Post AC6fNF0ASzDyXhXdI0 by SpudsRudeEye@shitposter.club
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(DIR) Post #AC6cCQwNRDyeWRvJJo by SpudsRudeEye@shitposter.club
2021-10-07T01:24:17.499270Z
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I've never had fun having sexI've never been in a real relationshipI don't seek out relationshipsI don't go out of my way to have sexW-what's this say about me?
(DIR) Post #AC6dbaJvniBco7Uuem by harblinger@shitposter.club
2021-10-07T01:40:02.458125Z
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@SpudsRudeEye pro-cel
(DIR) Post #AC6deKXcvK9WjpDFbc by SpudsRudeEye@shitposter.club
2021-10-07T01:40:32.261574Z
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@harblinger pro?
(DIR) Post #AC6dgPH6IOaBzvTNFw by harblinger@shitposter.club
2021-10-07T01:40:54.821065Z
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@SpudsRudeEye professional celibate
(DIR) Post #AC6dlrqvTI4c4upl1U by SpudsRudeEye@shitposter.club
2021-10-07T01:41:54.005673Z
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@harblinger I'm certainly a profession. But I HAVE slept around a lot, too. And without a condom every single time-- not like it matters since I've never had an orgasm during sex
(DIR) Post #AC6drxqe5qRyPVbs48 by harblinger@shitposter.club
2021-10-07T01:43:00.124988Z
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@SpudsRudeEye I can't say "a lot" myself, but it's ~funny~ how often the girls are more against the condom than I am
(DIR) Post #AC6eLwCWmVwdzQ8a80 by ItsJustSky@sleepy.cafe
2021-10-07T01:45:58.836748Z
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@SpudsRudeEye maybe you just dont want a relationship rn? And dont really care about sex?
(DIR) Post #AC6eLwfb2RCHRZjnRA by SpudsRudeEye@shitposter.club
2021-10-07T01:48:24.945490Z
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@ItsJustSky No, it's like-- I want these things to matter to me but their ultimate importance in my life is so infinitesimal that I just don't want to set aside time for them, which is ODD because all I have is time to put into stuff like this. There's a girl at the pharmacy who looks at me with googly eyes and I know she wants me to ask her out but I'm just not... like, I just don't care if I die alone.
(DIR) Post #AC6enFkQDQ0YQo13VQ by shigeruakagi@outerheaven.club
2021-10-07T01:51:58.031268Z
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@SpudsRudeEye dude i think youre just asexual and aromantic, and theres nothing wrong with that
(DIR) Post #AC6enGBiZvqHnSmr3I by SpudsRudeEye@shitposter.club
2021-10-07T01:53:20.958964Z
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@shigeruakagi But I thought we didn't believe in those things on this side of the political spectrum! I'm not being facetious I'm just trying to fit in
(DIR) Post #AC6fNEW2H17b2FRZK4 by shigeruakagi@outerheaven.club
2021-10-07T01:54:41.763930Z
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@SpudsRudeEye fuck the political spectrum. shits not real. from what i know about you, it seems like a real possibility that i think is worth consideringalso im literally gay so i do believe
(DIR) Post #AC6fNF0ASzDyXhXdI0 by SpudsRudeEye@shitposter.club
2021-10-07T01:59:50.784557Z
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@shigeruakagi I guess... I thought I was gay for a long time because I didn't like sex with women but then I didn't like being with guys, either. I've been given girlfriend experiences, I've gone on dates but I didn't like doing that either. Finally I just sort of settled into my own devices and I've been a loner for a long time now.
(DIR) Post #AC6fhJNDvCpVtRtbw8 by shigeruakagi@outerheaven.club
2021-10-07T02:01:34.831782Z
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@SpudsRudeEye yeah i mean sounds like that can be described as ace for sure.and out of curiousity (and if im prying sry, u dont hafta answer ofc) but what abt friendships? you mentioned youre a loner, do you mean youre not really interested in a social life much at all? or just a love life?
(DIR) Post #AC6fhJm2QwgB8PVQcC by SpudsRudeEye@shitposter.club
2021-10-07T02:03:29.019886Z
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@shigeruakagi I know this is going to sound selfish, but I don't want to share my life with anyone else. I can't stand the thought of having to 'be there' for some sort of love interest-- I've tried it and it makes me want to scream.
