[HN Gopher] What does any of this have to do with physics? (2016)
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       What does any of this have to do with physics? (2016)
        
       Author : telotortium
       Score  : 179 points
       Date   : 2021-03-10 16:57 UTC (6 hours ago)
        
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       | quacked wrote:
       | I think the crucial insight in this essay is glossed over; the
       | author allots only a few lines to an explanation of how the other
       | graduate students didn't need to work as hard as he did to
       | understand the fundamental concepts relevant to his project.
       | This, I believe, is the heart of his issue. He comes to the
       | conclusion that "he quit" or "he didn't know what to work on",
       | but it appears to me that he simply wasn't as high-caliber as the
       | other students, and only persevered for as long as he did largely
       | due to stubbornness and his tremendous work ethic. (Also, he
       | mentions the other students' more-rigorous mathematical
       | backgrounds, but he does not mention their IQ [1].)
       | 
       | Immigrant outperformance of native-English-speaking students is a
       | complicated topic; the way I choose to look at it is in terms of
       | population competition. India has 1.3B, China has 1.4B, the U.S.
       | has 0.33B. Assuming that the IQ distributions are exactly equal
       | (ehh), for every one 130 IQ American, there are 4 130 IQ Indians,
       | and 4 130 IQ Chinese. If they all compete for one spot at an
       | American university, the Indians and Chinese will have to work
       | much, much harder to win the "top spot from <nation>" than the
       | American will. A look at the questions and scores for entrance
       | exams in undergraduate physics and math for the India Institute
       | of Technology vs. a look at the questions and scores for entrance
       | exams in physics in math for Stanford should confirm this vast
       | gap in curriculum and competition. Any cursory examination of
       | formal education in terms of course complexity, workload, and
       | exam importance of Korea, China, Japan, etc. vs. the U.S. or
       | other western countries should also lay bare the incredible gap
       | in preparation and competition. As I like to explain to those who
       | support a "global meritocracy" for college admissions, the
       | implementation of their plan would result in a majority Asian
       | student body at every single university in the U.S.
       | 
       | The author's work ethic is tremendous- I have never worked
       | anywhere near as hard as he did for that sustained period of
       | time. But the fact of the matter is that a higher-IQ, more-
       | prepared student would not have needed to struggle as hard as he
       | did, and from his description of the foreign students that
       | surpassed him, they didn't. I suspect he would have been happier
       | if he'd accepted his lot much earlier and leaned into a higher-
       | paying, less-hours career and studied physics in his free time.
       | 
       | Another question- did he refuse to quit because he loved physics,
       | or did he refuse to quit because his vision of his life was
       | overly focused on holding the identity of "guy who works on
       | theoretical physics"?
       | 
       | [1] Many people dislike using IQ to measure anything, and its
       | most stringent detractors say that it is a meaningless metric. It
       | is worth pointing out that while IQ is a completely made-up
       | metric, it is a specific measure of memory and abstract reasoning
       | as applied to western-style logic puzzles and patterns. This
       | makes it a useful metric when trying to evaluate one's ability to
       | study and perform western-style math or physics, which are giant
       | collections of western-style logic puzzles and patterns. Many
       | people who believe that IQ does not predict anything have never
       | had the opportunity to spend a lot of time interacting with
       | someone who is so much higher-IQ than they are that it shows in
       | regular interactions. I am regularly shocked at how much more
       | quickly my extremely smart friends can pick up and memorize
       | concepts than I can.
        
         | ResearchCode wrote:
         | Late exposure to higher mathematics sounds perfectly plausible.
         | Someone getting into sports at 15 is rarely going to compete
         | with those that started at 10, assuming equal innate talent.
         | The same principle applies to academics.
         | 
         | Would be nice to see some envelope math on the respective
         | importance of IQ and socioeconomic background/nepotism in
         | academia (many PhDs have parents with PhDs etc).
        
         | searine wrote:
         | >Immigrant outperformance of native-English-speaking students
         | is a complicated topic
         | 
         | I wouldn't even say 'outperformance' is an accurate
         | description. I have learned from, taught, and been colleagues
         | with many scientists from across the globe and each education
         | system has its merits and drawbacks. East and south asian
         | education systems highly emphasize quantitative skills. Western
         | education emphasizes critical thinking.
         | 
         | The hurdle for many western students is late introduction to
         | higher mathematics, but you are ignoring the hurdle for many
         | eastern students, flexibility and creativity of thinking.
         | Eastern education systems focus heavily on rote memorization,
         | stringent quantitative evaluation, and strict mentor student
         | hierarchies that discourage questioning. I have encountered
         | many colleagues from more structured education systems really
         | struggle with developing their ability to formulate novel lines
         | of inquiry.
         | 
         | As this article describes, the difficulty in science isn't just
         | the math, it's about knowing if question you are trying to
         | solve is valid, novel, and adds to the field. You need both to
         | be successful. Unfortunately the author of the article seemed
         | to fail at both, resulting in his exit from science altogether.
        
           | creativeandlazy wrote:
           | Those seem like they could be orthogonal issues. The US
           | system could have more rigor and be more engaging to bright
           | students. The creativity issue could be more a function of
           | wider society than the education system itself. Rajeev came
           | off as a very creative person who somehow filtered out of
           | that kind of a system.
        
