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(DIR) Post #B78j5vE5FR9UT2DAyu by Myshkin@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T00:20:44.106790Z
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So anyway, I had like three heavy duty anxiety / panic attacked last week. That’s why I wasn’t around. I gotta say they kinda suck.
(DIR) Post #B78jTqsR4NbPvdUqGm by Grumblesock@clew.lol
2026-06-09T00:25:02.449959Z
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@Myshkin Oh mate, I had no idea. I am sorry to hear this. Have you experienced them before?
(DIR) Post #B78jZtIF00T79yRjPs by Myshkin@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T00:26:08.898532Z
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No, not like this. But looking back I guess I’ve been close for a while now.
(DIR) Post #B78jhmramyIlXDkMuO by JedDrudge@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T00:27:35.025620Z
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Shit...
(DIR) Post #B78jmTjVLJjtePCWCe by Grumblesock@clew.lol
2026-06-09T00:28:24.840805Z
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@Myshkin I know you've had a rough couple of years, dude, probably longer than I know. I hope you don't see them recur. It's not one I'm experienced with so don't have any solutions or mechanisms I can recommend to get through or stop them outright. Big hugs, chief. :hug:
(DIR) Post #B78jrmSX98eNB2n6vY by Myshkin@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T00:29:22.904720Z
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Thanks man, I think I’ve got it. We’ll see. At least I know now.
(DIR) Post #B78k7Cm5aYKb8XIE8O by Grumblesock@clew.lol
2026-06-09T00:32:09.419240Z
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@Myshkin If you want to talk about anything dude just let me know. You might still have my email but I can chat with you here or in more privacy on matrix anytime.
(DIR) Post #B78kT781GIlzznzur2 by Myshkin@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T00:36:07.823641Z
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Thanks man. It’s been a rough spring with the new house and trying to get so much shit done. I think it just all caught up with me. I cant do everything I want to do and I can’t settle for not doing everything I want to do. Also I am a habitual worrier.I wish I meant warrior but alas…. No
(DIR) Post #B78kkAANDhhuLCEDlw by Grumblesock@clew.lol
2026-06-09T00:39:11.966941Z
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@Myshkin I hear that. It's a genetic thing it turns out, the COMT gene.Where you can do take it easy on yourself, just moving and getting settled in is stressful enough and that without going into every other area of your life and just staying afloat in this day and age. Should the chance to take a break present itself, seize on it.
(DIR) Post #B78l1x9SLbMBBlHYye by Myshkin@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T00:42:23.403052Z
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Ya, my grandmother on my dads side and my mom both anxiety addicts. So I guess there was no escape for me.
(DIR) Post #B78lCSu59ISwYt6UXA by Myshkin@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T00:44:19.599690Z
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I’m going to Anna’s beach photo in my brain.
(DIR) Post #B78lDsBocbLRH54Nkm by Grumblesock@clew.lol
2026-06-09T00:44:34.062202Z
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@Myshkin I've managed to mitigate some of my inherited mental and emotional 'quirks' as best I can but there's no removing it all, sad to say. Pretty much the best we can do with the cards that we are dealt.
(DIR) Post #B78lHOAy9aCRLaLmhU by Grumblesock@clew.lol
2026-06-09T00:45:12.375973Z
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@Myshkin That does sound like a good plan. It much nicer than the beach here tbh.
(DIR) Post #B78lLLF10U0jP57yWO by JedDrudge@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T00:45:56.292426Z
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AKA "personality"... 😩
(DIR) Post #B78lNBNod6mrPO7c48 by Myshkin@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T00:46:15.735664Z
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It all started because I took my stupid bo during one of my episodes and it was like 180/100. Totally freaked out!!It was a bad idea because I’m probably a hypochondriac also;)
(DIR) Post #B78lYsqbN3azOcAL5c by Grumblesock@clew.lol
2026-06-09T00:48:22.061445Z
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@Myshkin Yeah, of all the times to measure such things that's not a great time, but I do understand the urge to check, I really do.
