發信人: desktopstud@hotmail.com (Lawrence) 日期: Fri, 7 Feb 2003 15:04:14 -0500 標題: The True Face Of Scientology 信群: alt.chinese.text.big5 看板: 來源: :23838, 68.37.114.202 組織: Here are some hard won facts about the Church of Scientology, presented to you as a public message for your protection. In 1975, I was a 16 year old New Jersey high school sophomore. I found a copy of Dianetics: The Modern Science of Mental Health, by L. Ron Hubbard, in a box in our family basement. I read the whole book and understood it. So, I wrote to the Church of Scientology (a.k.a. Hubbard Dianetics Research Foundation) in N.Y.C. for more information and was written back within one week. I phoned the church, and was invited to come in so I went there instead of going to school one morning. I spoke to a registrar (a person who takes money and signs people up) named Debbie Kagan, when I got there. Later that morning, I took some written tests and was given an interview on a special meter. The result was a technical estimate that stated I needed 275 hours of auditing (counselling by an auditor) to be a more happy, healthy, high I.Q. individual. 25 Hours of auditing at that time, was about $2,500.00. I took the technical estimate home to my parents, and explained I wanted to be audited. My father drove my mother and I to the church and the three of us spoke to a few staff members at the church who explained more about auditing, auditor training, and church jobs to us. Our family did not have enough money for auditing and training so, I agreed to come back when I was 18 (the legal adult age) and start over. The next week Debbie Kagan, the registrar, came to our house in the middle of the week, without letting us know in advance and stayed for almost 2 hours. She used $10.00 of her own money, (so she said) as payment to an account opened using my name by her as a favor, at the church for a Communications Course. I went back with $10.00 and repaid her the following week and started the course while I was supposed to be in school. I was taken off the course by Sally Allerdice, a church chaplain because I was supposed to be in shcool. When I became 18, or if I had an adult to accompany me before then, I needed to see Sally for an OK to go back on course. I finished school and turned 18 in 1977 and went back to see Sally Allerdice while I was out looking for a job. I was told by Cathy MacMurray and Susan Davis, whom I saw instead, that Sally had left for the day when I got there. Cathy and Susan were another church registrar and a Treasurer respectively. They told me, it was not necessary for me to speak with Sally, because they could see the kind of person that I was. Cathy and Susan worked for a different group in the church than Sally did, called the Foundation (FDN). Sally worked for a group in the church called the Day Organization (D). These are two financially separate church staffs and a fact not revealed to me by Cathy, Susan or Sally. Susan Davis then stole my NY D account from that groups files and "transferred" it to the NY FDN files as her own paid new customer. I was taken back to the course I was on previously by Cathy MacMurray and restarted and this is how I got into Scientology. I received the Student of the Week award after 2 weeks, for perfect attendance and academic achievement and was offered a job on staff with the NY FDN. I did Staff Status 0, a staff only training course and started the Student Hat Course (a course about studying) and began working in HCO (Hubbard Communications Office) as an expediter or messenger. Bob Cucarullo was the senior person in that department at the time or my boss. The HCO office had a huge window in it, able to be seen from many other buildings on the block. The window was draped with a U.S. Confederate flag. One evening I got "auditing" from Bob Cucarullo in this office. I was becoming upset recalling a past experience I had. During the "auditing session", my eyes opened and Bob Cucarullo was seated in front of me, with a confused expression on his face. Because he was a "bad" auditor I was left with an emotional scar from that experience. In August 2001, I saw Bob Cucarullo crossing an intersection in NYC. We spoke for a few minutes for the first time in over 20 years. He said he was "not in Scientology any more, since about 20 years ago, around the time he met me". He talked a little bit about "his" auditing and we said goodbye. My FDN church job hours were 3:30 P.M. to 5:30 P.M. M-F (Study time) 6:00 P.M to10:00 P.M. M-F (Work time) 9:00A.M. to 6:00 P.M. S-S (Work time). I was offered a second job for during the day weekdays, at a Scientologist owned and operated company called Livingcraft, that manufactured pillows. A NY FDN staff member, and admitted former heroin addict, named Frank Tiernan already worked there and offered me the job. One of the owners of Livingcraft, was Raymond Baiardi, also a former drug user and the Executive Director of the NY FDN church at the as well. He was partners in the company with a man named Marcel Femine, who was a NY FDN student. Raymond Baiardi did not approve of taking government state and federal taxes out of any employees wages, so I did not like the illegal nature of this job. I told Raymond Baiardi I was not happy there and began looking for a new job. I was introduced to NY FDN student Susan Cox one weekend, who lived about 10 minutes from my house. She offered me a ride home and told me on the way home she can smoke marijuana and study Scientology at the same time. I got a new job for during the day at another Scientologist owned company in N.Y.C., 3 blocks from Livingcraft called Loftcraft, that manufactured bedding and bedroom furniture. A NY FDN staff member hired me as her replacement there. My Loftcraft supervisor, Marcia Valente Cruz, oriented me about employees with whom I was allowed to discuss Scientology and ones with whom I was not. Several people came in to the church, to route off courses and staff at different times. These men and women were given a real rough time verbally and physically, by the church staff they had to deal with in order to leave. When I asked honestly of other staff that knew these leaving people "Who are they and why are they leaving?", I was told they are "troublemakers", and I should have nothing to do with them. Loftcraft was owned by Randolph Parsons, a NY FDN student, and his wife Isabelle Szuldiner Falcaro Parsons, a NY FDN auditor. Loftcraft was co-owned by George Goodrich, who was a Scientologist with his wife Dina. Loftcraft deducted state and federal governement taxes from my wages, so I worked there during the day when not at the church. One morning, Isabelle Parsons sent me to the Division of Motor Vehicles in downtown Manhattan to register her car. I was denied permission by the DMV clerk to register her car, because Isabelles signature, not mine, was needed in order to make the registration document legally binding. I did not own a car at that time, and commuted by train into the city and so was not experienced with registering cars. She sent me on this errand, not because she needed to have her car registered, but rather to create a reference other people she had to deal with at the church higher up than herself could use as proof of how suggestible of a person I really was. While I worked there, Loftcraft got cited by the City of New York for 65 active building code violations. Isabelle appointed two staff members of