Posts by Mazikeen@spinster.xyz
 (DIR) Post #A8fD6SojcCKKu1qoS0 by Mazikeen@spinster.xyz
       2021-06-26T01:07:24.496432Z
       
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       @Piss_Ant I saw the Camilla Lackberg book and immediately put on hold at my library. I loved her other murder mysteries so I'm sure I'll be hooked on this next one!
       
 (DIR) Post #A8jBVGja364lOz36A4 by Mazikeen@spinster.xyz
       2021-06-28T00:29:13.269207Z
       
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       Was waiting for takeout today with my dad and sister and a guy started whacking himself off at us. This has never happened to me before and I was honestly kind of shocked that the guy would do that with my dad right there. I don't know why but I thought that having a man with you kind of made all the creeps go away. I feel really disgusted. I was having such a good weekend, my anxiety about going out is getting much better and I just got my second jab so I might get to go back to normal soon. My dad yelled at the guy because he kept lingering around after we moved tables. I kind of told him off for yelling at the guy but the truth is I'm glad he stood up for us, it made me feel safer. I really don't want him to bring it up though, I just want to forget that it ever happened. I'm thinking about what I was wearing, how I was sitting, was it at me or my sister, did she notice, all of it. I made accidental eye contact with the guy and I didn't even think about why he was sitting there staring, I feel like a bit of an idiot for not realizing what he was up to sooner. I'm not really surprised that it happened I guess, it was only a matter of time before something like this happened again.
       
 (DIR) Post #A8p65tOSMHIuwy0ZGK by Mazikeen@spinster.xyz
       2021-06-30T20:51:30.446458Z
       
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       Where did the "trans women have a life expectancy of 30-35 years" thing come from? That's such bullshit, so many of them are over 50...
       
 (DIR) Post #A9IRnLoCJstY9TRy52 by Mazikeen@spinster.xyz
       2021-07-15T00:47:42.539361Z
       
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       Saw a butch at the farmer's market today, we still exist I guess.
       
 (DIR) Post #A9ShV5Sggx40t5rQ7U by Mazikeen@spinster.xyz
       2021-07-19T22:57:31.398879Z
       
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       Looking for book recommendations! Particularly fiction written by women, maybe with a bit of a mystery element. If anyone has some good lesbian books or feminist books feel free to let me know about those too! I thought you spinsters would be a good group to turn to for some books that aren't going to make me sick with their portrayal of women.
       
 (DIR) Post #AARVj3o0rNELTowpU0 by Mazikeen@spinster.xyz
       2021-08-18T01:33:28.525390Z
       
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       @Jar My favourite book about young lesbians is probably "Girl Mans Up" by M.E. Girard. It's about a young butch in the suburbs of Toronto, pretty typical high school book. It touches on things like compulsory heterosexuality, coming into butchness, standing up for yourself, and dealing with family opinions about being a lesbian. It's recent-ish but no mention of the trans BS (though people have tried to make it about that I'm sure). Probably one of the most relatable things I've ever read.
       
 (DIR) Post #AAS2EYtKWy7hOvV3Cq by Mazikeen@spinster.xyz
       2021-08-18T13:18:24.586218Z
       
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       @Nagaraja @Jar Wow that really pisses me off, that's so not what I got from the book. I'm pretty sure that the main character never even mentions gender, she's really confident that she's a woman. It should say that she's grappling with what it means to be a butch lesbian. Ffs.
       
 (DIR) Post #AAS8jBcRhqC9vQaY7c by Mazikeen@spinster.xyz
       2021-08-18T13:54:25.549448Z
       
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       @Nagaraja @Jar Yeah it can be pretty real sometimes, I just found it so relatable that I couldn't not recommend it.
       
 (DIR) Post #AAhnYpoJ5Bk1cUQFPc by Mazikeen@spinster.xyz
       2021-08-26T04:03:50.920180Z
       
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       Starting to think that one of the reasons I didn't have many friends during high school was because I was a butch lesbian. I only ever got in with the friend groups that were all "queer" and woke, and they all ended up shitting on me in the end anyways. I think everyone else was just weirded out by me, people were friendly in passing but nobody really took it further than that. Who knows, maybe I just had a shit personality but I think if I was a regular straight feminine girl I would've gotten on easier with everyone. I could've maybe had normal friends if I had fit the mold like I was supposed to. Nobody wants to be friends with the dyke, even in the 2010s where pride is like a freaking holiday party. So much for fucking acceptance.
       
 (DIR) Post #ABTVyi5R4zYByiKcGe by Mazikeen@spinster.xyz
       2021-09-18T04:37:48.908372Z
       
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       This might be really weird but I feel like I have a lot in common with TIFs. I follow a few on instagram and almost everything that they say about their lives and bodies feels so familiar to me. Like the only difference between me and them is that I'm fighting to change my mindset from "I have to make my body fit what is expected of me" to "who gives a fuck what's expected". The only thing that sets me apart from a TIF is what I believe womanhood is. What these women go through is so personal to me and I feel so sorry that they feel that they have to change their bodies. I hate how intensely connected they feel to this way of thinking that does absolutely nothing to help them feel more connected to themselves. I wish them all happiness and I wish that they could feel happy in their bodies like I am trying to learn to do.
       
