Originally posted by the Voice of America. Voice of America content is produced by the Voice of America, a United States federal government-sponsored entity, and is in the public domain. Nurses Fear What's to Come: 'Walk Down Our Unit for a Day' Associated Press LOS ANGELES - The nurses of California are afraid. It's Christmas Eve, and they aren't home with their families. They are working, always working, completely gowned up -- and worn down. They're frightened by what people are doing, or not doing, during a coronavirus pandemic that has already killed more than 320,000 nationwide and shows no signs of slowing down. They're even more terrified of what's next. "Every day, I look into the eyes of someone who is struggling to breathe," said nurse Jenny Carrillo, her voice breaking. A charge nurse at Providence Holy Cross Medical Center in Los Angeles' San Fernando Valley, Carrillo is haunted by the daily counts of COVID-19 patients. Dark shadows circle her eyes. By Tuesday evening, the hospital had 147 coronavirus patients -- a record for Holy Cross but a tiny fraction of the nearly 2 million cases recorded in California since the pandemic began. Close to 18,000 people were hospitalized in the state Tuesday, and models project the number could top 100,000 in a month -- unimaginable for medical systems that are already running out of room. More than 23,000 people with COVID-19 have died in California, and the number is expected to climb. .