hers, Tina Small Kott and her husband Jim Kott to handle the city. The city inspectors needed to re-verify the violations were being corrected and offered assistance getting them corrected with a surprise followup visit. Before the visit, I was ordered to remove from the building walls, desktops and visible areas, all Dianetics, Scientology and L. Ron Hubbard materials and references of any kind. Job applications had been rejected by the company from people who had degrees and training the company was looking for. The jobs were given instead to church staff that had no such degrees or training. The Loftcraft management did not want the city accusing them of discrimination in addition. After 2 months of perfect attendance and good reports about me, Isabelle fired me without notice, "for being a potential trouble source." I picked up my last check from Loftcraft the following week. That evening I went to the church and while I was on course, I was sent to Reverend Nancy Levin, by Bob Cucarullo. Nancy Levin, was one of Loftcraft's veteran employees and a church chaplain and ethics officer (one who reviews other peoples ethics for compatibility with Scientology). She and Bob took me into a private office and told me that, I was PTS (potential trouble source), and needed to petition the church for permission to be on course, on staff and get auditing. They both briefed me on how and what to write to the church Guardian in the Guardians Office (GO). This is a former church office, now called the Office of Special Affairs (OSA) that fights church threats legally. They reviewed the petition and gave me an OK to place it in the GO IN basket. Bob Cucarullo was then immediately hired by Isabelle as my replacement at Loftcraft. Raymond Baiardi transferred me to a Dianetics Center downtown on 6th Avenue in N.Y.C. to await my reponse from the GO. The center was owned by Mr. and Mrs. Howard and Mary Rower, both very wealthy N.Y.C. Scientologists. I worked there part time for David Simon and George Chelekis, both of whom seldom came in. I did general office clerk/typist type duties to boost Dianetics book sales from the center. 2 months later my petition had still not come back. I went to the church every evening to check if it had been picked up yet. At first, more documents were being piled on top of it each day, in the basket where I left it, but one evening it was gone. During a visit to the GO to check on the petition, Raymond Baiardi was standing at the bottom of the stairs leading to the GO, which was on the 4th floor of the church, talking to a staff member. As I went past him he tried kicking me with his right foot and then returned to his conversation and made some remark about me. So, while I was checking on this petition this way, I was asked on one of these visits by Debbie Kagan Ward and Susan Becher to work for the GO. Debbie Kagan married GO staff member Pat Ward. Susan Becher was married to Wes Becher. All 4 of these people were church GO staff. They needed someone part time so I signed a $10,000.00 bond as an employment contract. It stated that if I reveal the activities of the GO or my work in the GO, to anyone outside the GO, that I will be obligated to pay the GO $10,000.00. They could in turn then use any means available to them to collect it, so Susan Becher and Debbie Ward signed the bond as witnesses and I started working part time for the GO. I typed into documents for the GO, many hours of secretly recorded telephone conversations between GO staff, and N.Y.C. and N.Y. state government officials, as well as executive persons from other religious groups. I wore headphones to prevent others from hearing what I was typing. These recorded people were interviewed making statements that Scientology is not qualified to operate the facilities it is asking for licenses to open. Narconon and Applied Scholastics are two of these facilities. The GO upon receipt of this information then "authorized" people to call, write, visit, and sent me, for example, on projects to, from and regarding, the offices and residences of these "outspoken" people. These people were badgered, confused or intimidated into issuing licenses to the church to open its desired facilities, one way or another. The GO for example, announced that the French based police organization Interpol, had been infiltrated by the GO, and discovered to be a drug smuggling ring not a police organization. Raymond Baiardi delivered this message to all the staff one afternoon at a special meeting, with several members of the GO present with him in the room. Aside from his announcement, I never ever heard anything else about it again, ever, from anyone anywhere outside the church. It was not on TV or in the newspapers. Information such as this would be used by the GO to blackmail people into submission. The F.B. I. raided several churches of Scientology around the country in the early morning one morning and confiscated church books, records and materials around this time. Several staff of these churches were arrested and jailed. The GO organized a protest, involving busloads of Scientologists ,over 250 of them, that traveled from N.Y.C. to Washington D.C. to protest these raids. A picket line was set up on the sidewalks surrounding the F.B.I. building. I was asked to participate in this event and was there. The event was televised on national TV. The trip was co-paid for by Howard and Mary Rower. Sometimes no one was in the GO at night to supervise me and I was sent into the church Academy (school) by other church staff, to work with church public. I was often assigned to "word clear" student public. I have never been trained and interned as a word clearer, (one who helps students to clear up misunderstood words on materials they are reading). I was asked to word clear public students anyway. The materials I word cleared people on, were levels above my own training level and were also materials that I had not previously read or sometimes heard of yet. Public came into the church buying training courses and auditing at professional rates. The public who bought training were "word cleared" by me, so as to get them through their training faster, so they could be put on an internship and graduate, and start their next training course sooner. The people who bought auditing were turned over to these untrained student interns to be audited, so the interns could graduate. In this way, the church made money, looked productive, and the public never ever got what it paid for. This is how staff become elgible for the free church services that come with their jobs, is by these "fake production statistics". The false statistics are reported to someone at the church who in turn gives the church credit towards its staffs free elgible job auditing and training for their work. Auditing is very expensive and most staff members do not have money to buy these services themselves, they must earn them. Some staff are given a bill, by the church, in the amount, of the total dollar value of all free auditing and training they got on their jobs. This is called a Freeloaders debt. It is much like a court summons as far as progress in Scientology is concerned. You may not continue until it is paid in full. If you are released from your church job for negative reasons or leave it first without authorization you may get a freeloaders debt. Because I was not permanently posted in the church ever, this did not apply