(DIR) Post #AC6gFkwpuItdG9yhMG by shigeruakagi@outerheaven.club
2021-10-07T02:05:47.955353Z
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@SpudsRudeEye i dont think theres anything wrong with that, everyone is a little selfish. for the most part, ppl want love bc it benefits them as well, makes em feel happy. if it doesnt make u happy then its fine to not want it i thinkbut thats still romantic right? what about like, casual friendships? close friendships? how abt family?im just curious ofc :p
(DIR) Post #AC6gFlNmI8RmbiaDLs by SpudsRudeEye@shitposter.club
2021-10-07T02:09:42.000499Z
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@shigeruakagi I have very few friends offline, almost all of whom have moved far away. There's one friend who lives just down the street from me but I rarely see him and I've tried to distance myself from his weird lifestyle. As far as my family goes, I have my Mom, my Dad and my brother. My only other living relative is my Dads mother. We get along fine. But again, with my Dad, I rarely see him because he lives kind of far away and has a busy work schedule.
(DIR) Post #AC6gUJzCQuKjyz1puS by shigeruakagi@outerheaven.club
2021-10-07T02:11:40.287570Z
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@SpudsRudeEye so, how are these relationships for you? are they satisfying? how do they compare to the romantic stuff etc.
(DIR) Post #AC6gUKRui9InQ2SlfM by SpudsRudeEye@shitposter.club
2021-10-07T02:12:19.972150Z
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@shigeruakagi Define "satisfying"
(DIR) Post #AC6gdUFTe8qkPx0r8i by shigeruakagi@outerheaven.club
2021-10-07T02:13:16.352410Z
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@SpudsRudeEye makes you happy i guess? youre glad when theyre around, maybe u miss them sometimes etc.u feel the feelings are mutual
(DIR) Post #AC6gdUee8Yyzg0mxN2 by SpudsRudeEye@shitposter.club
2021-10-07T02:13:59.364534Z
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@shigeruakagi I depend on my family to be there for me but I cherish my time alone
(DIR) Post #AC6hiZruHNnLFVylxA by shigeruakagi@outerheaven.club
2021-10-07T02:23:03.026186Z
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@SpudsRudeEye i wouldnt say thats all that uncommon, i definitely dont think its bad eitheri wonder if this would change if you just met "the right person". for say, a close friendship i mean
(DIR) Post #AC6hiaMkQiSsnAPP1c by SpudsRudeEye@shitposter.club
2021-10-07T02:26:07.350576Z
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@shigeruakagi It did for awhile, but my good friend moved away and I think he's forgotten me. I reach out to him over the internet but he's largely unemotional and unresponsive in his words towards me now. My therapist said I'm a great friend to him, but he's a lousy friend to me. That seems to be how it always goes with my friendships or relationships-- I put 110% into it and I get back 5% in return. That's part of why I'm a loner.
(DIR) Post #AC6i9PCI3xE1yJJ26i by shigeruakagi@outerheaven.club
2021-10-07T02:28:39.718328Z
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@SpudsRudeEye im really sorry to hear that. that does suck, i feel like ive been in a similar position before. really, i think its just bad luck. there are a lot of people out there, with enough time youre sure to find someone who gives 100% back.i hope you havent lost hope in finding more fulfilling relationships or anything, tho i understand feeling that way too
(DIR) Post #AC6i9PdwP9LLM4F7Cq by SpudsRudeEye@shitposter.club
2021-10-07T02:30:57.779325Z
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@shigeruakagi It's not so much that I lost hope, it's more like I stopped trying to seek out new friends. I'm going to be 34 in a month-- I don't know if I really want to be making friends at my age.
