zababa wrote:
       | This is probably a relatively naive observation, but I've found
       | that the way some people describe meditation and how their mind
       | change is sometimes the same as how people describe their
       | experience under psychadelics. These bad side effects of
       | meditation sound a bit like a bad trip, but without being able to
       | tell yourself that it's chemically induced and thus will stop in
       | a few hours.
        
         | pmoriarty wrote:
         | _" These bad side effects of meditation sound a bit like a bad
         | trip, but without being able to tell yourself that it's
         | chemically induced and thus will stop in a few hours."_
         | 
         | It's not uncommon to forget one has taken psychedelics when one
         | is having a powerful trip, and just telling yourself that it's
         | chemically induced and will stop in a few hours doesn't
         | necessarily help.
         | 
         | That's not to mention that while under the influence of
         | psychedelics a single minute might seem like many lifetimes, or
         | you could feel like you're in an infinite time loop and are
         | never getting out, etc.
        
           | Zababa wrote:
           | That's totally fair. My point was, your experience (usually)
           | stops at some point without you having to do anything. That
           | doesn't seem to be the case with meditation.
        
         | bingu wrote:
         | Yes. From experience I can attest that they are two doors to
         | the same house, so to speak.
        
           | eurasiantiger wrote:
           | Meditation under the influence, on the other hand, is a door
           | to the ocean.
        
             | jgilias wrote:
             | Do you swim in it in eternal bliss? Or do you drown in it?
        
               | eurasiantiger wrote:
               | Does "you" "swimming" or "drowning" "in" spatially
               | experienced consciousness make sense?
        
               | the_doctah wrote:
               | >spatially experienced consciousness
               | 
               | I understand it's supposed to be an abstract concept, but
               | this statement still doesn't make sense
        
               | eurasiantiger wrote:
               | You experience your surroundings spatially through your
               | senses every day. In the ordinary state of consciousness,
               | this is sometimes called sense-experience. Now imagine
               | experiencing your consciousness -- cognition, feelings,
               | memories -- as the state of a boundless ocean, "you" in
               | this case being the ocean experiencing itself in this
               | way.
        
         | phist_mcgee wrote:
         | As someone who dabbles in mushroom based psychedelics you are
         | right. The sudden awareness of yourself, and even moreso the
         | sudden awareness of 'not yourself' can be pretty frightening. I
         | have had bad trips before, and they usually began with an
         | untethering of yourself. Once you start floating outside of
         | your life/personality, you can become very distressed with what
         | is left. It can become almost scarring to see yourself from
         | afar suffering so badly, but that be not yourself. It's hard to
         | put into words, but that experience of intense disassociation,
         | and the pain of being an observer to it is very real.
        
         | Cthulhu_ wrote:
         | Definitely, there's more than one way to get to a different
         | state of mind.
         | 
         | Christian religions for example set a certain stage, create an
         | atmosphere that puts people in a shared mental state.
         | Meditative, perhaps. I can see (although never experienced
         | myself) how that, if you let it "in", can lead to a "religious
         | experience" / awakening of sorts.
         | 
         | Worst one was that one time I was in an American evangelical
         | church, the type where there's lots of music and the like. But
         | also weird behaviour; during the sermon, lots of people around
         | me had their hand up and were whispering "jesus", it was eerie
         | as fuck to be honest. That line of churches does a lot with
         | altering brain states though, one article I read mentioned
         | measuring brain waves and seeing them enter an "alpha" state,
         | similar to hypnosis and making people very susceptive to
         | suggestions. Another example is exorcisms, where people go -
         | let themselves go? - into a state of dissociation, speaking in
         | tongues and spasming. I kinda see that as letting their own
         | inhibitions go and letting the impulses take over.
         | 
         | TL;DR not a scientist, just armchair theorizing and waffling.
        
       | TL_DR wrote:
       | Stop spiritual fornication and turn to the living God. Jeremiah
       | 2:13 John 14:6
        
       | SubiculumCode wrote:
       | I feel like saying something spooky like, "If you leave the front
       | door open, you never know who will walk in", but the fact is that
       | meditation is just a practice that emphasizes and strengthens
       | certain brain states/EEG rhythms, neural synchronies, and given
       | heterogeneity in brain structure, connectivity, and genomes,
       | there will be no guarantee that this will be an entirely positive
       | shift in neural dynamics. For analogy, for many people keeping
       | themselves busy at work keeps themselves from constant rumination
       | of a traumatic past.
        