to me. During the time I was "employed" at the church, I was paid about $4.00 per week. During that time, I saw Sally Allerdice almost every day, and spoke to her all the time. She never once asked me why I did not come back to see her as she had asked me to. I never heard back on my petition and was instructed by Bob Cucarullo to resubmit it to a higher GO officer and/or LRH (L. Ron Hubbard, founder of Dianetics and Scientology) for approval. I got a job with a non-Scientology N.Y.C. fashion designer, and ceased working for the church. I sent a new petition to LRH and did not hear back after 1 month, so I wrote LRH asking him why he had not responded yet. I gave my home address instead of the church as the return address. I heard back from LRH within 14 days. He stated, he had already approved my petition and sent it back to me weeks ago, at the NY FDN. He sent me a copy of the letter he had sent me containing the approved petition. In the letter it stated that the reason he was sending me this copy was in case I still had not received his first letter to me yet. He told me to make the most of this good news and said good luck. I never agreed that this petition was correct for me to be doing, in the first place, it was just the only route to auditing and training being offered to me by the church. Secondly, I was completely unaware that LRH had written to me earlier, with an approved petition, because I never got it, it mysteriously vanished somewhere. I later learned that it had not mysterioulsy vanished along with my petition to the GO, but that both of these items had been intercepted and stolen, on the way to their destination or on the way back by the same NY FDN staff member that also came up with the idea of what to do with the information in them. Around this time I was asked to work for another Scientology church in Florida called Flag, and asked to do a Hubbard Personal Ethics and Integrity Course by another church in California called the American Saint Hill Organization Foundation of the Church of Scientology of California. These people called my house and wrote to me. I paid for the course at the church in L.A. and went there to do it. I arrived in L.A and was confused by the staff, into joining the Flag Operations Liaison Office Church of Scientology there (FOLO), instead of doing the course I had paid for. FOLO church is now called Continental Liaison Office (CLO). A FOLO job was different than a N.Y.C. church job because the FOLO was staffed by an elite group of people called the Sea Organization (SO). SO members receive free room and board, meals, training, auditing, transportation, time off, pay and vacation with their jobs, unlike ordinary staff members. In the SO, we slept men with men, and women with women only, several each to a room, in a rundown hotel called the Hollywood Inn on Hollywood Boulevard. We carpooled each day to the main complex on Fountain Avenue in Hollywood, where we worked and were fed. My job consisted of full time manual labor. The food served in the SO was rationed, unhealthful and not sufficient enough in amount to nourish anyone. For the more than one month I was there I was not paid one cent for one hour of work I performed. I started work at 9:00 A.M. and finished work at 10:30 P.M. every day. I was given 1 day off every 13 days by request only for good behavior. I had to buy my own uniform which I was required to wear under penalty. I bought most of my meals outside the church at local diners and stores with my own money and not with church pay. I sometimes ate at a restaurant named George's New York that was located across the street from the main complex. It was owned by George and Dina Goodrich, and Randy and Isabelle Parsons were regulars there almost every day. The 4 of them were in L.A. to get more advanced church auditing available only at SO churches in L.A. following Loftcraft's bankruptcy. I was assigned to the Flag Readiness Unit (FRU) in the FOLO. This was a barely surviving church group. I received an ethics interview, and was placed on my New Era Dianetics Drug Rundown to qualify me as ready to be shipped to work at the main church called Flag in Clearwater, Florida. I was once ordered to mop the floor of the FOLO office. There was no money for detergent, so I used plain water and the floor would not come clean. I asked the boss, Grace Brown "What should I clean the floor with?", and she said "Try using hot water." Meanwhile, her boss started complaining to her that the floor was dirty. Sometimes I was driven to work sites, such as Celebrity Center Church of Scientology of L.A., but always for labor type duties. Grace Brown finally states that I am to be hired as a full time auditor trainee by Flag. I was told to go next door to the other church where I had paid for the course and buy a full set of auditor reference volumes and an auditing meter with my donations in preparation for being sent to Flag. I did not need to show any I.D. to the bookstore officer to use any or all of the money on my account. The bookstore officer pretended he knew who I was and what I was doing there. Anyone could have gone there and said they were me and used hundreds of dollars in my account to buy things and walk home. Church policy, U.S. and international law says, that auditing meter (E-Meter) sales are restricted to Scientologists only, who are, ordained ministers of the church and enrolled students training on church courses that require an E Meter. I am not now, nor have I ever been, qualified to own an E-Meter. That church bookstore officer broke the law with my own hard earned money right to my face! The lack of pay is what really prompted me to leave. One evening I went roller skating in Hollywood instead of showing up for a staff muster. The next day, when I came back, I was not allowed to enter the church and was told that because I had gone roller skating without authorization that I was released from my job and required to vacate the Hollywood Inn. I started packing, and realized the books I bought were too big to bring home in my luggage. So, I left them behind to the church staff. I slept in the Hollywood Inn "without permission", for 2 days, while waiting for money from home and left as soon as it came. I brought the E Meter home and showed it to my family. I never heard from the FOLO again, except for when my auditing folder was mailed to me at home 2 weeks after I left L.A. with instructions to turn it in to Cathy MacMurray at the church in N.Y.C. After dropping the folder off to Cathy I went to see a representative of the Flag church who was in N.Y.C. This representative, called a Flag Service Consultant (FSC), was a woman named Kitty Kahn, whose job it is to accept advance donations from people who want to go to Flag as public for auditing and training. I explained my situation to her because I thought Flag services were right for me but she would not open an account for me at Flag because I was not financially well off enough. She would not give me any brochures available about Flag to read and learn more from, because these were reserved for more privileged customers too. Over 2 years passed from the time my money was "turned down" by her, to the time I actually questioned Flag myself about opening an account. I had to telephone Flag, write to them and then send my donations "secretly", without involving the Flag Service Consultant in any way, in order to open a Flag