Posts by fisk@social.xenofem.me
(DIR) Post #B2khf1uxgKAwmotats by fisk@social.xenofem.me
2026-01-28T18:41:06.972848Z
6 likes, 4 repeats
(DIR) Post #B2kjifMXgP0HtpeqzQ by fisk@social.xenofem.me
2026-01-28T18:59:23.152533Z
1 likes, 0 repeats
cant stop laughing at the guy projecting that everyone except him is a useless leftist when his grand idea is maybe they will listen to me if i am just more racist
(DIR) Post #B2kvnWBCS2EKJiQsls by fisk@social.xenofem.me
2026-01-28T20:56:51.570443Z
2 likes, 0 repeats
i will never forgot where i was when i found out about charlie kirk (i was in europe taking a smoke break during a grindr hookup and they did not understand what the big deal was. we just kept fuckin)
(DIR) Post #B2kxHhaIiF3sKX87pw by fisk@social.xenofem.me
2026-01-28T20:41:34.474665Z
2 likes, 1 repeats
(DIR) Post #B2lS3fFXh4gJc7Csnw by fisk@social.xenofem.me
2026-01-29T03:22:25.495070Z
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rejection sensitive dysphoria is quack science but i got prescribed tizanidine after injuring my back and found that it effectively cures it and takes the edge off feeling too wired on adhd meds.i later found out tizanidine has a very dangerous interaction with oral estradiol which meant i was getting 4x the intended dosage so that might have had something to do with it
(DIR) Post #B2lcO9Jobh5QCic0au by fisk@social.xenofem.me
2026-01-29T05:16:31.659139Z
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if i had a time machine i would kill the person who put cheddar cheese in pierogi
(DIR) Post #B2mfvCe3koCR68UgNs by fisk@social.xenofem.me
2026-01-29T15:05:46.261926Z
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i will never understand the appeal of perpetuating this social structure
(DIR) Post #B2n1XEQDh702eMzlU8 by fisk@social.xenofem.me
2026-01-29T21:32:28.105814Z
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(DIR) Post #B2ohluSWaXS8JTiNEm by fisk@social.xenofem.me
2026-01-30T03:46:48.532389Z
2 likes, 1 repeats
if i could show alan turing one wikipedia article it would be this one https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Voiceverse_NFT_plagiarism_scandal then i would put her in a cage and feed her estrogen
(DIR) Post #B2oyXeqBYhlB2YZVxo by fisk@social.xenofem.me
2026-01-30T20:09:19.295299Z
2 likes, 1 repeats
mr white look at this shit i fucked up cooking the ketamine shot it recrystallized and turned into paste im sorrrrtyyyyyyyy reddit am i the asshole???? jessie JESSIE it's okay. everyone makes mistakes. let mommy fix it. <3 :)))))
(DIR) Post #B2pH7Yfvl0snWD2lHc by fisk@social.xenofem.me
2026-01-30T21:50:14.866704Z
2 likes, 1 repeats
#didyouknow we are beating her with hammers tonight because she invented birdcore the first bird based genre of music
(DIR) Post #B2pOsEkIN8CWzuI3do by fisk@social.xenofem.me
2026-01-31T00:52:49.691624Z
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chemsex
(DIR) Post #B2pgTVHdXw4SDwF1tY by fisk@social.xenofem.me
2026-01-30T22:10:04.898758Z
9 likes, 6 repeats
(DIR) Post #B2pwJoO9G3mBqcgh04 by fisk@social.xenofem.me
2026-01-31T07:17:20.695870Z
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this is the second part of my story of attending #39c3. it took me longer than expected to finally sit down and write this one, because it's a lot heavier and personal, but also i feel like i'm finally over it and ready to let it go. at least i don't feel as distressed as i did for the first couple of weeks after the event, but at the same time, i've been questioning myself a lot.is it really that weird that when a bunch of strangers, some prominent members of this community, decided to bully me and make me and my friends part of their transphobic conspiracy theory, i took an issue with that? should i have just sat there quietly and took it, let it go? if they were just taking stabs at me, perhaps i could, but its a lot harder when they go after people you care about. is this all just trauma that i had 4 years to resolve in therapy? certainly not for the lack of trying. there were 16,000 people at the event, my issue is with about 10 of them, couldn't i just make better friends? i did. why is it that interacting with the awareness team, the arbitration board, anybody who i thought should have cared, felt like playing dungeons & dragons with the most annoying player ever who just wanted to argue about the rule book to justify that what happened to me wasn't their responsibility? eh, i really do not care anymore. am i just crazy, bitter, why did everyone seem like they were having fun