       | cammikebrown wrote:
       | Aw, man. This essay gives me some perspective. I ended up hating
       | physics by the time I got my bachelor's in it. I remember junior
       | year they said, we know you're confused, you haven't actually
       | learned REAL physics yet, that's what grad school is for. And
       | most of you won't be accepted, and of those who are, most won't
       | become professors even if you want to.
       | 
       | I figured a physics degree would allow me to get a good job, but
       | then they said, sure, if you want to do finance, defense, or
       | education. What?! The first two were pretty nauseating so I
       | decided to do a year-long internship at various local public
       | schools, and realized that I hated that too. (More the
       | bureaucracy than the actual teaching aspect.) My school basically
       | expected you'd double major in math or CS, so they often didn't
       | teach a lot of the fundamental techniques you needed, assuming
       | you knew it already. I also learned that while my high school had
       | done a great job teaching me English and history, the math
       | department was not quite up to snuff comparatively, and I felt
       | behind my classmates about "fundamentals" like linear algebra,
       | which they had somehow been taught in high school. Sure, I knew
       | Shakespeare a lot better than them, and even minored in
       | literature in college (maybe biting off more than I could chew)
       | but that clearly didn't impress them. Why waste your time with
       | old books when you could be making money! It definitely brought
       | me down a notch and made me feel dumb, but I also realized
       | college wasn't a place for someone to learn lots of different
       | things, but to focus on one area instead. I ended up becoming a
       | bartender and I'm very happy with that decision. At least, once
       | things are back to normal, hopefully within the next few months.
       | Hopefully I didn't just jinx it
        
         | hellbannedguy wrote:
         | I look back on college, and so many classes seemed like a waste
         | of time. I understand a well rounded education, but so many
         | classes seemed like fluff. I once took a Abnormal Psychology
         | class. It sounded interesting being premed. For half a year we
         | sat in a circle, and talked about feelings. I was so shy that
         | was the last place I would open up. I used to think, If I was
         | honest, I would admit I was still a virgin, and had a deathly
         | fear of public speaking. I loved the teacher though. She really
         | meant well.
         | 
         | If I had a kid, I would supplement his education. I would make
         | sure he knew mathematics well. I also think physics should be
         | taught much earlier, along with the finance, and the markets.
         | As a kid, I was interested in woodworking, cars, engines, even
         | electricity, but the teachers had us coloring world maps?
        
           | cammikebrown wrote:
           | I agree that we should teach math earlier, in elementary
           | school the same math (fractions, percentages) were literally
           | taught repeatedly from 3rd-6th grade. I would have loved to
           | learn some algebra instead. The concept of doing the same
           | thing to both sides of an equation to solve for an unknown is
           | not terribly difficult to grasp.
           | 
           | As for finance, I'd rather be coloring world maps. It's given
           | me a great desire to travel the world. Finance makes my
           | stomach hurt. Then again, I'm poor, so what do I know? I
           | agree we should be taught more about it than we usually are,
           | which is that we aren't taught anything at all about it.
        
           | 908B64B197 wrote:
           | > As a kid, I was interested in woodworking, cars, engines,
           | even electricity, but the teachers had us coloring world
           | maps?
           | 
           | Wait until you read this [0] [1]
           | 
           | [0] https://www.city-journal.org/the-miseducation-of-
           | americas-el...
           | 
           | [1] https://www.seattletimes.com/education-lab/new-course-
           | outlin...
        
             | a_t48 wrote:
             | Care to give a little bit more context?
        
             | xxpor wrote:
             | As Matt Yglesias put it, the first article makes 0 sense.
             | If they don't like what the school is teaching them, pull
             | their kids out! Isn't that the whole point of private
             | school? It's a choice to go there.
        
               | spazrunaway wrote:
               | As if they're not teaching the same things in public
               | schools.
               | 
               | And it's sort of frustrating that the woke teach actively
               | fighting supposed oppression in every institution, every
               | workplace, every household, and really every imaginable
               | part of life in order to be an 'ally', lest your 'white
               | silence' and complicity encourage 'violence'...and the
               | rest of us are told that if we don't like something, we
               | should just shut up and avoid it.
        
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       | bezout wrote:
       | Life is too short for these shenanigans. But, I think that you
       | should still go for it if and only if you understand what you're
       | getting yourself into. There ain't no such thing as a free lunch.
        
         | kemiller2002 wrote:
         | I think this is the most important comment. Most people don't
         | realize until much later, that everything is a trade. This for
         | that. You get an advanced degree at the cost of: higher income?
         | free time? finding the right partner? That's what life is
         | about. Everything has a price, and not knowing the cost is the
         | biggest mistake.
        
           | shoo wrote:
           | >> you should still go for it if and only if you understand
           | what you're getting yourself into
           | 
           | > Most people don't realize until much later, that everything
           | is a trade. This for that.
           | 
           | > Everything has a price, and not knowing the cost is the
           | biggest mistake
           | 
           | I agree. Yet people often -- perhaps nearly always -- choose
           | to pursue things based on limited information. Some people
           | decide at a young age that they want to be a physicist, or a
           | ballerina, or an astronaut, or a doctor, or a professional
           | basketballer. Perhaps the decision is based on a dream or
           | naive external understanding of what the occupation involves
           | that isn't based on the reality of what the training and
           | doing the work actually entails. Let alone the realities of
           | the labour market: is there an oversupply of people willing
           | to do the work compared to opportunities? What base rate of
           | intelligent, hard working aspirants actually succeed at
           | turning that job into a career? What compromises -- in
           | ethics, in freedom of action and thought, in terms of making
           | the work pay a living wage -- need to be made in order to
           | have the career succeed?
           | 
           | Another lens: universities are in the business of selling
           | education. If the young customer wants to buy an education in
           | some specialised niche based on a naive misunderstanding of
           | the true costs in doing so, who is the university to disabuse
           | the customer of their naivety and turn away their custom?
           | 
           | Similarly for people wishing to pursue a career in academia:
           | if we think of the system as some kind of industrial process,
           | what inputs does it require? Funding from grants is helpful,
           | a few blackboards, access to libraries and journals. But we
           | also need a feedstock of smart, well-trained, hard-working
           | low-cost graduate students to feed into the machine.
        