account. I was told by the person at Flag I was opening the account with, that anybody is welcome to open an account anytime, anywhere for any amount at Flag. While I was working at the FOLO in L.A. I also worked sometimes in the office of the FSC there, whose names were Fred and Gretchin Schwarz, so I knew a little bit about Flag and its clientele. This is why I went to see the FSC in N.Y.C. There was an event at the church in N.Y.C. later that year. Scientologists from N.Y.C. who had received newly released auditing at Flag came back, and talked about gains they experienced from their auditing. I was invited and went to the event. Howard Rower was a guest speaker at this event. Howard Rower was thrown out of the church in 1982 and lost the mission for having an adulterous relationship for 7 years with a subordinate staff member at his mission. He opened a disco instead after losing status in the church. His relationship with his wife was never stable the whole time I knew the both of them anyway, regardless of how they tried to cover it up. He died in November 2000. Kitty Kahn was the hostess of this event. The event kicked off with her walking onstage in the church auditorium, filled with about 500+ standing room only guests, and beginning a confession of her crimes to the audience. She confessed being guilty of crimes while in Australia, where she was sent by the church with her lady friend Jody Marshall, on a special mission earlier in the year. Jody Marshall was also present that evening. Kitty concluded by informing us who all should have known about her crime besides us. This allegedly enlightened the audience somehow. Kitty then introduced adulterer and soon to be expelled church member, Howard Rower as "the funniest man on the planet" to the audience. She then described "tear jerking experiences" he and she had when she was selling Flag auditing to him, and then he spoke. After Howard the other guests Amanda Ambrose, Helen Geltman and Jody Marshall spoke, and then Kitty did a questions and answers with the audience about Flag and LRH and was annoyed by people asking her questions. Before the show, Amanda Ambrose, a singer and acquaintance, asked me to set up the stage for her performance which was to be part of the event that night. She asked me backstage after her performance to thank me personally for helping her. As we were talking, Kitty Kahn came backstage, and burst out laughing about me in my face while I was talking to Amanda and told Amanda that I was a joke. After returning from L.A., I lost my job in N.Y.C. with a fashion designer. My boss would not accept Scientology as a good enough reason to have left my job that would have eventually been worth over $200,000.00 a year to me. The import office where we worked that I was being trained to take over, was closed. 1 year later my former boss remarried and moved to New Haven, Connecticut. The two of us after being good friends socially and good co workers, still have not spoken to each other since. When I left L.A., I still had about $10.00 left in my account at the church. So, I gave up the idea of working in N.Y.C. and paying for my own auditing and training. All this while still living at home with my family at just 18 years old. Thanks to the Church of Scientology. In the fall of 1979, I received a letter from the N.Y.C. church chaplain, asking me to come in for an interview, to discuss my departure from the church. I was interviewed by more than 4 different staff over a period of 8 weeks, each one with his or her own individual understanding of my situation. I am told I must confess my crimes on Scientology and accept "Amnesty" from the church. I came in each weekend for several weeks and wrote up all the "hidden" crimes of my life and turned them in to any one of the several staff members I was being reviewed by each week and accepted the church Amnesty or forgiveness progam when finished. I had no Scientology crimes to report so, I was only able to write up things that happened before Scientology, around the ages of 5 to 16. Example: accidentally breaking my fathers record player when I was 12 and not telling him causing a fight to break out. Nothing to do with Scientology whatsoever. After attesting that I was free of hidden crimes, Anna Balash, one of the chaplains, called me into her office for a "special cycle" she said we were had to do. She stated, in her findings on me, that I: (19 years of age at the time of this "cycle") 1. Was a former and possibly still a current member, of the Church of Satan in San Francisco, CA, which is at least 5,000 miles from my house. 2. Had attempted suicide several times, not just with a handgun, but dangerous barbiturates as well. 3. Was a potential source of trouble to the church. 4. Had left a N.Y.C. FDN church job and training course without permission. (and had a possible freeloaders debt). 5. Had left the 6th Avenue center job without permission. 6. Had left the GO job without permission and possibly owed them $10,000.00 on a broken bond. 7. Had committed various other crimes around the church in addition to what was already "reported". 8. Had altered my auditing folder to confuse the church staff about me. 10. Had engaged in sexually questionable acts. First of all, the things I wrote up for the church, did not even vaguely resemble what Anna Balash accused me of hiding from others and the church. The proof is that people who attempt suicide, must be tried in court first for doing that and are then normally sent to a psychiatrist for review and treatment as justice. According to Anna Balash, I hid my suicide attempts and membership in the Church of Satan, from my family, my school, the law, and the church to avoid being found out. She claims others were lying to me as well, to confuse me about what the truth really is, to stop the church from doing its job of helping people. I was "ordered" by her in writing to do the following if I wanted to continue thinking about getting auditing and training. 1. A complete life history write up. 2. Notarization of an affidavit stating that the churches findings about me were true. (This was to demonstrate to others that I was crazy and believed these "findings" could be proved). 3. A Guardians Office World Wide Form 5 Green Form Security Check, to be delivered to me as auditing at professional church rates. 