--------------------------------------------------------------------------- TLeM1.2.2 INTERVIEWS: Press Conference with Andy Landis at Creation 1994 ?: I remember reading something in your bio about Matthew 25. How personal is that, if I may ask? A: Very personal for me. I have only been a believer for about six and a half years. I knew Jesus before that, but I didn't know that he died for me, personally. So, when I was first coming into the Christian industry, I felt like I didn't really know anybody. Everyone seems to be saying "Hi" to each other and I'm like, "Hi, I'm new in the Body. Here I am." I feel like all of us at times feel like that, like someone else seems to be the center of attention or someone else has it all together and I feel like we need to reach out to that broken part of us. I think the Lord is very clear about us needing to help those people who are imprisoned, who are sick, who are alone. I think He's very clear about that. ?: What kind of musical influences did you have? A: I didn't know anything about Christian music when I was growing up. It's just within the past few years when I really found out about it. Musically, I was influenced by Elton John, The Eagles, Linda Ronstadt, John Mellencamp, Tom Petty--acoustic rock. I'm from New Jersey. My Mom is from this area of Pennsylvania and she was really into local music, which was very Appalachian. I really like mandolins and fiddles, but I like them to be kind of edgy--pushed like John Mellencamp does his stuff. I like acoustic instruments--James Taylor, his lyrics were very effective on me. Even Loretta Lynn and Dolly Parton a lot. ?: What's the greatest challenge and the most rewarding experiences you've had? A: The greatest challenge for me, being in this sort of business, is my own heart--keeping it from being completely smashed and watching my dreams go up in smoke and remaining faithful. That was true in the secular world as well as in this one--keeping my own thoughts and my own heart growing and keeping it tender and soft to other people and not allowing myself to get hard even when things hurt me badly. I think the most rewarding experiences are interaction with people. I love people. I think we are so cool. I think we are the most incredibly fascinating creation that He has made. I love nature and I love animals, but people are fascinating. This just gives me such a great opportunity to meet people and minister to them and hug them and love them. That's my favorite part. ?: In the secular industry, there's a big emphasis on image. How much of that is important in the Christian industry? A: I think it's the same. I think it's very important, not because God thinks it's important but because we, in this country, have seen so much-- we've seen people go to the moon, our eyes are so fed--that our eyes are almost trained to be attracted to something that we recognize or that captures our attention in some way, whether it's beauty or a picture on a T- shirt. I think it's real important in the Christian industry. I would like to see us as an industry keep our focus on that is being real as much as possible--not being pretentious. To be real about when we're trying to capture people's eyes. The secular world can make up all these images and I would like us to stay very real. That would be my desire, but I don't have control over that, I only have control over mine. ?: Why the country influence to your music? A: I only hear a few of my songs that sound like country to me. To me, it sounds like heartland music, where it's rocking country. There's only two or three songs that I really think are country and I took that same sound and stretched it both ways. A couple songs on my album are really rocking and are really fun. I like those instruments. I like musicians and I like people playing music, rather than building tracks. Some people are really geniuses at doing that and that works for them, but I like to have musicians around and play enough of them. Plus, the reason I like those kinds of instruments is that influence from my Mother. She would sing the country/hillbilly songs--Appalachian songs. It was a mixture of that and John Mellencamp. ?: You've done some other work and some commercials. What have you been doing lately? A: I haven't done commercials really recently. But I still write for other people. Sweethearts of the Rodeo have stuff on their album and Ricky Van Shelton has one of my songs on hold. I would like to continue to do what is good and what is offered me--if it is hard work and I get to be true to who I am and I get to be able to be myself, which is someone who believes in God and loves Him very much. I haven't really done anything that I wouldn't want you guys to know about, professionally. Some of my songs are in some stupid movies, but nothing that would be displeasing to the Lord--I don't think. I guess I won't really know until I see Him in person. ?: Your album is very personal... I appreciate that. A: God keeps me in this place of being broken, constantly, where I really have to turn to Him because I was not brought up in the church really. He's really teaching it to me that we have to stay broken and we have to be sensitive to other people's hurts. The more I talk about my own, the more I help other people and the more I share my own burdens, the more other people are willing to talk about theirs. I feel very much like the Lord is teaching me patience. He's teaching me to love more clearly and to more precisely see other people's needs--and see my own. I still don't know how to take care of myself really well. I get tired and I don't realize I'm tired--those kinds of things. What's so exciting to me is that the deepest shames in me--like from child abuse and from being raped--not abuse from parents, those kinds of shames are out in the light now. I can't tell you how much I appreciate what the Lord has done to me there. I can hardly take my eyes off Him in those areas where He is healing me. Now, the stuff that I have is more "normal" stuff--insecurity, normal stuff--that the deep shame, that I was a bad person, is being healed. It's because I believe in Him. It's a miracle-- it really is! ?: Do you think we're becoming too much like a Christian sub-culture? A: I think that we already have the responsibility. I think it's clear from the first page--Genesis. We are to go out. I think this kind of thing is wonderful [Creation festival]. I think we all need to get together and lick our wounds and help each other and hang on, to be strengthened. That concerns me--that we have caught