       | superfamicom wrote:
       | Previous discussions:
       | 
       | 2019 - https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=19010164
       | 
       | 2016 - https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=13276968
        
       | antattack wrote:
       | Capitalist system does not seem to value scientific research well
       | enough. Risk to reward ratio is very high.
        
         | searine wrote:
         | There is a reason that scientific research was an aristocratic
         | pastime for most of its history.
         | 
         | The idea of a middle-class scientist is an invention of the
         | mid-20th century, and not an enduring one. Even Einstein had to
         | work as a patent clerk.
         | 
         | Society will never highly value fundamental research because it
         | cannot comprehend it, thus cannot ascribe a value to it.
        
           | xxpor wrote:
           | Even Bell Labs was really the result of government
           | intervention.
        
       | ofcrpls wrote:
       | Rochester does that to one.
        
       | yxwvut wrote:
       | The section on being ill-prepared and out of his depth compared
       | to fellow (mostly international) grad students with stronger math
       | backgrounds stretching back to elementary school was almost
       | identical to my experience in a top 5 operations research PhD
       | program. A typical American calc-heavy HS curriculum and a CS
       | undergrad (even one with theory/ML heavy upperclass work) just
       | don't cover the math that's relevant for top level research work
       | in most applied math domains (theoretical CS included). I and
       | every other US student in my cohort (roughly a quarter of the
       | class) wound up dropping out - none of the international students
       | did. It was undoubtedly for the best, but there is still a twinge
       | of sadness to have closed the door on my dreams of pushing the
       | frontiers of knowledge (foolhardy and grandiose as they may have
       | been).
        
         | mrfox321 wrote:
         | When you say calc-heavy, you are speaking about just cranking
         | the wheel or number crunching?
         | 
         | What type of exposure would have prepared you better?
         | 
         | HS obviously won't prepare you, so this is speaking more
         | towards uni curriculum.
        
       | jeffwass wrote:
       | This article resonates quite strongly with me. I also did a PhD
       | in physics which I grew more and more disillusioned with as it
       | progressed.
       | 
       | I did physics in undergrad, then worked for a few years as an
       | engineer. I was the only one on my team who didn't have a PhD,
       | and saw the limits of my own knowledge, so I went back to school
       | to get my PhD in experimental condensed matter physics.
       | 
       | Originally I thought I'd struggle through the classes, then do
       | some kickass research, and come back to being a full-time
       | engineer.
       | 
       | Turned out to be quite the opposite. My first semester
       | transitioning back to being a full-time student was rough, but
       | after that I really enjoyed the classes, and for the next couple
       | years I wanted to do tenure track research in academia.
       | 
       | I then signed on with a faculty member athe department hired as
       | my advisor, to study nanoscale physics (eg superconducting
       | nanowires). Fast forward a few more years and I started to hate
       | the daily grind.
       | 
       | Firstly, my advisor was hired in my third year, so we had to
       | build up the lab from scratch. Every little bit of cryogenic
       | equipment, data measuring apparatus, data acquisition and
       | analysis code. Took a couple years before we could do "real"
       | research of interest.
       | 
       | Also we had no senior grad students or post docs to learn from. I
       | felt way behind all my colleagues who were in functioning labs
       | and could start taking publication-quality data after just a few
       | weeks of joining their group.
       | 
       | Most of my day-to-day wasn't even physics but annoying laboratory
       | maintenance. Eg finding cold leaks in the cryogenic equipment
       | (these only leak at temperatures of 4K or less, so it took lot of
       | trial and error to find). Or tracking down ground loops on my
       | circuits that were blowing up my fragile nanowires. Or fighting
       | the sputtering chambers we used for deposition (and realising
       | they had been contaminated with magnetic materials making it
       | impossible to grow clean superconducting films).
       | 
       | I saw my friends at other schools write paper after paper in top
       | journals working in their well-established labs with huge-budget
       | clean rooms and facilities with full-time maintenance and support
       | staff. Meanwhile in my lab we had limited equipment, no
       | maintenance staff, and we had to fix stuff in our 'spare' time,
       | etc.
       | 
       | I became jealous of my theorist friends who could work anywhere
       | with just their notebooks and a pencil.
       | 
       | I became jealous of my astrophysics friends who were assigned
       | observing time on Hubble and other telescopes, where teams of
       | technicians would make sure their observations would go smoothly
       | and provide them with perfect raw data.
       | 
       | I saw that without any seminal publications, my postdoc
       | opportunities were slim. I thought about changing research areas,
       | but came to the realisation that I'm stuck doing the same narrow
       | brand of research that I had been doing the past few years.
       | Because no faculty member would pay for a postdoc who wasn't
       | ready to hit the ground running as a domain expert.
       | 
       | I saw some of my successful friends with lots of amazing papers
       | struggle to find a postdoc appointment. Or if they found one
       | struggle to find a second, or a good faculty position. And if it
       | was a struggle for them, my lack of publications would make this
       | nearly impossible for myself.
       | 
       | I was working 12+ hour days making barely enough to live on. And
       | not enjoying it at all, and feeling depressed, with difficulty
       | getting out of bed to come into the lab.
       | 
       | Then one day pretty much on a whim I applied for an internship as
       | a quant on Wall Street. I was invited to an interview where I was
       | grilled over two days in 11 separate one-on-one sessions. In
       | between sessions I would look out the window of the 30 floor of a
       | skyscraper in NYC and wonder if I was betraying myself and my
       | fellow physicists, as if academia was a cult.
       | 
       | I was offered an internship, and really liked it. This was my
       | ticket out.
       | 
       | I went back to school at the end of the summer to write up my
       | thesis.
       | 
       | Many of my physics friends were curious about my internship and
       | were considering doing this themselves. All of them told me not
       | to tell anyone else that we had spoken.
       | 
       | I wrote a few drafts for papers, one was published, defended my
       | thesis and got myself outta there.
        