4. A new petition to the GO. 5. An additional, hidden crime write up of any or all other hidden crimes I accumulate during this process. When this was done, all the information would be sent to the GO as a package. This package would then be approved or disapproved, regarding allowing me to get aduting and training or be on staff. Anna Balash would then inform me of the GO's answer to "our package" when she gets it and advise me on what my next step is going to be. I showed Anna Balash the petition LRH had approved for me. She stated that LRH's approved petition was not valid in this particular matter. After this briefing she took me to the registrar to begin paying for the audited Security Check portion of the procedure, for which I was asked to purchase at minimum of 12 1/2 hours of auditing. The registrar was now Raymond Baiardi, former Executive Director of the church. Anna explained to him that my "cycle" should go smoothly. I wanted to report this "smooth cycle" to the Police, as church crime in progress, but, I did not know enough about the law at that age, I was never a big lawbreaker anyway, and did not know anyone responsible enough to discuss this with, so it never got reported. Raymond Baiardi said he needed $2,800.00. I gave him $11.00. The following weekend I came back and gave him $10.00. He gave me receipts for both these amounts. I never finished giving him $2,800.00 because I could not see how it was worth it to do so. I explained this to my parents and family, who were in disbelief and shock. I went back to the church in 1985 when NY FDN Treasurer Joan Woods, called me on the phone wanting $1,100.00 for a freeloaders debt she said I had. I told her I had never even worked for the church yet on contract. She seemed to think I was confused, and said she would look into the matter further and get back to me. I did stop by the church several other times to talk to staff, and while there on one occasion, I was asked to go and please get a guy named Richie who worked there. I did not know Richie and asked this staff member named Megan, where he was, because she had said to please go and get him. She said "He's in the back of the auditorium". I went to the back of the church auditorium and found Richie's "house". Richie, lived in the crawlspace between a floor and a ceiling in the back of the church auditorium. Just to clarify this: a crawlspace is a space about 16" high that is located between ceilings and floors that are next to one another in a structure. It is usually reserved for electrical wires, insulation, small support beams, rodents and insects. Anna Balash and Raymond Baiardi wrote me and called me several times, as did other staff, asking me what was the matter?, how come I had not come back? what about my cycle? I was later conned by the bookstore officers at two churches, into buying thousands of dollars in LRH books. A complete LRH library of over 72 volumes I wound up throwing in the garbage along with the illegal E Meter. From January 1980 to March 1986 while I had problems getting the church to review my actual qualifications as a Scientologist, I felt that without enough money I would never get any auditing at all. I had limited time and money, and was restricted to activities at the church in N.Y.C. So, I engaged in weird acts to try and pay for auditing and training and then mailed detailed written accounts of these acts to Anna Balash at the church in N.Y.C., once or twice a week for 6 years, even when she no longer worked there. I sent these reports to her because what I was doing to get the money scared me and I felt as though I needed to discuss it with someone. These writeups were usually 5 to10 pages long, on both sides of a sheet of paper and really worried my family, friends, and associates that knew about them. I once observed a church staff member named Lucille Femine, reading one of these writeups I had sent in to Anna Balash in a dark area of the church. She was the wife of Marcel Femine, former partner in Raymond Baiardi's illegal company. An example of what was contained in these writeups is, is allowing myself to be drugged and then raped by homosexual men I found unusual ways to meet. These men told me they were from Broadway or Beverly Hills or Hollywood, that they knew people, had money, had jobs and houses I could stay at, and I was going to be a star. I expected to inherit millions from these guys that was not only going to make me rich, but the church too. When things like this did not work out, I wrote them up and sent them in to the church so as not so suffer any ill effects from having such acts on my conscience. The church in exchange sent me spiritual guidance in the form of Hubbard scriptures and personal advice from staff, to help me to streamline my activities and sometimes called me on the phone just to chat. If I thought someone was opposed to Scientology for example: Then I once punched a stranger, in the face at a bus stop in front of a dozen witnesses at 7:30 A.M. and stood there yelling "Come on! Come on!" suspecting that he was antagonistic to me paying for auditing and training. If it turned out that this did not help me to get auditing and training, I wrote it up to the church, so I could keep my nose clean. In 1985 I moved to an apartment in NYC with a buddy of mine Gordon Needham. I had a nervous breakdown from these written up experiences. This prompted me to try and do something about it. In June of 1986, I secretly packed my bags, and flew to Clearwater, Florida. I got my own place, my own job, and lived there for 3 years in what was intended to be peace and quiet. With the help of my neighbors in Clearwater and my family, I was able to get the time and money needed to rest and become a stronger individual, and I eventually came to my senses and ceased these write ups. I am forever indebted to them, for stopping me, and pointing out this activity I was involved in with the church to me and helping me to save my own life. The church will not comment on the fact that they no longer receive such communications from me even though they were very open about them in the past. So, one afternoon, without telling anyone I went to Flag because it was right up the street from my house. I had never been there before and knew no one there and was expecting to handle my whole "situation" and go home a free man spiritually. Of the first people I see, one is Kitty Kahn the FSC from N.Y.C. because she works at Flag and, two days later I meet Anna Balash as she is sitting on a balcony railing swinging her feet, drinking soda, and pretending to be staring at me. All of this is in the Scientology main hotel called the Fort Harrison (FH). Kitty Kahn "could not" see me, so my FSC was a man named Christian. I stayed in very close communication with my family in New Jersey the whole 3 years I lived in Clearwater. At first I was at Flag every day for a couple of months. I signed up for training and intern auditing. When I was not training, I ran free errands for staff, wrote hundreds of letters out to their customers for them each week and generally got acquainted with the place and its people. A Greek female SO member in charge of the "estates renovation" project, that was remodeling the FH at the time, offered me a job I turned down. It was to work for 6 weeks on temporary contract and live in the church for those 6 weeks, while remodeling the FH with other Scientologists. At the end of the six weeks, I would be given a $2,200.00 credit on my Flag account for whatever services I wanted to do there. I did not trust this woman from the start. She suddenly tells me, that the U.S. Immigration Service is seeking to deport her because she joined the SO while in the U.S. on a tourist visa. I went to the beach almost every day for those three years and played on the Gulf of Mexico where there were few distractions. A big fat goose once let me catch her and play with her after a 45 minute foot chase. I came home after sundown avoiding unnecessary contact with people. Suddenly in town, to my astonishment, I began being told I was not welcome by Scientologists at their businesses which I sometimes went into. I was never given a true explanation why and I did not want to discuss the matter, so I patronized other businesses where I was always welcome. The church never once, phoned, wrote or visited me at my house 3 blocks from Flag the whole 3 years I lived in Clearwater. One afternoon at Flag, Kitty Kahn was sitting at her desk calling me "a queer" out loud. A while