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       | shannifin wrote:
       | I've had some very negative anxiety-driven experiences with
       | dissociation (depersonalization / derealization / de-something-
       | zation), usually when traveling to somewhere I'm unfamiliar with.
       | It usually only lasts for 5 to 15 minutes rather than hours, but
       | it does sound a lot like what he describes.
       | 
       | Relating this to meditation: On the rare occasion that I try
       | meditating, it doesn't trigger anything negative, but I have
       | found that I can induce such negative dissociative experiences on
       | purpose (at least to some degree) by inducing a certain
       | meditative-like thought pattern. It's hard to describe, but it
       | has to do with time. It's like the mind is usually thinking at
       | least a fraction of a second ahead, it's focused at least just a
       | little into the future. If you break that, then meaningfulness
       | seems to collapse and... it's not good, and you have to snap out
       | of it.
       | 
       | I wonder if meditating is triggering something like that for the
       | author.
       | 
       | Instead of meditating, mindfulness, thinking about your own
       | thinking and purposefully trying to dissociate from yourself by
       | conscious force, it may be more helpful just to find something
       | that helps you relax. The point is to clear away stressful
       | thoughts and thought patterns by letting the mind focus on
       | _something else_ rather than nothing (or itself).
        
         | e9 wrote:
         | What you describe in your example about mind stop being focused
         | on the future sounds like when sound and video on TV is not
         | synchronized and you become aware that you are watching the TV
        
           | shannifin wrote:
           | Haha... I hate that. I studied animation for a while years
           | ago and became hyper aware of sound / video synchronization
           | for a bit, it was super annoying. (Not nearly as bad as
           | derealization though)
        
       | weavie wrote:
       | It should be noted that in the introduction to Mastering the Core
       | Teachings of the Buddha, Daniel does say:
       | 
       | > people who do strong and intensive practice can hurt them-
       | selves and freak out. Just as serious athletes can hurt their
       | bodies when they take a misstep or push themselves beyond their
       | limits, just so serious mental athletes can strain their minds,
       | brains, and nervous systems, and strained brains can sometimes
       | function in very strange ways.
       | 
       | > To rewrite the operating system rapidly while it is running
       | doesn't always go so well in the short term or occasionally in
       | the long term. Thus, while I will include nearly endless exhorta-
       | tions to find the depths of power and clarity that you are
       | capable of, I will also add numerous warnings about how to keep
       | from frying yourself.
       | 
       | > By "frying yourself", I mean explicitly severe mood instability
       | and psychotic episodes, as well as other odd biological and
       | energetic disturbances, with some practitioners occasionally
       | ending up in inpatient psychiatric facilities for various periods
       | of time.
        
       | CretinDesAlpes wrote:
       | This is an interesting discussion as I wasn't aware that
       | meditation could go wrong if done improperly (never really
       | thought about it). I have only started mindfulness recently, here
       | in the UK via an NHS approved course (though not free...) called
       | BeMindful. I haven't finished the course but so far I like it,
       | and I am wondering what would you suggest for the best next
       | steps?
       | 
       | So far the list I have to explore is:
       | 
       | * Thich Nhat Hanh and https://plumvillage.org
       | 
       | * Joseph Goldstein
       | 
       | * Sharon Salzberg
       | 
       | * Apps (though I am a bit reluctant): Ten Percent Happier,
       | Headspace
        
         | damontal wrote:
         | Try Gil Fronsdal. He's a good gentle meditation teacher.
         | There's a podcast of his talks and guided meditations or you
         | can find them here https://www.audiodharma.org/teacher/1/
        