(DIR) Post #B78lcsKFFl4Qw4w05Q by Myshkin@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T00:49:06.331044Z
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And now everyone here knows I’m crazy;(I’m sure they had enough evidence already:)
(DIR) Post #B78lnSu473VVH8jrzk by Myshkin@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T00:51:00.743451Z
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lol ya, that’s the kind of dumb shit I do :(
(DIR) Post #B78loL5GfcYPJWOZxA by Grumblesock@clew.lol
2026-06-09T00:51:09.471252Z
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@Myshkin My guy you are nowhere near the top tier crazy round these parts, I assure you. You want to reach that level you will have to go through me and a whole stack of others before getting even close into the top 2500.
(DIR) Post #B78lydkS8EaQ60ZTiy by Grumblesock@clew.lol
2026-06-09T00:53:01.184433Z
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@Myshkin I'm no better, I've got a bp and HR monitor and honestly I wisely just never replaced the batteries and now it gathers dust in some corner somewhere. I'm sure I will use it again in time but I won't be doing so again unless things get genuinely bad. Not all information is useful.
(DIR) Post #B78lyuxq7iObURxuS0 by Myshkin@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T00:53:04.930906Z
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I know, I’ve got it pretty good compared to many. Good to keep that in mind.
(DIR) Post #B78m8sv2a9MU2jPOt6 by Myshkin@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T00:54:53.432486Z
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Ya, it’s not good for me to know that stuff. I be checking my pulse my weight my BP, doing mental gymnastics with every fluctuation. I’m over it.
(DIR) Post #B78m9XYRV4eA4W9QrA by Grumblesock@clew.lol
2026-06-09T00:54:59.508682Z
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@Myshkin I don't even think those comparisons are terribly useful but I do find cultivating gratitude and being genuinely appreciative of my efforts and achievements, however small or large, has helped me when I feel it's all gone to shit and I can't hold it all up anymore.
(DIR) Post #B78mFlM36Y5UbrJz84 by Grumblesock@clew.lol
2026-06-09T00:56:06.887569Z
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@Myshkin Hey sometimes it's useful and other times it's just straight up paranoia fuel. Knowing the difference between the two isn't so easy a thing to identify, unfortunately.
(DIR) Post #B78mUP1CQsvZg8Y9h2 by Myshkin@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T00:58:46.294773Z
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I know it’s all in my head because as soon as I start doing something everything is fine. It’s the quiet times when my brain decides it’s time to find some non existent problem that gets me.
(DIR) Post #B78mcqouwwSGDmpkIa by GoyGirl@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T01:00:17.971495Z
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I love that you just mentioned COMT. Our MTHFR & DAO, plus GAD(?), etc, pathways, can all play into anxiety.Too much folic acid in wheat & processed foods is enough to tip many of us.I feel your pain, Myshkin... came close to my 1st panic attack this week w/real estate crap, but I settled for hot mess anxiety 😆 Crazies unite 💪💪
(DIR) Post #B78miszTnF7ygqeSga by HockeyDoxie@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T01:00:58.834401Z
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Let's all go and have a beach party.
(DIR) Post #B78mvHkrXvMUyCj9AO by Grumblesock@clew.lol
2026-06-09T01:03:37.005790Z
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@Myshkin It took me a long, long time to get used to just letting my mind do its thing without resorting to distractions like work or burying myself in other people's problems to take my mind off of my own. Sometimes these are useful and necessary can also take the mind off of essential internal work that I had neglected for decades. I do hope that you can find a good measure of peace, my friend. Anything I might do to help you get there just say the word. :crown_king_apu_cozy_:
(DIR) Post #B78mzRCONL5VQ0aGG0 by Myshkin@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T01:04:23.336321Z
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I’m in. I’m loading up the woody
(DIR) Post #B78n7nYz6owj658cO8 by Grumblesock@clew.lol
2026-06-09T01:05:52.858886Z
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@GoyGirl @Myshkin Sorry to hear you have to contend with this too, petal. Glad you managed to stave off an attack for an alternative variety of anxiety, kind of. I would trade vital organs, even my own, to have the kind of mind that just never goes to such places, alas...