except me? crazy, for sure, friends tell me "not in a bad way."the punishment i chose for myself -- six years of self-imposed exile was ultimately more severe than anything that could have happened to the people who wronged me. every time i walked through hall h i got to see a huge banner for the event where it all happened, a sick reminder that my abusers instead got rewarded with getting to run a community stage. great.when i got there on day 0, the day before the event started, seeing the venue fully decorated and all the people arriving, was very hard on me. this used to feel like home to me and some jerks decided to ruin it for me. and for what reason? for trying to do something good for the world? i just broke down crying, standing just past the main entrance, tears streaming down my face. as i did, likely hundreds of people walked past me and not one cared to stop and ask how i was doing or if i was alright. this was indeed what alienation truly feels like. i remembered what the awareness team once told me - "if you ever actually come to one of our events, we will be here to support you." i won't get my hopes up, but i was at my wits end here, it cant hurt to try?i called them, i got put into a room with two people and once again told them what happened to me 4 years ago and that i was really struggling. only to be told that if the same people try to harass me again i should simply ask them to change the subject. and that haecksen is normally a space only for women BUT i was welcome there if i needed a space to hang out. that was the cherry on top. thanks a lot. i'm not sure what i was expecting, but on the inside i was livid and really felt like i wanted to hurt myself. i cancelled all my angel shifts, went back to my hotel room and cried myself to sleep.once the event actually started, it wasn't much to write home about. it was very crowded. i did not get to do most things i wanted to do, because it was so tiring to get from one place to another through the big crowds of people. just getting out to have a cigarette left me feeling exhausted and needing to sit down and rest. i think that's what i did for most of the event. i did not even get to see any music. packing 16,000 people into the cch is wild.i had many panic attacks, the worst of which was at the "flinta cruising party," but this was also the only point when a stranger actually stopped to ask if i was doing okay. :)i did eventually build up the courage to give one of the people who abused me 4 years ago a piece of my mind, and that was the highlight of the event for me.i dont want to go to chaos communication congress ever again. this community not only welcomes and enables abusers, it makes them.
(DIR) Post #B2rwlXY5qimk2rTt68 by fisk@social.xenofem.me
2026-02-01T06:16:57.502152Z
1 likes, 0 repeats
would a snake shed its skin then wear it as a coat
(DIR) Post #B2rzxCqawWI7B5OCrA by fisk@social.xenofem.me
2026-02-01T06:12:31.287474Z
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you are a schizo because you think federal agents are following you. i am a schizo for all the crazy incomprehensible reasons i am madly in love with my wife. we are not the same
(DIR) Post #B2s772tZUxO0t4Q8x6 by fisk@social.xenofem.me
2026-02-01T08:00:04.149210Z
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@nyx @krankheit trip report t+3h47 i love my wife because i was just about to get my organs harvested by the cult of the dead tree from the hit video game series alan wake but SHE WASS THERE she has infiltrated the cult AND has com e to save ME with cuddles and kisssses. unfortunately by doing so she has also foiled my secret plans to become a human sacrifice and learn the secrets of the cauldron lake and the dark presence. i guess wives are feds after all huh
(DIR) Post #B2tPaqQEQky9Ds13GS by fisk@social.xenofem.me
2026-02-01T23:22:09.958766Z
1 likes, 0 repeats
good old raisins and peanuts
(DIR) Post #B2tRIoV12aZhxGmdrk by fisk@social.xenofem.me
2026-02-01T23:43:52.837391Z
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oh fuck i am in the epstein files 💀 (not kidding) there is a link to an article about me in an email newsletter lmao
(DIR) Post #B2tSRB1nGOcO65fPYO by fisk@social.xenofem.me
2026-02-02T00:02:15.225617Z
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@nyx @Erato_Heti @krankheit i posted that while very intoxicated but i was on about some t4t dark magick i've been up to recently trying to synchronize our disso trips together not anything that actually happened in a video game just to be clear