       | Buttons840 wrote:
       | There's a wide range of experience being lumped under the terms
       | "meditation" and "mindfulness" here.
       | 
       | Alice finds a 5 minute walk after lunch improves her mood and
       | suggests it to Bob. Bob mentions his brother was injured while
       | walking a marathon. The ensuing conversation ends up not being
       | very productive.
       | 
       | For some, "mindfulness" means sitting for 5 minutes and observing
       | the moment without goals, judgement, or expectation. For the
       | author, "mindfulness" means week long retreats.
       | 
       | As someone who sometimes suggests meditation, I am not saying the
       | author is doing it wrong so much as I am saying that what he is
       | doing is different than what I am suggesting.
       | 
       | That said, the author's warning is important. Be careful doing
       | the mindfulness equivalent of a marathon, but if your interested
       | a 5 minute walk probably won't hurt.
        
         | kixiQu wrote:
         | > In a 2019 Vice article, Davidson suggested that those who
         | have meditation-related difficulties simply aren't meditating
         | correctly.
         | 
         | > "I think that many of the people who are having difficulty
         | and who are reporting that their problems are exacerbated by
         | meditation are not meditating correctly, to put it simply and
         | coarsely," he said, "Some might even say that they're not
         | meditating. That they think they're meditating, but they're not
         | really meditating.2"
         | 
         | > His notion, contradicted by historical and contemporary
         | accounts, is a fusion of victim-blaming and fundamental
         | attribution error. Unable to entertain the possibility of
         | deficiencies in the mechanism, he blames the meditator.
        
       | kovacs_x wrote:
       | my $.02 on this- just because you're not diagnosed and having
       | "just anxiety and agression", doesn't mean youre ok and might be
       | quite opposite- it's probably for a reasons, that your conscious
       | mind protects you from, something you dont know and have
       | forgotten, and no simple evaluation will find this out but when
       | you yourself "stirr up" your unconcious mind, all this started to
       | "leak" into conscious mind and it took you by surprise as you
       | thought of yourself as "highly experienced".
       | 
       | to me the cabin episode sounds like a LSD trip gone bad and no
       | proper, experienced sitter resulting in a traumatic experience.
        
       | nprateem wrote:
       | Kundalini syndrome. Not great. Widely written about but you need
       | to know where to look. Gopi Krishna is probably the most widely
       | known case, but you only have to peruse Reddit's Kundalini subs
       | for more.
       | 
       | That's my issue with all this mindfulness stuff. A load of
       | Westerners ripped the guts out of practices to shed the "dogma".
       | But that "religion" they chucked out was the result of
       | generations of people interpreting these strange experiences and
       | is supposed to provide some kind of map of the terrain. Only
       | since not everyone experiences spontaneous Kundalini events most
       | of them don't understand the symbology.
       | 
       | I'm told a guide is invaluable, if you're fortunate enough to
       | track down someone legit.
        
         | physicsgraph wrote:
         | Whenever I read about a novice practitioner having a Kundalini
         | experience, I wonder how experienced the retreat host(s) are.
         | Or if the person had a mentor with sufficient experience.
         | 
         | While there are many spiritual interpretations, there is also
         | practical advice online for recovering. Walking outside
         | (experiencing nature) is commonly suggested.
         | 
         | Accidentally stumbling into this disorienting experience could
         | be (and in the case of this author, was) traumatic.
        
           | nprateem wrote:
           | Kundalini goes up. Apparently to integrate the experience you
           | need to bring it back down. This is the Descent of the Dove I
           | think in Christianity (or the decent of grace). Whereas the
           | kundalini is supposed to be hot sometimes described as liquid
           | fire ("baptism of fire" - see where that comes from?), the
           | descending current is meant to be cooling.
           | 
           | The Taoists are most vocal about the decent, incorporating it
           | into the Microcosmic Orbit practice. Some yogis do also
           | mention it but for them it's related to a return to the heart
           | rather than the lower dan tien.
           | 
           | Anyway this is mostly theory for me at this point. I've seen
           | enough to convince myself it's a real phenomenon but didn't
           | see it through. I think I might not be too far off now
           | though, but we'll see...
           | 
           | As to your point about novices I have read that different
           | people react in different ways. Some just seem primed for
           | rapid progress while some have to work for decades.
        
