# haiku

here are my haikus written by yours truly

given life circumstances they seem to be<br>
one of the best activities to have

i apologise for repeating words, themes, given<br>
these are written randomly and haphazardly<br>
given my unstable and miserable emotional<br>
state

i am aware what haikus are and some of these are proper. some of these are senryu, some of these are zappai, i just enjoy writing 17 syllable poems... can't be helped

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# between 2024-2025

> some days last too long<br>
> i stay with myself and do<br>
> but i forget to

> back in my hometown<br>
> without serious reasons<br>
> resting for myself

> i write haikus so<br>
> i can see myself fully<br>
> it is all pretend

> i have many joys<br>
> yet some of them are not mine<br>
> i just carry them

> i wish i could stop<br>
> crying; lying; wishing; now<br>
> but that is not me

> other peoples lives<br>
> difficult to understand<br>
> yet they will make me

> i wish headaches pass<br>
> but i have one now and live<br>
> so is my being

> walking through old streets<br>
> reminiscing about past<br>
> my feet on the ground

> the eternal love<br>
> so beautiful yet so hard<br>
> redemption comes late

> for the highest form<br>
> closing eyes in the wind help<br>
> doors unopened open

> nobody standing<br>
> opposed to oneself bricks come<br>
> clear waters flowing

> dreams of the touches<br>
> my fingers remembering<br>
> but it is past now

> one thousand days last<br>
> one million days also lasts<br>
> just have to make it

> deep sleep ends with day<br>
> waking tends to be painful<br>
> have more things to do

> headache headache head<br>
> headache headache headache heads<br>
> paracetamol dreams of

> try to forget all<br>
> things still remain there for me<br>
> but i will manage

> toothache passed quite fine<br>
> maybe other pains will pass<br>
> uncommon hopes arrive too

> mend a broken heart<br>
> let go of what was for you<br>
> i understand pain

> was it a mistake?<br>
> to try one's best to have things<br>
> future has answers

> i still remember<br>
> all of the moments and whiles<br>
> i wish to forget

> coping with life pains<br>
> enduring all that remains<br>
> hope for it to pass

> who even was she?<br>
> a bunch of moments and joys.<br>
> pain only remains

> i miss her a lot.<br>
> never to come back, i stay.<br>
> things will come anew.

> my neck hurts a bit<br>
> thinking of the days to come<br>
> will they also change?

> miss her still sadly<br>
> i am suffering the pain<br>
> tea is so bitter.

> wearing my glasses<br>
> seeing clearly and frankly<br>
> i'm full of errors.

> in eight square meters<br>
> whole life, being, ownership<br>
> to leave it again

> tea tastes like spinach<br>
> yet i still drink it daily<br>
> where are the small towns?

> dla ciebie ja pies<br>
> bez wartosci i sensu<br>
> by wykrwawic mnie!

//

> me for you a dog<br>
> no value no meaning<br>
> fucking bleeding rn!

> szczerosc prawdziwa<br>
> rozerwana rana w<br>
> podartym plaszczu

//

> a real honesty<br>
> wound fully ripped<br>
> in torn-out coat

> chcialem rozmowy<br>
> tylko tej zamiany slow<br>
> ja obecnie placze.

//

> wanted a chat<br>
> just swap some words<br>
> in tears i am

> komu ja udaje<br>
> to wszystko ujdzie gownem<br>
> tobie zaufac znow

//

> pretending for who<br>
> it all will get fucked up<br>
> will trust you again

> moje oczy sa<br>
> poddane dzielom innych.<br>
> ciagle za duzo

//

> my eyes are<br>
> through others doing<br>
> uninterruptibly

> world in constant hurt<br>
> find some calm for a moment<br>
> the hum of the rain

> Brak pozostanie,<br>
> ja nie musze szukac ich.<br>
> Jestem sam sobie.

//

> lack remains<br>
> not seeking them<br>
> there is only me

> pozostac soba<br>
> nie musiec byc z innymi<br>
> co przyniesie to?

//

> remaining myself<br>
> not present with others<br>
> what will that bring?

> nie potrafie byc<br>
> w pelni na kogos zly<br>
> wszystko sie zmienia

//

> just can't<br>
> target absolute anger<br>
> everything changes

> ciagle wybaczam<br>
> i niemozliwosc oceny<br>
> to sa wybory

//

> constant forgiveness<br>
> impossibility of distinction<br>
> these are choices

> uciec wspomnieniom<br>
> niech przyjdzie nowy dzien tu<br>
> mam juz bardzo dosc

//

> to run away from memories<br>
> let the new day come<br>
> tired of this as hell

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## 2026

> again the summer<br>
> reality drowns in sweat<br>
> cool will return too.

> where does my cat run?<br>
> now i do not own a cat<br>
> conundrum emerges

> the wind has not blown<br>
> i just have to stand stations<br>
> or standing at them?

> front of the laptop<br>
> my entire life gets compressed<br>
> fox running outdoors

> used to drink cheap tea<br>
> now i drink expensive one<br>
> for whom the enjoyment?

> here everyone lies<br>
> confidence men at each corner<br>
> i drink my coffee

> sleeping in my bed<br>
> here i am comfortable<br>
> why do i wake up?

> each day i expect<br>
> its constant ending and yet<br>
> days keep remaining

> calendar on wall<br>
> each page is another day<br>
> a snail lost his path

> tiny dog's dinner<br>
> meat and bones bring happiness<br>
> who will drive my taxi?

> Buddha under trees<br>
> here, forests are for all of us<br>
> snail with voting rights

> toothbrush once again<br>
> in my hands for what purpose<br>
> a tiny porpoise

> heatwaves also pass<br>
> summer with all its strangeness<br>
> cleaning up the leaves

> meow meow sir<br>
> little cat is serious<br>
> sun in the river

> sometimes everyone<br>
> is late to that which matters<br>
> who's what's when's on time?

> kazdy ma swoje<br>
> wielkie proble my zycia<br>
> szczury w upale

//

> everyone has theirs<br>
> grand struggles of life<br>
> rats in the heat

> my heart is dancing<br>
> winds blow in all directions<br>
> fishes lost in seas

> wolf's forest daft run<br>
> small footsteps in the fresh snow<br>
> tears of family

> slug on a journey<br>
> backpack is way too heavy<br>
> spring is put to use

> old building in spring<br>
> flowers through the peaceful grass<br>
> smoke over chimney<br>

> trash during the storm<br>
> hence it all keeps getting wet<br>
> sardines have sadness<br>

> my loneliness stays<br>
> trying to replace the joys<br>
> it is just the season<br>

> imperfections mine<br>
> you yell in the after noon<br>
> a joyful shitstick