later, she was walking down Pierce Street, behind the FH, laughing out of control to herself out loud. I saw her walking around in town, in restaurants, and she would see me and never once say hi. Once she commented that I needed a "security check" to one of her girl friends, but always in an out loud fashion. One of the auditing case supervisors at Flag, a guy, got into the habit of referring to me as "gay" in public around other people, much in the same manner that Kitty Kahn would. I passed Flag every day on my way to and from the beach, and at night, there were loons walking around on the balconies, saying out loud to themselves, "I'm free, I'm free" at one of their other hotels up the street from my house called the Sandcastle. If you had a complaint about a Scientologist, and told it to the authorities, they would seldom help. An example is church people that would deliberately walk into you and physically strike you in a deranged manner, while crossing an intersection with them by coincidence, and then walk away as if they had a right to be angry. I saw a motorist once, get out of his car and run up to a church guest and punch the man savagely in the head and face right in the front door of the FH and the get back in his car and drive off. I was sitting on a bench across the street from the FH one evening, and a Scientologist came out of the FH and exposed his genitals to me and then ran back inside. At the Park Diner one morning, I spotted a neighbor and sat down with her. We were eating, when a man, a stranger, in a Scientology church uniform, walked up to our table, and stood there. He interrupted us to ask "Did one of you just say something BAD about Scientology?" He claimed he overheard us talking from the next booth. I asked why he was interrupting us this way and finally asked him to leave in a firm manner. The owner of the restaurant and his son questioned me about the Scientologist before I left. In Scientology businesses it can be normal for a fight to break out. Other Scientologists will come into other Scientologists businesses and scream at other Scientologists "Why aren't to pay for your next church service yet!" not always in those words but to that effect. Other Scientologists show up and intervene. Scientologists do this, to give the impression of being sincere about their religious beliefs. I sent money to Flag that never reached my account. I believe the money was "filtered out" by the people that it passed through en route. I reported the problems I was having to church management and to LRH when he was alive. I was never answered back, except for LRH who wrote back and said "to go to the church and talk to someone" and the church Justice Chief who said she was "unaware I was having any real problems". I moved back home to New Jersey from Clearwater in 1989 after my house was sold. In June of 1989, I telephoned the American Saint Hill Organization where I had purchased the illegal E Meter in L.A., to use up the money left on my account there. I spoke to Larry MacDonald in the Treasury Office. He said, I had no money left on account. He said the money left on the account was transferred to Flag. I had a copy of my account statement from him, and it said in WRITING on the statement, that my money had been sent to Flag. I told him I had a copy of my Flag account statement in my other hand, with date and amount of all transfers into and out of the account and that this transfer he said took place never took place. He promptly credited my account in the exact correct amount. I made a purchase in the full amount of what was left on the account bringing the account to $00.00, where it has remained to this day. I did the same thing at the remaining churches in L.A. where I had money left on account and those churches promptly assisted me to bring my accounts to $00.00, where they have stayed to this day. I contacted Flag, and both NY churches next to use up the remainder of the money that was left on my accounts at these churches too. The NY Day church Treasurer Donna, invited me to see her after I phoned her. My sister Lorraine went with me. Donna found all my records and allowed me to bring my balance to $00.00 where it has stayed to this day . I called the NY FDN church to inquire about my account. Raymond Baiardi was put on the phone and said "Hi crazy" and hung up the phone. I telephoned the church the next day and asked to speak to Raymond Baiardi again. Raymond Baiardi was again put on the phone to talk to me. He said "Look, Mr. Toomajan, if this is about your church declare or something, why don't you just fuck off!", and hung up the phone. When I telephoned Flag to inquire about my account, Kitty Kahn responded to my call. I asked her about my account and did the church have my current address. She promptly yelled into the phone at me "Oh, she doesn't work here anymore!", and hung up phone. I have not been able to access any account records or leftover funds at NY FDN or Flag yet. In October 1993 my mother and I had gone to a Halloween parade in the center of Linden and sat down in a restaurant after the parade. I noticed NY FDN staff member Jennifer Cox, standing on line at the cash register in the restaurant. She spotted me as she was leaving and came over to my table to talk. She said she was still a Scientologist, and was training at the church in NY with her kids, and that she had not seen me in a while and was wondering what was going on with me and that she had opened an art business on the highway not too far from there, and was selling art goods. After she left, I explained to my mother who she was. I went down to the highway about a week later, to see if she was telling the truth and I found her store. I bought a picture of the New York City skyline from her and left in good faith. The businesses landlord is a city councilman named Charles Crane. I asked Charles Crane if I could speak to him. He was not aware of any previous dealings between myself, this church and his tenants. Charles Crane lives right next door to the Scientologists art business on another piece of property he owns. I explained that the Church of Scientology has been harassing me and that his tenants were from the church that is harassing me specifically. He asked me to please write the matter up for him, which I did. One of Charles Cranes other Scientology tenants, Larry Broncato, also remembered me from the 6th Avenue Mission where he and I worked once, and told me so. Susan Cox, who told me years ago, while she was giving me a lift home from the church, that she smoked marijuana and studied Scientology, was also employed there and also told me that she recognized me. She also told me that Charles Crane had confronted them with the matter I wrote to him about. Charles Crane sent me a summons to go to court in response to what I wrote to him. I told the judge: I told Charles Crane, verbally and then in writing at his request, that his tenants were harassing me. I did this to gain insight into what to do about the situation. I had to go to Charles Cranes property a total of 3 times to complete the task. That is all there was to tell the judge. Charles Crane, his son, his stepson and a lawyer, ganged up on me in court. I was not aware that I had done something requiring the services of an attorney. The Cranes stated, that I had been told by each member of the family present in court, not once, but several times on many occasions, not