Subj : Felix
To   : Sean Dennis
From : Arelor
Date : Fri Feb 12 2021 03:02:12

  Re: Felix
  By: Sean Dennis to All on Thu Feb 11 2021 09:00 pm

 > Hello All,
 > 
 > Felix is now in peace.  I was with him throughout the entire procedure and I was holding him as his soul left his body.  The
 > vet gave me a hair clipping and the vet tech took a plaster paw print for me.  I am having Felix cremated and his ashes will
 > returned to me.  I'll also get the plaster paw print when I pick up his ashes.
 > 
 > My dad, who is quite the woodworker, is going to make me an oak box to put Felix's ashes in.  He will hold a place of honor 
 > my desk.
 > 
 > I am still in shock and a bit numb about it right now but it'll hit me eventually.
 > 
 > This is the first time in 25 years that I haven't had a pet.  I already feel lonely.  I can't wait to get out of the motorho
 > now so I won't feel so bad.
 > 
 > Felix was in a bad way.  He lost ten pounds, half of his body weight, in six days and was having real problems breathing as 
 > had to breathe in and out of his mouth.  He was so weak he couldn't use the litterbox.  Last night, he was trying to drink
 > water and he collapsed in front of his water fountain.
 > 
 > I know that I did the humane thing but there is a part of me that is resenting my decision.  Felix was my first personal pet
 > (one that I was fully responsible for) so this is hitting me hard.  You'd think at 48 and all the things I've been through i
 > wouldn't be so bad but it is.
 > 
 > I'll get through this ... just will take longer than expected.
 > 
 > Later,
 > Sean
 > 
 > ... Pets were put on Earth to show that unconditional love is real.

I know it does not mean much when somebody seys this over the Internet, but I am incredibly sorry.

Going throught this sort of thing is hard for many reasons. Often, you can't share your pain with friends, because they will
snap with some stupid answer, such as "What's the drama about? It is only a goddamn dog/cat/horse!"

Suffering over whether you made the right decision or not is more frequent than people realizes. Either people wonders whether
they waited too long to put an end to the pet's suffering, or they wonder whether they did it too soon. In the end of the day
is a very hard question to answer. I think it is important you accept that you did what you thought best when you thouight it
was best. That is more than lots of domestic animals get.

In the end of the day, it is the good memories that remain. I find miself clinging to the ones of pets long gone.

Be well.

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