       | Twisol wrote:
       | I last read this article before I started grad school (in
       | computer science). I'm reading it again, now, more than two years
       | after I left.
       | 
       | My experience was the polar opposite, if the poles were bent
       | around like a horseshoe magnet. Rather than suffocating under
       | thick expectations, I was gasping for air without direction.
       | 
       | My first advisor recognized that his lab's interests had shifted
       | between my application and my arrival, so he gave me free reign
       | to figure out where my interests lay for my first year. (The
       | nexus of programming languages, concurrency, and logic, if you're
       | wondering.) He moved on to another university, and as an
       | introvert who'd _barely_ been out of state without my family,
       | much less on my own in another country, I chose not to go with
       | him.
       | 
       | I met my second advisor in a seminar course on static analysis
       | and formal methods -- his first on joining the university. It was
       | completely up my alley, and we got along really well. Given the
       | situation with my first advisor, we were on the same wavelength
       | about becoming his first official student. But he thought he was
       | getting a grad student who had done real research for a year, and
       | in reality I still had no idea how to approach research. He had
       | to lower his expectations a few times, and since he started from
       | an expectation that I wouldn't need much guidance, I never really
       | got the amount of attention I asked for. We ended up parting ways
       | with bad feelings.
       | 
       | I can't really blame my advisors personally. I still don't know
       | enough about the day-to-day of the academic system to judge. And
       | I'm sure there are places where (and advisors of whom) you can
       | expect more support.
       | 
       | But my takeaway, from my experience and from this article, is
       | that if you go in without knowing what you're getting into,
       | nobody's going to be there to tell you what to do. You either
       | luck into finding a sustainable approach, or you don't.
       | 
       | I still want to go back to grad school. I think my experience
       | will help me know better what my needs are and where those can be
       | provided, and thus make me a less risky proposition for a
       | university to take on. But I regret not taking a gap year to
       | really dig in and understand the system I was going to put myself
       | through.
       | 
       | (EDIT: My advisors are good people, and I wish them well. I hope
       | that's clear from what I've written. Things just didn't work
       | out.)
        
       | daxfohl wrote:
       | I think what the author is missing here is how does he define
       | "succeeding" in the field. It sounds like for himself anything
       | short of "theory of everything" is failure, but for others,
       | finishing a PhD is success. So on his terms for himself, terms
       | even his advisor is way short of that goal. Heck, even Einstein
       | was. But then he sees others just completing an arbitrary thesis
       | and thinks of them as the successful ones. The author has just
       | failed to reconcile his expectations and hopes of himself with
       | what he's seeing others do.
       | 
       | In other words, I think even if the author had "succeeded" to the
       | point of being top in his class and exceeding the research output
       | of his advisor, he'd still be unhappy, still consider himself
       | unsuccessful. Opting out was probably the best decision he could
       | have made, and his life is probably more productive thereby. And
       | heck, maybe he even still has a better chance of finding some
       | theory of everything via some analogy he comes across in his day
       | to day work than by a life of research in "fiber bundles".
        
       | youdonotknowme wrote:
       | The author was sort of like me. When I entered my Ph.D., I had a
       | dream of finding something really big. But I was disappointed to
       | find that those low hanging fruits of big questions had been
       | answered. Those left were impossible to answer with current
       | technology. People were just guessing the answers by some hints,
       | rather than evidences. I decided to leave to do a very ordinary
       | job after getting my Ph.D.. I do not regret it. What I have
       | learned is if you really like a subject, you should be fine with
       | solving those trivial problems, while enjoy the fact that the
       | real questions are there to be answered, but you may not see them
       | answered in your lifetime. Otherwise, don't do a Ph.D. in theory
       | directions.
        
       | ahelwer wrote:
       | Still my favorite essay I've ever read on the experience of grad
       | school, five years after publication. Of course I've never been
       | to grad school, although if I were to go it'd be in physics (try
       | reading Anathem _without_ wanting to drop everything and get a
       | PhD in physics afterward, I challenge you).
       | 
       | I've spent the past decade or so living frugally & working in big
       | tech. I now have enough saved up that I can conceivably work on a
       | couple contracts a year then spend the rest of the time working
       | on whatever I want. I think I know enough to do useful,
       | interesting things in computer science without going to grad
       | school. So that's one path I can take. The other would be to go
       | to grad school for physics, but able to maintain greater material
       | comfort than the author of this piece - and having already made
       | peace with the end of a burning desire to shake the world. I
       | wonder whether those two things would make a difference to my
       | experience.
        
         | 2sk21 wrote:
         | It's interesting you mentioned Anathem. I have often fantasized
         | about living in a Math and working on theorics myself :-)
         | 
         | I retired early from software development last year to spend
         | more time studying math and cognitive science.
        
           | giantg2 wrote:
           | "I retired early from software development last year to spend
           | more time ..." [insert anything you enjoy].
           | 
           | This is the dream.
        