to trespass on the property. The Cranes claimed that in spite of these repeated consecutive warnings, I deliberately went back to their property anyway, and against their wishes, not once, but several times, made trouble not just for them, but the Scientologists too. I had to a pay a $250.00 fine and got a criminal record for reporting his tenants crimes against me to him, to learn what I can do about it and was forbidden by the judge from ever setting foot on his property again. The staff of the business on Charles Cranes property has changed hands more frequently than the pictures for sale on their walls, and is always Scientologists. They have listed themselves in the phone book as: 1. The Profit Center 2. The Art and Picture Warehouse 3. some Auto Body Shop, And other different business titles concurrently. One time, I left a $30.00 deposit with Larry Broncato there, for a picture that needed a custom sized frame built for it. I told Larry Broncato on the phone I did not want him to make a special framed picture for me any more and would like my deposit back. At first, on the phone, he said OK, that he had not yet started working on my picture anyway. But, then when I got there to get the deposit back, he refused to refund any of my deposit, even with the receipt and claimed it was because of his "tax situation". He offered me a used picture, that looked like it had been picked off a garbage heap and brought there to be sold. He told me that this item, was normally $37.00, but that he would give it to me instead of my deposit as an exchange. My mother went over there and got it. In March 1994 Raymond Baiardi contacted me after I had phoned the church 10 times and left messages for him to call me, to discuss my account. He asked me to come in to the church and see him. I went, on a Sunday, March 13 in the late afternoon. Raymond Baiardi was in an office on the second floor. Even though he had given me invoices for these donations, we talked and he said he did not "remember my donations" because his "recall is not that good". I asked him to get his copies of the invoices on file since he found me hard to believe. He came out from behind his desk and motioned with his hands and two unidentified men entered the room. The first man said "I think it is time for you to leave". I said "I am in the middle of discussing something with Raymond, and as soon as we are through I will be on my way". The man yelled "NOW!", and threw a manila folder he was holding to the floor, and leaped 3 feet through the air across the room onto me, so that both of his hands landed around my neck. At which point, he forced me to the floor, smashing my head into a desk behind me in the process. He placed his knee on my throat making breathing and speaking impossible and pinned my arms, while the second man jumped on my legs nearly busting them. Raymond Baiardi told someone else there to call the police while this assault was in progress, and report that a maniac had forced his way into the church and was being detained by two of the other staff for the police after assaulting someone in the building. The two men casually got off me and said "Good Bye" as if we were friends the whole time. I got up and walked passed them, out the door, down a flight of stairs, and out the front door, where the police were just arriving. I stopped them and asked them if they could help me. The police went inside the church where Raymond Baiardi was nowhere to be seen and I waited by their patrol car. 10 or 12 staff members surrounded the police talking to them all at the same time. The police came out and asked me to go with them to the Emergency Room and make sure I was OK, because I was bleeding in a few spots. I was examined by a nurse, treated and released. The visit cost me $420.00. I was instructed after the hospital exam by the police to file a criminal complaint. I went to the Midtown North police precinct on West 52nd Street in Manhattan, and spoke to 4 detectives after leaving the emergency room. They interviewed me for almost 2 hours. I filed a criminal complaint against the attackers before leaving the precinct. I did not know the two attackers or their names so I gave Raymond Baiardi as the contact person. The church never filed a complaint. It is likely that the NYPD still has the 911 call the church made that day, in it's recorded telephone archives. I was telephoned at work, 4 days later by Detective McKay of the NYPD. He wanted me, to go with him and another detective, to the church to see Raymond Baiardi and place the two attackers and possibly Raymond Baiardi under arrest as an accomplice. I was at work and could not go that afternoon. The detective telephoned me at home, two days later, requesting another opportunity to make an arrest with me. He volunteered his services on a Sunday as well in case this was more convenient for me. I was concerned about needing a lot of time off from work, if the case dragged out over several days in court. I told the detective that if they gave me a problem locally, I would call the Police here in my area and do something about it then. He left the complaint open for 1 year, rather than dismiss it, in case I changed my mind. I had to take my clothes to a tailor after this attack for repairs, because the Scientologists damaged them. I no longer have the invoices Raymond Baiardi stole. I did not make copies of these invoices, never imagining violence coming about as the result of a donation. I received several phone calls afterwards, from different church staff, saying an investigation into my missing funds had been launched and what the prognosis was of finding the money and how would I like to come to a church event instead. In August 2000, I was studying vegetarianism, exercise and nutrition and was curious about a Hubbard book called "Clear Body-Clear Mind. It was $17.10 at Barnes and Nobles in Springfield, NJ. I called and asked the price. My sister Lorraine came home from school that day and told me that a Scientology center had opened about 1 block from the college on Morris Avenue, in Elizabeth, New Jersey. On my way to Barnes and Nobles, I spotted the center and went in. Bruce Dobin, a former NY FDN church staff member whom I recognized, but had never had any real contact with in the past, was the centers director (owner) and introduced himself to me. I told him that I wanted to buy a copy of this book. He said he didn't have one and offered to order one for me for $35.00. Barnes and Nobles was an additional 25 minutes ride from the center, so I said OK. He gave me a receipt for the book and I left. I came home to discover him on the phone interrogating my mother and asking her, What's her phone number? How old is she? What's her real address? Does Larry live there? Who else lives there? How long have we lived here? What is Larry's real name? and lots of questions. My mother told me after she had finished talking to him that he called her and said that I had purchased a book from him and that he needed more information on me. Bruce called me 2 days later to say my book had not come in yet, and he would ship it to me when it came in. He asked me, would I like to go to an open house party the following Monday night, that he and his wife Sharon were having at the center. I said yes and went. There was a guest speaker there who had gotten hundreds of hours of auditing, after that Bruce spoke. Refreshments followed, and