(DIR) Post #B78nGzMcbVk0InjnFo by GoyGirl@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T01:07:33.200583Z
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...my husband is annoyingly sane ALMOST all of the time, which is partially owed also to male single-focus vs women thinking all the things all the time... But find a sane accountability partner if you can, lol. A sounding board & also someone to tell you you're gonna be OK :blobheartcat:
(DIR) Post #B78nHl0zRExU5bzCCW by Myshkin@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T01:07:41.984152Z
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Ugh, never mind im going to bed instead.
(DIR) Post #B78nOOjWgBnB0kz4BE by HockeyDoxie@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T01:08:20.339132Z
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I hope you have restful dreams.
(DIR) Post #B78nOQNyXHk48Uusro by Myshkin@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T01:08:52.052091Z
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Thanks, it’s better than turning into a pumpkin
(DIR) Post #B78nekeGy05hc6KBlo by GoyGirl@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T01:11:50.820474Z
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I shouldn't "gender-ize" it, lol... I have a brother who battles anxiety, too, but it is true women often suffer more due to less compartmentalized thoughts.Yeah, it's probably worth a kidney, maybe even gallbladder, to appease.
(DIR) Post #B78nftYNLOYpWN6yw4 by Grumblesock@clew.lol
2026-06-09T01:12:02.589884Z
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@Myshkin @HockeyDoxie Sleep well, chief.
(DIR) Post #B78nlZjXwkeHmx2sDY by Grumblesock@clew.lol
2026-06-09T01:13:04.133390Z
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@GoyGirl Well I am male and I won't be getting married again but I do find time in nature helps me tremendously.
(DIR) Post #B78nqpDvmZ3xHIlECO by Grumblesock@clew.lol
2026-06-09T01:14:01.029953Z
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@GoyGirl @Myshkin Apparently kidneys and gallbladders are free, you can just find them idling about in random citizens on the street. :smug:
(DIR) Post #B78ntvIVekoAz6NazY by scenesbycolleen@poa.st
2026-06-09T01:14:35.556666Z
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:wojak_psycho:
(DIR) Post #B78nvI6kKku81EWtxQ by GoyGirl@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T01:14:50.209210Z
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Sooo true. My horseback ride 2 wks ago set me totally straight.Sometimes just barefoot in grass 10-15 min. helps. Follow me for more hippie bullshit tips, lol.
(DIR) Post #B78o2hdZoWtZDyQ6M4 by Grumblesock@clew.lol
2026-06-09T01:16:09.926975Z
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@scenesbycolleen @GoyGirl @Myshkin Well they'll do me more good than they will in the original owner. I could frame it as a 'radical weight loss service' too in this day and age of ozempic popularity. :butt_wiggle:
(DIR) Post #B78oB2Ez5xPrRPtGIi by Grumblesock@clew.lol
2026-06-09T01:17:40.287173Z
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@GoyGirl I do need to get down to the seal lighthouse again, that lifted my spirits immensely. Though it was chaotic last week's meerkat escape also invigorated me some too. :pika-dab:
(DIR) Post #B78oHY8DRG3G5PpYq8 by GoyGirl@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T01:18:51.631931Z
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OMG, I just saw a commercial for some new amped-up competitor to Ozempic..."take me & you'll lose an average of 14 more lbs than Ozempic, but your pancreas may swell, your eyes might dry up, & stop taking immediately if you go into cardiac arrest..." 😅 Freakin fat America.
(DIR) Post #B78oNyaJzz1Brq2cu8 by Grumblesock@clew.lol
2026-06-09T01:20:00.621094Z
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@GoyGirl @Myshkin @scenesbycolleen FFS some people with do anything rather than eat healthier and get a little exercise.