             | Koshkin wrote:
             | > _[insert anything you enjoy]_
             | 
             | Writing software.
        
               | giantg2 wrote:
               | I know, some people have it good and "never work a day in
               | their life". I would probably write software when I
               | retire, but it would be personal projects.
        
             | KineticLensman wrote:
             | > insert anything you enjoy
             | 
             | Raptor conservancy. It's often cold and wet (an outdoor
             | job) and often menial (someone has to clean the projectile
             | poop) and I'm a newbie where the young people are my
             | mentors. And I don't get paid (the previous 30 years are
             | funding this).
             | 
             | But the experience, on a summer evening, in the rolling
             | countryside, of a Peregrine Falcon diving at 100mph and
             | hurtling right past you is unbeatable.
        
               | giantg2 wrote:
               | I got to witness a peregrine once. That was pretty cool.
        
         | giantg2 wrote:
         | "Still my favorite essay I've ever read on the experience of
         | grad school, five years after publication."
         | 
         | Not all grad school is like this. It varies greatly by subjects
         | and also by degree level. For example, a Master's degree can be
         | easily attainable through night school while working. Education
         | PhDs have their own challenges, but it usually doesn't resemble
         | the types of questions and struggles the author describes about
         | physics.
        
       | giantg2 wrote:
       | "... stay the stressful course of wandering in the dark and
       | guessing ..."
       | 
       | I feel like that's a highly accurate description of my career
       | path (I'm a dev, not in physics). The part about dreading going
       | back into work and the feelings of being inadequate - that the
       | best effort is only treading water - is basically how I feel too.
       | I wonder how common that is.
        
       | intrasight wrote:
       | Curious that this is article back on HN 5 years later
        
       | GNU_James wrote:
       | Wait a moment! Universities are for people who can't start their
       | own business and make money!?
        
         | 6nf wrote:
         | Those who can't do, teach
        
       | mjfl wrote:
       | Ultimately this guy should have had the mind to shop around more
       | for other professors who motivate their work better. Maybe do
       | some experiments? You're not stuck with one advisor, and it isn't
       | unreasonable to think that it's your _job_ and not a convenience,
       | or someone else 's job, to find good motivation for your work.
        
         | Koshkin wrote:
         | > _Maybe do some experiments?_
         | 
         | Well, he was/is a theoretical physicist.
        
           | mjfl wrote:
           | No he was not. He was a graduate student. He could become
           | anything.
        
         | creativeandlazy wrote:
         | He didn't want to do experiments. He wanted to chase the holy
         | grail in theory. He was full of himself. He didn't want to be
         | Hamilton. He wanted to be Newton. Hamilton was brilliant and
         | amazing and changed the world. I would happily settle for being
         | Hamilton.
        
       | mef51 wrote:
       | You can have as high of an ideal as you want about physics,
       | quantum gravity, Einstein, Feynman, and hard work, but you should
       | at least be aware when you start to abuse yourself in the name of
       | this ideal. Fifteen hour days in the library? Reading paper after
       | paper while ignoring the feeling you don't have a direction?
       | These are moments where self-empathy can go a long way. And the
       | more you dig into your ideals the less of a pedestal you put them
       | on, and you can see them more clearly as they really are, and as
       | human. Einstein was very close-minded about physics in his late
       | career. Feynman was brilliant but also said a lot of other things
       | other than "Shut up and calculate", which, by the way, the
       | context of which is "eventually you just have to shut up an
       | calculate" (from one of his books I believe). Quantum gravity
       | isn't the only deep mystery in physics. And why does glory always
       | seem to the main motivation for pursuing quantum gravity?
       | 
       | > "But in the end, I never knew what I was looking for and I
       | didn't find it."
       | 
       | To me it felt like you were looking for meaning and purpose in
       | quantum gravity and its (mis-)characterization as the Grail, or
       | at least in the process of working on quantum gravity. But it
       | seemed like it was difficult to admit to yourself that it wasn't
       | working, which ultimately makes the going even tougher.
       | 
       | I'm in a physics phd right now and I see this disconnect in
       | myself and in other academics a lot.
        
       | at_a_remove wrote:
       | This resonated with me pretty hard. Despite starting as a nuke e,
       | I figured very quickly that the situation was rather grim, so I
       | got my BS in physics, with a ton of credits in related math,
       | computer science, and some other hard sciences for giggles. All
       | the time, though, I kept my eyes peeled.
       | 
       | What I saw was some very intelligent people whose hard work,
       | creativity, and genius I admired making very little money,
       | scavenging for grants like jackals, their spouses working second
       | jobs, their clothing a little worn, their cars breaking down even
       | as they labored over Big Issues. That is the payoff?
       | 
       | I did not pursue it any further. Yes, the degree itself impresses
       | people (sometimes more than really necessary, is my feeling), and
       | it certainly primes you to be able to switch gears for entirely
       | different frameworks, but it has opened doors.
       | 
       | Meanwhile, I occasionally look at the odd paper, sniff around.
       | For strings (oh, not strings, _super_ strings) (oh, not
       | superstrings, _M-theory_ ) it's all out of my league, but not so
       | much so I cannot feel the shape of things and just how _far_ they
       | are from being more than just very abstract mathematical
       | constructs.  "Fiber bundles," exactly how many strings and shiny
       | hag-stones are we out on that particular Glass Bead Game?
       | 
       | I accept the possibility that the universe may simply be too
       | difficult, on a mathematical level, for mere humans to
       | understand. It could happen. On the other hand, I suspect that
       | the development of mathematical models of physical phenomena
       | without frequent touching of the "real world," fumbling for
       | guideposts, why, you could very well wander off into a paper map
       | of your own creation, unrelated to the world you wanted to
       | explain.
        