then a registration period for guests to buy auditing, training, books and videos. No one bought anything. I was standing at the table where the staff were seated trying to sign the guests up. As I was standing there, I saw 2 copies of the book I had ordered, on a bookshelf behind the staff. I was told this book had not come in yet. I was now certain I was being lied to by the Bruce Dobin and his staff. All the staff of this center are former NY FDN staff members, or were at the time. I recognized them, knew their names, and specific history about them. Before I left, Bruce Dobin told me that he is going to Flag on Friday, for two weeks. He said he will talk to me when he comes back about if my book came in. So, I called him about two weeks after that (3 weeks after I had ordered the book), and he said the book had not come in yet. 1 week later Bruce called me at about 10:30 P.M., while I was sitting on my front porch with my sister Lorraine. I had a cordless phone with me and we talked in front of her. He called to tell me that my book had still not come in, and that it would be shipped to me as soon as it arrived. He then said he had received data on me from the church. And, I was not to come to the center any more because I was not welcome there any more. He asked me not to phone the center ever again, or make any attempt to "engage in any kind of communication" with any of the center staff including him. He mentioned calling the police if I attempted to contact him or the center staff. He refused to be specific in any way about what information he had received about me from his church and hung up the phone. I telephoned the center about one week later to ask about my book. I left several messages on the answering machine, because no one ever answered the phone when I called or returned my messages. I finally called Bridge Publications in L.A. which is the organization that prints all of the churches books and materials. I complained to a woman at Bridge, that it was taking over 5 weeks to get a copy of a Hubbard book out of Bruce's center that was available at Barnes and Nobles for half the price. The person at Bridge, apologized to me, and sent me a free copy of the book, UPS 3 Day Select, which arrived 3 days later from L.A. I read through the book for what I needed to know and put the book away. Suddenly, about 4 days after the complimentary copy of the book arrives from Bridge, a package arrives from Bruce's center with a letter taped to it. My book (which I had ordered from him 6-7 weeks earlier) was in the package. In the letter he stated that he knew all about my call to Bridge Publications and was not too happy about it, and said so. His letter stated that I "was no longer welcome at his center", that I was "totally bad news", that I was not to "call there again or show up there for any reason". He further wrote, that when my "free" book arrives from Bridge Publications, that I am to "return it" to him, and the shipping cost is to be paid by me, because I am not entitled to a free copy of an L. Ron Hubbard book under any circumstance. I donated both copies of this book to the Linden Public Library, and the library threw them in the garbage. They no longer accept book donations from the public and I was not told this until after I had dropped the books in the book drop off by the Librarian after I tried to donate some other books another time in the same manner. In October 2002, I stumbled upon some information on the internet by sheer luck. I found the transcripts of Scientology's much guarded confidential upper auditing levels called OT Sections 1 to 8, and read them for the first time. As a result of reading these OT levels, every question I have ever had in the past or might ever ask in the future about Scientology, was answered fully. It became real to me for the first time ever, how confused I was about Scientology, and not even aware of it. Instead of being given facts, I was swindled and lied to and cheated, by the church staff, looking for a quick profit to wreck someone elses life with forever and the lives and happiness of others around that person. Helena Kobrin, an attorney for the church, is fighting on the internet, and in court, to prevent people who are not authorized by the church yet, from owning or reading these confidential upper level auditing materials. I was given examples of what has happened to people in the past that have distributed this information without permission from the church and been caught. I was not sure if these OT levels were authentic, having never seen them before or been suspicious of what they might be. Her law firm was sent a copy of what I had read and was asking about so as not to confuse anything in any way. Apparently, based on Helena Kobrin's reponse, they are the real thing, probably stolen from the church and released illegally to the public, by the same kind of staff members that claimed to be helping me the whole time I was looking to the group for answers. When I first got involved in Scientology, friends from school, or friends of friends from school, said my communication skills had improved since doing the Communications Course. 3 of my friends, Richard Kelly, Annette Soucy, and Jamie Venditto, read and bought books by Hubbard, and went to the church in NY for more information with me. Richard Kelly and Annette Soucy, bought and started Communications Courses, and studied weekends. They never completed the courses and the church has not asked them to come back and finish, according to Richard Kelly and Annette Soucy themselves. In addition, I was never paid the 10% commission on their course donations that the church says anyone who brings anyone else in is supposed to get. Richard Kelly and I are of course friends and have both lived in Linden for 30 years. He lives 1 block from Charles Cranes property. In addition, one of two Tae Kwondo students, that rents the other apartment in our house, Kenneth Bolomey, is also a Tae Kwondo instructor and personal friend of mine. Kenneth has a Martial Arts school of about 150 students and has been an instructional black belt for over 20 years. He also owns a second business, an auto body, 3 doors down from Charles Cranes property and obviously knows Charles Crane. Richard Kelly is also acquainted with Kenneth. George Chelekis from the defunct 6th Avenue center in N.Y.C., is currently wanted in Florida by 3 or 4 government agencies there for contempt of court and fraud, according to the St. Petersburg Times Newspaper of St. Petersburg, Florida. He is also friends with Larry Broncato from the art business on Charles Cranes property out on the highway. I now understand Scientology better than most of the people in the world who are and are not members of this church. A few years ago a Scientologist tried to sue N.Y.C. television talk show host Sally Jesse Raphael for $72,000,000.00 (seventy two million dollars), after Sally Jesse Raphael revealed how much the Scientologist earned each year for a living on TV. The plaintiff was invited as a guest on Sally Jesse Raphael's talk show. Meanwhile, as Raymond Baiardi is ripping me off, a boy named Noah Lottick who was a Scientologist at the church in N.Y.C., jumped off the roof of the Milford Plaza Hotel two blocks away from the church, and killed himself. Noah left behind a very sad mother and father. It is for them that I share this story with you. Lawrence Toomajan February 2003 .