Posts by faithisleaping@anarres.family
(DIR) Post #AWXQ6veAyACvuOcMXQ by faithisleaping@anarres.family
2023-06-08T23:22:30Z
1 likes, 0 repeats
New instance, so time for a new #introduction!Hi, I'm Faith, a trans girl living in the US. I've been out professionally since January but I'm still getting a lot of things figured out. If you're trans or non-binary, I'd love to meet you!I'm also #ActuallyAutistic and have #ADHD. I'm a deconstructing, homeschooled, ex-vangelical Christian (still, I think?) with all the trauma weirdness that comes along with that. Professionally, I'm an open-source software engineer working on the Linux graphics stack. Oh, and I have a Ph.D. in #math I do all that stuff, but I don't post about it much here. This account is for hanging out with my trans and otherwise queer friends. If you're looking for someone posting interesting tech tidbits, look elsewhere.
(DIR) Post #AWeYwg3Ggzx5J4Py9A by faithisleaping@anarres.family
2023-06-13T15:39:41Z
0 likes, 0 repeats
@james I've never understood why that's even an argument. Most of the times when that choice is given, choosing to risk the mother is also a significant risk to the fetus. There are very few cases in which there is an actual choice where you have any certainty whatsoever that the mother's sacrifice will be worth it.
(DIR) Post #AWnOhRZpo0RAqlEPNA by faithisleaping@anarres.family
2023-06-17T21:58:07Z
1 likes, 0 repeats
An older woman asked my opinion on shoes randomly today. Specifically whether or not they make her look like an old lady. I said no. I really have no idea. 😅 Still, I think getting asked still counts as winning. 😁
(DIR) Post #AXAAXuG9rAVJ20HjaS by faithisleaping@anarres.family
2023-06-28T19:36:15Z
1 likes, 0 repeats
Bit of gender confirmation this weekend:One of the people at the funeral and related gatherings was a cousin of mine. He's one year older than me and we were always expected to be best cousins growing up. In reality, we never really clicked no matter how much I tried. He's a really good example of relationships I poured way too much emotional energy into without getting much if anything out of it.Surprised? I didn't think so. 😂Anyway... Seeing him and his family this week was instructive. He's all guy and just looking at him gives me dysphoria. Enough so that I never even talked to him. His wife, though, was pure gender envy. No attraction, just envy. If I could just shrink 15-20% everywhere and maybe 30% around the waste... 🫠So, yeah, maybe I'm not a guy after all. 😂
(DIR) Post #AXAAXwa5E3dAENcfvE by faithisleaping@anarres.family
2023-06-28T21:29:38Z
1 likes, 0 repeats
On the other hand, I'm watching P!nk's The truth about love tour on the flight back and it's giving me completely different gender feels. P!nk is hot AF and her performance is incredibly physical. I'm not really feeling envy or attraction. I'm more just impressed. Like, "Girl, you're hot AF and rocking it! Keep it up! I'm not 100% sure what gender that is but you're gendering hard and the world needs more of it!" 😂
(DIR) Post #AXI8KQJzD3N3lsCLsu by faithisleaping@anarres.family
2023-07-02T17:10:33Z
0 likes, 1 repeats
1) How quickly do levels typically rise? The spike seems to be causing me sleep problems and I'm trying to figure out how to mitigate that. Maybe doing my jab right before bed?2) How long does a bottle of Estradiol Valerate typically last and how long is it safe to use after the first draw? Each bottle contains about 2x what I need for a month but it says to discard after 4 weeks. I'd like to stockpile at least a little in case of supply chain problems.
(DIR) Post #AXR6CZMWrYM5InUf0y by faithisleaping@anarres.family
2023-07-07T01:45:19Z
1 likes, 0 repeats
I love the Witcher TV show on Netflix. I know it has its problems but I love it. The characters are hilarious. The fight choreography is amazing. It has actual twists and turns, both in the overall narrative and in the little interpersonal details.
(DIR) Post #AXTAGP1O2ZfAWNbjGa by faithisleaping@anarres.family
2023-07-05T16:44:12Z
0 likes, 2 repeats
Feeling this comic hard today:https://www.reddit.com/r/traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns/comments/sxf6l0/sometimes_it_comes_hitting_just_like_first_time/
(DIR) Post #AXVMsXSwgDSXTvMw2S by faithisleaping@anarres.family
2023-07-09T03:05:18Z
1 likes, 0 repeats
You just had to click it didn't you? 😉But seriously, boobs have been on my mind a lot lately. Trans women talk about them all the time. One might say we're obsessed. 😅 To be fair, though, they are on the top of the list of gendered physical characteristics, so much so that one of the primary differences between male and female coded clothing is what they do in the chest area. They're kind of a big deal.And we're told that bigger is better. But not too big or you're a slut! If you've grown up with Western female beauty standards, you've been inundated your whole life with messaging about the importance of boobs. The importance of having them and showing them off and the importance of covering them. It's all confusing and conflicting and the whole point seems to be to get us all obsessing over them. And... I'd argue it's even worse if you've been socialized as a guy.But here's the thing... Lots of cis women have really small boobs, almost unnoticeable compared to the Kim Kardashians we see in magazines or on Instagram. I noticed this last week when hanging out with my cousins. I had some of the biggest boobs there. I noticed it again when my wife and I went out for pizza. Lots of women with boobs smaller than mine and ya'know what? They all looked entirely feminine.So what's going on? Why do I see small-breasted women and think they look totally feminine but think mine aren't big enough? Some of it is probably because I also have a larger rib cage and so I need bigger boobs if they are to look the same relative to my chest size. Okay, that sounds real, right? Also, one could argue that we have other, less feminine characteristics and that we need bigger, more obvious boobs to counterbalance that. Or maybe cis women want bigger boobs too and we're just so used to body hacking that we think nothing about going big?IDK. I don't have answers. Just tossing ideas around and trying to understand what's going on in my own head and the heads of my sisters. I think another thing we have going on is dysphoria in the form of doubt. We need boobs to help combat that dysphoric doubt and convince our brains that we really are the women we know ourselves to be.So there you have it. Thoughts about boobs.Now enough with the thinking. Gather 'round, ladies! Let's summon some of that big boob energy!
(DIR) Post #AXhIwarQyxgFYUlNFQ by faithisleaping@anarres.family
2023-07-14T19:47:04Z
1 likes, 0 repeats
Girl who now has a US passport with her name on it. 🥳
(DIR) Post #AXm6j0XqSutVV19hk8 by faithisleaping@anarres.family
2023-07-17T03:16:59Z
1 likes, 0 repeats
Well, shit...https://youtu.be/1r-CvXcVKY8She's 100% right about basically everything in that video. I've spent so much time and effort building coping mechanisms which I can apply to school or work that, apart from the odd video game or movie, I really don't have energy for hobbies. We don't take vacation because I can't plan it. I've figured out how to plan an international work trip in a couple hours but never invested the time in learning how to plan a vacation. I can project manage an engineering task fairly well but not a hobby. I don't use meds so it's not so much about that. More about other coping mechanisms.I've not really practiced anything but school and work to the point where I can reasonably manage them so I just don't. I need to work on that. IDK exactly how. I have some ideas but I think I need to pick something with an end result I want and put time into learning not only the skills but how to manage my brain for it.There's also a whole weekend exhaustion thing which I think is mostly a matter of saying it's okay to burn spoons on a hobby and have a shit day at work because of it.Lots of food for thought there. 🤔