         | trhway wrote:
         | > too difficult, on a mathematical level, for mere humans to
         | understand.
         | 
         | to me the current situation looks similar to when we were
         | building more and more complex combinations of epicycles in
         | order to more and more precisely model the "Sun and the planets
         | rotating around the Earth". Similarly we have right now a
         | couple of dogmas, like say Copenhagen interpretation and the
         | recently emerged dark matter, which while not confirmed by
         | experiments yet can't be questioned (classic sign of dogma) and
         | as a result the science resources are available only for the
         | complex epicycle constructs based on those dogmas.
        
           | at_a_remove wrote:
           | Well, right now we have some perfectly valid mathematical
           | constructs that nonetheless have nothing to do with reality.
           | Gabriel's Horn is a good starter example, but you can wave it
           | away with giving the paint "atoms" a finite size, but then
           | there are more subtle constructs which lie in wait, like the
           | Banach-Tarski paradox.
           | 
           | This will doubtlessly irritate some, but math for me is a
           | tool and if it is not used somehow in reality, I start
           | wondering what it is _for_ , then. Occasionally utility will
           | pop up later, and good, because you don't know what will end
           | up being handy eventually, but some branches seem so esoteric
           | I am at a loss. Again, probably my own ignorance, but I worry
           | that those brighter and better educated than I might be led
           | astray by castles in the sky, just from the beauty and the
           | sensation of satisfaction you get from finding your way into
           | the castle, if that makes sense.
        
             | trhway wrote:
             | >math for me is a tool and if it is not used somehow in
             | reality, I start wondering what it is for, [...] some
             | branches seem so esoteric I am at a loss.
             | 
             | i'm of a kind opposite opinion when it comes to math -
             | myself a math PhD dropout i welcome more and more complex
             | and esoteric constructions in math without any regard for
             | any relation or lack of any such to physical reality. When
             | it comes to physics though i think an opposite rule should
             | be applied - any math constructions brought in should be
             | checked against the physical reality.
        
               | Koshkin wrote:
               | > _any math constructions brought in should be checked
               | against the physical reality_
               | 
               | But that's not how things work in practice. Parts of the
               | mathematical framework used for describing a particular
               | physical phenomenon are always a kind of mental
               | scaffolding and do not have a direct representation in
               | reality. This is how math always works in science. Think
               | of the complex numbers, for example: they are used
               | extensively in quantum physics and electrical
               | engineering, but that does not mean that you can see
               | them, touch them or measure them.
        
               | trhway wrote:
               | >Think of complex numbers, for example: they are used
               | extensively in quantum physics and electrical
               | engineering, but that does not mean that you can see
               | them, touch them or measure them.
               | 
               | yes, we use complex numbers there only because we have a
               | very consistent mental map between their
               | properties/behaviour in the math model and the physical
               | reality. The physical reality doesn't obey the math
               | model, it is a successful and useful math model which
               | seems to consistently describe and predict the reality in
               | some range of conditions. So when a new model is brought
               | in you'd want it to have at least some partial consistent
               | mapping to reality, and with refining of a model the
               | mapping is expected to improve. If refining of a model
               | turns instead into rounds and rounds of complexity
               | growths without matching massive improve in the
               | consistency of mapping to physical reality, you'd
               | naturally start to question the model, and may be think,
               | kind of VC style, about spending say a few percent of
               | resources going into that massive complexity growth of
               | the currently dominating, yet still far from working that
               | good, model into exploring some alternative models.
        
               | CraneWorm wrote:
               | > Think of complex numbers
               | 
               | I'd say naturals are abstract enough :)
        
               | Koshkin wrote:
               | I would disagree: if you close your eyes you can still
               | tell the difference between 2 and 3 - by touch!
        
               | trhway wrote:
               | sorry, man, no :)
               | 
               | https://www.newscientist.com/article/mg20126997-300-tacti
               | le-...
               | 
               | "One of the oldest tactile illusions is the Aristotle
               | illusion. It is easy to perform. Cross your fingers, then
               | touch a small spherical object such as a dried pea, and
               | it feels like you are touching two peas. This also works
               | if you touch your nose."
        
           | Gravityloss wrote:
           | But is the research important? Or is it just impact factors
           | and grants? There's so many researchers. It feels that some
           | kind of optimism rather than say mathematical capability
           | predicts who does that. Certainly I think it's very different
           | than 20 years ago. How has the amount of publications changed
           | over time? There just can't be enough original critical
           | thinking for that amount.
        
         | daxfohl wrote:
         | Why three dimensions? There's so much deep math and physics and
         | even philosophy around the abstractions of what's a
         | measurement, what's an observation, what is information, what
         | is communication, what is the direction of time, etc. I keep
         | thinking that could eventually lead to a completion of an
         | understanding of reality when proved deep enough. But why three
         | dimensions? It seems so arbitrary in the context of everything
         | else. But there has to be a reason.
        
           | Koshkin wrote:
           | Well, that's four, actually. This is what is needed for
           | electrodynamics to work, and we being "electric creatures"
           | only care about these. It's like different animals that are
           | adapted to seeing different colors. (I don't know, some of
           | them probably think they live in one dimension, why not?)
        
