Subj : Re: New job blues
To   : McDoob
From : boraxman
Date : Wed Jun 29 2022 11:07:08

 Mc> The process of getting a new job is full of self-doubt.
 Mc> 
 Mc> I didn't even want to apply. 
 Mc> 
 Mc> I got the interview. And I kicked that interview straight in the balls.
 Mc> Apparently, I set a company record for fastest time completing the
 Mc> aptitude test. Also, the company needs a harder aptitude test...
 Mc> 
 Mc> And yet, as the dawn begins to glow, I am again full of self-doubt! I do
 Mc> not deserve it. I am not good enough, even though I know I am; I'm still
 Mc> waiting for the other shoe to drop.
 Mc> 
 Mc> Well, if they're stupid enough to give me a job, I'm stupid enough to
 Mc> take it.
 Mc> 
 Mc> McDoob
 Mc> SysOp, PiBBS
 Mc> 

The one who has doubt here is you.  The only thing that matters here, is can you learn to do it?  Have you learned and picked up skills in the past?  Sounds like you've got a bit of 'imposter' syndrome.

Once I felt that way, after a job that actually didn't work out. The feeling wasn't real, wasn't justified.  I doubted myself, despite ace-ing the interview (and I was told straight after the interview I was head and shoulders above all else).  It took a while to accept I was doing the job well, and I was there for years, quit THREE times, with them asking me back once and not wanting to accept me resignation the time before that.  So clearly my initial thoughts were wrong.

Sadly we humans can sometimes believe, really really feel to be true, things that aren't actually true.  Look at this with a cold heart and hard head.  It's purely a matter of applying knowledge and skills, and unless you know of specific things you won't be able to learn to do which you will need to be able to do, you're feelings are probably not based on rational thought.

Relax, the worst that can happen (if likely, which it probably isn't), is you end up in the same position as you would have been if you didn't take the job anyway.  What have you got to lose?

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