culled from everything2.com: -sometimes, do you wish you were someone else, someone with a better house, more than one car, nice children who did everything you told them to, white picket fence sunday afternoons spent at church dinners at the relatives at the coast...? -don't you know that whatever respect i have for you is lost when you yell and treat me like shit? (if it wasn't so often maybe i could call it a character flaw) (or when you don't have the courage to treat me at all) what did you see in my mother that made you think she was the one? why won't you grant me one wish and just leave me the hell alone? why didn't you ever teach me about stopping to smell the flowers? were you so busy easing my upbringing that you forgot to teach me stuff? when does it all start to make sense? did you know all along? should I? What do you think of me? what do you think of yourself? am I that different? What do you think of the way your life turned out? What is the one thing I've done that's made you proudest of me? Mom has told me... Were you disappointed when I was nine and called our hiking trip short because I missed my mom? Do you really like my girlfriend? do you know that i'm constantly searching on aol to try and find you, not to talk to you -- just to see what you'd say on your profile? do you know how helpless i feel sometimes without you around to fix things? do you know how badly i wish i had paid attention to everything when you were teaching me things only so i wouldn't have to feel so helpless?? maybe you just never did ... do you know who i am? do you know what matters to me? so many fathers who don't realize how important they are.