       | reedf1 wrote:
       | My whole childhood and young life I wanted to go into physics
       | academia. I wanted to have influence - to push the boundaries of
       | science. I had an idyllic view of this purely meritocratic system
       | where people were paid to explore. My first year of undergrad
       | utterly destroyed this notion. I left as soon as I had my
       | bachelors degree. I knew what would await me in grad and post
       | grad work and I'd seen post docs cry after endless work for
       | grants. I wanted financial freedom and happiness, and that
       | eventually won over pushing the boundaries of science. So sorry
       | young me - I quit too.
        
         | jjoonathan wrote:
         | > I'd seen post docs cry after endless work for grants.
         | 
         | People knock the recent Alien films but you know the scene
         | where the android is leading the team through a theater of
         | charred bodies and you think "holy shit, this is a HINT, how do
         | you not see it?"
         | 
         | Well, when I got home, I realized that the disgruntled postdocs
         | around me -- some of whom were smarter and worked harder than
         | me and still got thrown out like so much trash because their
         | thesis didn't pan out -- were also a HINT. How did I not see it
         | before?
         | 
         | Thanks, Prometheus. You weren't a great movie, but you had a
         | very important impact on my life.
        
         | analog31 wrote:
         | I finished my physics degree in the early 90's, and went
         | straight into industry. At the time, we all knew about the
         | problem of producing more PhDs than could possibly all get
         | academic jobs. We called it "the lie" and "the birth control
         | problem." My dad said it was the same in the 1950s when he got
         | his degree.
         | 
         | We pursue the degree for deep personal reasons that are hard to
         | discourage, even in the face of harsh economic reality.
         | 
         | I did a back of envelope calculation based on the number of
         | grad students, the number of post-docs, their duration, etc.,
         | and concluded that I would need to be a superstar to ever get
         | tenure. And I was not a superstar. On the other hand I've had a
         | good career in industry, with no regrets. I live in a nice
         | town, and rarely have to work long hours.
         | 
         | I was extremely lucky that both of my parents are industrial
         | scientists, so I knew there was an honorable alternative to
         | being a professor. The only hitch is that my own professors in
         | physics could encourage my change of plan, but had no idea how
         | to help me pursue it. I guessed correctly that computer
         | programming would be important. ;-)
         | 
         | While I was not a research superstar, I was very good at making
         | complicated machines work for other people. That's what I do
         | today.
        
           | SkyBelow wrote:
           | This is something that has fundamentally bothered me about
           | our current society. I consider all the positions of people
           | who do things that, when all has been said and done, do not
           | provide value to humans. Then I consider all the positions
           | that will advance humanity. The mismatch is jarring and
           | telling. Something is wrong.
           | 
           | I imagine a society where all the funding into ad tech goes
           | into cutting edge research, where we might have to wait a
           | decade or two but before too long we reap the rewards. Even
           | in small cases that that don't matter, even something like
           | creating a video game, how much of the budget goes into the
           | game and how much goes into advertising? Across the gaming
           | industry, how much of the budgets for creating games goes
           | into games that expand the mind, introduce players to new
           | views, and garner interest in new areas of life and how much
           | goes into reskinned slot machines?
           | 
           | This pattern seems to appear in many places. Short term
           | optimization over long term gratitude as the social level
           | leading to and caused by the same as the personal level.
           | While it isn't the worse humanity has done, and it isn't
           | anything worse than seen in other species, I wonder if this
           | is a more pervasive and passive Great Filter that'll cling to
           | us even after we have overcome others like the threat of
           | nuclear war.
        
         | KingFelix wrote:
         | What did you end up moving into?
        
         | xyzzy123 wrote:
         | I think this is a problem for any "deep" occupation which can't
         | readily be measured by immediate financial benefit.
         | 
         | If I look around me, I can identify only a very few who are
         | paid a living wage to do a) a thing that they enjoy that b)
         | doesn't have a direct, immediate benefit to others.
         | 
         | It's not just physicists, it's theorists of all kinds, the
         | arts, history, and yes, underwater basket weaving too.
        
         | giantg2 wrote:
         | "I had an idyllic view of this purely meritocratic system where
         | people were paid to explore."
         | 
         | I feel like our society and schooling really pushes the idyllic
         | visions of things as well as the idea of strict meritocracy. I
         | feel like this has left many of us jaded when we realize much
         | of what we were told as we grew up were only half-truths
         | concealing a bleak reality from us, and in some cases dooming
         | us to self-inflicted issues like the one's described in the
         | article.
        
         | agumonkey wrote:
         | I can understand the pain of leaving that dream, but in a way,
         | a tainted soil is rarely a good dream anyway.
         | 
         | I so wish I could do beautiful coding work but societies are
         | not aligned with beauty (even at zero cost) so i'm bailing
         | toward financial independance and peace of mind. Hopefully you
         | and I can make time to join club or do thinking on our own
         | terms.
        
           | TeMPOraL wrote:
           | > _Hopefully you and I can make time to join club or do
           | thinking on our own terms._
           | 
           | Reminds me of a thought that's been sitting in my quotes file
           | for a while.
           | 
           | "What one wants is to be able to talk with a diverse club of
           | smart people, arrange to do short one-off research projects
           | and simulations, publish papers or capture intellectual
           | property quickly and easily, and move on to another
           | conversation. Quickly. Easily. For a living. Can't do that in
           | industry. Can't do that in the Academy. Yet in my experience,
           | scientists and engineers all want it. Maybe even a few
           | mathematicians and social scientists do, too."
           | 
           | -- Bill Tozier, Diverse themes observed at GECCO 2006
           | 
           | https://web.archive.org/web/20120625133020/http://williamtoz.
           | ..
           | 
           | (And personally, I do want it too.)
        
