Mon, 17 Oct 1994 15:21:01 -0700 for <socgrad@ucsd.edu>
Date: Mon, 17 Oct 1994 17:20:50 -0500 (CDT)
From: Melanie Lowery <mlowery@comp.uark.edu>
Subject: Re: non-participation
To: Michael Gibbons <mgibbons@cwis.unomaha.edu>

Michael, 

I absolutely agree with you.  As a woman who has never been afraid to 
speak my mind before, and who also is not known as a "radical feminist," 
I have been surprised at the effect of my own university on me.  I have 
been somewhat beaten down by the powers that be here, even though I HAVE 
to state that it is not the majority of the faculty that has 
contributed to this. I find myself sometimes apologizing if I think I 
have spoken too much or too aggressively. I don't say something at times 
if I feel that it could possibly be taken the wrong way. This is not what 
I expected in the academic world at all, but the message has been - stay 
quiet and cute and you will get far. I am not always comfortable with the 
fact that I have now somewhat internalized this. For how long? I don't 
know. 

Melanie