 (DIR) Post #ABqLzsXSX7vQCm1xyK by Mazikeen@spinster.xyz
       2021-09-29T02:43:42.961825Z
       
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       I feel so awkward talking about anything related to being a lesbian with people. I just feel like everyone else will be weirded out by it so I just shouldn't bring it up. It's not like nobody knows either, anyone would assume I like women from the way I dress, I just feel like I shouldn't talk about it. I don't want to make anyone uncomfortable, I feel like I will if I draw too much attention to it. Does everyone feel this awkward? Maybe I'm sad or maybe I'm normal, it all feels very lonely though.
       
 (DIR) Post #ABzTvA5kfXW7bVqGki by Mazikeen@spinster.xyz
       2021-10-03T14:37:32.632165Z
       
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       @Berco Author might be Linda Blade? I think the book's called Unsporting.
       
 (DIR) Post #ACPVQMHIYc82iyhwqO by Mazikeen@spinster.xyz
       2021-10-16T02:49:41.327823Z
       
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       Just clicked to watch Dave Chapelle's new Netflix thing and it just disappeared... Can't find it on Netflix anymore
       
 (DIR) Post #ACXICySI9B9VPzQW5g by Mazikeen@spinster.xyz
       2021-10-19T22:16:44.036768Z
       
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       Walked by a mens washroom today at my uni and it looked totally normal. Then I walked by the womens washroom next to it and it had an "all gender toilet" sign on the door. How's that for equality? I'd like to say I'm shocked but sadly I was just waiting for the day I'd see this.
       
 (DIR) Post #ACoJLpGwF9CzbBEDzc by Mazikeen@spinster.xyz
       2021-10-28T03:15:41.415585Z
       
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       Saw a butch today in the book store, it always makes me so happy to see other women that look like me! Hope she didn't think I'm some woke idiot, I hate that I might look like that. She made my whole day so if she ever sees this, thank you!!!
       
 (DIR) Post #ACoJNedAmL8XArV4q0 by Mazikeen@spinster.xyz
       2021-10-28T03:16:20.805016Z
       
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       I don't know why this is such a big deal to me but I always feel so happy about these things
       
 (DIR) Post #AF3PSYtO0P2WPigBAO by Mazikeen@spinster.xyz
       2022-01-03T05:50:52.364708Z
       
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       I'm going to sound like a broken record but why do TQ+ politics have to be everywhere?? I can't have a job or go to school or even watch a TV show without being bombarded with the plight of the queers with their gender identity and "it's just about being my authentic self". Being LGB has never been about morals or values, it's about being same-sex attracted. That's what people are persecuted for, and just because it often goes along with being GNC doesn't mean that being GNC automatically earns you a new letter to tack on to the acronym. I (a butch lesbian) have nothing in common with a 60 year old man who likes to dress up as a little girl. Absolutely nothing. And that man is not persecuted for flaunting his sexual fetish in public, in fact he is rewarded with the erosion of women's boundaries in order to give his fetish more legitimacy. Why can't people see this?? I've only been in this for a few years but holy shit, it's not that hard to see. Why do corporations and governments still gaslight us into believing that these men are the same as gay people, or women? We all know why, patriarchy is a fucking disease, but it still just baffles me that more people don't call it out for its absurdity. Anyways, at the end of this train of thought all I want to say is, gay people have nothing to do with the TQ+. The world needs to stop pretending that we do.
       
 (DIR) Post #AFkfF4zLyAvWi3Luq0 by Mazikeen@spinster.xyz
       2022-01-24T01:46:57.414520Z
       
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       My ex-girlfriend just came out as non-binary and it bugs the shit out of me. We were together for a long time but it's been a while since we broke up so I know I get no opinion on what she does and I will never say anything to her about it but it still bugs me. She's super feminine (in like a babydoll way) but she's like "I never felt like a girl", like no shit! Guys have treated you like shit so of course you don't want to take it anymore but that doesn't mean you're not a woman! She's also had a lot of issues with drugs throughout her life but I thought she was finally in a good place now and this makes me really sad for her. Like how's she gonna be okay if she can't accept that being a woman doesn't mean that she has to be okay with being treated like shit. I feel so sad that she can't feel okay with herself and that she has to ask people to coddle her because of it. She's too old for this too, I don't get it but at the same time I get it exactly, fuck.*END OF RANT*
       
 (DIR) Post #AHDNIOIHfWZKtNGGoK by Mazikeen@spinster.xyz
       2022-03-08T20:56:45.566983Z
       
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       Happy womens day spinsters! And long live JK Rowling, because the woman is an absolute powerhouse <3
       
 (DIR) Post #AIrFjNMFIIsnNh7JzM by Mazikeen@spinster.xyz
       2022-04-27T00:28:16.345320Z
       
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       Happy lesbian day spinsters! Big love to the lesbians! I'm so fucking proud to be here with you all and that even in not-so-great times we're still able to find spaces to be together and be truthful about who we are. It's been almost 10 years since I came out (and I'm not even that old haha) and I couldn't be happier <3