Subj : Re: One more?
To   : STEVEN VAN VLIET
From : JIM STAAL
Date : Wed Oct 24 2001 03:07 pm

-=> STEVEN VAN VLIET wrote to JIM STAAL <=-

 JS> SVV> I can only hop that others don't see MY typos as readily. ;)

 JS>LOL! Sounds like things are back to norbal for you.

 SVV> Yep. ;)

 SVV> I feel compelled to start having fun again.

 SVV> Immediately after Sept. 11th I was extremely depressed and a victim of
 SVV> near constant crying binges,

Yeah? Me too, to a lessor degree as far as frequency, but certainly to similar
degree of intensity. (I credit the many meds that I take and the bi-weekly 
visits to the analyst to the less frequent occurances. Seriously.)

 SVV> then came the anger phase where I lashed
 SVV> out at everyone and everything, then a phase of serious contemplation
 SVV> and serious discussion and debate about the whole mess. Now it's time
 SVV> for me to lighten up and start enjoying myself.

Sounds like you went throught several typical stages of grieving and finally
reaching some sort of acceptance on the whole thing. I did a bit of that
myself.
Of course, the VAST amount of my waking hours both day and night are spent
alone,
by myself. I work out/through a lot of my stuff quite audibly if I so desire,
usually
with good results. One time this last year the doc and I were trying without
this
particular mood stabilizer and I did great for about 6 weeks, but in the space
of
a weekend I totally crashed and burned in the parking lot of my out patient gig
with my on board Ginzu to my throat bawling 'I need he-e-e-lp!' (Wilbur works
during the day and I work a pt time night shift, solo running and AM and FM 
radio station (50,000 watts on the FM)). Yeah, I saw the 'and' typo for 'an'
above
and I just don't care. :-) Call it my signature, if you will.

 SVV>Even though we have a
 SVV> war going on and anthrax about.

 SVV> Hey, if "this is the end" I'm gonna enjoy my last days. ;)

Yeah, and like the big Washington dudes say (GW, Surgeon General, head of the
Post
-al Service, Guilliani...oops NY fat cat) go on about your business as usual,
(if
you become paralyzed with fear, the terrorists have won.) but be aware of
what's
going on. BTW, I am glad I live in a relatively insignificant midwestern town.
:-)

 SVV> (Not that I seriously believe this is the end. It IS a period of
 SVV> serious concerns of possible other biological weapons being used
 SVV> against us though, and there is nothing I can do about it, so I might
 SVV> as face it all with that in mind and blow some wise cracks and humor in
 SVV> all directions. Hey, it couldn't hurt.)

Yeah. Like this guy at the pro audio place I get stuff said 'whoa, dude! look
what
somebody sent me! <woofing sounds as nose goes to the mirror>', to which I
replied,
'wow, man, it burns my nose, man. let's cook it up.'

Is this kinda stuff off topic?



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