       | coldtea wrote:
       | > _When Buddhism Goes Bad - How My Mindfulness Practice Led Me To
       | Meltdown_
       | 
       | Well, meditation and buddhism are supposed to be a way of life,
       | not a stress reliever or a passtime. You can't be living like a
       | modern westerner in the rat race and do buddhism on the side (or
       | merely try to half-follow some general tenets in your everyday
       | totally non-bhudist life).
       | 
       | Or rather you can, and thousands do, and there are fancy retreats
       | and the like, but then you're a tourist to the whole thing, and
       | what you do has little to do with the original spirit and what
       | makes it work - which is all about context (even if there's a
       | plethora of second rate, several times removed from the culture,
       | snakeoil books in the shelves selling this exact approach).
       | 
       | Leonard Cohen spending 5 years on the monastery got it far more
       | right.
       | 
       | > _I relayed my experiences that afternoon to the two teachers
       | who were overseeing the retreat of about 40 meditators._
       | 
       | Aka, some random guys who've read some books, perhaps studied
       | under another random guy in the same line of work, opened their
       | own retreat (or work in one), and play the role of buddhist
       | luminaries for lucrative western audiences....
       | 
       | > _As an instructor in Mindfulness-Based Stress Reduction (MBSR),
       | I spent four years teaching meditation as a full-time job. A
       | longtime meditator, I have logged roughly 4,000 hours of practice
       | over 10 years, including over 100 days on silent meditation
       | retreats. I'm extremely knowledgeable of both Buddhist and
       | secular frameworks of meditation, have read countless books on
       | the subject, and have taken instruction from numerous renowned
       | Western meditation teachers._
       | 
       | In other words, they've made a mess of different practices,
       | cultures, approaches, etc., mixing and matching, and always
       | separating it from its context, from the culture they live in,
       | from the environment, and from lifestyle commitments (aside from
       | "medidation" itself).
        
         | Nursie wrote:
         | So to your mind this can all be neatly dismissed as "doing it
         | wrong"?
         | 
         | The guy in the article was a teacher himself, not someone just
         | casually dabbling, and mentions that the people studying the
         | negative effects are encountering trainers and teachers more
         | often than casual meditators.
        
           | coldtea wrote:
           | Those are a dime a dozen. It's a scam industry, not very
           | different from most martial arts schools or "holistic
           | medicine", or things you can find in Sedona, AZ...
           | 
           | You might find one rooted in the tradition/culture (and
           | living it) practicioner in 1000, if you're lucky, but not in
           | "mindfulness retreats" and corporate seminars.
        
             | Nursie wrote:
             | So one in a thousand practitioners might be doing it right,
             | maybe.
             | 
             | In which case the article is spot on correct - the western
             | mindfulness/buddhism stuff is mostly potentially dangerous
             | and, as promoted, can lead to all sorts of harmful effects
             | which are often brushed under the carpet.
        
         | denton-scratch wrote:
         | > but then you're a tourist to the whole thing
         | 
         | There is a "householder" tradition in Tibetan Buddhism: you can
         | be an advanced practitioner and teacher, while running a family
         | and a farm. The classic example is Marpa. Marpa was no tourist.
        
           | coldtea wrote:
           | The rat race is no "family and farm" style environment,
           | though, and the modern culture, workplace, lifestyle, and
           | even personal mindset, of laymen doing this on the side in
           | the west is so remote to the culture of those householders as
           | to be alien (and totally counter and detrimental to those
           | traditions).
           | 
           | As for Marpa, he is not exactly a good example for a
           | "householder" even of that era, as he was heavily involved,
           | and worked/sacrificed enormously for his practice. So, yes,
           | he was no tourist. But modern dabblers are.
        
       | ejfox wrote:
       | ah, my favorite type of hacker news post: "smart" western person
       | finds a thing he doesn't understand, begins to understand 25% of
       | it, and then decides to "fix it" like it doesn't have centuries
       | of history and learnings around it
        
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