=) I was afriad you'd hit me if I'd spoken up. Am I in heaven here or am I in hell? Hold on, hold on to yourself. For this is gonna hurt like hell. All I feel is cold. What. Uh-huh. The page is gone. I lost it. I've been crazy a long time now. I make believe... That I have a new life. Sticks and stones may break my bones... I say, let fate take its own course, I'm taking mine! I wish that everyone lived in a happy place... And tell me Everything is wonderful now. I'm in over my head. You never know what you have until it's gone. You are never alone. I just don't understand how you can smile with all those tears in your eyes. I go to my room and I close my eyes. I never thought I'd die alone. I got no on but myself to blame. If the rest of my life is going to be like this, Think I would rather die. I don't wanna be the guy who is always on the outside. It can come from out of nowhere, hit you when you're safe and warm. I'm not going to let you hurt me anymore. Sometimes I get to a point where I don't give a damn about anything ... anymore. The world is not enough. Let's take the solar system too. Anything but... It could happen here today. Something's telling me I'm in too deep and I'm trying to keep up above in my head instead of going under, again. God knows even Angels fall. Maybe if I could keep it together... don't you think I'd try? Maybe if I could make something of this... why wouldn't I? I'm tired of the blame being put on my head. Loving might be a mistake, but it's worth making. Living might mean taking chances but they're worth taking. I don't care about that. Don't wait by the phone for him to call -- get an answering machine. I woke with a broken heart. Why. .