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Stardate: 20230814.1510
Location: Family Room
Input Device: Steam Deck (navi) attached to TV.
Audio: Downstairs dryer
Visual: TV with boxes running debian vm running Xfce with x2go
session attached to lab workstation running ratpoison/nano.
Energy: 50%
Mental: 50%
Emotional: questioning.
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"...If our work does not support our soul, then the soul will exact
its butcher's bill elsewhere. Wherever the soul's agenda is not
served, some pathology will service in the arena of daily life.
We may choose careers, but we do not choose vocation. Vocation
chooses us. *To choose what chooses us* is a freedom the by-product
of which will be a sense of rightness and a harmony within, even if
lived out in the world of conflict, absent validation, and at
considerable personal cost.
Too often we remain in service to the agenda of the first half of
life when the soul has already moved on to the agenda of the second.
In the first half of life there is a place for ambition, for the
driving powers of the ego, which compel us to over throw our fears
and to step into the world. As we have seen, the chief task of the
first half of life is to build a sense of ego strength sufficient to
engage relationship, social role expectations, and to support
oneself. But we all fall into an overidentification with the ego and
these various roles, no matter how worthy they may be, and often they
are not, ego identifications alone will not suffice to satisfy the
soul over the long run..." [1]
[1] Hollis, James. Finding Meaning in the Second Half of Life: How
To Finally, Really Grow Up.
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