             | agumonkey wrote:
             | Indeed this is a very fitting quote.
             | 
             | I can also generalize that to human existence. I've
             | struggled with work life a lot, I've seen good people going
             | robbers, depressed.. but 90% of them came in the morning
             | with the best intentions.. somehow in this system,
             | naturally a sad state of chaos emerges that makes most
             | people very frustrated if not more.
        
             | reasonabl_human wrote:
             | Yep, sounds idyllic. Maybe some form of engineering
             | consulting?
        
             | mjfl wrote:
             | Me too. What was the context of the quote?
        
               | TeMPOraL wrote:
               | The immediate context is the article to which I linked.
               | It's a stand-alone observation by someone attending some
               | conference in 2006.
               | 
               | How did I encounter that quote? I have no idea. I
               | _thought_ I found it on HN, but going by HN search, I can
               | only find myself posting it, twice before in the last 5
               | years. I must have found it elsewhere.
               | 
               | I saved it, because it strongly resonated with me - it
               | describes what I would love to do for a living, and what
               | I also think the society needs to improve both research
               | and engineering.
        
             | MauranKilom wrote:
             | Sounds like Paul Erdos had it figured out...
             | 
             | https://www.britannica.com/biography/Paul-Erdos
             | 
             | > Erdos would show up--often unannounced--on the doorstep
             | of a fellow mathematician, declare "My brain is open!" and
             | stay as long as his colleague served up interesting
             | mathematical challenges.
             | 
             | (More anecdotes here: https://archive.nytimes.com/www.nytim
             | es.com/books/first/h/ho...)
        
       | _Microft wrote:
       | This article is from 2016. Would you add it to the title?
       | 
       | I'll remove my comment once it's updated, so please don't reply.
        
         | aklemm wrote:
         | In all seriousness, why?
        
           | pfortuny wrote:
           | Because some people may have already read it and the title
           | may not be enough for them to realize it. It is not shaming
           | information, it is just another piece of data.
        
             | swayvil wrote:
             | I for one think that adding the date is unnecessary.
        
               | pfortuny wrote:
               | Of course you may have your opinion. But I have found
               | that datum very informative lots of times.
        
             | _Microft wrote:
             | Exactly this happened to me - but not only that! - I even
             | got my hopes up to mark the "Dr. Hossenfelder" square on my
             | HN frontpage bingo.
        
           | RandallBrown wrote:
           | That's kind of a tradition here on HN with old articles.
        
             | aklemm wrote:
             | All the more reason to find out the rationale.
        
       | iorrus wrote:
       | It's a beautifully written essay but he misses the obvious. What
       | was the point of spending all this time in what he admits but
       | doesn't make explicit was a dead end. He would have ended up
       | spending his life pretending to make important discoveries and
       | doing something worthwile, in reality he would have been making
       | "toy models".
       | 
       | He definitely made the right decision. I don't understand the "I
       | quit" angst, it's sunk cost fallacy, no he didn't quit, he made a
       | rational decision. It was a waste of his time and most likely
       | everyone else who he mention's time.
        
         | caente wrote:
         | He did quit, there should not be shame in quitting, but he did
         | quit. Others have the same difficulties as him, they don't
         | quit, nor they achieved anything, that is the risk. Now he
         | makes money in Wall Street. By his standards, he hasn't achieve
         | anything yet, nor will ever, other than procuring for his
         | family, which is not a small thing! But his dreams were about
         | "The Grail", if they still are, then he quit. He quit a path
         | that would most likely left him in the dust, but that it was
         | the only path that could have possibly taken him to "The
         | Grail", the current path won't take him anywhere near it. So
         | unless he is able to change the narrative of his own life, he
         | will forever be a failure, independently of how much money he
         | can make in the trading floor.
        
           | iorrus wrote:
           | I agree 100% but his path to the grail was stifled where he
           | was.
           | 
           | He made the right decision to escape but maybe he would have
           | been better off living like Grigori Perelman and devoting
           | himself mind body and soul to the grail. That's what it
           | takes, he should have left as soon as he felt the
           | misalignment with the grail and the toy models he was working
           | on as he was involved in fruitless make work.
        
           | jeffwass wrote:
           | Actually he resigned from Wall Street some time ago and is
           | now a writer.
        
         | dash2 wrote:
         | There's a Burning Hell song called "Give Up" which expresses
         | your point nicely:
         | https://open.spotify.com/track/32BAQ6weHlO7hS1O3HEdYK?autopl...
        
         | microtherion wrote:
         | Presumably he did not exactly cure World Hunger at Wall Street
         | either, though he almost certainly did not have to worry about
         | killing cockroaches at night.
        
         | rebuilder wrote:
         | I don't necessarily see it as angst. He didn't want it enough
         | to keep at it. We're maybe taught to see that as a failure, but
         | it can be a liberating realization.
         | 
         | I went to art school. I would not recommend most arts to anyone
         | who can bear doing something different. You will likely
         | sacrifice most of what people consider a normal life to be an
         | artist. If you don't want it so bad you have no choice, you can
         | have a very nice life. "Wanting it" can be a burden.
        
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       | Koshkin wrote:
       | > _an independent writer focused on science and finance_
       | 
       | That has reminded me of
       | https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/44535040-physics-from-fi....
        
       | j7ake wrote:
       | This article made me subscribe to the magazine hoping to find
       | more amazing articles, but I don't think there was ever an
       | article that had this kind of emotional impact as this one in
       | nautilus.
       | 
       | Still this single article was worth the subscription.
        
         | dandep wrote:
         | Emotional impact or not nautilus has a really high journalistic
         | standards and plenty of masterpieces
        
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