ourselves up in the world is exactly what the Bible has asked us NOT to do. Jesus said to go out in the world and to love one another. That's a big command, but it is true. That doesn't mean that we should love each other more than we should love someone down the street--we need to love everybody. It's hard, but we are called to do that. I don't want to preach, but we are the Body. I am a piece of His body--I am His finger or his toe or his hangnail or something. I must touch other people. I must do it and you must do it, not because you're wonderful or you're perfect or anything, but because God has asked us to. If He loves us and we love Him back, we have to do what He asks us to do. I'm very concerned and I think it's up to all of us who are concerned about that to start--if it's the neighbor or someone who works at McDonalds--open the door and ask them how they're doing. Give them a smile and rub them on the back or help them when their tires are flat--whatever it is--serve and they will know we are Christians by our love. ?: Would you attribute some of your desire to be real to listening to James Taylor? I know James Taylor is awfully real. A: No, I wouldn't attribute it to that. I would attribute it to being stripped down by the Lord. By being completely on my face with nowhere to turn. He has changed my life so profoundly I am not the same. So, for me it's really God. I can't not be real because there's nothing else I can be. I look down to nothing. I wasn't doing drugs and I wasn't drinking, but the "Andy Landis" power was gone. So, I think when you get really stripped down and He lifts you up and says, "Here's a new life," it's hard to forget it. I really have to attribute it to God and to growing up with very little. If there's another thing, it would probably be that my Dad worked two or three jobs and my Mom worked and we had very little and that's a good thing. I'm really grateful for that. When people kind of get caught up in their cars and stuff, I think, "Oh well, it's just a car." I feel like I totally have to give that to the Lord. Just to finish what you're saying, people like James Taylor. People in the secular world who try to be very real give me courage to do the same thing. I thank them for being real in where they are. I can think, "James Taylor does it and John Mellencamp does it, so I can do it too." It give me more courage. I'm sort of a chicken--that's the truth. ?: How long have you been a Christian artist? A: Six and a half years. I was a Christian, but I didn't know Jesus loved me, personally. I knew He loved us all and you see those thousands of people and you think, "How does He have time for me?" I was always like, "Jesus I know you're busy, that's okay, I have it under control. Help people that really need help. Don't worry about me." Basically, He probably said, "Okay, we'll see." He stayed right by my side the whole time. ?: Who had the most impact on your life? A: Her name was Delia Thornton. I had been studying a lot of different philosophies and religions, including my own, and I was really caught up in thinking that I had to be a good person and do everything right and not make mistakes and EARN my way in that works kind of thing. I burned out. I got really sick. I was probably on my way to go home before I even knew where I was going. I was in a fast food restaurant called El Pollo Loco, which stands for crazy chicken, in downtown LA, and I was with this girl and she had been a believer for about five years and was Catholic before that. She changed and I really noticed it, but I thought, "She's a Jesus freak..." We were sitting in this restaurant and I said, "Delia, I feel like I built a bridge and there's a piece missing and I don't know what it is." She looked at me and she kind of smiled and said, "Andy, do you know Jesus died for you." She pointed at me and a light literally came on in my head. I had heard those words at least a hundred and fifty times in my life, but I never understood it was me--He loved me, just the was I was. I actually had an encounter with Him where I saw Him and I looked at Him and [I got it] and I started crying and laughing. Then I started saying, "I'm so sorry Lord I didn't understand. I wasn't trying not to know You, I just didn't understand." I heard Him say inside me, "It's okay, it doesn't matter. It only matters that you're here now." In that moment, I threw my arms around Him and kind of hopped in His lap and I was saved in that moment. And, you know what I was saved from most? Me. I was the most critical person of me. I wouldn't be critical of y'all, but I thought I was the pits. He began to slowly change my mind. Instead of listening to my own head, I started listening to Him. He said, "All things are possible through Christ who strengthens us," and "All things work for good." I would say, "All things Lord?" And He would say, "All things." It would be right there in black-and- white. Even when I was raped? That's gonna work for good? It says ALL THINGS, so I would just go, "Okay, all things." Now I'm singing about it and young girls are writing to me thanking me. I get letters saying, "Thank you for talking about this. Thanks for singing about it." I can look at it and say, "It's real, all things work for good." That doesn't mean that I believe it in the moment, when you get a fender-bender, I certainly don't think it's going to be good. But it's true. I think He likes it when we question Him-- when we talk to Him--He's real and alive. He wore clothes, He ate, He stubbed His toe, He got tired, He got sick, He wept, He got angry; He's just like you and me only He did it perfectly. ?: Is there someone you rely on for spiritual advice? A: Yeah, I have a few people around me. One is Allen Brown, who's my manager. We hold each other accountable for stuff. He's good for me. I have an assistant who's a strong believer. I have a few girl friends and a woman who's a Christian counselor who kind of acts like a mother hen. Her last name is Rambo. I say, "Every girl needs a little 'Rambo' in her life." She's a really strong believer and she's not in the music industry and she has taken me under her wing. I feel like I've gathered and been praying for sisters and brothers around me, especially older people. I have a tendency to be the older sister, so I've been praying the Lord would provide those and He really has. I feel very covered up. I do feel, and I want to be really held accountable. I do not want to mislead anyone. I take it very seriously. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------