(DIR) Post #B78ob3jEBb1ZaJRgsi by Myshkin@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T01:22:23.037995Z
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Those are the best Stop taking if you dieOh that sounds like they are really concerned. Oh right I was going to bedGN
(DIR) Post #B78ohuqhb8Wy4ZDA2K by Grumblesock@clew.lol
2026-06-09T01:23:36.857367Z
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@Myshkin @GoyGirl @scenesbycolleen The pharma companies do love a life long consumer.Yeah do head off. It's near 2.30 am here and I should go crawl into my pit too. :sleep_gn:
(DIR) Post #B78olXxYdshoEz9JSa by Myshkin@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T01:24:16.906336Z
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Ya I don’t want to miss out on my night sweats :)
(DIR) Post #B78opXntAEKQuoX5ou by FeelsOttoMan@poa.st
2026-06-09T01:24:59.572312Z
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I wish beaches still looked like that
(DIR) Post #B78osX1QWi57MNI16e by Grumblesock@clew.lol
2026-06-09T01:25:31.830772Z
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@Myshkin @GoyGirl @scenesbycolleen I've been waking up with leg cramps lately myself. Don't know when a good night's rest became and extreme sport but here we are. I really do hope that you can get a decent night's rest, dude.
(DIR) Post #B78p0InFJR8NXyMUvA by Myshkin@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T01:26:56.932438Z
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I’ll be fine because I know I’m physically ok. Have you tried magnesium for those cramps?
(DIR) Post #B78pElI49qAtz1flM8 by KidKnievel@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T01:28:29.406111Z
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Breast size reduced to fit screen
(DIR) Post #B79TprVU0L1o90C4pM by Grumblesock@clew.lol
2026-06-09T09:04:26.712346Z
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@Myshkin @GoyGirl @scenesbycolleen I take it daily anyway but it's not normal leg cramps, feel more like exertion but shouldn't be because I've been lying down, asleep. :pepe_apu_think:
(DIR) Post #B79dCR3lOp34Ms4D7Q by tobias@poa.st
2026-06-09T10:05:54.012012Z
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@Myshkin doctors are dishing out diazepines like halloween candy. definitely don't rely on them, but worth identifying which kind is right for you.one of my sisters is a clone of our crazy grandma. she turned 14 and became batshit neurotic. i'm above average for neurosis. I was always mentally and physically active, not a leisure person, getting things done, a potential workaholic, functioned well in a (metaphoric) warzone.Now i have old-man hormones and finally relaxed. if these modern chill pills had been available, i could have practiced more calm, sociable activities and developed those synapses much better.
(DIR) Post #B79dHkXwNLfoFjiSKe by Myshkin@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T10:50:21.115839Z
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I’ve had nighttime leg cramps a few times. They suck!
(DIR) Post #B79daUH762eZI2mQQi by Grumblesock@clew.lol
2026-06-09T10:53:43.541609Z
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@Myshkin @GoyGirl @scenesbycolleen Alarm clock don't wake me us a quick as a leg cramp in the small hours of the morning.I hope you managed to get a decent night's rest there mate.
(DIR) Post #B79mf06haR2AlG8ZCi by Myshkin@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T12:35:24.015304Z
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Ya I did, thanks. Hope yours was good too.Are you settled in there now?Everything going well and still happy to be out of the city?
(DIR) Post #B79nBgEuTVPghPYjHE by Grumblesock@clew.lol
2026-06-09T12:41:17.131487Z
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@Myshkin @GoyGirl @scenesbycolleen I am indeed. Now that I have a working oven and washing machine it feels like an actual home now, it's not perfect but my circumstances have improved drastically.
(DIR) Post #B79nJGpKqFoeCUDSIy by Myshkin@nicecrew.digital
2026-06-09T12:42:41.018236Z
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Glad to hear this, London was going to kill you sooner or later.
(DIR) Post #B79neMy5Ck0JKOMuXI by Grumblesock@clew.lol
2026-06-09T12:46:28.859716Z
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@Myshkin @GoyGirl @scenesbycolleen I still miss the foxes and Chatty a great deal but yeah it was slowly killing me and on a long enough timeline a shitskin most like would have done so in quicker fashion. Moving away was the best thing I've done in a long time.