(DIR) Post #AC6iUMAmVCrSfnafbM by shigeruakagi@outerheaven.club
2021-10-07T02:32:04.346606Z
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@SpudsRudeEye theres nothing wrong with making friends at any age!and even if you dont seek them out, you might get lucky. a great friendship might just fall right into your lapi dont think theres any harm in trying to put yourself out there a little more
(DIR) Post #AC6iUMbit2Pc1MCBay by SpudsRudeEye@shitposter.club
2021-10-07T02:34:44.902387Z
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@shigeruakagi I'm kind of a shut-in, I only leave the house if I have an appointment or if I need food or the rare occasion I see my Dad. I used to go to the mall all the time but I kind of stopped doing that because it started filling me with fear, especially after there was a shooting at my mall
(DIR) Post #AC6jfX3YTht3ZE6SjQ by shigeruakagi@outerheaven.club
2021-10-07T02:45:26.628950Z
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@SpudsRudeEye personally i would suggest going out for walks. for starters the exercise is always good and i dont think its ever too late to change up habits or routine. but i also think its just a good, slow approach to maybe having some nice conversations with some new people. nothing crazy, just maybe saying hi to someone walking their dog or something. i think that even if you dont make a new best friend or something, most people are usually pretty sociable and will wanna see you again.
(DIR) Post #AC6jfXYkbiqB7yhNM8 by SpudsRudeEye@shitposter.club
2021-10-07T02:47:58.425761Z
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@shigeruakagi I get pizza at a Little Caesar's near me and they always like seeing me in there because I'll make a big order on a Saturday afternoon and carry it home after waiting and talking to whoever's on duty at the counter
(DIR) Post #AC6sFWtPMaHn7N26F6 by ItsJustSky@sleepy.cafe
2021-10-07T04:21:32.604220Z
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@SpudsRudeEye not sure. People make up all these terms like asexual or whatever but at the end of the day some people are just like that.
(DIR) Post #AC6sFXPfQe5ejQ7rWa by SpudsRudeEye@shitposter.club
2021-10-07T04:24:07.780005Z
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@ItsJustSky I'm kind of a loner. I'd be happy to go to the pond and feed the ducks bread by myself and I'd definitely get more out of it than some emotional date.I remember this one girl was really attached to me, she went out of her way to make me happy and I suddenly cut her out of my life because she wasn't terribly important to me.
(DIR) Post #AC6tBLOsFZ0QGpJps8 by ItsJustSky@sleepy.cafe
2021-10-07T04:30:33.113029Z
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@SpudsRudeEye hmm this do be hittin home a lil. I have this 50/50 feeling of “leave me alone to the woods by myself as i explore this world alone” and “god i just want a gf so bad” and i constantly bounce back and forth
(DIR) Post #AC6tBLsIUAXdk55KjY by SpudsRudeEye@shitposter.club
2021-10-07T04:34:34.717946Z
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@ItsJustSky see I THOUGHT I wanted a girlfriend until I actually had one for two days and I suddenly decided to not just ghost her, but wipe out all evidence I was ever in her life before to hide the shame that I had been sleeping with this woman. I never tried to have a girlfriend again. That was eight years ago.Do I miss her?In the words of Fester at the end of Addams Family Values:Sometimes... late at night.
(DIR) Post #AC6tx6KfZi17RF7muO by ItsJustSky@sleepy.cafe
2021-10-07T04:37:41.383472Z
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@SpudsRudeEye hmm idk. Maybe it just wasnt what you were looking for and because of that you felt it was a mistake so you wanted to cover and ignore it? Idk these are all guesses i havent even gone past a hug with a girl😔
(DIR) Post #AC6tx6njpdGktOj0DY by SpudsRudeEye@shitposter.club
2021-10-07T04:43:12.592042Z
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@ItsJustSky I've done pretty much everything there is to do between a man and woman in the bedroom and it's not fun. You're not missing anything. Maybe I'm just a cold fish, maybe I'm a freak who hates sex, hell-- maybe I'm fucking gay. But I'm beyond the point of caring or even wanting to know. I feel no sexual desire anymore and have an active disinterest in the carnal union of the flesh or in the meeting of empathy between romantic partners.
(DIR) Post #AC6ukshOXPqHdNUVm4 by ItsJustSky@sleepy.cafe
2021-10-07T04:44:58.555744Z
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@SpudsRudeEye maybe its just sex but never with someone who makes it special? Like someone you really really like? Like i said all guesses
(DIR) Post #AC6uktASnL5v5X5j5E by SpudsRudeEye@shitposter.club
2021-10-07T04:52:12.405771Z
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@ItsJustSky I'd rather feed the ducks at the pond, thanks. It's way more fulfilling to go on a quiet, meditative walk through nature than it is to walk hand in hand with someone you think you care about and stare into their eyes and while you think they might think highly of you, you ultimately feel nothing for them-- that's how it is for me, anyway.
(DIR) Post #AC6vHGkKfLJJTyJD8K by ItsJustSky@sleepy.cafe
2021-10-07T04:54:08.990464Z
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@SpudsRudeEye well i hope you find some answers. Going to bed rn so gn! Good luck with this
(DIR) Post #AC6vHHE6sd86yKEzY0 by SpudsRudeEye@shitposter.club
2021-10-07T04:58:03.575295Z
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@ItsJustSky I think I may have already found my answers.
(DIR) Post #AC8pxiydsr4fnBmcCm by xianc78@gameliberty.club
2021-10-08T03:07:54Z
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@ItsJustSky @SpudsRudeEye It is a real thing. I'm the same way, but I'm not an attention whore about it.
(DIR) Post #AC8qD2CyfHQ7mSmxns by SpudsRudeEye@shitposter.club
2021-10-08T03:10:41.565385Z
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@xianc78 @ItsJustSky I'm not trying to be an attention whore, I'm trying to understand myself a little better and it's so rare to meet people who feel the same way I do about... any number of things. When I do, it's great, but they more than often vanish from my life as quickly as they entered it.
(DIR) Post #AC8qv29mDZn2MWGvYW by xianc78@gameliberty.club
2021-10-08T03:18:37Z
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@SpudsRudeEye @ItsJustSky Not saying you were. It's perfectly okay not to be interested in sex or romance. There's a lot more to life than those things. As long as you have a healthy social life and are happy that's all what matters in the end.Just ignore all the SJWs who make a big deal about it. It's them that make being asexual look bad.
(DIR) Post #AC8rBmCqm50fodh2SO by SpudsRudeEye@shitposter.club
2021-10-08T03:21:39.079994Z
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@xianc78 @ItsJustSky I was not aware social justice warriors had commandeered asexuality. I didn't even know it was that well-known of a phenomenon. How do social justice warriors even do anything with it? They're such sex-positive people who I just assumed are always horny. I'm not being facetious, I genuinely can't wrap my head around it.
(DIR) Post #AC8rcgWi01zW1FoRzE by xianc78@gameliberty.club
2021-10-08T03:26:30Z
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@SpudsRudeEye @ItsJustSky They claim that asexuals are more oppressed than lesbians, gays, and bisexuals only because they are usually not included in LGBT+ circles. I honestly don't like the LGBT label because there never was a civil rights struggle for asexuals. There was never anything stopping asexuals from not having sex.
(DIR) Post #AC8s5lMn5EMvQc2ULY by SpudsRudeEye@shitposter.club
2021-10-08T03:31:47.316336Z
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@xianc78 @ItsJustSky They're not part of the LGBT circles because asexuals are not IN the LGBT circles. It's not technically a sexuality, it's the lack of sexuality.Atheists deal with this all the time, saying that "atheism" in the truest sense of the word pontificates the ABSENCE of a god. It comes from some ancient Greek or Latin "A" (without) "Theist" (God) just like asexuality in the clinical sense of the word would follow to mean "without sexuality"This isn't rocket science
(DIR) Post #AC8sLCkHZUnCgbOGKO by xianc78@gameliberty.club
2021-10-08T03:34:34Z
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@SpudsRudeEye @ItsJustSky Well some people lump them into the LGBT acronym. While I do like LGBT people, I don't consider myself part of it for reasons you just mentioned.
(DIR) Post #AC8sTCifYIDUvERyfw by SpudsRudeEye@shitposter.club
2021-10-08T03:36:01.508699Z
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@xianc78 @ItsJustSky Hey, I like LGBT people tooI've done stuff I'm not proud of with a few of them while I was trying to figure myself out but that's besides the point, some of my friends just like to get freaky
(DIR) Post #AC8t5cbFmHcyC1Igoy by Moon@shitposter.club
2021-10-08T03:42:57.835903Z
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@SpudsRudeEye @xianc78 @ItsJustSky this doesn't work because sexuality terms are so malleable that you can be a horny, sexually-active asexual.
(DIR) Post #AC8tE5xkUWZFZorZGy by SpudsRudeEye@shitposter.club
2021-10-08T03:44:29.978122Z
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@Moon @ItsJustSky @xianc78 then I guess there's no good word for whatever the hell it is that I am... https://youtu.be/O4psVQHsUq8